episode_0103

Ouch—!

“Damn…!“

Even as I was being dragged beyond the portal without mercy,

He started frantically tearing the tentacles apart with his dagger.

However, both wrists were bound by numerous tentacles that continued to extend out from the abyss.

I was kidnapped helplessly into that dark space with my mouth blocked.

“Huh…Huh…Huh…“

As I caught my breath, my vision began to completely change.

Unlike the pitch-black body of the monster I was standing in earlier,

Here, countless stars are embroidered,

It felt like I had been sucked into a beautiful universe.

Before my eyes, there was a mountain of tentacles of hideous size,

Very slowly, a woman was coming down from above, stepping on tentacles like steps.

“Mother…“

“What…what…?“

Kim Hye-jin, who was kidnapped with me, walked forward with tears in her eyes.

The tentacles carefully laid her down and cleared the way for her to move forward.

‘Damn…what happened…I can’t believe…that…it doesn’t make sense…’

Along with my anxiety, my whole skin started to break out in goosebumps.

One of the first targets I hated the most and tried to kill as soon as I saw it,

She is a goddess revered by the church and known as an ancient god of great love.

She appeared proudly before my eyes.

It was walking very slowly towards the bound me.

‘Damn…damn…! It’s almost done…! Shit…!’

Before the dimension door completely closed, I reached out toward the holey gate.

Then, all at once, according to my command, the weapons rushed towards me one after another.

He stared at her, holding his katana and revolver.

“Great Mother…you have finally…revealed yourself to me…“

“…Yes, it’s been a while, baby.“

She slowly extended her hand towards the matriarch.

Then she carefully squeezed the goddess’s hand and, with tears in her eyes, brought it to her cheek.

He cried sadly like a child and hugged her tightly.

“Mother…Mother…”

“It’s okay…everything is okay…you’ve had a really hard time…“

“Ugh…Mom…I’m sorry…I…I’m everything…“

“Shhh…it’s okay. It’s not your fault, Hyejin… Now, look here.“

At the place she pointed to, a middle-aged man stood politely.

He raised his arms and smiled brightly,

As soon as he smiled, Kim Hye-jin hugged him and buried her head in his shoulder.

‘Is it like a hallucination… or mind control…? Damn it…if I don’t get out of there quickly…’

Blue eyes sparkled behind the glasses he wore,

I could see his wrinkled but energetic face at the same time.

After taking over this body, in a simple funeral.

It was the exact same face as the previous head of the family that was captured in the family photo left behind by Han Seo-jin.

Again… again…

The ancient god slowly started walking towards me.

There was a black eyepatch over one of her eyes,

A jet black shirt and pink coat blowing in the wind.

Moreover, numerous tentacles were crawling out from between the gaps in the coat and were staring at me.

“Hello, Kanglimja.“

“You…just waiting there…I’ll kill you right away…“

“…No, there is no need to wait.“

Cheollarak—!

When she waved her hand, the tentacles that were wrapping around me suddenly untied me.

I kicked the ground as hard as I could and swung my katana at her.

Percussion—!

“…“

“…“

But my sword was lost in the air,

I gasped and glared at her one good eye.

“…Why did you stop?“

“Ugh…huh…if I were a fool like you…I thought I would curse you as soon as I struck down my sword. Like reflection magic or some fucking black magic that I don’t understand.“

“…Calm down. I invited you not as a trap or as a curse.“

She slowly turned her head and looked in the direction where the matriarch was.

The two lovers there were hugging each other and shedding tears.

The goddess watched the scene for a moment and then looked back at me.

“If it’s okay, would you like to go for a walk? I think there are a lot of things I want to ask.“

“…Know well, I have no choice but to rip you to death right now…“

“…If that makes you feel better, feel free to stab me with a knife.“

She spread her arms and looked at me.

“I have committed a great sin against you. And how much you suffered…I saw it all clearly with my own eyes.“

“So…no matter how much you hate me, I know it’s all my fault…but…if it’s okay for a little while, won’t you listen to my story?“

“…“

After sheathing the katana, I let out a deep sigh.

“If I ever think of doing something foolish, I will commit suicide right away. Before mind control or anything else works, I’ll die and turn back time…“

“So don’t do anything strange.“

“…Yes, okay.“

She looked at my katana and smiled sadly.

Then she lightly crossed her hand, and another gate appeared there.

There, a flower garden full of peaceful flowers appeared.

Again… again…

Trash…Trudge…

‘…A person who understands words more than you think…No, I guess he’s an ancient god…’

I walked after her and shook my head like crazy.

After entering this world, I encountered the existence of an ancient god for the first time in my life.

The Mother of Love, worshiped by the cult I hated, was right in front of me.

Although she was covered in numerous tentacles and gave off a disgusting aura.

Right now, her face, body, and even her body odor.

To the extent that there is no difference from other children who have been with me so far,

She had the appearance of an extremely ordinary woman.

“Now, sit down.“

“…That’s it.“

I didn’t drink the tea she offered,

Without even sitting on the chair she had given me, I placed my hand on the handle of the katana.

But she nodded with a benevolent expression as if she understood,

I fell into silence for a moment while looking at the beautiful flower garden filled with pink.

“…I’m sorry.“

“…What?“

“…I’m…really…so sorry…“

I looked at her with a frozen expression.

The ancient god lowered his head and trembled,

A cycle of shaking shoulders and irregular breathing.

And the tears flowing down my cheeks were clearly visible.

“I’m really…so sorry…I…it’s all my fault…“

‘The ancient god…is apologizing to me…it can’t be…’

I have completed the simulation in my head several times so far.

The day I see her in person, I will swing my sword as much as I can.

I will cut off that abominable branch and let out all the anger that has been building up until now.

Even if my arms and legs fall off,

He said he would kill her by tearing her in half and then protect the few surviving children from harm.

I lived like that, vowing to myself over and over again and sharpening my sword for revenge.

‘Is it a trap…or is it acting…something…strange…’

Having been betrayed several times, I have acquired the ability to intuitively sense signs of unrest.

When I see her sniffling and shedding tears in front of me right now,

I started to feel something strange.

I carefully removed my hand from the katana and sighed.

Then he took a handkerchief out of his pocket and handed it to her carefully.

“Now, take it.“

“Ugh…thank you…“

She slowly wiped her eyes and then cleared her throat.

Although his eyes were swollen, he quickly regained his strength and spoke to me.

“I’m so…sorry…everything…it’s all my fault…that you suffered like that…that you fell into this world…everything…“

“…“

“On a day when I was observing the universe in solitude, I happened to hear your voice. Although it was very small and thin, the soul inside it was very shiny. Like a blue star.“

“Do you remember the wish you made before you died?“

“…I want to make you happy just once…and I want to live a life where I am loved by someone.“

“That’s right…you still have a good memory.“

“That resigned voice was so thin… I carefully looked at the life you lived.”

“You have lived such a harsh life since a young age… I felt so sorry for you. And I wanted to help you make the wish you made right before you die come true.“

“So… I have invited you to this world with the understanding of the god who governs your world. I hope you…are happy, just as I hoped.“

“지랄하지 마…행복을 바랐다던 년이…네 이름 밑에서 떵떵거리던 교단새끼들이 그녀들을 찢어 죽이던 게…말이 된다고 생각하는 거야!!!“

bang—-!

I was so angry that I hit the table as hard as I could.

All the teacups on the table were broken and became useless trash.

I released my wrists and glared at her with murderous intent.

She looked at me with bright eyes,

Soon, he clenched his fists and spoke again.

“I’m sorry for being a useless god… I… just wanted you to be happy… I never… never wanted you to be unhappy…!“

“It was all my fault… I, who had no power or ability, brought you, the descendant… and… my apostle betrayed me… and the world you arrived in is heading towards destruction. It happened.“

“…“

She carefully placed an old leather box on the table.

There were many faded photos in it, and he took out one of them and showed it to me.

“Do you remember this day? The day you first stepped into this world. You…“

“Han Seo-jin hung himself, and when he was about to die by suicide, I took over his body. know. I’ve been subjected to this shit twice.“

“…That’s not actually true. To be more precise…“

She carefully folded her hands over mine.

“I…gave birth to you.“

“…Cut that nonsense.“

widely…

I shook off her hand and glared at her with my arms crossed.

“…I changed my appearance a little to not attract other people’s attention…but look at this. Your appearance. Isn’t it the same as the way I remembered you from before…?“

She slowly took out a hand mirror and looked at me.

Instead of blue eyes, there were brown eyes.

Although he looked a bit like Han Seo-jin, he was the one I remembered.

Strictly speaking, I looked exactly the same as I did before I came into this world.

“I took after your genes and your appearance…I went down to a human body for a while and gave birth to you…I myself.“

“And I continued to grow you, so that you could become the body you originally had when you were 20… Even though you didn’t even have a proper self yet because you didn’t have a soul… You were growing in my arms like that. “

She bit her lower lip as if she was reluctant to say something,

Soon, he began to speak slowly and clearly.

“But…Han Tae-woo poisoned the previous head of the family…and me at the same time. That’s how I left you alone… And the day Han Tae-woo tried to kill you… “

“Your mind was hastily put into that body when you were 17 years old. If Iuri couldn’t save you…you probably wouldn’t be by my side by now.“

With mixed feelings, I took out a cigarette and

After lighting the fire, he spoke coldly to her.

“A person who is like a god. Can’t they even prevent poisoning? Why don’t you just stare at someone like Han Tae-woo without stopping him? Do you even know how many people died in front of my eyes because you neglected them like that?“

“…“

She lowered her head and spoke to me in a trembling voice.

“The world… doesn’t need love anymore.“

“What?“

“…A fateful meeting, a beautiful love…is now long gone.“

She lowered her eyes and spoke softly to me.

“Humans value each other, and there are companies that specialize in this and connect them. Education, occupation, parents’ wealth, and even the other person’s height and body… you matched each other by scoring everything.“

“There is no love there. Just a thorough calculation. They did not have children, and even if they did, they were treated as a nuisance. Children’s books were not read to them, and they were left unattended, with computers and iPads becoming their only friends.“

“…“

“From a young age, we learn to compete rather than cooperate, and we swear without hesitation to avoid getting hurt by others. They get very angry at even the smallest things, and are too busy grading, discriminating, and looking down on each other rather than showing consideration and respect.”

“I’m not blaming you. Love has naturally become useless…rather than helping and loving each other altruistically. Despising, competing with, and discriminating against each other has become the mainstream of your society. That…became a new way of survival.“

Her hands were dripping with black liquid, as if they were dipped in pitch-black asphalt solution.

I folded her hands and stubbed out the cigarette with my foot.

“I’m sorry…the God you don’t need…has no power…so…I couldn’t protect you…I just watch and support you…and pray that you overcome well. I had no choice but to do it.“

“…“

“You captured the victory beautifully. Even though you experienced tragic events that were truly unfortunate and felt like your spirit was breaking… you stood up and fought back. I fought in my name…against those who ignored you.“

“Even in extremely difficult circumstances, you used your wits to turn the tide. You brought together children who had nowhere to go and embraced them with love. You… were so cool and cheering me on.”

“I’m almost there…I almost made it…but unfortunately you couldn’t stop the coming destruction…because that apostle…the apostle who betrayed me…made a contract with the god of destruction. That…is no longer an area you can do anything about.“

“셅…“

She took my hand and gently placed it towards one of her eyes.

When I took off the blindfold, the place was already empty and there was nothing left.

It was a terrible sight there, not even tears flowing.

“So…we made a deal. So that you, the descendant, can go back to the past…I made a deal with one of my eyes.“

“So…don’t hate me too much…please…I…I…“

She hugged me and buried her head in my shoulder.

“I just wanted you to be happy…“

I patted her on the back without saying anything.

Then she poured out the tears she had been holding back and hugged me.

I just said nothing and stroked her head until she calmed down.

‘…It was much more complicated than I thought…’

I hugged the ancient god of love whom I hated so much,

I spent some time stroking her hair.

Should I cut off his head like this and kill him completely?

Or should I just keep quiet for a moment and listen to her story?

Is this a prison decorated with flowers, or is it truly a peaceful meeting place?

I couldn’t easily figure it out in my head.