episode_0103

“…Quite impressive.”

He dragged me to the cafe, insisting that I listen to a proper story.

And now, having unraveled all the tales.

“Ugh… I want to die.”

I felt more embarrassed than ever before.

The drama’s protagonist always seemed spectacular, but it’s not all sunshine and rainbows.

“Heh~ Is this an appetizer?”

“What…!”

“Just kidding. I’m not the type to blabber about stuff like this, am I? I’ll take it to the grave for real.”

“Ugh… Please spare me.”

He seemed like he wanted me to sign some contract, trying to pull out a piece of paper, but I just blocked it with my hand.

What kind of contract was he trying to write?

If it’s some confidentiality agreement, then it’s unnecessary.

Living both physically and mentally like a woman, my gender is already specified as female no matter where you look.

The way I was when I was a man and how I am as a woman now are vastly different.

My skin tone has lightened, my face has become smaller, I’ve shrunk a bit in height, and my hair has grown much longer.

There are countless changes, but it all boils down to my mindset being the issue.

“Sigh… My heart hurts.”

As I caressed my chest, my sister hugged me from the side.

“So, what about sleeping together?”

“…That doesn’t seem possible.”

I thought it was just a passing thing, but my sister still seems to have insomnia.

“Hmm… If your husband asks to borrow me for just one day…”

“I want to sleep with my brother.”

“It’s a secret…”

My sister’s lips curl into a smile.

Where did the person threatening to drag me to the grave go?

“Sister…?”

“Oh. Of course, it’s just a joke… They say things are lovey-dovey during the honeymoon period… After that, there might be a chance…”

“Not happening.”

“What if…?”

“It’s not a ‘what if.’ It’s not happening. There’s no way. I wouldn’t just leave it be like that.”

I’ve already made plans for the second scenario, but just because the honeymoon is over doesn’t mean my brother and I will start using separate beds.

Sometimes I might consider staying out overnight when I want to be alone.

But I don’t even know when these “sometimes” would be.

I find it more comfortable to sleep next to my brother. I feel uneasy when he’s not around.

“Hmm… I can’t sleep there, so what should I do?”

“Don’t look for me, go to the hospital.”

My sister lets out a deep sigh.

She must have already gone and come back.

“You didn’t go to the hospital because you don’t trust doctors. You should have gone earlier.”

“But I could only sleep when you were by my side, right?”

“Yeah. So I’ll look for you.”

There’s no solution.

Honestly, right now, and even if a baby is born… I might not even get to meet them.

My brother would also feel anxious without me.

I would too.

Sleeping with three people in the same bed?

That sounds a bit foolish.

“Let’s wait for the future. It’s not possible now… When the baby is born, goes to elementary school, reaches a level where we can entrust them to our mother… And then, after that, if my brother happens to go on a trip alone or have to go on a business trip, what do you think will happen, although it seems impossible?”

“…So how many years?”

“Just ten more years, no more.”

“Come on.”

My sister finishes her coffee.

In reality, I’m spending my time like this right now.

Like a sleeping princess, I sleep with my brother, and then when he goes to work, I meet my sister in the morning, and we sleep again until she figures it out.

It’s fine to sleep twice.

Actually, I’m feeling sleepy right now.

“Hehehe, I wonder if I can actually sleep well with you.”

It sounded a bit strange, but it was just a typical lament of an ordinary insomniac.

*

“Can you hear it?”

“Oh… I’m not sure.”

By this point, they said you should be able to feel the movements.

The baby’s gender has already been confirmed through ultrasound.

The baby now had a name, Ji-eun.

“Ji-eun~”

Despite the brother calling out to her belly, there was still no movement.

After meeting her sister, it was confirmed at the obstetrics and gynecology clinic that she was growing well.

“Is she sleeping…?”

“She might be. You can’t feel it when she’s supposed to be like this. We can check again tomorrow.”

“Do you not like me…?”

“What nonsense. She’s sleeping well because I’m her dad~”

Until we got home, she was moving well.

I marveled at it every time.

“Oh. Oh!?”

“Oh. She’s awake.”

The baby kicked.

Is there anything else besides this?

It’s the sound of her growing well.

“Wow… Ji-eun, Daddy is here~”

Even though she’s small, her belly calls out.

If I go halfway, I think she’ll call out more when I get closer, which makes me happy but also makes it harder to contain my excitement.

“Take good care of her… but don’t just give love to Ji-eun.”

It may seem foolish to be jealous of a baby, but anyway, since I’m doing well too, I have more to receive from my brother.

“Ugh… The baby is really heavy.”

“I… I’m still light, light!”

As we sat on the couch like this, time flew by quickly.

My brother lifted me up, but this time he hesitated for a moment.

“No… the baby is heavy.”

“Uh… Be prepared today.”

My brother carried me to the bed.

“Hmm. We’re family. I don’t think family should do that to each other.”

What is my brother talking about?

“Hehe. What did I hear today? It’s a very important love.”

“…Talking about the matter?”

“No, love.”

Now that we’re in the middle stage, I can do it.

My brother surely knows what it is.

“Being intense… isn’t allowed, but it can be done. There are also stories that it’s good for the baby’s growth, but I don’t know about that…”

I grabbed my brother tightly.

“Um…”

“Trust… the stockings. I can’t do it because of my belly.”

My brother seemed slightly excited at the mention of stockings.

Actually, I haven’t worn them much.

“Hehe. Excited?”

“Yeah. My wife wants to, so I have to. Oh, I feel like doing it after a long time.”

Indeed, love for stockings is different.

“Fool. You’re not doing it out of obligation, right?”

“Nah. We haven’t done it for a while.”

If my brother’s love is for stockings, mine is for the baby.

I’ve endured not doing it even though I was told not to.

I thoroughly researched the precautions.

“Then… lie down. It will be quite different from before.”

Tonight was expected to be warm after a long time.

“Wake up~”

“Uh… ”

Perhaps it was because it was a warm night after a long time, I woke up earlier than my brother.

“I’ll make breakfast right away. I can really make it today.”

Helping my brother prepare breakfast and feeding him instead of preparing it alone while getting ready for work is touching for my brother and helps avoid being rushed.

“Thank you…”

“Sure. I’ll bring the medicine, so let’s eat together and go.”

The age difference… I don’t know.

We were good together, but is it going to be a storm after it ends?

I’m fine, but my brother isn’t.

He’s approaching the end stage soon, so I heard I can start working from home.

You never know when it will happen.

I’m already trying to keep my weak body healthy, so if labor pains come, I’ll collapse.

“I made some soup… and there’s leftover tonkatsu. It won’t taste the same as yesterday, but for breakfast… this is all I could manage.”

There shouldn’t be any tonkatsu left, but one unexpectedly remained from yesterday.

I forgot about it.

So, I made it hastily for breakfast.

Grill it again, cut it into small pieces, and it’s quick to eat.

If you’re going to pack a lunchbox, this would be better.

“Uh, uh… Sounds good.”

Eating the warm soup and rice deliciously, then having the freshly fried tonkatsu was truly adorable.

“If I go to bed a bit earlier, I can prepare breakfast right away.”

Unable to do both together, she brought up these words.

“Yeah, it’s okay. It’s better to talk and share after you come back from work.”

Although she had asked her brother to wake her up, ultimately, it was his choice not to wake her up.

“Um… Okay. I’ll try both.”

“That… won’t work. Even if you want to, your body won’t allow it.”

“Thank you.”

“I worry about you. Take care of yourself. Sleeping all day and just eating won’t cut it.”

Heh, that’s not true.

Unknowingly taking a break, household chores became a necessity rather than a choice.

“Yeah, I’ll do that~”

However, if one word slips out here, it could lead to worries, encouragement, and countless possibilities of prevention, so she decided to accept it.

“Anyway… I know you won’t listen to me, but be careful, be very careful.”

“Ah. It would be tough if only you did everything.”

“Yeah. I’m going now.”

Even though they stayed up late, he kissed her before leaving.

“I used to do it secretly while you were asleep… but this way is better.”

“If you’re going to kiss me, wake me up and do it. I have no memory.”

Doing nice things should be felt by both parties.

“Um… I don’t like that.”

“Oh…! Oppa!”

Oppa smiled, gave her a short final kiss, and quickly fled outside, seeming to defy my wishes not to listen.

“Geez….”

It would be great if we both did it, but it really doesn’t work out.

At night, I miss my brother too and want to share what happened during the day, but he wants to sleep first.

And if that happens, I definitely can’t get up.

“Sigh….”

I finish washing the dishes and laundry before falling asleep.

“It’s time. Come pick me up… Sir. Am I the only one feeling this breeze-like sensation?”

“Right. I thought about it too. That’s why… I just wanted to do it once.”

He left abruptly without a chance to speak, making this feel completely like a fling.

A night with a woman… or rather, a daytime affair?

“For now… let’s go.”

I have to tell my brother before leaving. I’m not spreading rumors.

There is no “if.”

Other men are out of the question, and as for women… how does that even work?