episode_0095

I ended up laughing out loud naturally.

This is truly an absurd situation.

Apparently the guy said he was going to show me trauma, but what I’m seeing now is a memory I’m seeing for the first time. It’s really a joke.

‘Come to think of it, something similar happened before?’

It wasn’t that long ago, so I was able to recall it quickly. The woman I met at the closed place I went to with Yu Seo-ra.

Charlotte, a character who never appeared in the original work, said that trauma attacks don’t work on me. I could easily think that maybe the current situation was related to that reason.

Anyway, it seemed like I wasn’t attacked this time either.

‘So, what am I seeing now?’

If it were my memory, it could certainly be traumatic, but since it has nothing to do with me, I don’t feel anything special. That’s why this situation itself feels like a mystery.

It gives me a headache in many ways.

“Hmm.”

If I were to guess roughly, I think it might be Kim Seo-jin’s memory.

Certainly, it was quite possible that I was currently possessed by a person called ‘Kim Seo-jin’, not my original body.

If that’s not the case, I even wondered if maybe the old man had made a mistake and was showing his trauma.

Hmm, honestly, that’s not likely.

I don’t think he would make that mistake.

Anyway, there was nothing I could do right now. In the end, I had no choice but to just watch this painful scene without feeling any emotion.

“Please finish quickly.”

This is just annoying.

I continued to watch, feeling bored and tedious to the point of yawning. In contrast to my feelings, the boy over there continued to cry quietly.

「“Ugh, ugh, eugh!”」

The boy slowly groans as if he can no longer bear it. He can faintly see dark red droplets falling from his lips, and even though he is not that close, he can feel his whole body tense up.

It’s to the point where I feel sick just watching it.

「“I’m going to get revenge… … .”」

huh?

The boy spoke human language for the first time. His words were full of malice.

It was definitely a voice I was hearing for the first time, but it felt familiar somehow.

I guess that can’t be helped. If the guy is indeed ‘Kim Seo-jin’ as I predicted, there’s a high chance that his voice will be similar to mine when I was young.

「“Mom, I’m going to beat the bastard who killed Dad to death… … !”」

parents?

I guess this must be the day that Kim Seo-jin’s parents passed away. Contrary to expectations, it didn’t seem like much time had passed since the boy’s parents passed away. Judging from his appearance, he must have entered elementary school.

Honestly, when I think about his life up until now, it seems most likely that he was very young.

“Huh?”

No, wait a minute.

I opened my mouth at the sudden question that occurred to me. It felt as if I had a strange sense of foreboding.

‘That look is weird.’

The guy is definitely talking about revenge.

I have no idea if it was possible or not, but one thing was for sure: it felt uncomfortable.

It feels like the ‘Kim Seo-jin’ I knew until now is being denied.

‘Why?’

Cold sweat is welling up in me without me knowing. That strong will is embarrassing me.

Then why did the guy live like that?

I don’t get it.

It’s full of questions.

I even felt my head getting a little complicated as the thoughts came to mind.

‘Why did you just sit there in that orphanage, doing nothing, enduring the endless bullying?’

If you really wanted revenge, shouldn’t you have resisted that?

At least, if not that, I should have achieved something. But when I was possessed, there was nothing.

I searched the entire room he had been using, but all I could find was dust.

I heard from people that he has never even been outside.

But now, Kim Seo-jin’s appearance was different.

You can see a strong will in him that seems almost maddening right now. He looks like he could accomplish anything at any moment, but in reality, the ‘Kim Seo-jin’ I experienced was a loner who was bullied.

It’s a look that doesn’t match that kind of appearance at all.

‘Kim Seo-jin’ continues to cry quietly by herself. She continues to cry as if she is showing it to someone.

That sadness comes to me and makes me question things deeply.

Knock knock.

He kept his mouth shut.

As time goes by, he doesn’t make a sound, perhaps because his throat is hoarse. He just lowers his head and looks at the ground.

Knock knock knock.

Tears or blood flowed down. The atmosphere remained silent as if everything would soon end.

Looking at that sight gave me many thoughts.

But it was difficult to reach a conclusion.

It only gave rise to countless speculations.

「“I will take revenge, I will kill that bastard painfully.”」

There is nothing more to think about.

All we can do is just watch until this situation ends. Of course, the ending won’t solve any questions, but still.

““I’m going to kill you.””

There is a sense of emptiness in his speech. It also feels like he is simply stating the obvious in a matter-of-fact manner.

The voice is getting lower.

「“Even if I have to sell my soul… … .”」

Wooo!!!

「“… … What is this?”」

A vibration was spreading through my body.

「“What the heck… … ?”」

Something heterogeneous.

There was something rippling, made up of white, black, and crimson masses.

“What is this.”

What the hell is that here?

How and why?

That’s ridiculous.

So, what is this?

【“Get up.”】

*

“Cough… … !”

I was startled by the sudden inflow of breath. Feeling a sudden pain, I quickly felt around me.

Realizing that I had fallen on the ground, I immediately stood up.

The surroundings were extremely dark. It was difficult to see anything clearly, but that didn’t mean I couldn’t see anything.

I picked up the gun that was lying next to me as if it was a habit and looked around.

Then I quickly recalled what had just happened.

Someone’s revenge.

And that unknown object.

But it’s an object I’ve seen before.

My thoughts flowed quickly and I was able to come to conclusions quickly.

‘Probably something to do with my past being possessed.’

If what I saw just now is indeed ‘Kim Seo-jin’s’ past, then I could easily guess. I don’t know the details, but if I think about it, I can see that it is something that is very related to me. It must also be greatly related to the reason I came to this world.

That fact came to mind easily and I was able to quickly move on to the next thought.

‘So does that mean it wasn’t a coincidence that I was possessed?’

Did someone really make me possessed and possessed me? If that’s true, then who on earth did it?

The writer? Or Kim Seo-jin?

What on earth are your intentions?

I clenched my hands, feeling a sense of nervousness. My whole body felt covered in hot, cold sweat.

That scene from earlier keeps playing in my head and I feel anxious.

It was at that moment.

“What the hell is going on?”

An old man’s voice full of weight.

I reacted reflexively, took up a stance, and raised my gun. I quickly aimed and stared at the guy.

“How did you wake up so quickly?”

Finally, I could recall the whole situation.

Even before I saw that strange past, what happened? I stare at him hard, trying not to show even the slightest bit of weakness.

“It’s none of your business.”

Embarrassed, I gave an answer I didn’t need to give. I took a deep breath and watched the situation calmly.

My expression hardened abruptly as I felt the heavy atmosphere anew.

Thump.

The guy takes a step towards me. I don’t back down, trying my best to act as if nothing happened, and instead gather my mana and pull the trigger.

bang!

The bullet flew away, but the guy just stood there with a calm expression, as if he had dodged it. I checked his appearance and looked in the direction of Yoo Seora.

She was lying on the floor, unconscious.

‘You have to run away right now.’

But in this state, she will definitely be caught, and above all, Yusera will be in danger. So, we need to wake her up right now.

I quickly came to a conclusion and decided to take action.

I slowly backed away and approached Yusera.

“Where are you moving to?”

He asked me a question, but it wasn’t worth answering, so I kept my mouth shut and continued moving.

Knock, knock, he touched her with his foot.

I tapped it with a desperate wish for it to wake up.

“No good will come of ignoring it, right?”

I felt an indescribable pressure from him. I felt like the food I had eaten yesterday would come pouring out of my mouth at any moment. It was so bad that it made me feel sick.

“Rather than moving around clumsily, wouldn’t it be better to talk to me?”

Fuck.

No matter how much I tried to touch it, there was no sign of it waking up. Maybe it was better not to do such useless things, like that guy said.

“So what?”

I ended up answering in a tone that seemed sharp. It seems like the current situation is so uncomfortable that it is difficult to control your emotions.

To that extent, my body doesn’t move the way I want it to.

“I have a question.”

The bastard spoke with a tone full of deep weight.

“You’ve seen that note, right?”

Why on earth are you so obsessed with that note? To be honest, it wasn’t that big of a deal.

It’s just written in crazy letters.

There was something important there.

“So, what is that?”

“You don’t want to answer? Then I guess there’s nothing I can do.”

You can’t help it? What on earth are you planning to do?

Even if you don’t know what it is, you have to be on guard.

I wrapped my mana around my body as best I could. But the beggar, who thought I looked funny, didn’t do anything right.

“I was convinced after seeing your actions anyway. So now you can rest assured.”

assurance?

“Yeah, I don’t know what method he used, but it’s certain that he recovered from the trauma quickly.”

The guy continues with a crooked smile.

“There’s no way a being with such an unknown specialness wouldn’t have seen that.”

So in the end, it’s just a guess.

What kind of confidence are you talking about with that topic?

His face tightened. I could feel a sudden, distorted smile forming, different from his.

I’m so embarrassed, I can’t stop laughing.

Fuck.

The old man, who still looked relaxed in this damp and pungent atmosphere, slowly opened his mouth as if he had something to say to me.

“If you really didn’t see it, just recite the important parts that were there.”

He spoke heavily in a low voice.

“Where on earth is the Lord Masin and what is he doing now?”

Boom!!

An inexplicable loud noise occurred in an instant. The sudden change in the situation caused me to lose strength in my legs.

I kept my wits about me and stared at the guy. I couldn’t tell what he was doing right now, but that made me even more careful.

“You don’t have to think too hard about it. Just keep thinking about the questions I asked. Then, everything will be solved.”

Woohoo!!

The guy flies into the air.

It could be a serious threat at any moment, with strange sounds ringing out. That’s why they don’t attack anymore, but just watch the opponent defensively.

What on earth are you planning to do?

“Remember what happened today. And keep thinking about it. Got it?”

It’s a memory I can’t forget anyway.

I just frown and continue to listen to that voice.

“Then, leave the will alone. That’s my advice.”

With those words, the guy started emitting light, and then suddenly the sound stopped. Slowly, the light disappeared, and when I finally opened my eyes, I could see something I had never seen before.

‘It’s gone.’

The guy is gone.

It was clearly in my sight, then a white light appeared and suddenly disappeared, as if nothing had happened a moment ago.

Once I realized that fact, I was able to naturally formulate a hypothesis.

“Did you teleport?”

Actually, I thought it might be possible to some extent, considering that Lee Joo-hyuk has similar abilities related to it.

“Fuck, things that weren’t in the original keep coming out.”

Isn’t this not right?

I could only keep my mouth shut and express my discontent.

All I could do was feel the feeling that I couldn’t do anything. It was a truly indescribable, uncomfortable feeling.

It was a feeling of emptiness, where everything I had done up until now seemed meaningless. It was truly something I had never felt before in my life. I hung my head in helplessness.

“What the hell do you want from me?”

What’s the problem, I’m the only one who has to go through this?

I remembered the peaceful days I used to live without any worries. Back then, all I had to do was do what I was told and it would have been fine.

At least I didn’t have to feel this way.

Was it a sin to live so peacefully?

‘What on earth does this writer want from me… … .’

I had no choice but to clench my fists and suppress my anger.

“Whew, calm down.”

Let’s think positively. There’s no need to think only negatively.

As a result, you survived. Well, that was good enough. There are still plenty of opportunities left, so it’s time to start over.

‘Of course, I don’t know how to do that.’

No, I wonder if there is a way.

Still, I had to find it. And I had to make it possible.

If you haven’t done anything so far, you should build something now. Otherwise, you might die…

The world’s atmosphere is gradually becoming darker. It really makes me think that life is not all that good.

It was a time when I was constantly worrying about things like that.

Clearly that fleeting moment.

Yusera woke up with an incomprehensible sense of oppression.

“… … .”

She stood up like a zombie, waving her arms as if she had no strength left. The atmosphere was completely different from the Yoo Seo-ra I had seen so far, so I was able to come out of the reverie I had been in until just now. I regained the tension that had been released.

Even though it is clearly a legacy, I feel like I need to be on guard.

I put strength into the gun I was holding.

Her eyes were empty, as if they were empty and meaningless. She seemed to judge the whole world as nothing but black.

It’s spine-chilling.

‘This is… … .’

I can’t express it in words like I’m angry.

It’s hard to explain even with the word sad.

What kind of emotion could it be that could make you feel like that?

All I can feel is that she seems to be being manipulated.

‘I think I’ve seen it before… … .’

I have never seen it in person, but I remember feeling it in writing. But it was a long time ago, so it was a really vague, but unforgettable memory.

Where have you seen it?

Yeah, it feels like watching the second half of Yoo Seol-ra… … .

‘What did that guy say just now?’

If I go later, will it have a big impact?

As soon as that thought came to mind, I was able to think of something else as well.

That was definitely my least favorite memory, but it was an important one. It gave me goosebumps all over.

‘It was true.’

It just turned out that my guess that the ending was controlled by the demon was true.

As the original ending came to mind, I couldn’t help but laugh out loud as if I couldn’t believe it. It was really what I wanted, but right now it feels a little dangerous.

“Seo Jae-hyuk… … .”

Yusera opened her mouth and spoke.

It was a very small sound, but I could hear it clearly and I could tell what it was.

“Seo Jae-hyuk… … I have to meet… … .”

It seemed like she wanted to meet Seo Jae-hyuk right away. However, looking at her current situation, she seemed to have forgotten that she had brought the car, so she just seemed like she was going to run.

‘So that’s why you disappeared over the weekend.’

When I got here, all my questions were answered. But it wasn’t a very refreshing feeling.

The atmosphere feels heavy for no reason.

I wonder if he’s attacking me, for some reason he keeps touching the gun.

Cold sweat is running down my face. I feel uneasy in many ways.

She looked around and started glaring at one side. Then she naturally started walking towards that side.

That was the door we came through.

‘Are you unconscious? You found the door so quickly.’

I don’t think he had any intention of attacking me. He just wanted to meet Seo Jae-hyuk quickly.

Anyway, this is how I was able to save my life.

‘Can I just send it like this?’

But it still left me with a feeling of something clogged deep inside me. I still felt like something was left, to the point where I wanted to scream at any moment.

‘If I just leave it like this, will it really be okay?’

Naturally, I ended up recalling the ending again.

The ending where Yusera kills everyone.

It wasn’t a happy ending for anyone, not even for the will.

What on earth do I want? What do I want that I still have no intention of ending?

I stare at Yusera with questions filled in my mind. She slowly walks towards the door.

‘Will anything change even if I stop it?’

In the end, in the original, she showed an unchanging appearance. She was just a yandere who didn’t care about the means and methods.

A character that no one among the characters likes.

A woman who makes you wonder if she has feelings of pity or sympathy.

Yandere heroine.

That was the will I was looking at.

‘… … .’

But what was it like for me to experience a will in real life?

There is no need to think about her before returning. There were times when she was considerate of others, and there were times when she had fun with people other than Seo Jae-hyuk.

Unlike Yoo Seo-ra in the novel, who seemed to be all about Seo Jae-hyeok, she was able to feel various emotions in other places even if it wasn’t Seo Jae-hyeok.

Unlike the Yoo Seo-ra in the novel who was a psychopath, the Yoo Seo-ra I met was a girl who was human enough, although there was something strange about her.

‘Are you really sure it’s okay to leave it like this?’

I asked again.

But the answer didn’t come easily. If I tried to stop him here, I might get killed by Yoo Seora, so I naturally became cautious.

What the hell do I want?

Finally, I asked.

The answer came surprisingly easily.

‘I want to change the ending.’

That was a small wish I had thought about before I was possessed.

“… … .”

He immediately picked up the gun.

“Don’t move.”

bang!

A bullet flies next to Yusera. But she doesn’t care and just keeps walking.

There’s no point in letting her emotions explode on Seo Jae-hyeok. This situation will probably keep happening again. And then the negative emotions will just keep piling up until the end where everyone dies.

So, it had to be stopped immediately.

But looking at the current situation, it was too much to say. Even if I shot a bullet, it would be useless if she just ignored me and walked away.

So then how can we stop it?

‘Only things related to Seo Jae-hyuk are on Yu Seo’s mind.’

At least that’s what the current will looks like. If that’s the case, I think it won’t stop if you do something related to Seo Jae-hyeok.

‘Then what should I say?’

Should I speak as if I were Seo Jae-hyuk?

But that alone is not enough to capture the characteristics, so it was eventually ignored. If not, should I use the technique that Seo Jae-hyeok used? It was a very possible idea, but in the end, it was just a method that I could not do.

‘What the heck… … .”

At that moment, a line suddenly came to mind.

That was a line that Seo Jae-hyuk often said in the original.

‘But what if it doesn’t stop?’

At that point, there is no way out. In the end, the only option is to block it head on.

I slowly recalled my memories and opened my mouth.

A fear that I don’t know about is coming strong. It might be a feeling that comes from the fact that I might really die. But I ignore that feeling.

Pretend like nothing happened.

I spoke in a tone of voice that best matched the line.

“Hey you bitch!!!”

Very rough language.

“I brought cup ramen water at home, so let’s finish it right now and don’t waste time. ”

He even intentionally imitates the facial expression.

He says with the most distorted, evil smile possible.

“You’re a fucking retard who won’t take a minute to do it, so come at me before I eat your ear off.”

That’s definitely something Seo Jae-hyuk would say.

More precisely, it was a line he often used to say to his enemies in the latter half.