episode_0112

When I opened my eyes, the sight I saw was somewhat unique.

I was looking at a scene from a third person’s perspective, as if I was separate from this world.

-please! Come to your senses! I’m sorry! I was foolish! So please…

A familiar voice is heard.

It was the voice of Llewen, now his lover.

She was hugging someone tightly and crying so desperately that it felt so desperate.

I felt quite puzzled because I had never seen her cry out and speak in such a desperate way.

Who on earth is this?

The moment I looked at him thinking that.

The face of the person Llewen was hugging was visible.

And as soon as I saw the person’s face, I couldn’t help but freeze.

‘… ‘It’s me, right?’

No matter how I looked at the person’s face, it was me.

She was crying sadly while hugging me.

‘what?’

There is no such memory in my memory.

So what on earth are the memories of now?

I looked around to get more information.

A rather unpleasant sight unfolded.

‘… ‘It’s miserable.’

The surrounding area was devastated, as if a huge disaster had swept through it.

There were huge furrows everywhere on the ground, and it was a land of death, devoid of life.

In a land like this, why am I a corpse in her arms?

What is Lewen saying again?

Before I could ask any more questions, starlight suddenly poured down from the sky.

The starlight pouring down in front of Llewen became even stronger.

Let’s question the sight that doesn’t fit the surroundings at all.

The light faded and a woman appeared in its place.

The woman who appeared had white hair and gray eyes like Llewen.

She was a woman who made me feel as if I was looking at the word beauty itself, which I felt when I first saw Llewen.

‘I didn’t think there would be anyone like that other than Lewen.’

The woman who appeared now was a woman who made me feel the same way I felt for Llewen.

It was a time when I was watching her, thinking that she was not an ordinary woman, not just in the way she appeared.

“Lewen… The hero is dead.”

The woman said with a difficult expression.

Llewen, who was shedding tears, responded in a voice full of moisture.

“Goddess… ”

I gaped at that one word.

A goddess?

I couldn’t close my mouth at the unexpected identity.

Considering that appearance, there was nothing strange about it.

Usually, when you think of a goddess, the mummy itself is so beautiful that it comes to mind.

It was actually normal to feel abnormal beauty.

Because she is literally a goddess.

“… The world was saved. It would be because of his sacrifice that the devil was caught.”

said the goddess.

I pondered the goddess’ words.

I saved the world and it was because of my sacrifice.

They had not yet met the Demon King, let alone caught him.

When exactly is this memory?

Questions arose about this, but they did not last long.

“Why on earth! Just for him… ! Did you give me this fate? I only realized now that I hate myself so much! I hate it so much! and… The goddess gave him such a fate… I don’t like it!”

Lewen shouted as if she was venting her anger.

Despite the voice full of resentment, the goddess did not scold him in the slightest.

Rather, he just made an expression as if he had no shame.

“… I’m sorry.”

“… ”

Lewen, who was about to say something more, kept her mouth shut at that one word.

It seems like she still has a lot of things she wants to say, but her temperament isn’t bad enough to criticize someone who says they’re sorry.

The moment when such quiet silence passes.

The goddess opened her mouth.

“I have one way. It’s the only way to save him. However, there is great danger and the world you saved may be destroyed. Are you still going to do it?”

Llewen’s answer was without hesitation.

“Yes.”

Llewen’s eyes contained a strong will.

The goddess nodded slightly at that will.

“… I will use all the strength I have left to turn back the past. Of course, I won’t just turn it around. If you keep doing it the way it is, you will just repeat what has already happened.”

“Then how… ”

“It will transform his memories and twist his fate a little. And most importantly, Llewen. I’ll go back to the past with your memories preserved. So your role is more important than anything else.”

The goddess emphasized again.

“The time to go back to the past was when you first became a saint at the age of 10. and… ”

Suddenly the scene changes! It cuts off.

At the same time, my immersed consciousness returned.

I opened my eyes.

When I opened my eyes, what I saw was a very different sight than before.

The ceiling is so familiar that you can tell just by looking at it.

Yes, this was a hospital room.

I slowly turned my head and Lena next to me opened her eyes wide.

“Ka, Kariel? I’ll get a priest right away!”

After saying that, he leaves.

I chuckled at the sight of her leaving the room before I could say anything.

There was nothing more certain about my own physical condition than checking it myself.

And the results I checked for myself.

I knew there was nothing wrong with my body.

On the contrary, it was very normal.

‘Of course.’

Transcendence has been achieved.

Its weight cannot be put into words.

The reason I fainted was because I could not overcome the fatigue that came with the sudden change in body and status while transcending.

My physical condition was more refreshing and healthy than ever.

But since he had already left, I looked at the ceiling boredly, thinking I would wait.

Not long after, a priest came into the room with Lena.

The priest looked around my body and nodded.

“There is no problem. In fact, you are surprisingly healthy.”

Lena could barely sigh at that.

The priest left after completing his duties.

Lena and I, who remained in the hospital room, talked.

“What happened when I passed out?”

“The saint herself moved Kariel to this hospital room. Then, he entrusted me with nursing and ordered that no one should approach this place.”

“Lewen?”

She questioned the command, which she normally would not have done.

Considering Llewen’s usual personality, I would have asked her to just take a quick look at her even though she was the only nurse.

When she told no one to approach her, it was a bit different from her usual personality.

Lena also looked puzzled.

“I found it strange too, but the saintess looked quite distressed. So no one protested. I also waited here for Kariel to wake up.”

“… That’s right.”

“And there is one thing you left me with. The saint asked me to tell Kariel to come see her if she wakes up.”

Those words reminded me of the scene I saw earlier.

The goddess and Llewen were talking about something unknown about the past.

I still didn’t understand and was confused.

If you went back in time, what memories would you have on Earth?

Are all the memories I have had so far fake?

In a situation where I kept having doubts, I couldn’t figure out what was right.

Also, I still didn’t know much about myself.

However, if you listen to Lewen’s words, who told Lena to come find her.

One thing was clear to me.

‘You knew.’

That she already knew what I was going to see.

Also, it will answer any questions I have.

Otherwise, the woman who should be taking care of her is not here.

There was no explanation for leaving only words to Lena.

I thought about it carefully and decided to think about it once I met her.

In the end, these questions will be answered only when you meet Llewen.

“Lena. Do you know where Llewen is?”

“Ah, Kariel said you would know without me having to say it. I’ll be waiting there.”

I’ll be waiting there.

There was no place that immediately came to mind.

Because there were a lot of places to stay, but there were few.

‘When I say I’ll be waiting, I mean at least it’s a place I know.’

It’s not just one or two places.

I’ve known her for over ten years.

I know so many places.

‘Still, if I were to say that place, it would at least be a place that was meaningful to me.’

It’s a meaningful place.

When it comes to meaningful places, there was one that was most influential.

‘The place where Llewen left and continued to stay.’

It was a place she created with her power, and it was her residence after leaving the church, so it was the most powerful place.

But I thought of a more likely candidate than that location.

However, it was not a place I went to with Llewen.

It was just a place she mentioned in passing.

For some reason I was certain she would be there.

Maybe not, but then you can just look elsewhere.

Deciding to go there first, I got up from the bed.

“I’ll go and come back.”