episode_0099

“Jae, Jaehee…? Ouch!”

He held both hands and pushed Lien against the wall, and kissed the flustered Lien.

Our lips met for only a moment, and then I turned my face away from her, who was startled and turned away.

What comes to mind is the conversation I had with Seha.

I talked about Lien. I consulted with her. It was a strange story that was somewhat out of place because I couldn’t explain the strange game called Master Wars, but Se-ha understood and accepted it all.

And he taught me why I was in such misery.

“If you don’t like it… I’ll stop… . I won’t do this again… .”

“, I don’t know why you’re acting like this all of a sudden, Jaehee. Did something happen outside?”

Lien spoke in a soothing tone, regaining her smile that had disappeared for a moment.

Seha said.

‘If that kid is really like me, he’ll probably have a really hard time telling you his true feelings. It won’t be easy to find the contradiction and tear open the packaging to make him reveal his true feelings… but I think you have a better weapon.’

plainly.

Endlessly honest.

Jaehee said.

“Why was I suffering so much… Now I know. I was suffering because I didn’t know ‘who’ was bullying me.”

“To whom… are you… talking…?”

Lien is losing her memories of that time.

She knows about ‘what she did’, but it stops there. Just like everyone who was manipulated by her has a vague memory of the time.

Now, only Chairman Nain and Jaehee remember what happened back then.

To Lien, who asked hesitantly, it seemed as if there was not even a trace of her laughing and making fun of him left. Jaehee continued to speak, feeling a dull pain in his chest.

“I wanted to know if he was teasing me because it was fun after becoming a master, or if he had always wanted to tease me and only revealed it after becoming a master.”

If it was the former… you can think of it as something that happened for a very short time. It wasn’t Lien’s true intention. Since Lien lost her memories of that time anyway, she can just forget it too.

If it’s the latter… If it’s the latter, it’s a different story.

I was bullied by Lien, I experienced countless humiliations, and it was really so painful… but if that’s how Lien likes someone… then… .

Because I had the confidence to think that way.

But the answer was impossible to obtain. When Lien belatedly realized her own mind and tried to find the answer, she lost her memory.

In the end, I was tormented by the fact that I had no idea what to do about a problem that I would never know the answer to.

No, let’s be more honest.

I really hope it’s the latter, but it’s frustrating because there’s no way to get that answer.

But Se-ha showed us a way out of this awkward state of suspension.

“Tell me. If I kiss you like this… would you hate it? Have you ever thought that you like me, or that you want to be closer to me than anyone else?”

It’s so simple.

Lien, who lost her memories of when she was a Master, is essentially back to before she became a Master. If Jaehee is in her heart now, then Lien must have had those feelings while she was running wild as a Master.

“That, that’s a bit difficult to talk about… .”

Lien tries to brush it off with an awkward smile.

Jaehee pushed. He pressed his body against Lien’s, his face close to hers, and he looked into Lien’s eyes from a distance so close that he wouldn’t miss even a single tremble.

“I… did. At first, when we became roommates, you were uncomfortable and awkward, but as time went by, I gradually liked you. When you slowly took off the mask you always wore in front of others in front of me, I was happy because it felt like we were getting closer little by little.”

“Jae… Hee… Ya… .”

“I didn’t know it then. Why did my heart flutter so much when I woke up in the middle of the night and looked down at the slightly disheveled bed? Why did my face turn red when I adjusted my slightly crooked underwear? Why did I feel hurt when people asked me if I had a lover and what kind of person it was? …Because I was completely a kid.”

This is not the case anymore.

At least I know what the word lust means.

I am talking about this feeling that is filling both my body and mind right now.

I tried really hard to suppress my words, really desperately.

Honestly. Absolutely honestly. Se-ha said that if you don’t tell her all your feelings, Lien won’t accept you.

She will feel guilty towards Jaehee, so if you don’t tell her everything honestly, she will try to distance herself somehow.

But up until then, it was unnecessary advice.

Even without Se-ha saying that, Jae-hee’s heart had already lost its brakes. He ran straight from his heart to his mouth at full speed and rushed at Lien. He didn’t care about the consequences of the collision anymore.

“I now know what it meant when I first saw you kiss someone and it hurt. It was jealousy. When I woke up a while later and found myself being kissed by you, I was surprised and happy. The things that happened after that were definitely painful… I hated it… It was horrible… But there was one good thing about it.”

The person Lien kissed the most was Jaehee.

The only person he was watching as if he was trying not to miss a single reaction while teasing her with all sorts of commands was clearly Jaehee.

He whispered to me that I was the only one who was so obsessed with you, that he had become your master in order to rule you forever.

“No matter what form it took, I felt like I was special to you… so I could rest assured… .”

He kissed Lien again, who was speechless.

Lien, who seemed to have suddenly come to her senses, twisted her body. However, he forcibly held her back and continued to kiss her roughly, half-forcibly. Even after Lien, exhausted from the pressure, sagged, he continued to desire those lips.

I’m being a little pushy, because this might be the last time.

Only after my mind had gone blank, either from lack of oxygen or from something sexual, did I finally manage to take my face off Lien.

“Everything… I told you everything… So Lien, teach me. Do you hate it when I kiss you? Are you upset? Aside from the memories I lost, among the memories that remain in me now, are there any memories similar to mine?”

In the end, the tone became almost pleading.

It’s not the truth, but it’s an action that seems to be trying to get the answer that you want. I know that, but if I’m honest, that’s what happens in the end.

Because this is the truth.

This longing, this childish desire to confirm that this feeling was two-way even if it meant distorting reality, is Jaehee’s own honest feelings.

Lien’s lips trembled.

“… … … … … Uh.”

“Huh?”

“Please… please stop falling… … .”

With those words, he pushed Jaehee away, almost shoving him.

If he had tried to hold on, he could have, but Jaehee couldn’t. He slipped weakly and fell on his butt on the floor, staring blankly at Lien.

Lien said with an almost tearful expression.

“That, when you talk so close… so passionately… I can’t lie… … .”

Lien spoke in a childish tone, just like Jaehee had just now.

Jaehee opened his eyes wide as he belatedly understood the meaning of the words with his dazed head.

“What, what does that mean… .”

“Of course… Of course I like it… . I only remember liking it from the first time I saw it… .”

My mind went blank at such an unexpected remark.

“When I first met him, I thought he was cool and handsome… . That very day, he couldn’t eat hot food, but he ran towards me and burned his tongue because he said it was delicious, and he quickly forgot about it and ate it again and burned his tongue again. I knew he wasn’t cool, he was just thoughtless. But I thought he was cute because of that… .”

“… … Huh?”

“They told me I was mature when I only had the talent to flatter others, thought I was thoughtful when I was always hesitating because I was scared, called escaping into books intellectual, thought I was feminine when my arms and calves were thick and I couldn’t wear comfortable clothes… . It was so absurd, I really, really only have memories like that… .”

“… … … … Huh?”

I’m glad to hear that you liked it.

But the words they shared together… were somehow different from what he had thought.

“I remember wanting to protest, asking which fairy tale princess is the Lien inside you? But you look at me with such ridiculous, bean-covered eyes… How can I not like it… .”

So, Lien said that from the moment she understood her own heart, it was hell.

“Do you think it’s easy to share a room without burping? Everyone farts, right? But you… are so incredibly sensitive, yet you have such a ridiculous delusion… .”

I had to desperately try to live up to Jaehee’s imagination. And then I realized that I had almost met that harsh standard, and burst out laughing at the absurdity.

“If you didn’t like it… If you didn’t like it, how could you do something like that… .”

Jaehee was at a loss for words for a while after hearing Lien’s words.

I’m happy. I’m really happy, but… does that mean that Lien has been forcing herself because of Jaehee’s delusions and delusions…? And… if she had such affectionate, loving feelings for him, then why did she become a Master after she became one?

Jaehee shook his head.

That’s not important. What’s important now is that Lien spoke honestly. Thanks to that, the worries that had been weighing on my mind disappeared so easily.

“Lien… .”

Kissing, no matter how many times you do it, seems like you’ll never get tired of it.

Unlike before, he carefully grabbed Lien’s hands and pulled her closer, kissing her. Lien hesitated for a moment, but was unable to resist until the end and accepted Jaehee’s lips.

“I just realized, what you just did was your first kiss with me.”

“Ugh, uh… .”

“I wish you had known my heart a little sooner and confessed a little sooner. I shouldn’t have rushed that kiss too.”

In reality, Lien’s reaction to receiving the kiss was very shy and docile, so it was completely different from the Lien that Jaehee remembered. It was so different from the Lien in his lost memories.

I felt a slight tingle there, and at the same time, I tried to suppress my heart that was about to go wild.

It’s different from before.

This time, Lien wasn’t ready. Even if she had feelings for him, it would take a lot of practice and adjustment to connect that with physical contact.

If you do something wrong, you will end up like yourself. The treatment you received from the person you loved was so harsh that both your body and mind could not accept it.

I won’t make it like that.

It’s a tragedy that Lien lost her memories, but perhaps it’s a chance to start over.

No, it has to be that way. I can never bear for my story with Lien to become a tragedy.

Jaehee carefully stroked Lien’s hair. And he asked Lien a favor too.

“It might be a little awkward, but could you do the same thing as me?”

“… Are you really okay? … I don’t remember, but I definitely did something very bad to you… .”

“It’s okay. You can make it better.”

As he said that, he lowered his head a little so that Lien could easily stroke it. Lien stretched out her hand as if she was fascinated, then lowered it.

“Ha, but… .”

“If you’re doing this because you’re concerned about something you did, you can just punish yourself for it later.”

“… … … … penalty… .”

Jaehee nodded.

“It’s true that I was treated badly. It was really painful. But I still like you… . I can’t give you up because of that… So please accept the punishment I’m talking about. Wouldn’t it be okay if we shared our embarrassing memories?”

Lien looked troubled and unsure of what to do, so Jaehee decided to act first rather than wait. It suited his personality.

He carefully brushed her hair, which swayed like a waterfall with even the slightest movement. It was a pure admiration that he had kept for a long time, an expression of affection filled with tenderness, and it also meant forgiveness for what had happened in the past.

How long did it last? Jaehee felt a long, thin, beautiful hand, the one he always thought he wanted to have, touch his head.

I was happy just by that, but when it flowed down my head, I felt an unbearable happiness overflowing. I don’t remember, but if I had a mother, she would have stroked my head so warmly.

While thinking like that, Jaehee fell asleep.

I thought that what was once twisted had finally found its way.

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2 a.m.

I received a text message from Jaehee and rushed to the Judith Military School. As promised, I waited at the exit of the dormitory, and someone came out from inside.

But it wasn’t Jaehee but Lien.

Lien, who had no smile on her face, roughly pulled the passenger door handle. When she pressed the switch to open it, she got in and slammed the door shut.

“Hello, Seha. Sorry for calling you in the middle of the night.”

“I’m not sorry at all, but I understand.”

“Thank you for understanding. Then… Could you answer me? I want to know why you were blowing a strange wind into Jaehee.”

It’s too much to blow a strange wind.

I just quenched Jaehee’s thirst, gave her advice, and taught her how to hug someone in case she ever needed to.

“I appreciate you listening to Jaehee’s concerns, but… why is it so s-sexy? What do you want?”

“What do you want? Of course it’s you.”

Lien opened her eyes wide.

“I… this… ?”

“Yeah. My goal is to make you my slave.”

Lien’s face became even more strange. She probably couldn’t understand what she was hearing.

“What on earth are you talking about… . If you say that, do you think I’ll say ‘Okay, I understand’ and follow you?”

“I think so. Because… .”

In the words that followed, Lien made an expression as if her soul had left her.

“Because Jaehee would hate it more than a second death if he found out I was imitating Lien. Don’t you, Nine-ssi?”