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[Episode 103] – The age where I know everything

“Ugh… I can’t leave out the street stalls…”

The day before going to the Snow Festival, Titania was sitting at her desk planning a date plan. In fact, I had been planning a date plan ever since the festival began, but it wasn’t easy to decide.

Titania tapped the desk a couple of times with a fountain pen, lost in thought, and then looked at the date course she had planned. I never imagined that one day would be so short in my life.

‘The first thing to do is to go out early in the morning and see the ice sculpture on the lake. For lunch, we walked around the street stalls and had a light meal with food sold at street stalls. After that, we looked around the festival street for a bit and then walked in the snow with my mother…’

When Titania read the date course she had planned, the corners of Titania’s mouth did not drop. I made a strange laughing sound like “hehehe” and even stamped my feet because I was so excited that I couldn’t stand it. What do we do? It’s so good I can’t stand it.

A festival to enjoy just with your mother! The two of you hold hands and go for a walk! Let’s eat snacks together at a street vendor! Dining in a place with a great atmosphere! He was happy that he could share his wish with his mother. Moreover, if you imagine the skinship with your mother that will occur in the process…

“Hehehe!”

It seemed like the memories of this festival alone would be enough to get me through the three years of the Academy. When times are hard, I think I can bear it by remembering my memories with my mother. Imagine holding hands or clasping hands together. I wanted to leave memories that went beyond that, but it wasn’t easy.

These days, my mother stopped kissing me because she thought it was disgusting for a grown child to be hugged. I hope I get a kiss this time. I didn’t even want a kiss in the serious atmosphere of a romance novel. It was just that I felt like my mother would give me just one kiss on the cheek and I would have no wish.

In fact, considering the greed blooming deep inside my heart, a kiss alone was not enough. Because kissing is something only children do. If I kissed my mother, I would not be able to resist opening my lips, so I was satisfied with a kiss on the cheek.

Titania was at an age where she already knew everything.

I knew everything about the kind of skinship shared between loved ones and the type of love shared in bed. And, I even knew how to share that love with women. I knew I could make love even without it.

The source was the red book lent to me by Viola. A romance novel in which the main characters are not a man and a woman, but rather a woman and a woman. In the book that described the love between women and each other, it even included ways for women to share love with each other. I have to keep it a secret because I know my mother will freak out if she asks where it came from.

I knew nothing until I read this book. Even women have skinship with each other, and I was able to see that there was a way to do that. Did you say that books are food for the mind? Titania read the book Viola lent her until it became her own blood and flesh.

If he really became a ‘lover’ with his mother like the story in the book, it was clear that this date would end as a sleepover and he would return to the castle the next morning. In the last line of the date course you wrote down, there must have been two additional words written: ‘hotel’ or ‘stay out’.

With my mother… and the place where they do things like that…

“Hehehehe…”

Titania’s face heated up as if it was going to explode.

I couldn’t even sit down anymore, so I folded up the paper I wrote down my date course on, put it in my pocket, and jumped onto the bed as if I was diving. Then, because of my uncontrollable emotions, I hugged the pillow and rolled over on the bed.

But even for a moment. Titania, who was rolling around on the bed, looked at the ceiling and sighed. That’s because he knows that the love he wants to receive is a love that cannot be easily achieved. Titania knew that her love was not ‘normal’.

Who would look at their adoptive mother with the same eyes as themselves?

She was even a princess of a country, and her mother was a queen of a country. This was by no means a normal love, and a love that could not be achieved normally. So Titania had half given up.

So, it’s okay not to receive that kind of affectionate love from your mother, and it’s okay not to confess your feelings. I just thought it would be nice to live the rest of my life next to my mother.

That was enough for Titania. No, I was satisfied with just that. I thought that if I could just give up this greed, I could be with my mother for the rest of my life. Really, forever together…

Titania, hugging the pillow tightly, muttered in a low voice.

“Ha… I hope tomorrow comes quickly…”

Titania woke up quickly from bed and started checking the date course again. Are there any better places, are there better restaurants, are you missing anything, are you sure about what to wear tomorrow?

I began preparing thoroughly to ensure that there was not a single mistake.

To make happy memories with my mother.

*

“…Where did you get clothes like this?”

I looked in the mirror and looked at what I was wearing. The clothes I was wearing in the mirror were simple everyday clothes worn by ordinary people.

Clothes that look like a dress shirt, a long skirt in a rough color like brown, clothes that don’t seem to be a cloak or robe to protect against the cold, a leather bag that can be worn sideways, and sturdy leather shoes.

“…The maids will be scared if they see me now.”

If the maids looked at me now, they would scream.

What clothes are the queen and princess wearing? It was clear that they would make a fuss to take it off right away. When I turned my head to look at Titania, she was wearing familiar clothes and looking at me.

“are you okay. “Mom looks pretty no matter what she wears.”

“That’s not the problem…”

…I wanted to nag Titania about why she had these clothes, but I soon stopped. I didn’t think there was anything wrong with nagging me on a day like today when I was going to have fun, so I just kept my mouth shut and let out a small sigh.

“What, are you ready already?”

As I was looking at Titania’s outfit that looked similar to mine, the terrace door burst open! It opened and Veronica walked out.

Veronica held a small black cat in her arms. I knew Catsy was a cat fairy, but this was my first time seeing her in cat form.

When I waved at Catsy at the sight of her cute cat, Catsy turned her head and avoided my gaze, as if she didn’t like me. As I looked sullen at the cold response, Veronica continued explaining as if she was not interested.

“I’ll roughly connect the terrace to the festival venue, so you can come in through the door you came out of when you come back. “If anything happens, I will contact Titania, so don’t worry and have fun.”

“……”

“What? “Why are you looking at me like that?”

How can you not be worried?

Honestly, it was a big deal because I was so worried.

Is it okay for me to leave this place? Could it be that Katsy is pretending to be me and doing strange things to the maids while I am away? Half doubt and half worry, I couldn’t keep my footing.

I glanced at the clothes Veronica was wearing and made an excuse.

“No… I thought there was something strange about you wearing Titania clothes.”

“Are you trying to tell me that you don’t suit me?”

To be honest, it didn’t suit me.

Even though they have the same face as Titania, why do they look so different from each other? The bright-colored dress with lots of frills and sharp eyes looked like a doll that had been forced to wear it, and I almost laughed. When I tried to laugh, Veronica twitched her eyes in annoyance.

I cleared my throat with a ‘humph’ and asked Veronica.

“Please… you have to stay in your room. “I told the maids never to enter my room except to bring me food… And if you meet anyone, just stay quiet… Don’t say anything… And…”

“How many years have I been growing up in Wangseong? I won’t do anything strange, so just go quickly! Why are you so suspicious?!”

“Now, just a moment! Say hello to Ainsel…!”

I avoided Veronica’s gaze and looked at Ainsel, who had a drooping face. Since last week, he has been looking like a beaver whose house has collapsed.

Is it so sad to go to a festival without yourself?

“Ainsel, ainsel. “Can you take a look at me?”

-……

“Please understand Titania… okay? Next time, let’s all three go together.”

-……

“And… now might be your chance, right? “A chance to talk to Veronica.”

Heinsel slightly raised his head at the word Veronica and looked at me. The expression on his face was so sad that he seemed ready to burst into tears at any moment.

I was speechless for a moment at the expression on his face that was a mixture of various emotions, including the sadness of abandoning me and the pain of having to be with Veronica, who was difficult to deal with.

“Ah, anyway… now is your chance. Let’s talk at least once and get to know each other. got it?”

-…I don’t know, I’ll just go quickly. The princess is waiting.

Because of Ainsel, who turned his back on me, I didn’t fall off my feet. It would have been nice to go with Ainsel, but Titania insisted on being ‘alone’ with me, so I had no choice.

Titania said she would persuade Ainsel, but it didn’t seem to work out well. Although Titania came to the festival and said she would comfort him…

I continued speaking while gently brushing the edge of Ainsel’s mirror.

“…Okay, I’ll come back. Think carefully about what I said last week. got it?”

-…Yes, got it.

When I turned my head, I saw Titania waiting for me. Half excited, half worried. This is exactly how I felt right now.

I was excited and looking forward to going to the festival for the first time, but I was also worried about Veronica and Ainsel, who would remain here.

…Ugh, what should I worry about from now on? I sighed again and held out my hand to Titania, who was waiting in front of me. It’s going to be as cold as the word “snowflake festival,” so you should at least hold hands.

“Titania, take my hand.”

“……”

“Titania?”

“Oh, no. yes “I’ll catch you!”

Titania’s eyes widened for a moment as if she was embarrassed, then she came up to me with a gasp and grabbed my hand. Then he looked intently at my hand, which was tightly clasped with mine, and then smiled broadly as if he was truly happy. Is it really that good…

I turned my head and gave a small wave to Veronica, who was looking at me and Titania sullenly. Veronica received my greeting and crossed her legs and waved her hand, telling me to go quickly.

“Then, I’ll come back. “Take care of your home.”

“Am I the one…”

Leaving Veronica behind and going through the terrace door with Titania, we found ourselves in an alley behind a shopping mall. As I walked towards the place where I could hear the noisy sounds of people, a street lined with street vendors came into view.

Obviously, it was still early in the day, but the streets seemed to have been filled with a festive atmosphere for a long time. When I turned my head to look at Titania, I saw that she was looking around the street with sparkling eyes. If you look at me like this, I feel like a child…

I smiled as I looked at Titania’s appearance, and squeezed my hands together tightly. As I walked out of the alley, Titania followed behind me.

“So, where should we start? “Let’s go wherever you want.”