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Siwoo continued to make all sorts of requests after that.

Wanting to go out for coffee together. Suggesting a walk for a change of mood. Asking for an energy drink because he wanted to study all night.

He was determined to do everything that couples do during exam season, and eventually, I had to call it quits first because I was exhausted.

It was a good thing I mentioned needing time for piano practice a week before uploading the video.

If not, he might have stayed at our place the whole exam period instead of going to his place.

Kang Hwi even suggested adding another bed to my room, but we’re not at the stage of sharing a bed yet.

On the first day of becoming Chaewon, we fell asleep in the same room without a second thought. But now that I think about it, there was no fox around.

She even confidently took a bath.

…It’s not that I dislike spending time with Siwoo.

The problem arises when we start dating, and holding hands with him becomes natural, my body keeps craving for the next level.

It’s not just men.

Women also want to hold onto the wrist when holding hands. And when holding the wrist, they want to hold onto the forearm. Gradually revealing possessiveness in different areas.

Ah, this must be female hormones. Wanting to give everything to the man you like, that’s what this feeling is.

Instinctively telling me to make him mine, but it’s not time yet. Even Siwoo doesn’t openly show his desires, so why should I?

He didn’t declare that he’ll take the lead for no reason. If I accidentally rush things and go too far, he might not be able to control himself, so we need to take it step by step.

Yes. I need to calm down.

The desire to make Siwoo mine grows stronger every day.

But for now, I have to be satisfied with holding hands, leaning on his shoulder, and resting my head against his.

…But eventually, his touch will reach my neck, stomach, and thighs.

Maybe a little rehearsal wouldn’t hurt… If he tries to rush things and go too far, I need to stop him.

What if he suddenly loses control and goes wild? If neither of us restrains ourselves, the outcome is clear.

Although there are no laws prohibiting a 20-year-old and a 19-year-old from being in a relationship. Still, men have their conscience.

Despite just a one-year age difference, once you become an adult, a minor starts to feel like a huge barrier. I don’t want to trigger Siwoo’s guilt.

“…No.”

I came from three years in the future. So, a 23-year-old getting involved with a 19-year-old is not right.

That would be more sinful. No. Absolutely not.

What’s the point of a rehearsal? It’s just an excuse to touch my body, I’m a disgusting and despicable person.

I was thrashing around on the bed, my hair a mess, and ended up at the edge of the mattress.

“Uh, huh?!”

If the canopy curtain hadn’t caught me, I would have fallen onto the marble floor and kissed it deeply.

I grabbed the canopy curtain and climbed back onto the bed, panting.

Lying on the bed, staring at the canopy ceiling, a sigh escaped me involuntarily.

“What the hell are you doing…?”

I pressed my face into the large pillow, thinking.

Instead of wasting time on useless thoughts, I should think about how to find Siwoo’s color quickly.

***

During exam season, students at Hanyang University’s Department of Music use the Baekjoong Hall for their exams.

The reason for using a hall with no audience as an exam venue is simple. It’s the professors’ kind consideration to help students adapt to the stage in advance for their future.

So, during exam season, each department takes turns using the auditorium and hall. This semester, the Violin Department was assigned to use the Baekjoong Hall on Mondays…

Thanks to that, Yoon Jiyu finished the exam earlier than others. It seemed like all the major required courses and general elective courses had exams scheduled for last Thursday and Friday.

“It’s so nice to finish the exam early. We can have time to eat patbingsu and chat with Chaewon.”

Talking about a patbingsu party was almost like receiving an invitation to be used by her throughout the summer vacation.

Wasn’t it Yoon Jiyu who opportunistically caught Jung Siwoo, who had failed the end-of-semester exam and fallen into despair?

Thanks to her, three years ago, Siwoo couldn’t manage his schedule until the scheduled concours with Yoon Jiyu in October.

It was almost natural that Siwoo, who suffered from severe lack of recognition, couldn’t shake off Yoon Jiyu, who praised him as the “best musician.”

Throughout his second and third year, just the thought of the summer and fall of his first year made Siwoo’s teeth chatter.

For a while, just hearing the sound of the violin made his head ache, and on days when he heard that Yoon Jiyu was doing well, he was so overwhelmed by the aftermath that he couldn’t even touch the piano.

To make matters worse, three years ago, Siwoo had to say goodbye to Chaewon in the following spring. How desperate must he have been?

Being mocked was infuriating enough, but losing the beacon of life suddenly made Siwoo feel like he had to live life with determination.

From that day until he became a fourth-year student, Siwoo’s life was always downhill. It felt like sliding down a water slide with a lid that you didn’t know when it would end.

So, I can’t forgive Yoon Jiyu. I have to continue with even the smallest revenge to feel satisfaction.

Finally.

“Well, actually… Today, I have to tell you something a bit regrettable.”

Yoon Jiyu began to speak hesitantly.

Is it finally coming? The moment when she reveals her sharp fangs to me, just like she did to Siwoo.

The angelic facade she showed me is now being replaced by her true self.

Since I also want to properly take revenge, I should take out the hidden blade and strike.

“My father… He wants to meet you. You… met him before, right?”

But to my surprise, Yoon Jiyu once again raised the shield of Yoon Kwancheol.

Denying any wrongdoing, she smoothly shifted the focus to her father.

“Oh, your father…?”

“Yeah. He said he wants to talk to you.”

“To me? Why…?”

“Well, that’s… ”

With an awkward expression, Yoon Jiyu scratched her cheek for a while and mumbled.

“It seems like he wants us to form a duet.”

It was a situation completely different from what I had expected.

Is this phenomenon happening because she sees me as a rival to Jung Siwoo?

“Surely before… ”

In her past life, Yoon Jiyu had poured out all kinds of insults to me as soon as the concours ended and then disappeared.

During the less than 10-minute conversation, my mental state exploded several times.

“Why… Just because I was the runner-up in the Paganini concours, do you expect to receive the same treatment?”

“What… What are you saying? What have you done? There were many others who accompanied me. You were just one of my many toys. Didn’t you know that?”

“Siwoo, please come to your senses.”

“I made you suffer in vain. I wasted your time. I took all your resources. Don’t you still understand?”

“You idiot. That’s why you couldn’t even confess to the girl you liked.”

In the face of the pouring insults, I couldn’t say anything.

I couldn’t do anything. Because it was all true.

Fooled by the promise of letting go of Chaewon and her legs, I was elated, thinking Yoon Jiyu had finally acknowledged me.

When she came in second place in the Paganini concours, I was as happy as if I had come in second place as well.

Just as much time as I spent on Yoon Jiyu, I didn’t spend time with myself and Min Chaewon.

I was indeed a fool, just as she said.

But why. Why did Yoon Ji-yoo become like this? Was it because of Min Chae-won? Or was it because of my approach? What exactly made Yoon Ji-yoo like this?

“A du… duet….”

“It seems like you know that I’m a free spirit now. I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to take you home that time either.”

Yoon Ji-yoo, washing her face with both hands, expressed her frustration without reservation.

“My father seems to think that I will definitely win a prize in the concours.”

“Y-your confidence… seems a bit excessive.”

“Heh. Is that so?”

Yoon Ji-yoo lightly brushed my head and said.

“No matter what my father says, I don’t have time. I have to go. I’ve tried to convince him several times, but it didn’t work… so I have to take you with me.”

“B-but… I can’t say such things…”

“Don’t worry. I’ll support you wholeheartedly.”

“C-can’t I just not go? I-I’m scared…?!”

“If you don’t go, someone will come looking for you in person…”

Am I being deceived? But it seems too sincere to be a lie.

‘Maybe I hide too much, so she keeps doubting me.’

Like with Jung Si-woo, I should show everything I can. That way, Yoon Ji-yoo can definitely tear me apart.

I thought I had relaxed enough so far, but she is still not an easy person.

“It’s not a free spirit….”

“… Huh? Really? Do you have something to do?”

“Yes.”

The me from the past, the me from the future. Both were thorough people, so even while running the channel Aclerct for 3 years, I never showed my face in front of people.

But unlike before when no one knew except Song Sung-hyuk and Jin Sae-byeok, now many people know. Si-woo knows, Yoon Ji-chang knows, even Manager Kwon Han-gil and Manager Oh Seok-jin know.

Even if I hide it tightly, someday Min Chae-won’s ownership of Aclerct could be revealed.

It wouldn’t be a problem if it was revealed a little earlier.

“I… run a YouTube channel.”

At that, Yoon Ji-yoo was terrified. Like a victim in a horror movie facing a murderer.

“That… seems like something you shouldn’t do in front of your father….”