episode_0088

Jeong Ye-eun felt uncomfortable recently, as if yellow dust was blowing through her mind.

My mind, which was always dust-free like the clear autumn sky, seemed to be filled with rough, yellow dust.

The reason is Jeong Ye-rin.

Her beloved sister.

I felt a sense of discomfort that I had never felt before from my sister.

It was difficult to describe exactly what it was.

However, these days, people are watching yoga videos and following along.

Something like practicing makeup techniques.

Also… last time, I even bought the skirt I hated so much and came back.

When a woman changes, when she changes externally in a positive way… Isn’t it when she finds a man she likes?

She, her senses, spoke strongly of it.

‘What… I think there’s something…’

There’s clearly something he’s hiding from himself.

That suspicion grew stronger when I saw his awkward attitude and the way he sometimes avoided eye contact.

It didn’t seem like she was the older sister I knew before.

Always listens to what she wants and is considerate.

At one time, he was friendly like a friend, and at another time, he was dependable.

Last time, he suddenly found himself holding a doll in his room.

That’s it, I could hug it out of curiosity… but when I combined it with other circumstances, I could feel it was suspicious.

Strangely, I felt like I was getting closer to Choi Do-hyun, but why did he hug the doll that Choi Do-hyun bought me when he wasn’t around…?

‘Does your sister like Dohyeon..? Hey… there’s Haram oppa too, no way…’

I wanted to think so, but I couldn’t stop the doubts from creeping in.

A time when I somehow calmed down and kept repeating, “No.”

“Ye-eun, I’ll go out and come back.”

Jeong Ye-rin said she was going out.

Judging from the fact that he mentioned his friend’s name while on the phone earlier, it seemed like he was going out to hang out with his friends from the academy.

I could see her back leaving with the earrings she had started wearing at some point and a cross-body bag.

‘…’

doubt.

Choi Do-hyeon planted a sense of immorality in Jeong Ye-rin’s heart.

Jeong Ye-rin, who was influenced in this way, planted a sense of discomfort and doubt in Jeong Ye-eun’s mind, like a chain reaction occurring in the process of nuclear fusion.

Suddenly, she gazed at Jeong Ye-rin’s room.

The door was tightly closed.

Maybe you can go in there and look for something.

Something that can resolve your doubts, or something that can confirm your doubts.

It is bad to sneak into someone else’s room.

The same goes for doubting your older sister, who you are closer to than anyone else.

But…

‘If you let go… your sister…!’

She envied her older sister.

She believed that men would like her older sister more than herself.

As a family member, she was such a perfect person, but as a romantic enemy, I had no choice but to be wary of her.

The house is empty.

Her parents were also out, and she was alone in the house.

Doing housework or studying for the second semester.

Or, I tried to forget my doubts by watching dramas and movies.

I didn’t want to harbor these bad feelings towards my family.

However, no matter what I did, this feeling did not go away.

It kept coming back to me, as if my finger had been cut in paper.

Anxiety. And doubt.

Emotions that are constantly rushing.

And, when evening finally came.

At a time when it would be dark without the lights on, she entered Jeong Ye-rin’s room.

Her diary was on the desk.

She absentmindedly picked up the diary.

Naturally, as if it was meant to be from the beginning.

Was this an act prompted by suspicion that he was trying to hide and cut out, or was it just curiosity?

Slowly, page by page.

She started reading the diary from the front.

‘The story of my love affair with Haram oppa…’

It was like that in the beginning.

However, the further you go, the further.

‘Why does Dohyun come out so much…?’

His ratio began to increase little by little.

Gradually, Choi Do-hyun appeared more often than Kim Ha-ram –

Finally, Kim Ha-ram no longer appeared.

‘No way…’

The moment when what I had been doubting became true.

A feeling of betrayal arose.

It was a feeling she had never felt from her older sister.

‘You know what I like…!’

Until now, she had revealed her feelings for him several times to her older sister.

There’s no way you wouldn’t know.

Looking at the records showing that she met Choi Do-hyeon outside several times, we can’t help but think that way.

Cinema.

Amusement Park.

shopping.

No matter how you look at it, these are date places.

The possibility that I wanted to deny until the very end has come true.

Even this shopping story…

I suddenly bought a skirt and I wondered what was going on, and it turned out that he was with Choi Do-hyun.

I definitely thought it was just an effort to become closer to Ha-ram.

I never thought the person I was trying to become friends with was someone else…

The person who tries to look good by wearing a skirt that she doesn’t wear is, of course, Dohyun.

‘sister….’

This is something I have been worried about for a long time.

In fact, Choi Do-hyun and herself were not even dating, so there was no excuse for her to be angry.

There is no reason why you should only meet with yourself.

No one has the authority to restrict a friend’s personal relationships.

Therefore, all of her emotions were directed towards Jeong Ye-rin.

In a relationship that had never had a serious problem, cracks began to appear.

I wish I knew.

I already knew that I liked Dohyun.

Hide everything… hide it from me, alone with Do-hyeon…

There were no detailed records written in the diary.

Exactly what was done at what time and what happened were not recorded.

Roughly speaking, where did you go on what day and what did you do?

But that was enough to make me angry.

Just like that, when various thoughts cluttered her mind.

Suddenly, I heard the sound of the front door being unlocked.

“I went there.”

A familiar voice was heard.

First, she returned to her room with the diary.

I was planning to look at the content a little more, or look at Jeong Ye-rin’s attitude and make a final decision.

Should we make this official or keep it quietly hidden behind the scenes?

-Oh, Choi Do-hyeon!

And then, her older sister started talking on the phone with Choi Do-hyun.

There was laughter beyond the door.

The way she spoke was also different from before, at the beginning of the semester.

The bitter rivalry between them at that time was gone.

The content was cheerful, and there was even a hint of charm in Jeong Ye-rin’s voice.

Here, I was able to add confidence to confidence.

Jeong Ye-eun heard the sound and went straight into the room.

“..Sister. Let’s talk.”

As she was talking on the phone, she looked over.

Diary in hand, gaze cold.

Jeong Ye-rin’s eyes widened.

**

Yerin Jeong returned home after spending a day with her friends.

-Yerin, are you not doing well with Haram these days?

My friend’s question lingered in my head.

Was it to the point where people around you noticed it?

-Your photos aren’t showing up on SNS… I was wondering if something was going on.

When her friend asked with a worried expression, she didn’t say anything else.

There was nothing worth saying.

She just changed the subject with an awkward laugh.

So, after breaking up with my friends.

When she returned home, she called Choi Do-hyeon as usual.

To soothe a dull heart.

To forget about the chaos for a moment and feel joy.

-hello?

“Uh, Choi Do-hyeon!”

Now I understand why her brother calls him every night.

Now, I would feel sad if I couldn’t hear his voice when I wanted.

Every time I heard a word, it was as sweet as hearing a voice come down from heaven.

Or, it could be the voices of demons underground.

What does it matter?

I’m so happy.

If you want, you can look through the photo album and look at his face.

Now he could see her smiling face next to him.

Before, I almost always had an expressionless or frowning face, and it made me wonder why I didn’t know this kind of happiness back then.

The only thing that changed was one person I was close to.

From Kim Ha-ram to Choi Do-hyeon.

However, I felt like my quality of life had changed.

If I were to become distant from him now, would I ever find this happiness again?

It was so enjoyable to spend almost every day with someone who valued and wanted me.

I was happy every day.

I definitely felt happy when I met Ha-ram Kim alone at the academy, or when we took a walk around the playground.

When I think about it now, the happiness I felt back then was not true happiness.

There was a little bit of anxiety, but at least… it didn’t seem like the day when the aftermath would hit was close.

She smiled shyly at the voice in her ear.

I was already looking forward to our next meeting.

There’s still a lot of vacation left, so we’ll have a lot of time together.

And, when I was talking on the phone with Choi Do-hyun…

Jeong Ye-eun raided the room.

Holding a diary in hand.

She had forgotten to put the diary in the drawer because she was in a hurry to leave in the morning, and when she remembered her actions that morning, she made a sad expression.

‘That… I didn’t put that in…!’

I thought she would notice one day, but I didn’t know it would be today.

There was no excuse or mental preparation at all.

My hair turned white.

“Now, wait a minute… I’ll call you later.”

She quickly tapped on the screen while looking at Jeong Ye-eun, then covered her phone with the blanket.