episode_0089
by fnovelpiaSabagsabag. The short-growing grass is Revan and El. I tickled both of their ankles.
This was unavoidable. Revan wanted to talk in a place where there would be no interruptions if possible.
Elves have hearing that is proportional to their large ears. In order to have a conversation alone, it was necessary to go a little deeper into the forest.
“······.”
“······.”
The sun has set and it is a dark and quiet night. The two walked quietly forward without any conversation.
However, there was no reason for the gap between the two to widen. The two walked away while maintaining a certain distance, as if neither of them wanted to get further away. No, rather, it is getting slightly closer.
“Would you like to chew?”
A road where there is no sound other than the cries of grasshoppers. The first to break the silence was L. El held out a green leaf towards Revan.
“···What is this?”
“Mint. It is said that elves chew when they are bored. I received it from Lysion.”
After hearing those words, Revan looked closely at El’s face. Certainly, his cheeks were moving slightly as if he was chewing something.
“Why are you staring so intently?”
“···No.”
Revan picked up the green leaf that El held out with his fingers and stuffed it into his mouth. A refreshing and refreshing scent lingered in my mouth. It was impossible to compare it to the mint scent I was familiar with.
“As expected, the mints that elves chew are different.”
“Puhup-”
It was a pure sentiment without any exaggeration. L smiled softly as if he was satisfied with the reaction.
After that, the two continued talking in a quiet, not too loud voice. It was a nutritious but enjoyable conversation, mostly filled with trivial stories.
***
“I like it here.”
After a short walk, Revan stopped at a point. In front of Revan, who stood tall, there were two rocks suitable for sitting, side by side, facing each other. As if it were a chair.
Crack. Revan tapped the rock with his hand to shake off any remaining dust and dirt. And then I looked at El.
A silent gaze. Elle tilted her head at that.
“What does it mean?”
“···Please sit down. I’m not planning anything strange.”
“Aha?”
El’s eyes widened as he looked with suspicion at Revan, who had cleared his seat but was not sitting down. And then he grinned.
“Where did you learn this? You are truly magnificent.”
Euchacha – L made a pleasant sound and sat down gently on the spot where Revan had prepared her, adjusting her skirt. And immediately Revan settled down across from him.
Sigh! After the two finished sitting down, L rubbed his thumb and middle finger together. Then a faintly bright light appeared between the two.
Of course, if two people are at this level, it is not difficult at all to check each other even in the dark. However, it was convenient and more intuitive to face each other directly with the light.
“So, what is it that called me here?”
There will be a seat and a light source. L got straight to the point. It wasn’t that embarrassing for Revan. Because El originally did not welcome petty ostentation.
“I have something to say.”
“I already knew that. What I’m curious about is what he has to say”
“···Umm.”
Revan’s brows narrowed for a moment at El’s simple words. But it wasn’t that long. Because it was clear what had to be done.
“First of all, I would like to apologize.”
“···Apology?”
apologize. Of course, he wasn’t talking about fruit, but rather he was saying that he had something to atone for.
However, an apology was originally meant to be done when something was wrong. So El became even more confused. Because he couldn’t think of the mistake Revan had done to him.
“What kind of apple do you mean? If it was an attack at the Academy, it’s okay because it’s Benny’s fault and that person with a broken personality.”
“That’s not true. It’s a different story.”
“It’s a different story… perhaps? These days, it seems like there is a subtle distance between me and Lysion…!”
This time, L’s eyes opened like a cat aiming for a butterfly. It may have been serious on her part, but it was pleasant for Revan.
“···Why are you smiling? Embarrassing people.”
“It’s just because you’re so cute.”
“Cute?!”
The repercussions are bigger when someone who didn’t do it before does it. Revan wasn’t the type of person to say words like ‘cute’, which created even more confusion in El’s head.
Revan, on the other hand, was happy. I was happy to have this conversation, which was not about discussing important issues, but simply about our closeness to each other. But now it was time to get to the point.
“L.”
“···?”
“Before I apologize, I have to tell you about my past days, is that okay?”
Hueup. L’s chest puffed up for a moment, then went back in.
In El’s view, Revan had an unconditional rejection of his past. As if it was forcibly buried in one corner.
So, even though El revealed his past, he did not criticize Revan, who kept his mouth shut. Because each person’s wounds and pain are different.
“Are you okay? Well, if I have a sense of debt or something like that, it’s okay if I don’t do it.”
“Yes. Because it’s what I want to do.”
“If that’s the case.”
However, L was not the type to step forward and say she would do it herself. El nodded coolly and looked into Revan’s eyes.
“Hmm. It might be a little longer, is that okay?”
“It doesn’t matter. I would like you to recite it in as much detail as possible.”
“I understand. Then… I should start by talking about my birth.”
Just like that, Revan’s mouth moved and he began to unravel the past. I rhyme with the story of a little boy with dirty eyes wearing dirty clothes.
***
“···That’s how I came to the Academy. Since then, we’ve been together almost all the time, so I don’t think there’s any need for further explanation.”
It was quite a long story. Telling a story in front of an audience made me feel like a minstrel. Although he did not exaggerate or exaggerate the story like a true minstrel.
In Revan’s opinion, El was a very good listener. I nodded, lowered my eyes and sympathized with the place where Revan was suffering, and even when Revan’s voice wavered for a moment, I just looked at him without saying a word and stayed in his seat.
“I heard you well.”
If you sell it to a bookstore somewhere, they’ll ask, ‘Why is the main character so full of hardships? It was a story worthy of a book review saying, ‘I don’t like it.’ You probably didn’t want to hear it. El just moved her head up and down gently.
“By the way. What does my junior’s past have to do with his apology to me?”
While listening intently to the story, L asked the question he still had. Rather, hearing about the past only made him feel more doubtful about Revan’s words that he would apologize to him.
However, Revan sighed slightly as if it was an expected question. And then, he opened his mouth in an attitude as if he was giving a confession.
“Senior. I am a close friend of you, El, a student at Xeorp Academy who has purification abilities and a cause to purify polluted areas. Is that correct?”
“···Isn’t that correct?”
It was an obvious answer. Even for El, the existence of Revan has been something precious for a long time.
“No.”
But Revan shook his head left and right. In an instant, L’s face hardened.
“What is that-”
“I didn’t look at the person named ‘L’.”
“What does that mean?”
Now there was even a subtle anger in L’s voice. A slight pain appeared on Revan’s expression. It’s as if he doesn’t want to talk.
“So you thought of me as a convenient tool or something? If so-”
“I was looking at you and Vivian.”
“···Yes?”
Vivian. A red-haired woman who probably loved Revan and met a tragic end. The name came out of nowhere.
“I didn’t fully see the human called ‘L’, but I wanted a replacement for Vivian.”
And so Revan’s confession began.
***
Vivian and Elle had many similarities.
An extraordinary thought circuit that is different from that of ordinary people. A unique way of speaking. Solidity you can lean on. (Although she faked it) An older woman. Unique cheerfulness.
As Revan looked back on the past, he recognized the source of the slight sense of déjà vu he had been feeling while looking at El. At the same time, I felt great shame.
“Vivian told me just before she died. Forget yourself. But I couldn’t do that. Even when killing monsters in the arena. Even when I was attending the academy, I met you whenever and wherever I was chasing Vivian’s illusion.”
chuck. Revan’s outstretched index finger pointed at El.
“Sorry. Sincerely.”
Immediately afterwards, Revan bowed down, showed the top of his head to El, and apologized. It was a sincere apology without any laughter.
“······.”
At the same time, Revan’s body began to tremble slightly. It was a sign of tension and fear that had never been shown even when hunting a magical beast, and that had occurred for the first time in a very long time.
To Revan, El was no longer a replacement for Vivian. He did not want to be separated from him, and he saw him as a kind of understanding and companion who understood him the most out of all the people in the world other than himself.
But it started as a replacement for someone else. So, Revan did not want to hide these impure thoughts because he valued El. Even though I thought I didn’t want to fall.
“Revan.”
“······.”
L’s voice lingered in my ears. But Revan’s mouth was still tightly closed.
“Revan!”
But El shouted even louder. As if it were a battering ram trying to open a tightly closed door.
“···?”
Finally, Revan, who had been staring at the ground, raised his head. And then their eyes met.
***
“What does that matter?”
“···Yes?”
“What does that matter?”
El held Revan’s head, which made a dumb sound, with both hands.
“Yes. They said they saw me as a replacement for Vivian. To be honest, I was a little upset when I first heard it. I wonder if I am that kind of person. There’s no way you’d feel good if you overlapped with someone who even kissed you.”
“···Sorry.”
“However, that is not a reason for us to split in the future. Revan, look at me.”
As if trying to completely blur the line that separates each other, L stopped showing respect that she usually took for granted.
“I won’t push you away. The one who’s trying to push me away right now is you, Revan.”
“But-”
“Ah- If you’re going to say stupid things again, that’s okay! Don’t think about other things and just answer what I say. Revan? Are you looking at me and Vivian right now?”
El pulled Revan’s head towards himself. Before we knew it, the distance between the two had become so close that their breaths were touching. The refreshing mint scent tickled Revan’s nose.
“···No.”
The beginning may have been Vivian’s replacement. But, not now. Vivian and L. The two were precious but at the same time very different beings.
“Okay then. The feeling you should have towards me is not guilt. We can’t afford to load trash like that when we’re all in the same boat. And, I am also grateful to Vivian. If it weren’t for her, you could have died in that arena, and then you wouldn’t have met me.”
“···Hueup.”
Revan took a sharp breath and felt shame and ecstasy at the same time. The hope that I thought was rare, that perhaps someone would forgive me and accept me, was happening in reality.
“Now, the only thing left is your choice. Revan? Are you going to push me away? Falling into the guilt of thinking that the person involved had nothing to do with it?”
Revan’s body stiffened at El’s stern question.
However, soon enough, life began to return to Revan’s eyes. And then, the head El was holding slightly shook left and right.
“······ni.”
“What?”
“···No. I don’t want to do that.”
“Then, what should you say to me?”
The rudder of the ship was now in Revan’s hands. Revan finally made his wish.
“Please come with me. L.”
Blue and yellow eyes reflected into each other’s eyes. And first, a line was drawn in the amber eyes.
“Of course, Revan. But, I have to take one thing from you. As compensation for the voyage.”
“···?”
At those words, Revan’s body trembled inappropriately. When it comes to compensation, there is nothing I can give to myself as compensation.
“Pushup.”
However, L smiled brightly, as if she also liked those frightened eyes. And then, her hand wrapped around Revan’s head and pulled.
and. and···
***
Revan’s first kiss tasted like fishy, blood-filled metal.
“···Puha.”
And the second kiss.
“···This is enough for the advance payment.”
It feels refreshing and refreshing. It had a mint flavor.
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