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[Episode 109] – Time to leave (3)

Veronica was confused.

It felt like I had finally found my place in this repetitive life. Veronica bit her lower lip, thinking she had gotten used to it by now.

It feels like my heart is breaking and my feet are falling apart.

This feeling was like the ‘safe haven’ I thought I had finally found was falling apart. This feeling, which I thought I had become accustomed to in my repetitive life, only became painful again.

Veronica didn’t want to admit it, but she really liked it here. Here, there was Titania, who was like a ‘little sister’, and Vivian, who was like a ‘mother’, even though I really didn’t like her.

Titania, her lovely younger sister, and Vivian, her mother who treats her kindly. A sanctuary of my own that I finally found in a regression that I barely escaped. That comfortable haven was now falling apart.

“…explain.”

Something like gastric juice filled my throat and my head felt hot. I felt like I was about to cry, or like hot breath would burst out of my mouth. Veronica was fully aware that this was a tantrum.

“…you’d better explain it in a way I can understand.”

Veronica, who had no idea that Vivian would feel this way, was really confused. I felt like someone was strangling my throat, and my chest was pounding.

Veronica let out a laugh, saying that she never thought she would feel this way toward Vivian. I didn’t want to admit it, but I had no choice but to admit it. How could I not admit it?

That you are a precious person to me.

That’s why you’re so angry. Because you, who are precious to me, say you are leaving. Because you say you are leaving my side, our side. It must be painful, like your stomach is twisted like this.

Vivian, who was pursing her lips as if choosing her words, sighed deeply and continued speaking with a bitter smile. He said the reason he was leaving was ‘a promise.’

“…When Titania was six years old, that person… His Majesty passed away. The reason for me leaving here was decided at that time. That’s right…”

At Vivian’s bitter smile, Veronica was unable to say anything.

I really didn’t know that what I did would come back like this.

“Because I did not receive the royal family’s last name, ‘Snow White,’ because I did not receive His Majesty’s ‘affection.’ Since Your Majesty has passed away, there is no reason for me to be here because I am not loved by Your Majesty. “The political reason why I married His Majesty was to give birth to a little sun for the royal family.”

“uh……?”

“In the end, His Majesty passed away, and I, who did not receive the royal family name, had no choice but to leave here. Somehow, I was able to remain until now by pleading with Her Majesty the Queen Mother and the ministers. After much pleading, I decided to leave the royal family before Titania graduated from the academy. That is a ‘promise.’”

Veronica was unable to say anything due to the shock, as if she had been hit hard on the back of the head with a hammer. Your Majesty, you mean you didn’t receive ‘affection’ from your father? Vivian didn’t receive the royal ‘surname’?

In her repeated regressions, Vivian has always been ‘Vivian Snow White.’ Second Queen Vivian Snow White. That was the name of Vivian that Veronica knew until now.

But, if Vivian isn’t Snow White…

“…Have you never even had sex with your father…?”

“Do you really have to ask that now?”

Veronica, speechless, covered her mouth with her hand. That Vivian? Vivian, who did everything to marry her father? But that Vivian couldn’t even spend the first night with her father? That Vivian??

Confused for a moment, Veronica held her pounding head and sighed. Because I understood Vivian’s reason for leaving the royal castle and her promise. Plus this…

It was also my fault for making my father like that.

“…It’s my fault.”

“…It’s not your fault.”

“No, it’s really my fault. If I hadn’t turned Aurora into Lyanansi, if I hadn’t messed with Your Majesty, you wouldn’t have left. “I just…”

…Because my father wasn’t a good person either.

My father was a kind man. He was a kind king and a kind father. But, who knew? That her father’s love pouring out to her was not love ‘for her daughter’.

The more life repeated, the more strange it felt. He said that he was not sad because he had a daughter even if his mother died, but he sometimes called his grown-up self ‘Aurora’ and often confused himself with his mother.

At that time, it was just because my father was so tired and missed my mother who passed away. With that much thought, I moved on as if it was no big deal. but…

‘When I realized that what my father was looking at through me was ‘Aurora’…’

Veronica shook her head to shake off the disgusting memory.

So this time, I simply made it so that the two could not separate until they died. Because you love me so desperately. So, they just made it so that they could be together until each other died.

‘…It would be meaningless to tell Vivian that now.’

Veronica sighed and thought for a moment. How can I keep Vivian from leaving this place? I thought about it and thought about it, but I couldn’t come up with an answer. Well, because there was no answer.

When Veronica found out that it was her fault that Vivien left, she was overcome with a terrible sense of self-destruction. It was as if he had ruined the shelter he had barely achieved through his own mistake.

When that thought occurred to her, Veronica became nervous and grabbed Vivian’s hand. I rolled my head, doing my best to keep Vivian from leaving my side.

“…Then, how about doing it like this? You are leaving the royal castle and coming to my cabin. You can meet Titania at any time in my cabin. huh? how is it?”

“…veronica.”

“The cabin itself is a small place, but you will like it. You won’t feel like the cabin is cramped because you can go anywhere. Plus, there are dwarves, so you won’t be lonely…”

“……”

“huh? how is it? If you let me, I will try to persuade the dwarves. therefore…”

Veronica’s voice was trembling due to her congested throat. My breathing was uneven. Even though I tried to control it, it was difficult to control it because of the overwhelming emotions.

The voice sounded as if she was crying silently, so Vivian gently held Veronica’s hand. But perhaps it touched Veronica’s emotions, and she begged in a tearful voice.

“Don’t go… please. “For my sake and for Titania’s sake, you must not leave…”

Please don’t go.

Vivian looked sad upon hearing these words from Veronica for the first time.

The child who hated showing his emotions so much now desperately begged me not to go and to stay by his side. He begged me not to leave, saying I would find a way. However, despite such sorrow, Vivian continued speaking.

“…The reason I leave here is because of a ‘promise’, but it is also for Titania’s sake.”

“For Titania…? Are you leaving ‘for’?”

“Yes, because he relies on me too much.”

Vivian laughed.

The smile seemed sad, so Veronica kept her mouth shut.

“You know, Titania, I don’t plan on leaving my side until she gets to this age. He still shares the same room as me and always refuses to leave my side. You said that, right? “It’s strange to sleep with your parents even at this age.”

“…..”

“…Well, let’s say that even sleeping can be like that. However, that child relies on me for most of his life. That’s definitely not a good thing for Titania. Rather, it is closer to ‘poison.’”

Vivian raised her hand and pointed at herself. Veronica, looking at that figure, realized that there was no use in saying anything more. Because Vivian has already made up her mind. Even if I begged, begged, cried, and screamed, it was clear that Vivian would leave my side.

“I am poison to Titania. So… I’m leaving.”

“…Yeah, I see.”

Veronica took a step back with a bitter look on her face.

Because what Vivian said made some sense. Even from his own perspective, Titania seemed to rely too much on Vivian. It wasn’t that he couldn’t understand Titania’s feelings. Even though he only knew Vivian for two years, he felt such sad feelings. furthermore…

‘If I hadn’t turned Aurora into Lyanansi, it wouldn’t have happened. ‘Am I in a position to stop Vivian?’

Veronica smiled bitterly and asked Vivian.

“…When are you going to leave?”

“It hasn’t been decided yet, but it won’t be there when you return after graduation.”

“You don’t want to tell Titania?”

“…I’m afraid that if I tell you, I’ll drop out of the academy. “I’m scared.”

“Phew. “I think so.”

Veronica chuckled. Of course, if it were Titania, that would be okay. If Vivian were to leave, it was clear that they would catch her even if it meant destroying the academy. Of course, he also wanted to catch Vivian right away. All I could do was resist the urge to lock myself in the cabin right away.

“…OK got it. “Am I the only one who knows this?”

“Ainsel knows too. right? Ainsel?”

“what?”

Vivian tapped the earring and Ainsel popped his head out from the earring. Veronica’s face turned bright red because she didn’t know she had been listening to the story until now.

‘So, you’ve heard everything I pleaded with Vivian…?!’

Veronica cooled her heated face by fanning herself with her hand. While he was cooling his face, Heinsel peeked his head out of the mirror, looked at Veronica’s notice, and asked Vivian.

-Yes, yes… But… Are you really going to leave? If you leave…

“Really, don’t do that. “Veronica’s plea is so heartbreaking that I’m dying, so what should I do if Ainsel does that too?”

-Yeah, but…

Vivian sighed at Ainsel’s worried voice. Vivian sighed, saying that it really wasn’t easy to leave, hugged Veronica and patted her back. Sweet and gentle. Veronica was once again moved to tears by that affectionate hug and found it difficult to hold back her tears.

“Ha… Of course you don’t plan on telling me where you’re going, right?”

“of course. “Then it’s not fair.”

Veronica chuckled and replied, ‘That’s right.’

For the first time, Veronica hugged Vivian. He hugged Vivian’s neck, shoulders, and back as if they were about to explode, and buried his face in the crook of Vivian’s neck. The warmth I felt every time I applied force was so warm that it made me even sadder. It was my first time feeling warmth, but I felt like I knew what it felt like.

“…Yeah, this is what it feels like.”

“huh?”

“No, it’s nothing.”

Veronica hugged Vivian so tightly that she couldn’t hold it any longer, then took a moment to breathe in and out. Every time Vivian’s scent tickled the tip of my nose, my heart sank and I felt like I was going to cry.

Now I understand clearly. As expected, Vivian here was truly precious to him. But Veronica felt like she was going crazy because she regretted realizing this before she lost something so precious.

After breaking the hug, Veronica turned around and did not show her face to Vivian. Because it was clear that his face was a mess right now. Veronica turned back and headed toward the terrace door.

“I have been given the fairy egg, so I will keep my promise.”

“…Okay, thank you.”

“and…”

When the terrace door opened, it wasn’t my room. The beach heading to the dwarves’ hut. Veronica took a step into the terrace and looked at Vivian with a grin.

“Thank you for treating me like your daughter. mother.”

Slurp tap!

As soon as she could speak, Veronica disappeared. The beach that had been reflected beyond the terrace door disappeared, and beyond the terrace door was Vivian’s room as usual.

‘Are you sure Veronica just called me mother?’

Did he just disappear because he was embarrassed to hear the answer? Vivian chuckled and sighed for a moment. I was happy to be called mother by Veronica, but a part of me felt bitter.

When I raised my head and looked at the sky, time passed by and night fell. Vivian couldn’t believe that in just two nights like this, Titania would be gone from her side.

I really couldn’t believe it.