episode_0095

The scale is different. I was able to know this more clearly because I followed Choi Yoon-ha’s audition site.

There was already a huge crowd gathered in front of the Fantasy Dragon Production building. From vans carrying celebrities to actors who came alone in foreign cars.

Even the reporters were lined up. As each of them got out of their cars and entered the building, the shutters could be heard loudly.

‘It’s true that the production company of that Yoon Ha is filming and other things have little influence.’

Still, it was a million times better than a show like Lim Sung-hoon whose broadcast schedule was distorted from the beginning. Furthermore, since it was a show that didn’t have that many expectations, the thrill of being cast and the pressure of filming were almost non-existent.

This is perfect for Choi Yoon-ha’s first work. She must be having fun filming it.

[Choi Yoon-ha: Oppa. I miss you!]

I keep getting texts like this, but it’s because I’m having fun taking them. I could feel the excitement in the messages.

‘Well, it’s not Yoon-ha we should be worried about now.’

If you think about it, how can someone who can’t even take care of himself be responsible for others? Rather, I had to be an example to Choi Yoon-ha. I had to get the right results today.

“Should I get off soon?”

Instead of the usual office worker, Han Nan-kyung, one of the road managers for the two teams of actors who followed me, smiled and said,

“Yes.”

“As soon as you get off, all eyes will be on you, but don’t worry too much about it. It’s been proven to the world, not just us, that HyunA is an excellent and amazing actress.”

“Yes, I will.”

In fact, all of this was something like a foundation laid by my older sisters. My second older sister directly created the opportunity for me to be praised here and there, and for it to come up in the first place. Perhaps Kim Hye-rin anticipated this, or was aiming for it, and that is why she was so active in helping Choi Yoon-ha.

Because you like me, to be exact.

‘I like those kinds of older sisters too.’

Where in the world would there be a youngest child who dislikes his older sisters who love him so much? In a way, filming this project was also a way to repay the older sisters’ care.

If I appeared on TV and showed off my skills as the lead in a famous work, my older sisters would probably be the most excited.

“Shall we go?”

The door opens with a creak.

The warm sunlight between summer and fall was pouring in. I got out of the car I had come in after breaking through it.

“Huh?”

“Hey!”

As soon as I showed up, I was met with a truly diverse range of reactions. People were staring at me with a huge amount of attention. At first, everyone was expressing admiration and curiosity.

“… Is that person Kim Hyun-woo? Kim Hyun-ah?”

“Shouldn’t I call her Kim Hyun-ah? She’s so pretty.”

“That actor, is he really a man?”

“That’s ridiculous… .”

Most people who saw me for the first time or only saw my appearance felt a sense of admiration, wonder, and confusion at first. It couldn’t be otherwise. I don’t know how many times I checked myself in the mirror before showing this appearance. I checked my back, and checked again.

If there were any parts that were lacking or parts that could have been expressed more attractively, I stayed up all night to fix them.

In some ways, it expressed the pinnacle of beauty that women can show, with even more care than real women.

‘How can you not be amazed when you see this?’

When I look at myself in the mirror, I think I’m the prettiest, and I’m probably falling into narcissism. But, at heart, no matter what I look like on the outside, I’m a man.

After curiosity and confusion pass, people sometimes feel a bit of rejection and discomfort. Not everyone is like that. Especially if they have some hostility or negative feelings toward me to begin with.

“After all, he’s a man.”

“That’s right. It’s actually a bit scary that a man looks like that. It’s creepy.”

“Just tell me. Ugh… Ugh. That’s not it.”

“… Honestly, it’s so shocking in another sense. After all, he’s a man. There’s a downside to it.”

“Really.”

It’s not that he was mumbling because he thought no one would hear him. He was just so flustered that he had no choice but to speak his mind honestly.

I pretended not to care about the various stares that followed me along with the gossip, but inside, I felt a little hurt. A little more so because those people were not wrong.

[Wow! I wish I could send down a divine punishment and split the heads of those humans apart. But in a way, one of the reasons the Goddess of Transformation chose you is because she wanted to see how you would handle these things.]

[I’ve told you this before. The Goddess of Metamorphosis was originally a human, but she became a god. She’s not in her right mind. However, she’s strong because she’s not in her right mind.]

Did that goddess ever try cross-dressing?

[No. The Goddess simply changed from a man to a woman. By the way, the Goddess is completely bisexual. She is the kind of being who enjoys being raped.]

Yeah, she’s the goddess of perversion.

The attention wasn’t limited to reporters or onlookers.

“… Is that person Kim Hyun-ah?”

“ ‘s nanny?”

The actors who gathered for today also followed me for a long time. I can’t believe it when I see it in person. Did that person really apply for this place?

Just a moment ago, people who were going about their own business were uniting around me. I think that’s great. Just like how even the best best-sellers get hate comments, when so many people’s eyes are on them, it’s inevitable that unpleasant looks will follow.

“… Huh, that’s what it depends on?”

“This is really creepy.”

“Honestly, I’d like to hear it at least once. Are the twins acting separately? How can a man act like a woman like that? Even if it’s acting, ugh.”

Since he is cross-dressing, should I accept him as a woman? Or should I accept him as a man, even though he is cross-dressing? I don’t know. Because cross-dressing is rare, and because of that, there is no clear answer.

[It’s up to the owner to decide. In a way, the owner is the real leader in this field. Cross-dressing has existed since ancient times, but there aren’t many people who have done it in earnest and even tried to step into the world as a cross-dresser?]

It’s definitely a different feeling from being transgender. Furthermore, I am overwhelmingly dominant in the field of cross-dressing.

To be honest… .

‘It’s a little uncomfortable and burdensome, but I don’t mind this kind of attention.’

I don’t know if it was someone else, but I felt a little bit of mental pleasure and satisfaction from the constant, stinging gazes of other people.

Everyone wants to be the main character of the world. My family had a much stronger tendency to do that than most people.

When I wasn’t cross-dressing, I hid that fact and lived my life making concessions to others, but that wasn’t the case when I was ‘Kim Hyun-ah’ and not ‘Kim Hyun-woo’. I like to stand out more than anyone else.

That’s why.

“Uh… .”

When the shutter clicked, I turned my head slightly and gave the most seductive smile I could muster.

“… Even a woman would be fine.”

“Crazy. Come on. Human.”

“No. Really.”

I still felt a great deal of resistance to a man truly liking me, but now that I had made up my mind as an ‘actor’, I was able to accept it more generously.

That means they like me that much. Above all, thanks to the power of the harem app, I was actually confident that I could confidently reject anyone who approached me.

[Strength is something that is strong just by possessing it.]

That’s it.

[Dragon Fantasy Studio]

[Audition location 2F]

As we entered the audition room, we were greeted by an even hotter atmosphere. It felt hot outside, but it was even hotter here.

‘Actress Geum Bo-mi, actor Beom Song-ha, and actor Kim Min-kyung.’

It seems like all the actresses with a strong image who really show off their acting skills have gathered here. It was an audition of that level from the beginning. It was a work that I wouldn’t have even been given a synopsis for. However, it was also a golden opportunity that I was able to grab thanks to my second older sister’s consideration.

Honestly, even a masterpiece like this could fail depending on the filming process or what happens later. But if you just look at the lineup and the effort that went into this work, such a result is unimaginable.

‘It’s not good to rely too much on information.’

But even though there were so many great actresses, I didn’t feel intimidated or hesitate at all. Because I was the prettiest here. No matter what anyone said, I was the most beautiful, the most attractive, and the most amazing here.

It’s not exactly self-hypnosis to give yourself confidence, it’s just telling the truth. I was beautiful. What if I were a man? I’m the most beautiful, so what?

“Bomi, over there. Look over there. Isn’t that the actor you’ve been looking for?”

“Who… Huh? Really?”

Rather, it was the other person who was embarrassed. Geum Bo-mi opened her eyes wide and showed a look of disbelief.

Beom Song-ha and Kim Min-kyung were snorting softly.

“That’s a guy, right?”

“This is really the end of the world. A man came to an audition for an actress role dressed as a woman. This is not right. If that person gets cast, what will become of the other actresses? If she gets chosen as the main lead, not just an extra, it will be a real embarrassment to women.”

Hmm. Geum Bo-mi’s reaction was somewhat positive. Except for her, everyone else was a competitor, but at the same time, it was hard to acknowledge them as men and women. Most people were reacting negatively.

On the contrary, when men see me, their reactions are split.

“Possible…maybe.”

What is possible? Get out.

“But that’s not it.”

There is no other phrase that I hear as often and that annoys me as that damn ‘But that’s not it.’ In a way, those words, those gazes, aren’t they oppressing not only me, but also many small numbers of people with an invisible rope.

“Okay, everyone, stop making too much noise. The audition will be conducted with strictly objective criteria. It’s like in fantasy novels. The villainous extras who act with preconceived notions and end up getting punished. I absolutely don’t want to be that kind of person.”

That’s the guy. One hundred percent.

The CEO who created the production company with the ridiculous name of Fantasy Dragon. He was a pot-bellied old man who, without adding a single lie, would order a pack of ramen at the neighborhood comic book store and desperately read fantasy and martial arts novels.

“Well. Even so, it wouldn’t be fun if we just did it. Is there anyone who wants to audition first?”

Let’s say the representative of Fantasy Dragon said something like that.

Among the actresses present, almost all the big names raised their hands, and among the actresses with lesser name value, about half of them raised their hands.

And I… chose to watch quietly.

Because the main character usually appears at the end.