episode_0094

‘under……’

Baek Arin.

No, Baek Arin, who changed her name to Baek Mija, sighed and barely got up from the bed.

Every time I opened my eyes, my heart began to suffer.

That’s why I couldn’t help but sigh.

She opened an internal medicine practice in Busan’s old town.

Word of mouth spread that her prescriptions were effective, and she achieved quite a stir.

But the problem was Mija’s will.

All her will was broken.

People whose will is broken don’t want to do anything.

It was the same with Mija.

‘Why on earth did I make such an effort?’

All the tears that were flowing have dried.

In the dried up place, only emptiness remained.

Why should I live?

Why should you try?

I began to question what I had immersed myself in.

Therefore, it did not matter whether his hospital was doing well or not.

No, I wasn’t interested.

As it was an old town, the main patients were elderly people.

Mija had a lot of experience, so she had that much skill.

Soon Mija became their family name.

But Mija was not happy about those things at all.

I thought that all I had to do was make enough money to eat and live.

Making too much money.

Too much honor.

Those two things were nothing more or less than just a nuisance.

‘What time is it…?’

No matter how much she tried to be lazy, the diligence imprinted on her body made her wake up early.

She was innately sincere.

I always came to work before office hours and worked weekends without fail for over 10 years.

But it was different now.

My body still moved in a diligent cycle, but my mind didn’t.

Feeling of disparity.

Suffering about it.

A longing that lingers even if you try to forget it.

These were things that tormented her while she was awake.

“Ha…Mr……”

I held back the cursing that was about to come out of my mouth.

It was Mija herself who had never cursed in her life.

I really hated seeing myself spewing out vulgar language like that.

“I really hate it…I really…hate it…”

My head hurts.

It feels like both temples are being squeezed.

I grabbed my head and fell down.

Bedding that has not been washed properly and has a musty smell irritates her.

But I couldn’t do anything right.

[Woof woof! Woof woof!]

For a moment, her whole body started to tremble.

A call from the person you hate the most.

I knew right away because I had customized the ringtone to only come to him.

“Ss…why are you really like this since this morning…?”

In the end, swear words came out.

[Woof woof! Woof woof!]

But in a corner of my chest, a tremendous heartbeat was beginning.

That man’s phone.

There was a reason for that.

That phone call was requested by me.

A safety device that you might not know about.

The man who comes looking for that man.

The man Arin loved.

Because it was proof that Eunhyuk had arrived.

“Ah…senior…”

I’m crying.

Tears burst out of her eyes, putting the expression “dried tears” to shame.

Enough to wet your entire face.

I thought I hoped that phone call would never come.

Not receiving a phone call meant that the man she loved was not looking for her.

She hoped that the man Arin loved would not suffer further.

But why?

She was touched.

She never wanted it to happen, but in the end, she did.

He hopes that the person he loved will find him.

“Keu…keup……”

I barely held back my tears and grabbed my phone.

I had to listen.

I had to check what kind of ending it was.

Did it go in the direction you wanted?

Or maybe the person you love behaved in a strange way.

The hand holding the cell phone was shaking.

With some difficulty, I pressed the call button with my thumb.

“…What is it?”

“If you’re a good daughter, shouldn’t you answer your dad’s phone like that?”

“…You have to act like a father to be a father. Just tell me the business.”

“I used to talk to you…yeah. The guy you mentioned comes and goes.”

“Yes…!?”

At that moment, a loud sound came out of Mija’s mouth.

Eunhyuk, who came down to Busan to find himself, was instantly pictured in my head.

A situation I didn’t want but wanted to be.

Tears began to well up in her eyes again.

“Why are you so surprised? Are you playing around with that gisaeng brother? Looking at men is like a bitch without eyes.”

“…Do you…have the right to say something like that?”

Mija sharply responds to the words of a man who wants to be her father.

“…I don’t know, but…I’ll just stop giving you the money.”

“Ugh….this bitch…..”

“If you interfere with me like that, I will cut you off immediately.”

“…Where did a bitch like that come from.”

I wanted to scream even more at the man who was laughing, but I held back.

The more you do that, the more you have to talk to that horrible guy.

“Let’s talk quickly. What happened when the man came to visit?”

“…Anyway, I did what the owner asked me to do.”

“Dead?”

“Okay. You said you fell down in a car accident…hehe.”

Even though it was something Mija herself had ordered, her heart sank for a moment.

“Well…so, what was your reaction?”

“What?”

“You either believe that…or you don’t believe it…”

“Uh…! It looks like we got along very well! He was as naive as you! I really believed it! He even shed so many tears!”

Crumble.

Crumble.

Mija’s heart sank twice more.

To hear that the man she loved was suffering was definitely a story that broke one’s own heart.

Even though it was the result he wanted.

“It went well, right? Hehe!! How does it feel to be the protagonists of sorrow?”

“Shut up……”

“Hehe!! Whose mouth is dirty, just like me?”

I couldn’t take my father’s harsh words anymore.

A very obvious fact.

Because it was a shameful fact.

“keke… Thanks to you, I feel like I’ve watched an interesting drama. anyway! I just need to get paid! Send it in on time this month hehehe…!”

“…uh.”

Kuuk.

After giving a short answer, Mija immediately turned off the phone.

I didn’t want to hear any more disgusting sounds from the man who was my father.

“Haa…..”

dump.

I threw myself on the bed again.

A musty dust filled her nose.

It felt like my heart stopped.

It was still alive, but I couldn’t feel it beating.

“It’s over…”

It’s completely over.

It was what Mija herself wanted, but somewhere in her heart, she may have been hoping that the person she loved would find her in the distant future.

But the man was so kind and simple.

That’s why I so easily believed the lies I made up.

“Sigh…Sigh…”

The fact that it was really over made her cry again.

Behind my pounding heart, I found my body cooling down.

“I want to see you…I want to see you…”

A result that Mija brought upon herself.

An irreversible reality.

Mija completely collapsed due to the disharmony between reason and emotion that she had originally wanted.

[end.]

Mija…no, only one word was ringing in Arin’s head.

“Hauuu……”

****

Mija had no choice but to issue a notice of closure.

I stayed at home for a full week and just cried.

There was no strength in my body at all.

All I wanted to do was die.

I kept crying all week.

While I was conscious, the tears did not stop.

I continued to shed tears and felt like I was going to die of exhaustion.

Mija thought that it might actually be better to die.

That’s why I kept crying.

But people were strong.

He just fell asleep from exhaustion and did not die.

Even while she was exhausted and asleep, Mija was in pain.

This is because the person he loved, Eunhyuk, appeared in his dream.

I wish it would go well even in my dreams, but that wasn’t the case.

This is because not only Eunhyuk but also his daughter Minah came out.

[I know the topic. How dare you cross my father?]

Mina’s face.

For Mija, who was Arin, that was a face she didn’t want to see even in her dreams.

A face filled with nothing but contempt and hatred for oneself.

“Huh…!!”

Every time I saw that face in my dream, I woke up.

In a state of sweat.

“Heo Eok…Heo Eok……”

As soon as I woke up, tears welled up in my eyes.

It is a profound longing.

What had been suppressed was no longer suppressed.

This is the person I loved so much.

I held on and waited for over 10 years.

The one place where love was supposed to come true has gone astray.

“Hmm…!Hmmmm…!”

This was all because of Minah.

But I couldn’t blame her.

She is also a part of Eunhyuk.

To Eunhyuk, his daughter was everything in his life.

The moment you deny Mina, you are denying Eunhyuk.

Minah never intended to accept Arin herself.

The end of love that Arin wants is catastrophe.

That’s why I gave up.

Rationally, it was like that.

It was like that, but my heart wasn’t like that.

I couldn’t possibly forgive Minah.

I hated that arrogant kid who had just become an adult who deceived Arin so much.

‘That naughty bitch who tries to go against ethics, morals… and biology…’

That’s why I had no choice but to give up.

Even if Minah accepts Arin, Arin cannot accept Minah.

“Senior…how dare you…oppa…in front of me…”

In Mija’s eyes, the situation of Eunhyuk’s cock being eaten by Minah’s lower hole is pictured before her eyes.

So realistic.

As if it was happening right in front of me.

“Ugh…aaa!!!!!”

scale.

No, now Mija started screaming and tearing her hair out.