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Episode.89 My Hero

[Baek Harin SIDE]

‘I wonder if today is how many days I haven’t been able to take medicine…’

Now I can no longer console myself with self-harm.

Numerous stabbings, repeated pain.

As I keep repeating the same actions, self-harm has become a kind of homework for me.

Of course, the only self-harm I did was slit my wrists.

There are other self-injury methods, such as stabbing oneself in the stomach, that can take greater risks and provide an exhilarating thrill.

I would like to avoid hurting myself in the abdomen area.

You may not be able to receive the seeds of your loved one later… so you should be careful.

Then… I thought about slitting my throat.

‘That might be a little scary…’

I’m scared of a topic I’ve already done once before.

Actually, there’s nothing to be afraid of, what’s worse than death?

I held the knife, with which I had always used self-harm, to my neck, where I could feel the soft skin.

Maybe it’s because I’ve already harmed myself a lot, but unlike before, my hands didn’t shake at all.

‘If I draw a line here… I can never go back.’

When you first harm yourself.

When I brought the knife to my skin, I felt my heart agitated and excited.

Now it felt as if the blood had stopped flowing in my veins.

Have I ended up becoming a crazy woman who becomes calmer even when my life is in danger?

– Boom!

Just as I was about to press the knife to my own throat, the door to the only way out of the room opened.

“Hmm? What a foolish girl… Then, why not give it a try? If you have the courage to do that?”

“… Who are you?”

Another voice I heard for the first time.

‘I’m so sick of it now…’

“Ha… There was a reason why the person in charge kept changing. Isn’t that a joke in the room-”

“If you won’t answer my question…! Unfortunately… I don’t have the heart to talk to you.”

“Yes, such attitudes and actions are what make people around you leave.”

The reason why the person in charge is changing.

I didn’t do anything particularly serious.

What did I do?

Mero and Lina.

Other users as well.

Everyone left.

Why… why is everyone running away from me?

“… I asked who you were.”

I tried to deny the thoughts in my mind and asked the identity of the person who had just entered.

“Persistence, well… I’m here to do ‘last work’ as an employee, so I guess it doesn’t matter if I tell you my name.”

The person using the knife approached me and snatched the knife I was holding at a speed that made it impossible for me to react.

“First of all… My name is Triche. No, it’s Beatrice.”

“Beatrice…? What brought you to see me?”

“Well… I was driving the carriage just now, and when I returned to the mansion, there was no one there… Oh, except for three people.”

What kind of nonsense is this person suddenly talking about?

“What does that have to do with it now?”

“I don’t know if I tell you anyway… but it seems that among those three are the little master, another employee… and your colleague. Judging from your expression, it looks like you don’t want to hear it?”

‘colleague…’

Helpless.

I couldn’t think or do anything.

She is like a princess who has become a prisoner of an enemy country.

‘… Comparing myself to a princess when something has no eyes makes me feel even more miserable…’

“… It’s frustrating, I felt that too while accompanying him for a short time-”

“Where did you go together?”

Should I just leave it here?

By any chance… it’s not like you went on a date or something, right?

“Ah… Don’t misunderstand. I’m just here to work for a while at the duke’s order.”

“I see…”

I’m relieved that it’s not a date.

‘If that were the case…’

“Anyway, I overheard them talking here.”

“If they are… Are they the three you mentioned earlier?”

“Okay. Listening to what other workers were saying, they said that those who want to live should leave this place right now. All the workers here have run away. If you don’t want to get caught up and die, you should leave too.”

“Are you taking me out of here?”

“If you want.”

– Sigh!

I heard the sound of something hitting the table.

“It’s a pretty sharp knife. Isn’t it too dangerous to use while eating?”

“I…”

“You’d better answer quickly. By this time, he must have reached the cave in the west.”

“… I’ll stay here.”

“Are you serious? If you’re joking… you’d better stop. I don’t have much time either… I don’t have time to listen to pointless jokes.”

“It’s not a joke.”

“A few cuts on your wrist… It looks like you’ve been through a pretty tough time, right?”

“That’s not something to worry about.”

“Hmm… I understand. I’m going to go prepare for my work now… Don’t regret missing this opportunity?”

“I don’t regret it…”

“It’s unfortunate. I thought it could have been a good threat…”

Threat?

I really don’t know what you’re talking about.

“… To prevent you from getting caught up in the duke’s work, I will change your chain so that you can escape at any time.”

Since he was trying to help me, I don’t think he’s that bad.

I don’t know if there’s any point in getting out with this person’s help.

… It’s not that I don’t know if it’s really meaningful or not.

‘Actually, even if I were to appear in front of him again with this person’s help…’

It will be abandoned again.

If we’re going to be abandoned again anyway, wouldn’t it be better to stay here?

Unless he comes to visit in person… there’s no point in leaving here.

It just keeps repeating the same thing over and over again.

In an orphanage, something that can never be achieved.

‘Just like the promise of that day…’

**********

It felt like a few hours had passed.

This space is as quiet as a mouse.

Furthermore, the only way out was locked again.

Without knowing the meaning of changing the chain, I was feeling lonely and lonely in a mansion with no one left.

‘This silence…’

The silence of the empty mansion was enough to bring a sense of emptiness to me.

It makes you feel as if time has stopped.

Also, it felt like even space had stopped.

Every time I moved a little on the bed, the sound of the blanket rubbing against me echoed alone in the guest room, which was filled with silence.

“Honestly, I would be lying if I said I didn’t regret my choice.”

Still, feeling his rough skin one more time would have been the best option for me as a loser.

Was I showing off my pride for no reason?

I can’t consult anyone or confide in anyone.

This further emphasized the deeper silence, and I felt like I had become a tragic heroine.

… The female protagonist wouldn’t harm herself.

This mansion, where everything seemed to stand still, I felt like I was trapped in a gap in time.

– It’s here…

– … Is this a steel chain… No, it’s steel…

– I can just break it with force, right?…

– Okay, I took care of the permission… yay!…

I heard a conversation outside.

– Pakak!

Soon, I heard the sound of something breaking.

And the door, the only way out, opened.

“… Who are you…? Also, has the person in charge changed? I didn’t do anything serious…”

No, probably not.

I heard that all the employees of this mansion have fled…

But why?

This feeling.

I feel a sense of nostalgia somewhere.

I could feel it even with my dull senses, having spent countless days in despair.

“No, this feeling… Could it be you?”

“Harin?”

His voice calling my lowly name affectionately.

More than any drug, more than self-harm.

I’m ecstatic.

I feel like my soul is flying.

I couldn’t think of anything but his voice.

I feel better and my mind goes blank.

I got out of bed and stood up towards where I heard his voice.

“… It took… a long time? You’ve finished everything you need to do, right?”

I slowly walked to Mr. Siwoo with trembling steps.

“Ah, my work here is done now… The only thing left to do is go back.”

I can feel my heart beating faster.

Could it be that he can hear the sound of his agitated heart?

“I missed you, you… I thought you forgot about me.”

“Well, that’s right… Of course there’s no way I could forget you.”

Really, my heart is pounding so hard it feels like it’s going to explode.

“But it’s too late. I think I should give him some punishment…”

“Bu, bee?”

My heart is pounding.

Kongdakkongdak.

I come closer to him, enjoying the cute sound of his heart once again.

I approached.

I found his wrist and grabbed it.

His skin felt warm for the first time in a long time.

I can feel it.

The feel of his damaged skin and clothes.

It is presumed that there was a major battle.

Mr. Siwoo, do you know that?

I know you are a D-class hunter.

Still, I can’t do it without you.

“Please kiss me for as long as you were away from me.”

Kissing me… I already know that you don’t hate it.

“… Whether based on time here or outside, it must have been at least 24 hours… So you mean we kissed for more than 24 hours? ”

Okay, so please do it quickly. kiss.

“Is that so? Are you planning on making me pregnant?”

“Kissing doesn’t make you pregnant…”

Actually, I want you to get me pregnant.

“Of course, I’m just kidding… I’ll forgive you for 3 minutes…”

thick.

“Keuhum!”

Someone cleared their throat.

Without notice.

“… Oh, you didn’t come alone? This was rude.”

“I wish I knew.”

“Hey, Harin, by any chance were you tortured with that wrist?”

No matter what happens, you must not be found out that you have harmed yourself.

“Yes? No… it’s just a wound caused by personal circumstances.”

I don’t want him to see me as a crazy woman.

“That’s right? My dear. Because there is no torturer in our mansion.”

“You… so are you going to kiss me?”

“…Let’s go back and talk first.”

You’re being disingenuous.

“Yes… I wanted to see you again so much that I felt like I was going crazy… but I guess getting out of here comes first… fulfilling my own self-interest comes later… I understand.”

“Sa, self-interest? I don’t know what it is, but let’s get out of here quickly.”

Because you know everything. I don’t know why you’re being so naive.

“Uh, where are you going out? Are you talking about our mansion?”

**********

Following his guidance, we arrived at a place where a gate was said to have been created.

Of course, with sensory sharing turned on again.

Something I remembered again while walking here was the girl who clung to Siwoo’s side.

Clearly, someone who looked like a lord who was here forced the engagement.

‘For some reason, it seemed like he had grown slightly physically in that short period of time compared to when I first saw him…’

Do you believe in it and follow along like that?

Fucking bitch.

A bitch like a fox.

Have our enemies increased again?

… But of course this person won’t come out of the gate.

Thinking about that, I did my best to hide my overflowing leisure.

“What I feel in front of me is the gate through which I took the boss of this place… Even though I can’t see it in person, I can feel it with my skin.”

I said.

“Anyway, I don’t think there are any people from our group among the people captured here?”

“Yes… I think so too. What on earth did the people who escaped go to and come back from? Even though it’s the same dark red gate, it must be somewhere else… Let’s get out first.”

I want to get out quickly.

“Oh, wait… wait a minute.”

Mr. Siwoo called me and stopped me.

His gaze was directed at that little girl, not me.

“… Since we’ve been traveling together for quite some time and you seem to have become attached, I’ll even allow you to say goodbye… Keep your goodbyes short, you. I have to go first and report it to the top. Look forward to it when the report is over.”

I am not a narrow-minded woman who cannot understand even this much.

Are you an adult with a lot of freedom who can be jealous at times?

I gave him a little time to say goodbye and threw myself into the gate.

We are finally returning to the world we originally lived in.

If you go outside the gate, you will feel anxious as your sensory sharing will be cut off for a while.

Because I believe you will get out soon.

If I don’t trust you, who will I trust?

I only have you

Mr. Siwoo, do you know that?

Love sometimes impairs judgment.

I know you are a D-class hunter.

I also know that I am not your first love.

Still, I can’t do it without you.

If you are taken away by someone else… I will kill the person who took you away, I will kill you, and I will die too.

because.

The person who saved me when I was pushed to the edge mentally… you.

Even though you were weak and a mess, you fought and saved me.

You are like a prince… Can I love you again?

No, you don’t need permission.

Because I already love you.

my hero

My, yours.