episode_0115

If she kept insisting that nothing happened, I was going to pretend I didn’t know.

Because I’m not in a position to know all the other person’s circumstances or situations.

But the moment the goddess shed tears in front of me without my knowledge, all my previous thoughts flew away.

“Did you get caught by the goddess of fate?”

Although she says it’s to save people, I know that it would be a grave sin for her, a goddess, to mix her body with a human like me.

To my question full of concern, she quickly wiped away her tears and answered.

“… That’s not true.”

Fortunately, it didn’t seem like the worst was happening, but I still couldn’t help but feel uneasy.

“Then why are you crying? Please tell me.”

“… .”

A goddess who hesitates and cannot easily open her mouth.

As I stared at him intently, he eventually moved his lips with difficulty.

“Actually, after I had sex with Do-hyun without telling Jia yesterday, my heart was really heavy. Because I made Do-hyun uncomfortable again.”

“… .”

“I feel like I’m hopeless because I’m always the one receiving help, but I keep causing trouble… ”

“No, it’s not beyond help. It’s not like that.”

I tried to comfort him by saying something to console him since he looked so gloomy, but it didn’t seem to have much effect.

“No. I am beyond help. It is my fault for not being able to control myself, but rather than reflecting on it, I am afraid of incurring Do-Hyeon’s hatred.”

“… .”

“I have to accept the results of my actions, but I can’t, so I feel like a loser, and I’m so sad that I showed that loser side of me to Dohyun. Just imagining Dohyun hating me makes my heart rip… .”

Tears welled up again and flowed down her pale cheeks.

Like tears that I couldn’t stop by my own will, she continued to pour out her inner feelings.

“I tried to endure it somehow yesterday. But when I saw Dohyun and Ji-ah being happy, my heart ached for some reason. I felt like I was left alone in this world, and I became lonely and impatient, and I couldn’t bear it.”

“Goddess… .”

“This is really selfish. I feel ashamed that I am in the position of a goddess. I also wonder why I am like this… sob, sob… .”

Her small shoulders tremble as she lowers her head.

The sight looked just like a small, dumb animal calling for help with its body.

All I could do was to ease her burden a little.

“Don’t cry, it’s okay. I don’t hate that goddess at all.”

“But… how many times must you have been in trouble because of me… .”

“I didn’t do it on purpose. I know the goddess is a good person.”

“Still… sob.”

Tears that don’t stop once they start flowing.

I thought it wouldn’t work, so I wiped it off with both my thumbs.

“I will continue to help you as I have done so far. So don’t worry.”

“Dohyun… .”

Now he finally looks up at me.

Wrinkled eyebrows and a red nose.

Somehow the crying stopped, but the goddess’s sadness still remained.

Is it really not enough to just reassure someone with words?

I would like to lighten the mood, but I don’t know how.

After thinking about it, I said to her, who was still sobbing.

“Goddess, do you have time?”

“Huh? What time is it…?”

“I have to go out for a bit to get some fresh air. Do you want to go out for a change of pace?”

I need some hangers, so I was going to order them through the app, but I thought I’d go out for a bit and stop by Dycer to get them cheap.

Of course, I knew that the more I got involved with her, the worse it would be for the goddess.

But if you just wander around, wouldn’t the crime be less serious than having sex?

It doesn’t mean anything if you say you can’t compete with someone anyway.

“Wind… . Will getting some wind make you feel better?”

“Okay. How about it? Would you like to go?”

A goddess hesitating with wide-open eyes.

Finally, she nodded with a slight blush on her cheeks, as if she had made up her mind.

—

I stopped by my studio with the goddess and then went out to a nearby shopping district.

As evening approached, people were slowly gathering.

“Do, Dohyun!”

As I was about to take a quick look around, I heard an urgent voice.

When I looked around, the goddess’ face had become serious.

“What should I do? The wind isn’t blowing… .”

I guess I took the suggestion to go for a walk at face value.

“What did I say? I thought something big had happened.”

“But Dohyun said that we should go and get some fresh air and change our mood… Ah. Did he mean that I should do it myself?”

I guess you can even make the wind blow.

“That’s not it. I meant to say let’s go out and change our mood.”

“Oh, I see. Sorry. I don’t live with humans, so I’m not familiar with idiomatic expressions… .”

“You don’t have to apologize. By the way, you’re probably not familiar with places like this, right?”

“Yes… . It’s not my first time mixing with humans, but it’s a strange feeling. Usually, I only see them through mirrors. ”

As we stood there talking, I felt people around us casting glances at us every now and then.

The reason, of course, was the goddess’s appearance.

Even though she wore a one-piece dress that an ordinary woman would wear, she couldn’t hide her exotic white hair and her young, yet pretty face.

However, the goddess, who did not know that fact, was anxious that her identity might be revealed.

“Let’s go somewhere for now. If you have any questions, please let me know.”

“Yes, I understand.”

“Huh? Oppa!”

This time a lively voice was heard.

The direction is behind us.

Before I could even look back, Ha-eun suddenly hugged me from behind.

“Ha-eun?”

“I didn’t know we’d meet like this. It’s amazing. Who’s the person next to you? She’s so pretty! Is she a celebrity?”

“Ah, this guy… .”

Ha-eun’s eyes, turned towards the goddess, sparkle brightly.

Should I reveal the identity of the goddess here?

To be honest, I don’t want to lie here because I feel bad about hiding the fact that I slept with a goddess.

At a time when I was worried that I couldn’t open my mouth freely without asking the goddess’s opinion, she bowed deeply and greeted me.

“Hello, Ha-eun. It’s been a while.”

“Huh? … Huh? Are you a goddess?!”

“That’s right. I happened to go out with Dohyun… Whoa!”

Ha-eun suddenly hugged her opponent, and a new scream from the goddess that was not usually heard erupted.

“I never thought a goddess could be this pretty! What should I do, she’s so cute because she’s short and petite! … Oh my. Her chest isn’t cute! Wow, she’s so soft.”

“Ah, Ha-eun, please stop touching me… Sob.”

He barely managed to get Ha-eun off him, who was caressing various parts of the goddess’s body, and asked.

“What are you doing here? Didn’t you say you had an appointment with Minji after class?”

“We were supposed to have dinner together here, but something urgent came up. I didn’t contact you because I thought you might be writing, but I’m glad we met! What about you and the goddess?”

“Ah, I came out to change the mood because the goddess wasn’t feeling well.”

“Really? Why don’t you like it? Did you fight with your friend?”

“Huh? No, that’s not true… .”

While the goddess was about to speak, Ha-eun hugged her again.

“You’re really cute! It fits perfectly in my arms! Goddess, do you want to be my little sister? I wish I had a little sister like my older sisters!”

“Ha, Ha-eun’s younger sibling… .”

Ha-eun is noticeably excited, as if she really likes the goddess’s appearance.

The goddess seemed to not dislike the other person’s gentle attitude, as a peach color appeared on her cheeks.

I was worried because I knew that a petite body was a goddess’s complex, but it seemed like there was no need for me to be.

“It’s fate that we met like this, but I’ll make you feel all better, Goddess!”

“Excuse me…?”

“Yes! Just trust me!”

It may be sudden, but I think it would definitely be more fun if the three of us traveled together.

I followed Ha-eun, who was confident in herself, and the place we arrived at was a pasta restaurant that we often went to together.

“Here it is! If you eat pasta here, you will feel sooo good!”

“Human food… It’s not that I’ve never had it before, but since it’s been a while, I’m nervous and excited at the same time.”

To be honest, I kind of expected it.

But the goddess didn’t react negatively, so she quietly went inside and sat down.

“But what do goddesses usually eat? Is it completely different from humans?”

As we were chatting while waiting for the food, I asked a question and the goddess answered.

“Unlike humans, we don’t feel hunger or the need to sleep. We can exist without it. Of course, we can eat something or sleep, but we don’t feel the need to.”

“Then the goddess doesn’t do dirty things?!”

Ha-eun’s surprise question filled with pure curiosity.

“That, that’s… .”

The embarrassed goddess looks at me, her words trailing off.

Even though I pleaded with her eyes not to do that because it might seem suspicious, her eyes were still focused on me.

Just when I was about to say something, the waiter brought me the dish I ordered like a relief pitcher.

“Eww, this looks delicious! I’m the one paying, so eat as much as you want, Goddess!”

“I feel sorry for always receiving help and receiving such treatment, but in this case, it would be more rude to decline. I will be grateful.”

She barely lifted the pasta, as if she wasn’t used to using a fork, and carefully put it in her mouth.

“How is it?”

“Isn’t it delicious?! Doesn’t it make you feel so good?!”

Ha-eun and I asked with half anticipation and half worry.

Fortunately, the goddess’s head, which had been tasting and mumbling, moved up and down.

“It’s really delicious. I can’t explain it, but it tastes like something that makes you feel good, just like Ha-eun said.”

“Right! Am I right? Hehe. Try mine too!”

Thanks to Ha-eun, the first meal with the goddess was lively.

After that, she dragged us here and there, saying she wanted to give us various experiences, so we were constantly walking around, playing doll grabber games and looking at matching clothes and accessories.

Then it got completely dark outside, and I finally came into a nearby cafe.

While chatting over coffee, I felt a signal from my stomach.

He said he was going to take care of something for a bit and headed to the bathroom.

I wasn’t too worried about leaving just the two of us at the table.

If Ha-eun is there, the conversation will never be cut off, so I won’t be bored.

When I returned to my seat after emptying my stomach, Ha-eun was very excited and chatting away, just as I had expected.

“So the goddess is… Ah. Oppa, you’re here?”

“Yeah. What are you talking about so earnestly?”

“It’s a secret!”

I turned my gaze from the determined Ha-eun to the goddess, but she quickly avoided my gaze.

It seems like we became close enough to create a secret between the two of us while I was away for a bit.

It wasn’t bad news, so I didn’t bother to ask and just blended into the conversation that was starting again.

—

“Oppa, I’ll contact you when I get in! See you again next time, Goddess!”

Ha-eun, who had been looking back several times as she walked away from us, finally disappeared from sight.

Once again, the goddess and I were left alone, but her expression was much lighter than before.

“Are you feeling a little better?”

“Yes. I think the negative emotions I had have been carrying have been relieved because I had many new experiences. It’s all thanks to you two. Thank you so much.”

I feel as at ease as she does, so I can sleep soundly tonight.

“Oh, Dohyun. This is the conversation I had with Ha-eun earlier.”

“Oh, that? You don’t have to tell me.”

“Actually, I told Ha-eun about my worries.”

“Are you worried?”

“Yes… . I won’t reveal who Do-Hyeon is, but when I think of someone, my heart keeps fluttering, and when I see that person with someone else, my heart aches.”

“Ah… .”

I didn’t know we would have such a deep conversation.

“What did Ha-eun say?”

“Ha-eun said that I am in love now.”

As I was pondering what to say, the goddess placed her clasped hands on my chest.

“I didn’t say anything, but I’ve been vaguely aware of it lately. But I was confused by the fact that I, a goddess, was feeling such emotions, and that too to Dohyun, a human. But… .”

“… .”

“After Ha-eun clearly told me what my feelings were and I accepted them myself, strangely enough, my heart felt lighter.”

“It got lighter?”

“Yes. Since I love Dohyun, I thought it was natural to feel happy and sad when I saw him.”

It’s such a joy to have someone love you.

But I couldn’t just be happy right now, and rather, I was in a difficult situation.

Because I already have three lovers.

I too have felt fond of her, but that doesn’t give me a reason to accept her.

In the first place, she is a special being, a goddess different from me.

“Goddess, I’m sorry. I… .”

“I know what you’re going to say. Do-hyun already has people he loves. I don’t want to interfere with the relationship between you and them. But… .”

I waited quietly for the goddess to continue speaking.

“There’s one thing I’d like to ask you.”

“Please?”

“I won’t ask you to accept my heart. Just be as affectionate as you have been until now. I won’t be greedy for more, so please just be like you are now… .”

The goddess looks at me with an anxious face, wondering if even her smallest wish will be rejected.

It wasn’t difficult to treat her like this.

Rather, it was more difficult for me to cruelly reject someone even though I knew their feelings.

… Yes, as long as the current relationship is maintained.

If it’s to the extent of mixing your body to save people, then it’s okay.

“Yes, I will do that.”

“Thank you so much. I had a lot to talk to Dohyun today, but the answer you just gave me is the most reassuring.”

The goddess’s expression was filled with relief, as if what she had just said was true.

Thanks to you, I was able to smile comfortably.

“Dohyun, thank you so much for today. I hope to see you again in peace when the time comes.”

“Yes. Go in and rest. See you next time.”

Pure white light emanating from her body.

Before anyone around could notice, the goddess bowed her head toward me and disappeared from the scene.

… I should go too.

I forgot to buy hangers at the store, but it’s not a big deal since you can just order them through the app.

In the dark of the night, my footsteps lead me to my studio apartment, and that’s how today’s meeting ended.

—

The world of the gods.

There too, a goddess sits on a throne in the highest position.

She, who governs not only all the worlds that exist, but even the fate of the gods, frowned with a heavy heart.

The reason is none other than Elia, the goddess of peace and stability.

‘Elia… .’

The innocent and young goddess was very curious, unlike other goddesses.

Although humans are just one of the components of the world, like waves crashing against the ground or stones on the road, Elia always tried to understand humans.

Even the goddess of fate knew.

The fact that I had no ill will toward Elia, that I was just too kind to fall for her.

That’s why I can’t regard human screams as the same as the sound of the ocean waves.

That was also why I couldn’t say anything to Elia, who didn’t maintain neutrality as a goddess.

“Haa… When will you listen to me?”

The moment I muttered to myself in frustration, another goddess came to me.

“Mother of all our destinies. I have something to say to you.”

“Yes, kid. Tell me.”

“In a small place on the outskirts, an imbalance of causality was seen.”

Causality is the law that every effect must have a cause, and every cause must lead to a result.

It is an iron law that applies to all worlds watched over by goddesses and must be followed for the world to be maintained.

Causality imbalance means that an effect appears without a cause.

It was something that should never have existed in a world where all the gears meshed together like cogs.

“Where is that place?”

“It’s Earth.”

“… That’s where Elia is.”

The Earth is one of the smallest of the countless worlds.

However, the imbalance of causality is like a cancer cell in humans.

It had to be corrected before it grew larger and devoured the entire world.

“I should go and see for myself.”

“You don’t have to do that. Just give me permission and I will… .”

“It’s okay. I’ve been keeping an eye on so many places that I haven’t been able to check out the outskirts, so I guess I should take this opportunity to look around other places.”

‘I’m worried about Elia… She’s always stuck on Earth and won’t come out. I guess I’ll have to go and see her myself.’

Trying hard not to show her impatience, the goddess of destiny rose from her throne.