episode_0107

‘Father…?’

Unintentionally, Eugene and her first meeting took place on Vivian’s morning walk.

At that moment, Vivian’s mind went blank.

To be precise, it was when Eugene turned towards Vivian.

The one word that came to Vivian’s mind when she fully looked at Eugene’s face was father.

‘He looks too much like my father’s portrait when he was young…’

After about 5 seconds of her mind going blank, Vivian stared at Eugene more closely.

In the process, she naturally realized that the man in front of her was not her father.

Her father was already dead,

and the man in front of her was too young.

Her father would never come back to life, and it was even more unrealistic for him to return younger.

“What are you doing, Father?”

Young Vivian approached her father, Alexis, who was diligently reviewing documents, tilted her head cutely, and asked.

“These are letters from nobles who want to make promises of marriage with our beloved daughter Vivian from now on. Marriage is definitely important to nobles, so I have to take the time to look into it.”

It was the Pierre family, a ducal family and of royal blood.

Especially at this time, Alexis was gradually being mentioned as the next emperor.

So, nobles poured in, wanting to secure a line by grabbing Alexis Saint-Pierre’s only daughter, the precious Vivian.

“But I want to value our daughter’s opinion. So I want to ask, my beloved daughter Vivian, what kind of man do you want to create a future with? Can you tell your father?”

Alexis, who was reviewing the documents, wanted to know his daughter’s opinion.

Alexis’s eyes, looking at his daughter Vivian, were full of love and affection.

Because apart from distant relatives, the only close family was just himself and Vivian.

Vivian’s mother, Alexis’s wife, passed away when Vivian was even younger than she is now.

In other words, Vivian is the daughter that Alexis raised, playing the role of both father and mother.

“Phew…”

Therefore, Alexis really wants to reflect his daughter’s opinion and create a good marriage opportunity in advance.

However, what came back to Alexis’s question was Vivian’s reaction of puffing out her cheeks.

“Are you going to kick me out of the house, Father…?”

Then, out of the blue, she asked if he was going to kick her out of the house.

“Huh! What are you talking about, Vivian? Why would I kick you out of the house?”

Of course, Alexis was surprised with wide eyes.

“You leave the house when you get married… I want to live with you forever, Father… I’m not going to get married… I like you so much, Father… Heeeuuu…”

Vivian, who was muttering sullenly with her cheeks puffed out, eventually burst into tears.

Vivian, who likes her father so much, just wants to live with him forever.

Her father is everything to her.

To Vivian, Alexis was not only a father who protected her but also a mother who raised and cared for her.

In other words, in the life of the young Vivian, her father is the world itself.

Her heart was earnest, but because her father didn’t understand her feelings, little Vivian was overcome with sadness.

“Oh my! I made my lovely daughter cry. Come here, Vivian, come into your father’s arms. Yes, let’s live with your father forever, my daughter. So stop crying, okay? It hurts your father’s heart when my daughter cries.”

Pat, pat, pat,

“Heeheueuu… Father, I love you…”

She cried so sadly.

As if the world was collapsing.

In the face of Vivian’s weeping, Alexis was busy patting her and comforting her.

‘Unlike my mother, please be with me forever, Father… Please don’t leave me…’

Vivian, who was comforted for a long time and regained her happy smile, earnestly prayed in her father’s arms.

Her mother, who left her side too early,

Because of that void, Vivian’s obsession with Alexis was great.

If even her father left, she would be practically alone.

It was Alexis’s cousin who took Vivian out to the meeting of noble ladies that Jeanne also attended.

Alexis had asked his cousin to do it for the sake of his daughter’s upbringing.

However, it could never fill Vivian’s heart, which had felt the emptiness of someone leaving too deeply at a young age.

‘Wow! My father is so cool! Everyone in the world praises my father!’

To Vivian, her father Alexis was not just an object of comfort.

To her, the man Alexis was like an idol.

Because when she followed her father, she was praised everywhere.

Her father was the star of stars and the sun on the stage called the world.

‘Father… Father…’

Her father, who was so much a part of her life, and who was the sun, disappeared like the wind.

‘You said you would be by my side forever… My light… My life…’

It was really like the wind.

In a state where no preparation was made, her father Alexis left his daughter Vivian’s side.

“The Pierre family is over now. The one who competed with Louis XV has left, and the one who is guarding the remaining seat is a young lady who is just over 10 years old.”

Also, the surrounding situation changed in an instant to the extent that the empty seat of her father was felt too greatly.

People who had looked up to the Pierre family changed their faces 180 degrees and looked down on them,

and all those marriage stories disappeared.

Therefore, the panic state that Vivian experienced was beyond imagination.

‘Black hair… My father’s black hair…’

Her only family, her father, left, and the world turned its back on her.

Vivian’s pain must have felt like being stabbed in the heart with a knife.

She wanted to endure it. And she wanted to live.

The only escape route for that was to crave and obsess over her father.

‘I will fulfill my father’s unfinished dream. I will prove to people that my father’s thoughts were not wrong.’

So she became a merchant.

Because she didn’t want to let go of her father for a moment.

If she took over her father’s work and followed that path, she could brainwash herself that she was always with her father.

And Vivian thought that she would be able to take revenge on the people who had suddenly turned cold at the moment her father left.

‘Barbarian…’

But the most important reason was the craving to feel her father directly.

The majority of the destinations she actually went to while running the merchant group were filled with memories of traveling with her father when she was young.

And the existence of black hair, which is more often seen outside Elysium, directly reminded her of her father.

‘But Father doesn’t have that kind of feeling…’

However, Vivian’s earnestness could not be satisfied with just reminiscing.

She wanted to meet someone who resembled her father’s reincarnation.

Even by chance,

Even for a very short time, Vivian wanted to meet such a person and fill the gaping craving for her father.

However, in any part of the Barbarian tribe, they were just black-haired, and no one resembled her father Alexis’s presence, which she truly craved.

That warmth, that mystery as if he were from another dimension, those elements that truly symbolized Alexis, did not exist at all.

‘So there really is such a person. There was someone who looked so much like my father.’

Then, in a place where she walked without such a purpose, Vivian met someone who fully filled her personal desires.

It was Eugene Schneider.

‘I want to see that person again. What is this feeling? It’s such a fluttering and exciting feeling.’

Vivian fell rapidly after seeing Eugene.

That was because it was more than a normal feeling between a man and a woman.

Vivian is 25 years old, but except for her identity as the head of the merchant group, most of her mind is stuck at the time when she lost her father Alexis.

It’s just a feeling of craving someone due to a huge deficiency,

Vivian was struggling with that feeling.

In a way, it’s pure, and in a way, it’s an explosive emotion that even she can’t figure out.

‘Why is that person with that bitch…?’

The vague feeling, close to personal delusion, was drawn out into a more concrete possessiveness as it became intertwined with complex relationships with people.

Jeanne,

She faced Jeanne, an existence that makes her return to her turbulent childhood as much as Eugene, who reminds her of her father.

From Vivian’s point of view, that medium that creates truly negative feelings made her head complicated and venomous.

‘Heuheueueu… I’m jealous… I’m going crazy. I feel like I’m going crazy when I see that person with Joan of Arc.’

It was Vivian’s appearance of rapidly learning the emotion of reason.

However, because there was no guide and negative emotions were the main catalyst,

The aspect began to deviate severely.

So, she tried to steal Eugene from Jeanne.

‘How should I answer? To this person’s question?’

She was going to clean up slowly after committing such a thing. This is because Vivian is mentally immature in many ways other than running the merchant group.

But Eugene began to draw out her specific feelings first.

Vivian fell into a panic as a result.

This is because if she answers, she has to look at her specific heart, which craves her father, and her heart that wants to steal a man from Jeanne.

Wasn’t Vivian, who is still unfamiliar with such responsibilities, an immature psychological state, a Daddy’s girl?

Therefore, Vivian could not answer Eugene’s question and did not know what to do.

“I, I don’t know…”

Vivian’s answer, which was caught up in that immaturity, was this.

“Well, then I don’t think there’s anything more to talk about. I’ll pretend I didn’t hear the proposal today.”

Slam!

Step, step, step,

Then Eugene stood up with a firm reaction and left Vivian’s bedroom.

‘What should I do…? That light that I finally found is trying to leave again… What should I do…? What should I do…?

Vivian left the bedroom and caused a mental breakdown at the sound of his footsteps gradually disappearing.

Her face was similar to the one that collapsed in that panic state when her father Alexis left her side.

ㅡBoooooooom!!

Eugene turned around coolly and returned to the lodging he had been using since becoming Vivian’s bodyguard.

Then, he took out his greatsword from the lodging, leaned against the wall next to the lodging, and started evening training.

He couldn’t do morning training since he took on the bodyguard job, so he changed his training schedule to evening time.

‘It feels like the line is twisted in a complicated way, and it feels like every step forward is covered with bombs. Cough… Is this the life of an alpha male? Well, it’s not wrong, so it would be having several women.’

He was training, but Eugene’s mind was full of the situation a little while ago.

Eugene naturally doesn’t have good feelings for Vivian.

Isn’t she the woman who gave Jeanne a big scar?

So, he wanted to scold her even more harshly beyond firmness.

However, from Vivian’s expression and tone shown at the end of the conversation, he instinctively felt that there was a depth beyond what he thought.

Therefore, Eugene thought that it would be better to cut it off neatly here than to make a mess with that abyss.

‘But I have a bad feeling.’

However, Eugene was feeling a sense of déjà vu that it would not end like this.

That’s how much of an abyss he felt, so Eugene showed a quick reaction rather than realizing justice against Vivian.

At that moment,

Eugene’s sense of déjà vu, a voice that matched it, was heard behind Eugene.

“I thought I should answer, so I came here like this, Mr. Eugene.”

It was none other than the voice of Vivian, who had been dumped by Eugene earlier.