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[Episode 111] – The day I head to the Academy

Finally, the morning of the day Titania left the royal castle dawned.

The royal castle was quite noisy since morning. The maids who heard that Titania was leaving came to the room to say hello to Titania, and the attendants were busy moving the packed luggage onto the carriage. Of course, I was busy too.

“Titania, have you packed everything? “Did I miss anything?”

“Yes, I checked one more time just in case.”

“Why are you so worried? “If you leave something behind, just send it to me in a letter, right?”

Titania and Veronica sighed at the same time. Veronica was scheduled to depart for the Academy through the cabin, and Titania was scheduled to head to the Academy in a carriage prepared by the Royal Castle.

Even though I saw Titania answer confidently, why am I so worried? Unlike me, who was restlessly circling the room, Titania just sat on the bed and sighed.

Is this how parents feel? I looked around the room a little more, wanting to send it off without any shortcomings, and I felt a little sad at the empty appearance of the room. Now I’m really left alone.

While staying with Titania, I never once thought that this room was spacious. Today, this room felt too spacious. Was the room really this large? I smiled bitterly without realizing it.

As I was staring blankly at the room, I heard a knocking sound from behind.

“Her Majesty, princess. “I’m ready to head to the academy.”

“Okay, I’ll be down soon.”

In the end, the time came when we had to part ways.

As soon as the maid informed me that everything was ready, I felt like crying. Even though I felt the same way, I didn’t want to send Titania to the academy. I really didn’t want to break up with Titania.

That’s right, the reason I was able to survive here until now was because Titania was by my side. I was able to endure the unfamiliar life, the complicated and difficult official duties, and the frustrating and disgusting social world, all because Titania was by my side.

Rather, it could be said that I lived my life depending on Titania, rather than Titania depending on me. But today, Titania is leaving my side. The country that had been supported by the pillar called Titania felt as if the building was about to collapse.

“ha…”

The sigh that came out of my mouth felt hot. I felt like I was crying, so I touched my eyes, and a light moisture came out on my fingers. Really, I decided to send it off with a smile at the end.

‘It’s not easy…’

I slowly approached Titania, who was sitting on the bed, and looked at the angel hanging around her neck. I hated Ainsel for leaving me, but I decided to forgive him because it was for Titania’s sake.

I grinned and gently lifted the Ainsel.

“Go get along well with Titania. Also, try to become closer to Veronica. got it?”

-Oh, I understand… I’m trying my best…

Ainsel, who was grumbling and rubbing his lips at my nagging, just looked cute. After gently stroking Ainsel’s mirror, I turned my head and looked at Veronica sitting next to me.

“Do you need nagging too?”

“Do you have something to nag?”

Veronica and I burst into laughter. Yeah, Veronica doesn’t really need nagging. I raised my head, stroked Veronica’s cheek, and lightly kissed her forehead.

Veronica’s eyes widened in surprise at my sudden kiss that meant farewell, but as soon as her lips left her forehead, she rubbed her forehead and made a slightly pouty expression.

next…

“Titania.”

When I called, Titania lifted her head with difficulty and looked at me. Titania barely looked at me, and her eyes were slightly watery.

The eyes looking at me were constantly shaking, as if clearly showing how I was feeling right now. I carefully touched Titania’s eyes, which looked like they were about to shed tears.

‘What should I say?’

There was so much I wanted to say to Titania, but it all just lingered in my mouth, unable to form words. I didn’t know what to say, so I just pursed my lips.

I didn’t know what to say, so I just made eye contact with Titania and blinked. Titania must have been frustrated by the silence, so she got up from the bed first and hugged me.

Although I was a little surprised by the sudden hug, I calmly wrapped my arms around Titania’s waist and hugged her tightly. Titania’s body trembled slightly. As I patted her back, Titania began to whimper.

“I will send you a letter, so you must reply…”

“…okay.”

“If you don’t reply regularly, I will drop out of the academy…”

“Even if it’s a joke, it’s scary…”

When I let out a chuckle, Titania responded in my arms, saying, ‘It’s not a joke…’ I felt like I needed to send letters to Titania on a regular basis in order to keep her attending the academy.

“Really…”

I smiled bitterly and caressed Titania’s cheek in my arms. As I stroked her cheek, Titania lifted her head and made eye contact with me.

I ran my thumb over Titania’s slightly red cheek, cupped her face, lowered my head, and lightly kissed Titania’s round forehead.

The heated lips hit my forehead, made a tickling sound, and then slowly moved away. When I looked at Titania’s face, she was smiling brightly, as if she had lied that she had been crying until now.

“…Have a nice trip.”

“Yes… I will come back. therefore…”

Titania smiled brightly and smiled at me.

“When I return, you must come to meet me. “You must wait for me at the front gate.”

…I won’t be here by then.

How should I answer these earnest words?

My lips were trembling. I didn’t know how to answer, so my lips kept trembling and I felt like crying. My voice keeps shaking because of my guilt and regret toward Titania. Today I learned for the first time that telling a lie is such a painful act.

“…Yes, definitely.”

Sorry.

“I will definitely come out to meet you first.”

I’m really sorry.

“Because this is also a promise.”

Titania, who knew nothing, smiled and held out her little finger to me. It hurt as if Titania’s innocent smile was chopping into my guilt-filled heart.

It really hurt so much that I cried.

“…Okay, promise.”

*

It’s already been three days since Titania, Veronica, and Ainsel left me alone here and left for the academy.

I spent most of my time dazed. I couldn’t do any work because I couldn’t get my hands on it, and I left eating and washing myself to the maids and maids.

The maids and maids begged me to cheer them up, but there was nothing I could do because I had no strength. What should I say about this? Lethargy? I just didn’t want to do anything.

I just rolled around in bed all day and had no motivation. There were rumors that Titania had entered the Academy, and several invitations came from social circles, but no one even opened them, let alone read them. Because I’m not going anyway.

As I was staring blankly at the ceiling, I heard a knock on the door. Even though I didn’t answer to come in, the door opened, and a bald-headed Bangsho, sticking his head out through the crack in the door, strode into the room and frowned at me.

“Huh… Your Royal Highness, even though this is Her Majesty’s room, it is still daylight, so please dress neatly.”

“Aren’t you wearing it? Pajamas.”

“In what world and in what country is there a queen who wears pajamas in broad daylight and greets her subjects?”

“Isn’t it right in front of you? Besides, you won’t be queen in three years, so don’t expect too much from a temporary queen. “That’s why you’re losing your hair.”

As I gently shook the negligee I was wearing, Vinchot frowned in annoyance. Seeing that he was carrying a lot of documents in his arms, it seemed like he had come to ask me to at least approve the documents that I had left unattended for three days.

“Just leave the documents on that desk. “I’ll take care of it later when I have the strength.”

“Three days have already passed since you said those words. “There’s already no room to put documents on that desk.”

When I turned my head to look at the desk, I saw that the documents on the desk were overflowing and were falling all over the chair and the floor. However, it was difficult because I didn’t have the strength to read a single letter right now.

As I was lying on the bed, waving my hands and pretending to say, ‘Stack it up like this,’ Vinchot sighed deeply. Then, after stacking the papers on top of them so they wouldn’t fall over, he came over to me and looked down at me lying on the bed.

“Her Majesty the Queen. “Are you so distressed that Princess Titania left?”

“…It’s painful. “It feels like there’s a hole in my chest.”

It was literally like that. The feeling of a cold wind passing through my chest. I felt so empty when something precious disappeared from my side. When I just rolled my eyes and looked at Bangchot, Bangchot dragged a chair over and sat down next to me and looked at me.

“Have I ever told Her Majesty the Queen about my children?”

“Are you married too?”

“Then you wouldn’t have done it?”

Bang Show looked at me as if I was ridiculous. No, I’m not making fun of Bang Chau, I really didn’t know Bang Chau was married.

He never told me anything about his family relationships, and I never heard any rumors about his children or wife from social circles.

Now that I think about it, why wasn’t there such a rumor? I’ve heard stories about the children of the Minister of Education or the Minister of Foreign Affairs.

“My wife does not live in the capital for her health. I live in a remote corner of the countryside that even Her Majesty the Queen would not know about. My children are there too, so they may not know… they don’t. How can a person called the queen not know the minister’s family relationship? “It’s been a while since I served Her Majesty the Queen…!”

“S-stop. I’m sorry. Well, you might not know because you haven’t heard the story of your family. Yeah, yeah! Don’t you know the story about how the Minister of Foreign Affairs’ son-in-law almost touched a married woman several years ago? “Compared to that, no news is good news.”

“That’s… right.”

Vinchot quickly complained about the injustice, as if he was sad, but I waved my hand and changed the topic to the Minister of Foreign Affairs’ self-control. After hearing the dirty story, Vinchot sighed, cleared his throat, and continued speaking again.

“Anyway… I too have had my daughter leave me many times. “I got three people married.”

“You… you have more children than I thought.”

“I have two sons and three daughters. Everyone got married. And don’t keep interrupting. “The story doesn’t end.”

“okay…”

I turned over, looked at Bang Show, lay down, and began to listen to the story. Bang Show didn’t seem to like my attitude, but he continued talking as if he had no choice. Step by step, remembering old times.

“This is a story about 40 years ago, when I was getting my first daughter married. At that time I-”

“Now, wait a minute. “How long is that story?”

For some reason, I had the feeling that Bangshow’s story would be a time to look back on his life so far, so I stopped him for now. Anyway, I didn’t want to hear this story for a long time.

Bang Chau glanced at his watch and answered.

“I think we’ll be done before dinner.”

“It was just past lunch time…”

“Anyway, back then, the customs placed more emphasis on customs than they do now-”

…Bang Show kept talking even when I told him to stop. He really wasn’t interested. I don’t want to hear it.

Bang Show’s story continued until the sun went down. Bangchot, who unfolded the epic story of the wedding of his first daughter to his third daughter, spoke to me as if he was acting, at times intensely and at other times sadly.

When the story had passed for about three hours-

“At that time, I tried to stop my third daughter from marrying that man even if it meant throwing away her family…”

Knock knock, a quick knock was heard on the door. The maid’s face was pale as she hurriedly opened the door and came in without even asking her to come in.

“Your Majesty the Queen…! Minister…! “His Majesty the Queen…!!”

At that moment, Vinchot and I quickly got up from our seats and ran to Her Majesty the Queen’s office. Because I was able to understand the situation even without the maid speaking.

It’s been three days since Titania left for the Academy.

Before the news of Titania’s arrival at the Academy, came the news that Her Majesty the Queen had collapsed.