episode_0111

sick.

Head.

body.

I don’t feel anything other than that feeling.

If there is hell, is it like this?

I’m not dead yet, but it feels like hell.

“Hmm…Hehehehm…Wait, Onpu-chan…Hehe……”

This person in front of me is mentally ill.

I shouldn’t have given it room to begin with.

iced coffee……

It’s my fault.

Even I am a pitiful person, so who am I trying to sympathize with?

haha.

Stupid, right?

My whole body was tied up.

Even if you apply force, it doesn’t move.

How long were you incarcerated?

Three days?

Four days?

I don’t even know how much time has passed since I can’t even look at the clock.

I worked really hard to survive.

Even struggling.

I pray for your life.

Haha… I can’t believe a person who thought about dying not long ago is begging for his life.

It’s funny.

my wrist.

I see a red solution flowing into my veins.

That man said this drug would turn me into another woman.

“Onpu-chan…Mija is becoming Onpu-chan…hihihi…”

Onpu-chan… that’s a really bad name.

Where did this person come from?

Could it be that person’s delusion?

Or maybe it’s an animation character?

Anyway, the power of the drug is good.

I gave up on everything.

I was struggling to live like that until just now…haha, I’m feeling at peace to the point where I don’t even know why I did that.

“Mija will soon be gone, so…stay comfortably. Hehe…Hehe……”

The developer of this drug is confident that my ego will soon disappear.

Before the drug was administered, those words were so horrible, but now I don’t feel anything.

I thought it was just nonsense, but it seems to be true.

hmm.

is it so.

Well, it’s all over now.

Let me look at myself more objectively.

I’m Arin, not Mija.

Baek Arin.

I liked senior Eunhyuk, but his daughter hated me.

I gave up because I knew how much my senior loved his daughter.

family.

I wanted to have a family.

It was even more so because I didn’t have a normal family.

It was the same for my senior.

So I was confident it would go well.

haha.

People’s work is unpredictable.

anger.

despair.

Those two feelings always tormented me.

I couldn’t sleep well and my body ached even though I wasn’t being physically harassed.

Even though I tried to forget about it, it didn’t work.

What should I do?

Will this pain end if I end my own life?

Haha…I thought about something I shouldn’t have thought about.

My grandmother, who thought well of me, said she would introduce me to a man.

At first I refused, but eventually I realized that I should just forget about him as another man.

So I accepted and I met the man who is in front of me now.

That man is wearing a tuxedo now.

It’s just heartbreaking, but he’s a good person by nature.

They didn’t even lay a hand on me, who was tied up defenseless like this.

It’s just that the method is wrong.

This is probably because no one taught that man how to properly date the opposite sex.

Of course, the mental illness must also be cured.

Both the grandmother and that man resented each other at first, but not anymore.

This drug is coming through my right wrist.

great.

I felt at ease.

Everything is fine except that my whole body aches.

I like it because it lessened the mental pain that always felt like it was crushing me.

I no longer feel the despair about life that I felt just before.

The desire to live.

The feeling of wanting to run away.

It’s all gone.

“Hold on a little, Onpu-chan…the medicine will hurt a little…but you’ll feel better soon…”

This person says that.

is it so.

This physical pain will soon disappear.

Even though my body hurts, my mind feels at ease, so it’s still good.

It’s been so hard so far.

Living wasn’t living.

Every day was a pain.

If you think about it, it’s even more hell.

It didn’t hurt, but it did.

really.

ha.

Is it because of the medicine?

It’s a central heating system.

Should I say that it feels like I whipped my brain and made whipped cream with my brain and brain fluid?

I guess it’s because it turned out like a fluffy chiffon cake.

Hehehe.

I don’t know anymore.

however.

But.

No matter how much I think about it, it’s strange.

Why did I want to live even though I was sick?

Why did I not want to let go of life even though it was painful?

Why did I want to continue living this hellish life?

When you were captured here, why were you struggling to be released just a moment ago?

Even though it hurts so much that I want to die…even though my life is hell…why on earth?

why?

why?

Grumbling.

uh?

“Onpu-chan, why are you crying? Does it hurt?”

Tears…ine?

why??

Are you feeling at ease?

Why do tears come out?

“Ugh…dramatic…!”

Exciting!

For a moment, my heart felt like it was being stabbed by an awl.

“Ah…pa……”

The lips that I didn’t know would fall are falling and I’m complaining of pain.

“Oh…Onpu-chan, what’s wrong?!”

Phew!

“Hugh!!!”

It felt like a long, thick spear was piercing my heart.

sick.

It hurts so much.

“This…can’t be like this??! Side effects…all the side effects…have been resolved?!!”

The man is embarrassed.

I guess I didn’t expect my body to do this.

“Cough! Cluck cluck!!”

I was coughing and I saw a lot of bright red blood squirting out in front of my eyes.

He’s vomiting blood.

I.

“Ahh…Ahh!! Don’t do this, Onpu-chan!! If it’s like this… If it’s like this!!”

Excited!!

“Ha…Haaa!!!”

I’m dying.

“You can’t die!!”

Darkness.

Like an old cathode ray tube TV turning off.

My mind went out just like that.

hi.

Bye.

good bye.

Seniors.

okay.

Even though it was so hard, I tried to live because I missed my senior.

I will understand only after my body shuts down.

I’m sorry, senior.

I.

I didn’t have the courage.

With your senior.

The senior’s favorite daughter.

It was very difficult to get through it.

So I ran away.

I thought running away was the answer.

I shamelessly kept drawing seniors.

Now I know.

Why did you want to live?

I did it to see my senior one more time.

But I can’t do it anymore.

I vomited blood.

My whole body hurt, but now I feel cold.

I’m dying.

You’re going to get punished, right?

The sin of abandoning my senior.

sorry.

really sorry.

I will repent even if I go to hell.

forever.

senior.

i love you.

I really like it.

I was madly in love.

I was happy just looking at it.

So, senior.

be happy.

Because I will carry all the pain with me.

Please forget about weak women like me.

Thank you so far.

thanks……

persimmon……

****

A room covered in blood.

It was the exact opposite of the wedding hall-like atmosphere that had been plastered with white cotton cloth earlier.

“Hahaha…I’ve come to my senses…Onpu-chan?”

Arin’s eyes opened.

Her focus was gone.

Arin didn’t feel anything.

I couldn’t even think of it.

It was a blank slate.

It was unclear whether Arin was the one feeling it.

She had two blood transfusion packs attached to her.

“Jo…good…!It was helpful to prepare carefully just in case…!”

Arin vomited blood.

That wasn’t all.

Blood was also pouring from the nose.

It was a side effect of the drug.

It was a beta version of the drug just before it was released on the market.

Clinical trials also confirmed that there were no problems.

That’s why Oh Deok-nam was confident.

That there would be no problem.

But the drug did not work for Arin.

The side effect of vomiting blood was a side effect that only existed in the unstable alpha version, but even the stabilized drug was of no use to Arin.

Oh Deok-nam did his best to save Arin.

This was the first woman who was kind to him.

That’s why she was the first woman I loved.

Arin was stabilized using a blood transfusion pack that had been stored illegally.

And now, the effects of Deoknam’s medication were finally taking effect.

“Mi…Mija…Mr.?”

Deoknam waves his thick hand in front of Arin’s face.

Arin had no reaction.

A sly smile appeared on Deoknam’s face.

“H…Hahaha…That’s it! That’s it!! ha ha ha!! Hahahahaha!!!”

Deoknam was covered in Arin’s blood and laughed like a man who had lost his mind.

It was because of the joy of being able to perform mental remodeling on Arin into the Onpu-chan character he wanted.

“H…Hahaha!! This…isn’t the time to be like this…! Look here.”

Just right.

Just right.

Oh Deok-nam flicking his thick finger in front of Arin’s face.

“Yes……”

Arin’s answer did not contain any human emotion.

It was the effect of the drug.

Absolutely obeying the words of the person in front of you after being eroded by drugs.

A confession secretly requested by the National Intelligence Service.

This was the identity of the drug that Oh Deok-nam was developing.

With that, Deoknam’s intention was to turn Arin into his beloved animation character [Onpu-chan].

“From now on, you…you are Onpu-chan…!”

“Yes……”

“I am your…the man you love…! Beautiful and wide… something to look at for the rest of your life…!”

“ㄴ……”

No answer came out of Arin’s mouth.

“What…what is it? Why…why are you like this?”

Deoknam’s face distorted.

“This can’t be right…This can’t be right…? Onpu-chan!! Oh…Onpu-chan, you should only love me…!”

“…ㄴ…….”

A seemingly unexpected answer.

Oh Deok-nam started to get angry at her.

It was as if the positive answer was left to Arin.

“Si… I’m disappointed, Onpu-chan!! You said you only love me…only me! But…why…why can’t you…answer? Sa…Has love cooled?!”

Oh Deok-nam grabbed Arin’s shoulders and started shaking her.

Grumble.

Blood began to flow from Arin’s eyes, which had an expressionless face.

It was tears, but it was blood.

“I…can’t……”

“What…what?!”

“I…have…someone…that I love…”

“What…what are you talking about? On…Onpu-chan…!! Well…I…obviously…ordered…! You say you love me!!”

“I…Senior…Eunhyuk…Senior…Love…….”

The blood flowing from Arin’s eyes was getting thicker.

“Why…Why isn’t the medicine working!! Why!!”

“Senior…Help…Senior…Help…Senior…”

Cough.

The blood that had stopped flows again.

In Arin’s eyes.

From the nose.

From your mouth.

“Ugh… Haha!! Oh, no!! no…! No…!!”

“Sun…Sunbae…love…seeing…so…so…”

Rubbing. Rubbing.

The blood was draining faster and faster.

The blood was gradually draining from Arin’s face.

“Please…help me…senior…”

Kwaaaa!!

At that moment, the closed door swung open as if something had kicked it.

“야이 개새끼야!!! Take your hands off Arin’s body!!!!!”

Eunhyuk, covered in sweat, was rushing towards Deoknam with an angry look on his face.