episode_0093

Tweet, tweet.

It was always the chirping of birds that woke me up in the morning.

Normally, if I wake up late, I don’t have to hear the birds, but since I came into this world, I wake up in the afternoon. Since those words have been gone for a long time, I felt like I was getting used to the sound of birdsong.

Well, since my body had completely changed, I was adjusting my sleep pattern again, so there was something comfortable about not having anything like that, but I also thought that it would have been better if I hadn’t ended up in this body.

I was dazed in the room I was alone in, and was there Kylon in the room next to me? I scratched my neck in response to this question.

He said he would protect me and that he would not leave me, so I glanced around the room, thinking that he must not have gone far.

Single room, single room. Although it was the most comfortable space for me, my body didn’t seem to want to be alone.

Before the loneliness, when Kylon wasn’t nearby, the memories of that time came back to me, and I thought about whether I was being dragged back in and tortured without realizing it, and ended up putting my hands around my neck for no reason.

It seems like he’s getting better with Kylon by his side, but when he’s alone like this, he starts scratching in secret.

I stood up, wondering if it would be okay since I wasn’t ready to get my nails done, and slowly changed into them, holding the pure white saint’s clothes that were on top of them in my hand.

And when I left the room at the end, I saw Kylon leaving the room wearing armor.

I was surprised because I didn’t expect to meet at the door of my room at this moment, and looked at him blankly while holding the changed clothes in my hand, and in the short silence, Kylon’s greeting was thrown.

“Did you sleep well?”

“Uh, yes. did you sleep well. Did Kailon sleep well?”

“… Thanks.”

When I glanced at the surroundings and spoke softly in response to the lightly thrown words, he smiled bitterly and answered me.

Is there anything I can say about it? Anyway, I just have to accept and enjoy the fact that the heroines are good and stick together, and I didn’t do anything to it.

There is no sign of popularity around, and there is no heroine following Kylon. I decided to just talk comfortably and went back into the room I left and opened the door.

Then, Kailon seemed to have realized the meaning of that silent action and followed me into the room.

The place where Kailon and I could talk comfortably was a space where no one would come, so I had no choice but to say that these early mornings and late nights were comfortable.

However, in the meantime, the late nights were taken away by others, and now there is only early morning, so it is a regrettable fact that the time to talk has decreased.

I didn’t want to criticize the saint for speaking informally to her, so I closed the door again and glanced at Kailon.

“If you go to bed late and wake up early, aren’t you tired? I heard that I will complete the quest today and get the third reinforcement stone. Do you think it will be okay?”

Due to the nature of the game, the further you go, the stronger the monsters become.

And now that we are faced with a level of difficulty that is more difficult than when Kailon woke up, Kailon’s fatigue has become very important.

A day has passed since we hit it off like a game. This meant that it was not something that could be glossed over.

“… Well, it’s just me if I take a fatigue medicine.”

“Even if you rely on medicine for something like that, it seems like fatigue will still remain in your body in the end.”

“Still, the performance is killer.”

“Anyway, did you do well? How is it going? Isn’t it difficult?”

While saying that, I slowly asked about the status of their teaching assistants.

I said it was difficult, but in the end, when I saw the effort I put in, I thought it was amazing and I felt grateful. But when I asked that question, I felt like Kailon’s expression was slowly disappearing.

“… I don’t really want to have that conversation.”

I don’t think I’ve ever done this before, so what’s not working?

Or is it because he doesn’t want to tell me about his behavior with other women?

Well, it didn’t matter either way. Since it was the women over there who had formed a close relationship, I, who was almost like an outsider, knew that I had no room to interfere, so I just nodded.

“Uh, yes, that’s possible.”

“Well, I guess I’ll just kill monsters today. Honestly, if it takes a long time, I could just sleep around for a day just to catch monsters.”

“What does that mean?”

“Including the snake that suddenly jumped out of the corner of the road, the wolf that attacked the family home, and more and more monsters that are getting stronger and harder to deal with are appearing. I think the difficulty keeps increasing because I started off differently from the game.”

I knew that fact. However, if it felt so bad, I couldn’t help but feel worried, so I narrowed my eyes.

I had mixed emotions, wondering if it would become difficult to clear if things continued like this.

I groaned because I thought I might not be able to find a way out of this world because I couldn’t clear it like this.

Even if I went to the Pope to erase my trauma and to inform him of the king’s atrocities, I felt anxious that I would have to remain in this world and live the rest of my life with the trauma erased, as it would become impossible.

Kailon groaned and looked at me quietly.

“More than that, is it okay to be alone now? Don’t scratch your neck?”

“Uh, yes. Don’t scratch. Since Kylon keeps saying he’ll be by my side, I think I’m scratching less.”

“Yes, I’m glad.”

Kylon came over and glanced at my neck, then nodded and took a step away from me again.

I think they were checking to see if they had touched my neck, but I couldn’t figure out why they were checking for a wound that was going to heal anyway.

Even if you scratch anyway, you’re only scratching like a person would scratch their own skin.

“… Ah, even if I don’t want to say it, I have to say it.”

“… What?”

“Sleeping with other kids.”

“Oh, no, if Kylon doesn’t want to talk, you don’t have to! I just trust that Kylon will take care of it.”

“… … look. You’re not even curious.”

What do you want to say?

Wasn’t it that he didn’t want to tell me about what happened with him and the women he was involved with?

I was considerate of Kylon in my own way, but Kylon glared at me as if he didn’t like it.

Those eyes seemed to contain only the feeling of wanting to express dissatisfaction, not any other bad feelings, so I glanced away without being able to say anything to that gaze.

Actually, I never thought I could understand Kylon.

He lived a completely different life that seemed similar to mine, and even now, I was well aware that although we could get closer because we were similar, we couldn’t get any closer because we were walking different paths.

But even so, if he kept saying things that I couldn’t understand, I couldn’t help but make a puzzled expression.

“What?”

“Every time I’m surrounded by kids, they just indifferently say “fight” and leave, and after that, they ask me what I did with them or how tightly I hugged them, but they don’t even show me any facial expressions.”

“… Uh, well, isn’t that natural?”

“Not at all, no, it could happen to someone else. Still, this is too much for me… ”

“Wow,” Kailon’s hand stretched out toward me.

And those thick hands led me to the bed.

In an instant, my vision wavered, and when I looked at the ceiling, Kailon’s face appeared above it.

Wait a minute, what kind of atmosphere is this?

What could Kylon have done to deserve this? And I measured it several times.

I don’t have any? To dismiss it, I narrowed my brows as a recent conversation that struck me came to mind.

I remembered Kylon’s face when he asked me if I could be jealous.

And after that, the feeling of ‘Oops’ rose up. It wasn’t that I was offending him, but it seemed like he was dissatisfied that I didn’t give him the reaction he wanted.

“You don’t see me as the opposite sex?”

He said it was good.

Kailon told me that he liked me.

He told me that he liked Veronica’s face, expression, voice, and me, not her body.

Even though I couldn’t hide my embarrassment at that fact and tried to dismiss it as unbelievable, I was so happy on the inside that I couldn’t turn him away coldly.

If Veronica had just asked me to have sex with her face, I would have sworn at her and told her to fuck off, but since that wasn’t the case, I couldn’t say anything harsh.

I wondered how I could do that to someone who said I liked them.

Confession felt good, but I didn’t know what would happen to this relationship if I refused, so I tried to keep my distance without accepting or rejecting it.

In fact, if I followed my feelings and didn’t bother to develop them, the distance would never decrease.

When he gets closer, push away a little, and when he moves away, move closer.

I thought that then I would be able to maintain a sense of distance from the person I met in the game, neither too far nor too close to the party.

But although this was a game, it was also reality, so I didn’t seem to realize that that method wouldn’t work.

The result was now this.

This posture makes it look like Kylon is going to attack me at any moment.

I was so scared that I carefully thought of a few things to say to appease him.

“… Kylon?”

“Am I only a friend?”

Those words mixed with sadness made me break into a cold sweat.

It never occurred to me that I, who had no friends, would be able to get out of this situation with words.