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One sunny afternoon.

Three women were chatting in a cafe.

The topic of conversation is height.

A person who claims that although his actual height is only about 160 cm, he has grown in the meantime and is now 165 cm tall.

“No, listen. I’ve really grown up a bit lately.”

“Hey, Bianca. Still, you have to have a conscience. It’s been a few years since your growth plates closed, right?”

Following Sasha’s words, Emily also bursts out laughing.

“I agree with this. Shouldn’t it be 165 including the heels?”

All three are still green college students. They are now third-year students.

Carlyle Schultz graduated a year early and is already a working adult.

They were still students, so they could meet like this during free time. The topics of conversation were sometimes childish, but that made them feel comfortable. That’s what it means to be a true friend.

Vita pouts slightly and sips her coffee, noticing that her friends don’t seem to agree with her words at all.

“Okay, okay.”

He smiles brightly and says something out of the blue.

Haha-

With a pleasant, faint smile.

“At least Carlyle likes me like this. It’s okay if I’m a little small.”

Soft, russet blonde waves, and radiant amethyst eyes.

Her delicate facial features have lost some of their baby fat and have become more mature.

Sasha and Emily shook their heads and sighed.

“The conclusion is always my husband.”

“… I really wonder what it would have been like if the two of you had never met.”

Is that what happens when you truly love someone?

These days, Bianca Shamal is practically a marriage ambassador.

“Shasha, Emily. You’ll find out someday. When you get married, you’ll understand my heart.”

“No, no.”

“I don’t want to understand.”

Well, not yet.

They might get married someday, but their friend seemed a little harsh.

I told you I’m a total romantic?

My friend Bianca’s expression was so full of happiness, I could clearly see that she loved my husband so much that she couldn’t live without him.

So Sasha and Emily just laughed it off.

“That’s right, Bianca. Isn’t it time? Why don’t you go prepare dinner for your wonderful husband?”

Sasha spoke first, and Emily glanced at her watch.

“Really, that’s right. Time flies so fast already… ”

Two hours have passed since the three of them started talking.

When we met after class, it was already 5 o’clock. It was late afternoon.

I really forgot, so I checked the time and looked anxious.

“Oh, look at my mind… Thanks for letting me know, guys.”

I have to wake up first.

Because preparing dinner for a devoted husband is important.

“It was nice meeting you today. See you next time!”

The other two saw the anticipation and happiness on their friend’s face.

After Vita hugged them both once, she disappeared.

Because it’s just so new to me as an unmarried person.

“But, Emily. Is it really that good…?”

“Hmm, well.”

Sasha and Emily looked at each other and sipped their coffee.

“Coffee, it’s delicious.”

“Yeah, I guess so.”

Although they didn’t say it out loud, it was inevitable that both of them secretly envied their friend.

***

Her name is Bianca Shamal.

Age: twenty-two.

Height is approximately 160 cm.

These days, she stubbornly claims that she weighs 165 cm, but she gets teased every day by her best friends, Sasha and Emily.

Yeah, once upon a time.

There was a time when my true identity was clearly male, but that wasn’t the case anymore.

The current self is a woman.

It’s been a while since I changed my mind. It’s been a few years now.

After admitting that she liked a guy named Carlyle Schultz, she ran down the street barefoot, almost out of her mind. From that moment on, Vita Shamal admitted to herself that she had become a woman.

Of course, that doesn’t mean that.

Memories of the days when I was ‘Vita’, the values I had, and things like my way of thinking haven’t changed.

My tastes are still the same. I still like anime.

A new taste that I have developed is liking sweet foods like parfaits and various cute and lovely things.

But in the end, everyone’s identity is ‘Vita’.

‘They are all precious to me.’

Vita always thought.

‘But if we really have to be picky…’

Well, yeah.

Being ‘Bianca Shamal’ might be a little more important now.

I even got married.

Because now, truly, I am complete as Carlyle’s woman, as a man.

I came to think that although I was precious as ‘Vita’, my identity as ‘Bianca’ and the life I will live in the future is a little more important.

Carlyle Schultz’s wife, and surely one day…

Vita, who had just returned home and was chopping vegetables, blushed slightly.

‘As expected, not yet…’

It’s hard to believe that one day I too will become a mother.

So what do you call this?

It feels a little different from how I accepted my identity as a woman.

A feeling of a much higher dimension.

All mothers are great! Isn’t that what they say?

It’s an area that you can’t understand until you experience it firsthand.

Carlyle and I didn’t have any children yet.

Carlyle crossed the line once before going abroad to study, but after that, he consistently used contraception.

‘Because we’re still young.’

No, are you young?

Anyway, if you want to have a child, you can have it whenever you want.

To be completely honest, I also had one desire.

You never know how busy you’ll be once you have a child. My mother says she’ll be out of her mind.

However, Vita also wants to enjoy her newlywed life to the fullest with just Carlyle.

So the two decided that after they got married, when the time was right, they would have a child. They decided to do so if they were both of the same mind.

Anyway, Vita’s daily life, now that she had truly become a complete woman, was like this.

The house, which only had three rooms, had a spacious and clean living room, and was truly more than enough for just the two of us to live in.

‘Thank you, parents.’

Vita’s true heart.

One room is a bedroom, the other is a closet.

And the other one was decorated like a movie theater.

At first, he was so excited to come to this house. Carlyle even said to him, “How nice is that?” He himself seemed excited.

Anyway, sometimes I watch anime or movies with Carlyle. We bought a big sofa and cuddle up together, eat delicious snacks, and chat.

To be honest, I didn’t see what I wanted to see, and there were many times when I got burned out.

These days, I really think that maybe I’m just a natural pervert.

‘I guess it can’t be helped…?’

Yeah, you’re newlyweds.

Perhaps it was because of the heat from the pan that was rising while stir-frying the vegetables, but Vita was conscious of her face getting hotter for no reason.

It’s been a year now, but the two are still newlyweds. They are really sweet.

So, Vita always woke up early, unless she was really tired.

Tiring- Tiring-

This morning too, I woke up early by setting the alarm.

“Haam- Laila. Come here, let’s eat.”

After feeding her precious puppy, Vita moves her body busily. To prepare breakfast for her lifelong partner, her husband who is about to leave for work.

Carlyle Schultz graduated at the top of his class. By a whole year!

Vita herself is a third-year student, so she has one year left until graduation, but she has already graduated.

‘Carlyle is really great.’

Besides, I just got a job and I’m working at a company. I’m a working adult.

Although she didn’t express it in words, Vita was proud of her husband and partner, Carlyle Schultz.

[I got a job.]

I still remember vividly how happy I was when Carlyle said those words.

[You worked hard, really…!]

I still remember how I ran into her arms to congratulate her and kissed her repeatedly, and how we started a fire together.

From the time Carlyle started working the following week, the current routine continued.

‘Make sure to eat a hearty breakfast!’

With that in mind, Vita always prepared breakfast. Since her specialty was cooking, she prepared various side dishes and even prepared a packed lunch for Carlyle to eat.

I also never forget to put a heart symbol using sauce or ketchup. I also remember what Carlyle said with a smile the other day. My colleagues all envy me.

[Oh, really?]

Thanks to that, I put in even more effort when preparing lunch boxes. Now, it is my job to keep my husband motivated.

When breakfast was roughly ready, I went to bed and gently shook my husband’s hand to wake him up. I whispered softly in his ear.

“Get up, Carlyle.”

Sometimes Carlyle would nag at himself for no reason.

“Just rest, Bianca. You don’t have to do this… ”

“While you are much busier.”

When you speak coquettishly, Carlyle’s expression can’t help but soften. He really is such a fool.

“I thought you might have a hard time.”

“Not hard at all.”

If he answers like that, he lets out a deep sigh as if he really has no choice, and Carlyle hugs his body with a cool smile.

“Whose wife would do such pretty things?”

“I’m so glad you found out. Consider yourself blessed.”

Both of them start their day with a big smile.

Whenever Carlyle gently hugged her body, Vita felt happy.

“Please do some ssdam ssdam too.”

When a large palm gently stroked my head, I let out a laugh.

Knock- knock-

Kiss each other on the lips.

They share a light kiss and then have breakfast together.

As they chatted about various things and the time to go to work approached, Vita kept hugging Carlyle with a regretful heart.

“I have to go to work, Bianca.”

“Yeah, I know. Wait, wait.”

Carlyle, who was always there to help me get dressed, now helped me get my husband dressed.

After quickly raising his turban and tying his tie, he hands me his briefcase.

The two of them walked together to the front door, hugging each other, and saw Carlyle Schultz off with a bright smile.

“Cheer up today too.”

“Of course, that’s right.”

Carlyle smiles and kisses her forehead, then walks out the door.

Only then did Vita start preparing to go to school with a regretful expression, but soon with a smile.

“Then I’ll try my best too…!”

This was the regular morning routine for Vita and her new bride, Bianca Shamal.

***

I was chatting away with my friends Sasha and Emily, and it was getting a little late. But luckily, Carlyle was late today.

“Hmm, hmm… ”

She hums a little while wearing a pink apron. She has to hurry up and prepare dinner so that she can make it on time.

Woof- woof woof-

“Go away, Lyle.”

He speaks softly to the puppy biting his leg.

“Mom, I’m busy right now, so I’ll play with you later. Okay? Got it?”

Meanwhile, my gaze keeps turning to the clock on the wall.

‘When will Carlyle come…?’

Anticipation, happiness. Such emotions naturally bring a smile to my face.

Actually, that’s it.

Today’s dish is special.

I’ve been giving Carlyle a lot of hints lately. He’s a quick-witted guy, so he must have figured out what I’m thinking.

The main menu for dinner tonight is risotto made with oysters.

By the way, risotto is Carlyle’s favorite food, and he said he liked it because it was the first dish he made, Vita herself. So I think he eats risotto twice a week.

‘Well, and…’

A salad of cabbage and celery tossed with a sauce.

Even the sauce is black sesame.

And finally, the final touch. Steak with asparagus.

“It will provide nutritional supplements, right…?”

Vita smiled faintly as she looked at the finished dishes.

A smile of conversion forms.

Oysters, cabbage, and celery with steak. Even the salad dressing is black sesame.

Even asparagus served with steak.

Foods that are truly, without exception, good for stamina.

‘… … ‘

Actually.

After everything was completed, my face turned slightly red.

‘But I can’t help it.’

I’ve been thinking a little bit about wanting to have a child. One day, this desire just naturally grew stronger.

Vita herself and Carlyle. Carlyle Schultz and herself.

A cute kid who resembles Carlyle, a cute kid who resembles himself.

There is something exciting about just thinking about it.

So these days, Vita is taking care of her body. Once she makes up her mind, she tries to eat only good things and maintain good habits.

There was no other reason for going to the hospital once.

‘…Just in case.’

Fortunately, the hospital’s diagnosis was ‘no problem.’

Because I know Carlyle’s abilities best.

Vita wasn’t worried about ‘that side’.

I never doubted the abilities that Carlyle Schultz possessed, because just thinking about it made my face turn red.

Strictly speaking, some time has passed since they got married and had a relationship, but Carlyle and I have never once had a thoughtless relationship even during our fertile years.

Even so, just in case, honestly, I wasn’t mentally ready to have a child, so I mostly used contraception.

But things are a little different now. Recently, Vita has been giving her husband Carlyle some hints.

For example, while watching a movie, he would say that the child was so cute, or he would casually mention that he was curious about what it would be like to have and raise a child. Judging from Carlyle’s reaction, it seemed like his reaction was positive.

‘Yeah, that’s right.’

If you start actively trying to seduce that Carlyle guy from now on, that’s it.

So, I prepared some finishing moves for today.

Foods that are good for your stamina, and ready to seduce.

Vita is now wearing only underwear under her apron. It’s even see-through from top to bottom!

“I wish you would come sooner… ”

Today is Friday.

With the weekend off ahead, Vita was full of thoughts about how to completely destroy her husband, Carlyle Schultz.

Tiring-

At that moment, a sound rings in my ear.

Vita’s face brightened.

‘Ah, here it comes…!’

Dodo runs right away. With a happy smile, he jumps into the other person’s arms and hugs them.

“Come on, honey-!”

The first temptation begins.

“… ?”

Carlyle was slightly taken aback by his unusually active wife today.

‘It’s not our wedding anniversary…’

Even though I say it often these days, I don’t call you honey unless it’s a special occasion.

Carlyle shook his head.

What anniversary is it today? Are you forgetting?

But I don’t remember.

Carlyle, who was quick-witted, soon figured out something about his opponent’s attire. There was something called an atmosphere.

He chuckled and put his bag down.

“I’m a little late. Sorry, Bianca.”

Vita shook her head and spat out playfully. So, the second time.

This is the second stage of seduction.

“So what do you want to eat first? Dinner? Me… ?”

Carlyle laughed in bewilderment. It wasn’t strange.

Sometimes, the two of them come up with a concept like this and then quickly adapt it to the other person’s concept.

Today is that kind of day.

They both know that tomorrow is a day off. In short, it’s time for the newlyweds to get fired up.

After thinking about it that far, Carlyle Schultz said.

“I have to eat my pretty wife first.”

Because it doesn’t feel like a joke.

Bianca, who had been provoking, looked slightly embarrassed by her own answer.

“Oh, no… I mean, the rice will get cold.”

“Then why did you ask? Isn’t that the answer you wanted?”

When Carlyle asks with a chuckle, a mumbled answer is heard.

“No, I mean… I was trying to provoke… ”

That’s the answer I was looking for, but it really seems like Carlyle is going to do this without even eating.

The effect of the provocation was enormous.

The food I worked so hard to prepare was of no use at all.

Carlyle quickly made up his mind.

“Let’s eat dinner later.”

Bianca’s clothes and the way she called me “honey”.

He can’t stand it.

“Okay, wait a minute…!”

I immediately picked up Bianca and headed towards the bedroom. It felt like all the fatigue from the day had disappeared.

Bianca looks embarrassed, but honestly, it doesn’t look like she’s unpleasant to anyone.

Rather, as if he had completely given up and changed his mind, Carlyle soon whispered in my ear.

“I’m fertile today… ”

He had noticed it recently, and he knew what it meant. Carlyle quickly became dizzy. This pitiful woman was really his wife.

After that, the two had a hot time together.

Fortunately, this house is very soundproof.

-I’ll get you pregnant today.

-Yeah, okay…! I want to have Carlyle’s child.

In a heated atmosphere, he had no hesitation in saying things that would be embarrassing if others heard them.

It was a perfect Friday evening for a hot newlywed couple.

***

On the day that she spent a sweet night, Vita had a strange dream.

A wide, green meadow. In my dream, I found an apple tree there.

I happened to pick a pretty, red, and delicious apple.

And then I woke up.

‘Could it be, a dream…?’

As soon as she woke up, Vita had that thought.

It’s still early in the morning. Carlyle is fast asleep next to him.

I don’t know why, but my condition is healthy and my skin feels better. On the other hand, Carlyle-

‘Did you use a lot of force…?’

Still, it’s not a bad feeling if you succeed on your first try.

My heart starts pounding for no reason, and I find myself laughing heartily.

It may not have been a dream, but it still feels good. But on the other hand, it also feels a bit strange.

Vita sat at her desk in the early hours of the morning.

“I’ve been putting it off for so long… I guess I’ll just finish it up.”

I have a unique hobby that I recently developed.

Well, yeah. How should I explain it?

So to speak, Vita relied on the power of anonymity to post her experiences online, in the form of a novel.

There was no particular reason why I decided to upload it.

‘But somewhere in this world…’

Isn’t there anyone else who has had a similar experience?

Or, perhaps, there is no one who has the same worries as you?

‘My experience is special.’

Vita thought to herself that her experience was so special and precious that she wanted to record it.

If there is someone like my old self, ‘Vita Shamal’, in a similar situation, I want to help them. I want to give them advice.

What matters is the heart.

That was it.

Sometimes, the feelings between people do not go as planned, and on the contrary, there are times when they can only be realized if one has some will.

Looking back, that’s true.

If he hadn’t caught Carlyle back then, he would have really regretted it.

‘Probably Carlyle too…’

I think they acted with the same mindset as me. They both worked hard, so it paid off.

‘I want to share this special experience with others.’

It was with that in mind that I started writing a novel online. Since Vita had an aptitude for the liberal arts from the beginning, writing novels surprisingly wasn’t that difficult.

Rather, I found writing Vita to be fun.

Surely some people might think this story is fiction, while others might think it could actually happen.

An unexpected event changed the gender of one’s birth.

I was definitely frustrated at first.

‘But I rather…’

As time goes by and many things happen.

You learn new emotions and discover relationships you never knew existed.

I think I’ve grown.

On the contrary, he was able to connect with his partner, Carlyle Schultz, in this way.

What is the emotion you like, what is love.

I came to realize firsthand what fate is.

I have no regrets now.

I have never regretted choosing to be a woman to be with Carlyle Schultz.

There definitely won’t be any in the future, because I’m happy right now.

Anyway, Vita posted her story online.

But surprisingly, the response was really good.

-That’s fun, author!

-Please give me the next episode quickly!

Vita gradually gained courage from such responses, and as she became more interested in it, she was able to finish writing her novel.

[My name is Vita.]

A single sentence that exists only in the author’s manuscript, only in the first draft that the author has.

Of course, when I uploaded the novel, I changed the name.

‘But still… to tell the truth…’

Of course, there are some problems.

And today, I will finally upload the last episode.

After uploading the manuscript that he had written, Vita thought about it for a moment.

‘Well, this is the last one…’

What would be a good thing to say?

I guess this is a thank you note?

[Thank you for enjoying my story so far.]

After writing this short review, I can’t help but laugh.

‘Yeah, it was fun.’

If you say it’s short, … and if you say it’s long, it’s a long story.

I would like to leave a message of gratitude filled with a sense of accomplishment and reflection that I was able to come this far because of you all.

And at the very end, just one simple sentence.

‘Let me just write one more sentence.’

After thinking for a moment, Vita wrote down the last sentence.

It would be better if the final greeting was lively.

[Then hello everyone-!]

Yeah, hello.

Ah, it’s over.

But I wonder if someone would find my story interesting?

With that thought in mind, Vita went back to the bed behind her and laid down with a pleasant expression on her face. It seems that she sensed something because she had kept turning on the base character.

The locked Carlyle’s voice is heard in his ears.

“What are you working so hard for…? Early in the morning on a weekend.”

Vita smiled faintly and whispered to the other person.

“Are you up, honey… ?”

Carlyle chuckles with a satisfied smile. He speaks with a blank expression.

“… I love you, Bianca.”

Instead of answering right away, Vita just kissed her lips.

Twice, three times. She kissed her opponent’s cheek with her lips.

Forever, and evermore.

Carlyle and himself will live happily ever after.

Together, the two of us.

Vita answered with a wildflower-like smile full of confidence.

“… Yeah, me too.”

Forever and ever, happily ever after.

Because Carlyle and I will continue our daily lives.

-Complete-

BONUS: Last review haha

This is how all the stories of ‘Vita Can’t Support’ ended. Honestly, I was worried that I wouldn’t shed a single tear, but it was more bland than I thought.

I think it was about 7 or 8 years ago now? I cried a lot until I finished my first novel. I guess that’s because I’m getting older.

Anyway, I guess it’s because it’s a breakup, but I feel very sad. I’m just sad to be parting ways with my readers.

I think that this novel starts off with a light novel vibe, but as it progresses and gets into the side story, it shifts to a more serious romance vibe.

I think a lot of thought went into how to make the change in sexual identity, from male to female, appear natural.

I don’t know if it will suit your taste, but I just wrote it the way I wanted to write it.

I’m glad I can show you the 25 episodes of side story I planned.

While writing, I went through a severe slump and had many twists and turns. But even when I wanted to give up, I persevered and persevered, and in the end, I think I was able to finish the story happily and cleanly.

Did I do well?

Going back to the story of the novel for a moment, Bianca at the time of her marriage in the side story is a more feminine and mature image than the Bianca in her school uniform on the cover; you can think of her as a lively college student.

I think anyone who has watched the last episode of the side story can easily guess how happy and lively their daily lives will be.

So the reason why the child didn’t come out is because Vita and Carlyle are still young haha

I thought we could enjoy our honeymoon a little longer and then have children.

Above all, I felt like if I wrote about the scene where the two have a child and become parents, it would really make this novel completely over, so I intentionally didn’t write it.

I’ve presented all the content I planned in 100 episodes, but who knows? Maybe sometime early next year, there will be a side story about their parenting. Even if I do write it, it will probably be short, like 2-3 episodes. Haha..

First of all, let me tell you that they have one cute daughter who resembles Vita, and two cheeky sons who resemble Carlyle! They feel like two older brothers and a younger sister.

The side story was really long, wasn’t it? It was 25 episodes, about 1/3 the length of the main story.

Considering the number of characters, it was equivalent to 40-50 episodes of other novels. This novel has a huge number of characters, so the number of episodes is listed as 100, but if you compare it to the average number of characters in other novels on Novelpia, it would be closer to 200.

We’ve been on a long journey together.

Still, I hope you like it? Haha, I hope you like it.

If you remember it as a worthwhile and fun piece of work, I would be happy.

It is said that the author’s values are largely reflected in the main character of a novel.

Actually, I was quite absorbed in Carlyle.

What I mean is this.

Just like Carlyle, who really liked you all, but had to leave to study abroad because he liked Bianca, I think it’s time for me to leave you all.

But unlike Carlyle, I can’t promise you when I’ll be back.

I’ve already devoted enough time to this hobby (ts romance novels), so I think it’s time for me to really look forward.

I think it’s time for me to prove myself as a writer and as a person. I said that I projected a lot of myself onto Carlyle. Of course, I’m confident in that.

So, if you keep watching Nobelpia and TS Pure Love Novels, you will definitely be able to see me again someday.

When I come back, I will be financially and career-wise complete. It won’t be this year or next year, for sure.

I don’t know how long I’ll be here when I return, and if the Nobelpia or TS version will still be around. If we’re destined to meet, we’ll meet again, right? I think I’ll write about the TS version when I come back. I just want to write.

Anyway, dear readers, the weather is getting colder.

Please dress warmly.

It’s been a real, real pleasure working with you all so far.

There were many moments when I wanted to give up and difficult moments, but I was able to keep writing thanks to all of you readers who always leave comments, recommend, and support me.

Thank you for reading my novel.

– October 2024, Author Jam Jam Olympiad