episode_0102

While I was eating, the lady was sitting across from me.

It seems that my repeated appeals recently that I was so lonely and tired of eating alone worked.

The atmosphere wasn’t bad throughout the meal.

We didn’t talk amicably, but he put side dishes on spoons and did everything for us.

The fact that something that was cut off until yesterday has returned can certainly be interpreted as meaning that the mood has eased a little.

I took the empty dishes to the sink and slowly walked towards the woman washing them.

“Madame.”

“huh… ?”

While the woman who was engrossed in washing dishes slowly turned her head, I stretched out my arm.

The left hand lightly wraps around the shoulder and neck, and the right hand digs in and wraps around the stomach and waist.

The sudden skinship causes the woman’s body to tremble, which can be felt through her arms.

“Hey, hey… !”

The surprised woman struggled, but it didn’t feel that strong.

If I had tried to shake it off, more definite action would have followed.

For a while, he held the woman with his arms in silence.

“Seueueup.”

A deep, dense scent that seeps into your nostrils without mercy every time you take a deep breath.

I’m at a loss as to how to express it.

Rather than being made from any exact fruit or flower, it seems to be made from a mixture of the woman’s unique fleshy smell.

My trembling body slowly began to calm down.

I could tell just by looking at him continuing the dishwashing that had stopped.

Accepting skinship means that the atmosphere has softened.

Of course, the cause of the lady’s temporary coldness has not been found, so it is not completely sealed, but in the current atmosphere, she may be able to regain her ability to speak.

“Madame.”

“… huh.”

A slightly subdued voice with a flushed face.

The lady seemed to have a vague idea of what I was trying to say.

“Can you tell me now?”

“what… ?”

“The reason I’ve been cold the last few days.”

The hand that was staining the plate with pure white foam suddenly stiffened.

Then, as if nothing like that had ever happened, she continued washing the dishes again, trying to feign calmness.

“She was the same as usual… “Dojin, aren’t you mistaken?”

People try to avoid situations that are difficult to avoid.

And only when we finally reach a corner, do we bring out the story we have been hiding.

I hugged her a little tighter and spoke in a stronger tone.

“Tell me what caused it.”

“… … .”

The woman’s body trembled slightly, but soon subsided.

The first words he said were somewhat unexpected.

“Promise me.”

“I promise.”

I don’t know what it is, but I made an appointment first.

She’s not the kind of person who would make demands beyond common sense, and she wouldn’t say anything unfavorable to me.

Then the lady looks back at me with a slightly puzzled look.

“… “You haven’t said anything yet.”

“Because I trust you.”

“You really… .”

The woman smiled softly and shook her head as if she couldn’t stop her.

The strategy of making an appointment first and seeing it seems to have worked well.

“After hearing what the lady said… “Promise me you will never laugh.”

What on earth are you talking about that makes you feel so embarrassed?

“I promise.”

I once again gladly accepted the promise.

“that… “Do you remember that weekend two weeks ago?”

“Two weekends ago… .”

“Sunday, not Saturday.”

“ah.”

There’s no way I won’t remember.

Because that day was the day I went on a date with Yoon Ji-an.

The moment the lady pointed out that moment, the puzzles began to come together one by one in my head.

“I saw it by chance at that time. Dojin, you… , Riding in a car with a woman.”

The prediction was correct.

Why didn’t I know?

If you think a little deeper, you can quickly understand the answer.

At that time, the phone call felt unnatural.

Suddenly, he called me at midnight and told me that I had to sleep at home, so he came quickly. At that time, he sat on the table waiting and only handed me a container of side dishes and went away.

That was all because of that.

“Honestly, I was confused. Dojin, it’s much more natural for you to meet a woman your own age… “Why are you so angry at me?”

The lady smiled miserably and continued speaking.

“But on the other hand, I also thought that way.”

“What are you thinking?”

“Between the two of us… “I think now might be the right time to stop.”

I think I even thought about breaking up.

There are countless obstacles between us.

Society’s perception of the age difference may be a problem, and the fact that the ajumma is a married woman is also an obstacle.

Even my friend Shin Yu-jeong… .

Ah, is this actually an advantage?

anyway.

I know for sure that the woman must have been upset for a few days in many ways.

That our relationship is extremely ambiguous.

The word that best describes the relationship between the two people, my ajumma and I, would be ‘playing with fire.’

It would be difficult to find a more accurate expression than this, as what was radicalized was only a physical relationship, and the mental connection did not reach that level.

And it’s all my fault.

“Madame.”

“huh.”

I opened the closed faucet and washed the foam off the lady’s hands.

Then, after wrapping their hands with their clothes and wiping off the moisture, they looked at each other.

Misunderstandings that were not misunderstandings piled up.

Because the relationship was shallow, it made the woman feel anxious.

It was my fault and a misunderstanding.

I feel like maybe there was something wrong with tying the knot.

Is this how the instability of a relationship built on desire instead of a loving narrative is revealed?

No, no.

The process by which humans are intertwined does not originate from one thing.

Just because it started from desire isn’t wrong, and just because it started with a heartbreaking narrative doesn’t mean it’s beautiful.

However, the problem was that they did not think about how to nurture the relationship they had formed.

“hmm… .”

Bringing up the topic is difficult and difficult.

Because my mind hasn’t been sorted out yet.

I feel like I’ve lived my life expressing my desires very vaguely until now.

Now is the time to organize your mind a little more firmly.

The lady reaches out her hand and lightly touches my face.

“are you okay. “Please feel free to say anything.”

A look of resignation.

Am I mistaken in thinking that what I am trying to say right now is to say goodbye?

I answered with a smile, holding tightly to the hand of the woman touching my cheek.

“The lady told me to speak comfortably, so I will do so.”

With his other hand, he wrapped the woman’s waist and pulled her into his arms.

The woman’s face looks confused as she approaches.

“We’ll go until the end.”

“… to.”

The woman’s face hardens with a cute sigh.

I continued.

“I never started out lightly. “From the moment I touched her, we decided to see the end together.”

I will live and express my desires more in the future.

If there’s a girl I like, I’ll have sex as much as I want, and I want to achieve the mother-daughter rice bowl between Shin Yoo-jeong and Ajumma, and if it’s something I want to do and can do, I’ll do my best.

However, that does not mean that we will live irresponsibly.

Whatever happens as a result of my actions, I have to accept it with all my heart.

The same goes for the lady.

I know there are many walls that are difficult to overcome, but I have no intention of giving up on the lady.

Also, I have no intention of giving her a hard time because of our relationship.

“I told you this when we had sex.”

“… huh?”

“We’re already late.”

“ah.”

The line has long been crossed.

Even if you go back now, it is impossible to live the same life as before.

It’s the same for me right now.

Even if I were to be able to get Son Si-woo’s body back, would I be able to live like I did then?

Suppressing, enduring, and controlling everything?

Absolutely impossible.

Why is there such a thing?

It is said that if Jung learns the taste of meat, there will not be a single bed bug left in the temple.

The lady and I have already learned the taste.

How hot each other’s bodies are, and how much they react to each other.

I can’t give up that body.

“Don’t think that you are going to get away from me from now on or that you have to stop here.”

“… … .”

The woman’s eyes opened slightly at the tone that was close to a command.

The hazy gaze, but the sanity that has not yet been lost, takes care of this and asks me.

“What do you want from an old woman, especially a married woman?”

“Everything.”

I answered immediately.

“Madame… “No, I want you to give me your everything.”

Our relationship must undergo many more changes from now on.

Among them, the easiest to change is the title.

Because the title ‘Ajumma’ makes me look like an unreliable child.

In order to move towards a more equal relationship, we must be unconventional.

“I promise you this one thing.”

Ajumma to my informal language… No, Seo Jeong-hee’s eyes grow as big as a flower lantern.

“Dojin you… ?”

Fortunately, he doesn’t seem to be angry.

He seems even more surprised by the sudden informal language.

I continued speaking without paying attention to the reaction.

“From beginning to end. “I promise that you will never suffer during every moment you spend with me.”

Maybe sometimes difficult things will happen.

If he notices the presence of another woman or finds out that I’m thinking about a mother-daughter rice bowl, um… .

Still, I will find the answer.

It has been so until now and will continue to be so.

therefore.

“Go with me until the end, Jeonghee.”