episode_0113

This is my memory, but it was a time when it was not my memory.

Llewen had said something like that at a time when she was blinded by ugly jealousy.

-I hope that Kariel and I can have a sincere conversation sometime. Looking at the moon rising in the night sky in the mountains where no one can walk.

How was I at that time?

Yes, even the moment I heard those words, I was jealous of her.

Even when I think about it, I always felt like trash.

She always took care of me and embraced me.

The time has finally come to answer this question.

‘I roughly found a suitable location.’

Although it is impossible to specify where the mountain is.

If it was the mountain she was talking about, there was only one place to go.

‘Near the church.’

There was a mountain near the church.

The name of the mountain is Shinseongsan Mountain.

It was influenced by divine power and had a slightly different shape from other mountains.

Usually, animals and plants have a food chain relationship in which they eat each other.

The animals there rely on divine power as food, so there is no food chain relationship.

Also, since it is a place that the religious order especially protects and manages.

There were many places to rest and open views.

If it was a problem that wasn’t a problem, then no one could enter it, even if they were members of the church, so I thought it made sense.

When I thought about it, I thought it might be for times like this.

‘But I guess good things are good things.’

I turn my gaze away from the moon in the sky and climb the mountain.

Every time I took a step, I felt eyes around me.

Animals that all possess divine power.

Usually, such animals are called divine beasts and treated as mysterious animals.

And is it because all the animals on this mountain grow by eating divine power?

It had divine power.

Is that why?

Because he was quite intelligent, he didn’t seem to be too wary of me, an outsider.

Rather, some animals approach me and show friendliness.

Children like small birds or squirrels were on my head and shoulders.

“Is it the animal kingdom?”

I burst out laughing when I saw them sleeping in their seats as if they had paid for their seats.

Good things must be good things.

Not being wary of animals is almost a good thing.

As I climbed the mountain carrying the animals like that.

Before I knew it, I was able to find a spot with a good view.

And the back of a woman there.

My expectations seemed to be correct.

Although she must have sensed a presence, she did not turn her head, just looking at the sky.

I sat quietly next to her.

Like her, I kept my eyes on the sky.

It was a sight I often saw.

A sky filled with starlight.

At first, I was often surprised to see it, but now I’ve seen it so many times that I’m used to it.

However, the fact that the stars are beautiful still does not change.

They say that we are deceived by familiarity and lose the preciousness contained in it.

But I couldn’t understand it.

No matter how much you get used to it, starlight still emits brilliant light, both then and now.

How could I lose it?

It was a time when I was thinking that it had nothing to do with the current situation, wondering if it was just an excuse for the weak.

“Cariel. Kariel probably has some questions for me.”

Lewen said.

I responded calmly to a voice that at first glance seemed impatient and nervous.

“Yes.”

“But… I’m scared.”

Unlike her usual self, she was quite anxious.

I quietly listened to her story.

“You know… Me. I made a huge mistake with Kariel. however… however… ”

A wet voice was heard.

It seemed like he was trying hard to suppress it, but he was filled with anger that he couldn’t hide.

“If you find out that… I’m afraid that Kariel will hate me… I’ve been promising this for a long time… I thought it would be okay. Even though it hurts… Because it can’t be helped… But… ”

Llewen’s eyes became wet.

“I’m so scared… ”

After saying that, he lowered his head.

I spoke in a calm voice as she sobbed, as if holding back tears.

“I don’t know what happened. I don’t know what kind of mistake Lwen made to think like that… I can assure you of one thing.”

It is a feeling that will never change in my future life.

my heart

“No matter what mistakes you make, my feelings for you will never change.”

These were not just words.

It can be said to be my belief, and it can also be called an oath.

I shouted to the sky.

“I swear to the law of heaven.”

Her mouth opens when she realizes what he is going to do.

“Cariel That’s… !”

“I bet my soul that my feelings for her will never change. If I break this oath, I will entrust my soul to Llewen.”

vow.

As I reached transcendence, I realized it automatically.

It was to tie these simple words to the laws of the world.

You must not carelessly violate it, and if you do, you will be severely punished.

Just like I said I would support Llewen’s soul.

There was a huge price to pay.

Lewen also had that look on her face because she knew him.

From my point of view, it doesn’t really matter.

‘It won’t change anyway.’

All I had to do was keep my oath and that was enough.

There’s no way I wouldn’t protect it, so what does it matter?

I just hoped that she would believe me with this oath.

I will never end up hating her.

However, Lewen reacted a little differently than I thought.

“Do you even know what that oath is!?”

she asked, genuinely angry.

Her eyes were still wet, but she was truly angry.

I answered with a small nod.

“I know very well.”

In response to my answer, Llewen pursed her lips and pounded her chest hard.

“You have to protect it for the rest of your life! Kariel is a transcendent being who cannot die, so she lives for eternity! You must keep that oath! Even with an oath made to the law, if you change your mind even at the slightest level, you have to pay the price, but how can you do that? !”

She said that and then closed her mouth.

Unable to control her surging emotions, she began to cry.

Her fists stopped pounding my chest, and she tightened her grip on my chest collar.

“Cariel is… I’m dying… Supporting the soul… Do you know what I mean?”

“I know that too.”

To entrust my soul to her.

It was no different from supporting everything I had.

I wonder how that could be a problem…

‘Because I’m dead.’

The soul is my essence.

It could be said that it was what supported it, that is, death.

If I die, my soul goes to her.

At first glance, you might say it doesn’t matter.

Because if you have a soul, you can somehow bring it back to life.

However, it was not a normal human body, and the concept of resurrection did not exist for the transcendental.

Because we have already thrown away the physical body and limitations of this world and formed a body with our soul.

The death of the transcendent was a complete death.

A complete death that does not go through reincarnation like humans.

I’m talking about a soul, but in fact, the moment I die, the remaining soul will be me, who knows nothing.

She was worried and angry about it.

I understand it to some extent, but I wasn’t too worried.

“There is no way my heart toward you will change.”

Naturally, I was confident that there was no way my feelings for her would change.

Even if it changes.

“That will be my punishment.”

That’s proof that my love for you has changed.

He deserves to be punished.

It was a word with that kind of meaning.

“I like everything about Llewen. How could you hate it?”

I can give up everything for her.

My life, the path I have walked.

If only she could smile, if she wanted to, or if she had to.

I could pick it up and throw it at any time.

“I have received a lot from you. And the mistake you mentioned about me was probably also my fault. While I have a foolish and foolish side, Llewen is not.”

Lewen buried her face in my chest and shook her head.

I burst out laughing when I saw that it wasn’t like that at all.

“There is no way I will hate Llewen. There is even no case where I end up hating you. My love for you will never change. so… ”

I took a moment to catch my breath and spoke again.

“Would you like to hear it? What happened to you. I want you to tell me about what you went through and the difficult times you had. As your lover and the person you will spend the rest of your life with.”

That’s the end of what I wanted to say.

Lewen carefully got out of his arms.

Her eyes were still stained with tears.

Unlike before, he seemed a little lighter.

“Like… ”

I heard her consent.

Soon she started talking about the past.