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by fnovelpiaEpisode 104. A relationship caused by mistakes brings back the past
“Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, hello!!!”
“…uh.”
The atmosphere became cold.
Jeong A-young’s complexion, which is not so white but is cooling down to purple.
A waist folded like a flip phone and a trembling voice.
Han Se-yeon’s expression as she faced all of this was close to a straight face.
Although I barely managed to come up with an answer.
Even as Jeong Ah-young’s waist was shaking and rising as if she was watching, she did not utter a single word.
When the word “goodbye” rings, it is right to return with “goodbye.”
but.
My older sister, who had been in a state of exhaustion for less than a day after the rebellion, was not in a good condition.
[You have earned 1500 points.]
Large points fill the front of your eyes.
I set the alarm to not sound unless it exceeds a certain limit.
A point like this clearly means that there has been a big emotional impact.
actually.
Han Se-yeon’s heart felt great as she looked at Jeong A-young.
On the outside, it was closer to being a little angry.
Wasn’t it herself that she was most angry about?
“Ayoungah.”
“Ugh, ugh. Uh, uh, uh, Sein… ”
Jeong Ah-young’s voice was trembling.
Basically, your boyfriend’s parents have the hardest time.
My older sister and older brother were even more difficult than my parents.
I can guess why she’s shaking like this, and she’s really cute.
I felt like my guilty mind was calming down.
It must be uncomfortable, right? It must be difficult, right?
Probably so.
It would already be an uncomfortable position and relationship.
Han Se-yeon was a former athlete and was preparing to take the leap to become an athlete again.
So let’s send it now.
What’s important now is not Jung A-young’s feelings, but Han Se-yeon’s feelings.
I’m sorry, and I’m sorry again.
If it’s to live. If you want to achieve your goal.
Because I have to do it.
“Go in carefully.”
“Uh, uh… ?!”
side.
I kissed Jeong Ah-young’s cheek.
Although I didn’t pay attention to Han Se-yeon on purpose, it was clear what kind of reaction she was receiving.
[You have earned 1231 points.]
point.
And I could feel her emotions, even if only minutely.
Jeong Ah-young was in his gaze.
Her gaze wavered wildly.
Me and Han Se-yeon.
Did you just realize that you were kissed on the cheek in front of your boyfriend’s older sister?
Her complexion turned pale, and she shouted hello as if she was running away.
“Me, me, me, I’ll go first!!!”
“Yes… ”
went.
Was he a kid who ran that fast?
Jeong A-young runs away like a rabbit being chased by a lion.
Han Se-yeon’s head turns towards her and then back to me.
There was no eye contact.
I look at the floor and the envelope in my hand.
The gift that Jeong A-young gave me was quite heavy.
Although it is difficult, it is enough to carry it home.
but.
“ugh… ”
My arms trembled slightly.
It was closer to the expression of shaking.
Han Se-yeon’s eyes are shaking and her hands are gradually rising.
The direction is my direction.
However, I turned my back.
It was a mark of being raped by Han Se-yeon.
My whole body was bruised and my muscles ached.
She will know too.
Even Han Se-yeon, a former athlete, made sounds of pain.
So what should I do?
Her heart will fall even heavier.
So I walked forward.
Not in the direction where my lovely sister is.
my home.
Semi-basement.
***
The hand that had risen fell down in vain.
I stretched out my hand but couldn’t reach it.
It was close but so far.
The world becomes dark.
I felt like I was left alone in the shadows left behind.
The sight of him slowly walking away was uneasy and lonely.
What can I say?
I raped my only lovely younger brother in the world.
He shook his waist against his will.
Seeing that my body was a little more sensitive than others, I rationalized that my mind was also like that.
A seething sense of guilt overflows.
It’s so funny.
It looks like an iron nail has been stuck.
My legs, which had not even moved, moved.
At best.
My younger brother is moving away and out of sight.
I live there, and my younger brother lives there.
He is heading to the prison that was created because he committed a big crime.
If you go in there, it will definitely hurt.
Even though my head is warning me and my heart is warning me.
Once again, I end up behind bars.
“Ah… ”
An exclamation flowed out.
There was no one there when I went down the stairs.
[Sister, what are you doing if you’re not coming?]
I couldn’t believe my ears because of the auditory hallucinations.
Obviously, standing there.
There was no younger brother who looked at me and asked when I was coming.
Already entered the house.
I forgot this very obvious fact.
I feel like my heart is festering.
As much as the love I had for my younger brother.
The darkness I fell into was cold and painful.
-Ding, ding ding. Dang.
Open the door and enter.
My younger brother always greeted me when I came home from work.
He said he had a hard time and gave me a light hug.
Just like any other, part of a happy marriage.
He hugged me and praised me for my hard work.
however.
“…rice is.”
[…rice is.]
“Not yet.”
[yet]
It went back to that time.
Four hellish years.
no.
It didn’t even feel like hell.
Because that was everyday life back then.
Cold and blunt.
Because it was a time when I didn’t say anything except what was necessary.
Far from being painful, it was natural.
I gave my younger brother an indelible wound.
If my younger brother hadn’t spoken to me first, I would have regretted it for the rest of my life and never been able to talk to him.
It was natural.
Because I am a coward.
Because he was a loser who ran away because he didn’t want to face responsibility.
So.
I couldn’t muster up the courage this time either.
“Sit down.”
“…uh.”
I sat quietly at the table.
It wasn’t a warm smile.
It was a cold expression.
I could see that he was trying not to look in my direction, let alone look at me.
The more I feel the little actions and words.
The dark feeling in my chest felt more explicit.
-Tak, percussion. widely.
Only the sound of dishes resounded quietly.
It didn’t take that long to prepare the meal.
Although the menu was the same as usual.
The rice, with its delicate white steam rising, felt very cold.
The cucumber kimchi that was supposed to be crunchy felt hard.
Food that was supposed to be spicy and salty felt dull.
sick.
It should hurt, but it didn’t hurt at all.
If I hurt like this.
What if the perpetrator is this sick?
How sick is my younger brother, the victim?
Living in the same house as the offender.
Do you have to pay attention to the offender and just keep going?
long.
It was the longest 30 minutes in the world.
After finishing the meal, Han Sein started washing the dishes.
Normally, I would have told him to get out of the way so I could do the dishes.
As soon as I confirmed that I had eaten everything, I couldn’t say anything as I saw the dishes being taken away and washed.
There was silence.
The most uncomfortable silence in the world.
How did you survive in the past?
Even trivial daily stories.
If it’s important, talk about the future.
If not, it’s not even a story from the past.
Without any words or action.
Like watching YouTube together.
How was school today, and how was training today?
What do you want to do in the future and how sorry were you for the past?
How did you get through this moment when you couldn’t even say a simple word?
Throbbing, throbbing.
My heart was trembling.
Even if you take your time sitting in the living room.
Even as I look at my younger brother walking out after carefully washing the dishes.
The painful sensation did not go away.
More than discomfort, the approaching sensation was painful.
After finishing the housework, my younger brother organized the envelopes.
A laptop and cables that look quite luxurious.
Maybe it feels like a charger?
As I glanced over, I met my younger brother’s gaze.
I belatedly looked at the ground and took a peek again.
Every time I look at my laptop, I think of Jeong A-young, whom I met earlier.
In the words I heard even though I didn’t want to hear them.
That laptop was a gift from Jeong A-young.
It was said that the special relationship became even stronger.
under.
A heavy breath came out without me knowing.
My throbbing heart stirred in a different way.
Fuck.
It felt like swear words were about to come out.
While I caused irreparable harm to my younger brother.
When I think of his girlfriend, I feel jealous.
Speaking of laptops.
Should I at least change my younger brother’s cell phone or buy him a pair of Bluetooth earphones?
Let go of your mistakes about your younger brother for a moment.
I hated myself for being filled with jealousy and wanting to do something to my younger brother.
That moment.
“……”
“……”
We ran into each other.
I made eye contact with my only younger brother, Han Sein.
His eyes were dark.
The eyes I saw for the first time today were dead.
dark? I do not know.
Did you hear a sigh?
His lips trembled slightly.
Despite the distance.
The eyes were focused on his face, observing his expression to the point of revealing it.
It was a human instinct, a kind of mechanism.
Beneath the throbbing pain.
My younger brother’s lonely words lingered in the air.
“I won’t use it often.”
“……”
“The electricity bill is coming… I’ll be careful.”
I stopped breathing.
A sense of guilt tickles my heart and swells.
It feels like it’s going to burst like a balloon, but it doesn’t burst.
just.
Push and hold the heart.
It was just constricting.
It was like before.
My younger brother’s eyes, gaze, and words.
entire.
Like the mistake of the day the lightning struck.
He was.
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