episode_0087

It was unclear how long Kailon would just say sorry.

Only when we have an equal relationship can both Kylon and I hold our heads high, but strangely enough, Kylon seemed to think that he had to protect me and that he took on all the risks as equals.

Otherwise, you might think that the right relationship is for someone to shoulder the burden.

But that didn’t mean it was good for me.

I also thought that if someone had to bleed, if someone had to hurt from the fight, it didn’t matter if it was me.

But it’s funny. The fact that there are people shedding tears because I’m shedding blood, and the fact that I can’t say anything about those feelings.

They say they are thinking of me, but what should I say to that?

Just like you can’t say I hate you to someone who says they like me.

I groaned, unable to bear to tell him to pay attention.

He just kept hugging me and repeating that he was sorry to me over and over again, so I stayed blank and then whispered to Kailon.

“… I said I would help everyone if they were having a hard time. Everyone, not just me, shed blood. Linda and Agnes shed blood, and I bleed the same.”

“But you… ”

“I like being treated specially. There’s no one I don’t like. But if you focus too much on yourself, you’ll miss everything.”

“You can miss it all. You can let it all go. Just, I… I just want to make sure you live in a safe place.”

“… … .”

Kylon’s weighing was strange.

No, unlike me, getting out of here was not my first goal, so by his standards, that might have been a reasonable consideration.

There was no way I didn’t like being treated specially.

People always want to be someone special, and I was no different.

I wanted to be a precious person to someone, a person loved by someone, and a person who received attention from someone.

But if it is too much, if it goes too far, it cannot be called interest.

It’s good to take care of myself, but it was going too far and becoming overprotective.

Therefore, at this moment, I thought that I should not just nod my head to Kailon’s words, so I muttered.

“Kylon? thank you… Still, I wish I could do what I can.”

“… … .”

Kylon kept his mouth shut at my expression of grateful rejection.

At the motion that seemed to have stopped, I narrowed my eyes and looked over Kylon’s shoulder.

I even felt frustrated because I felt like I was hugging him too tightly.

I don’t know how much time passed, but he relaxed his hold on me and released me.

Kailon’s expression was very dark.

“… They say there is also trauma.”

“Because you almost died.”

“Thank you. Still, since I was saved, I don’t have anything to say.”

“It’s okay. I was always saved too.”

“… I’m sorry, if I had been a little stronger, that wouldn’t have happened.”

“No, I think the monsters also got stronger anyway. You’ve met a monster before that you only saw in the mid- to late-aughts.”

“That’s… ”

“It’s not your fault, so don’t feel sorry for me. If you keep doing that, I’ll say sorry every time I’m saved.”

“… … .”

Kylon didn’t say anything after those words.

He just sat not far away from me and lowered his head like a criminal.

There’s nothing to feel so guilty about.

It wasn’t anyone’s fault that I put a knife to my wrist.

So, I hoped that Kylon wouldn’t blame himself.

“Kylon, that’s enough. Rest now.”

“… I’ll become strong quickly, to the point where you won’t have to touch your body with a knife.”

“Did you see it today? I think I’m pretty strong. Don’t you need a little bit of my help?”

“It wasn’t a little bit. I’m scared that the kids will see that and say something to you. Can’t you just leave it to the kids and rest?”

“… Kylon? I really appreciate it, but if Kylon really does it for me… ”

“Sorry.”

At the last word, Kylon nodded as if he understood.

He then apologized and clenched his fists.

Still, he was a person who cared for me, but that doesn’t mean his feelings were wrong, so I extended my hand to him so that he wouldn’t feel bad for no reason.

I reached out to Kailon, whose shoulders were slumped, lifted my hips, grabbed his head, and pulled him into my arms.

The only time I was hugged was by Kylon, but my body remembered that it was comfortable, so it did the same.

Even though I was always hugged, I was the only one who received stability from Kailon, but now I was able to do the opposite. That’s because Kylon seemed to be having a hard time.

“… Let’s sleep for one day, and you can think about tomorrow.”

I whispered like that.

And after that, I gave Kylon a strong hug.

Kailon, who was snuggling into my chest, closed his eyes as if he was comfortable there.

“Cheer up. Because if Kailon is having a hard time, I’m having a hard time too.”

“Yes, I will do my best.”

Kylon nodded in his arms, and after a while, he seemed to gain strength, but he still walked out of the room as if he had no energy.

It rattled. After the small sound, I enjoyed the silence in the room and soon closed my eyes.

“Whew,” I sighed. I realized that Kylon wasn’t just a stickler for my own pace, and I felt like it was my job to appease him, and I felt tired.

I lay down on the bed and looked at the ceiling. As I closed my heavy eyelids, I fell into a deep sleep.

I looked at the starlight shining through the ceiling and fell asleep.

*

Suddenly, I opened the door and came out of Veronica’s room.

But my heart didn’t stop pounding. Even though I forced myself to hug Veronica, it seemed like it was because I didn’t expect her to hug me first.

So, my heart was racing strangely because I felt like I had been attacked.

I felt as if I had been hit by an assassin and was suffocating.

Ah, why does it seem like I can’t control my heart when I keep looking at Veronica, but my body just stops on its own and can’t attack me?

Anyway, heroines know that whatever they do is okay, so they cross the line arbitrarily, but Veronica doesn’t, so I couldn’t help but sigh as I wondered if she would stop arbitrarily.

I felt like I had given permission before for no reason, but I knew that Veronica was the person who contributed the most this time, and if it weren’t for her, everyone would have been seriously hurt, so I couldn’t say anything, so I kept my mouth shut.

It’s also stupid. If I had the ability to solve this problem, I would have been able to speed up today’s work, but it was a shame that I couldn’t.

Still, it is a big harvest.

However, as much as I had achieved such a great harvest, the throbbing did not stop, and without realizing it, I thought that I wanted to attack Veronica again, and ended up getting an erection.

Mr. A, I didn’t come in for this, but I was tired today, so I was going to say something to Veronica and sleep, but now it seemed like all my sleep was gone and only my lust was left in its place.

Linda and Agnes were already sleeping.

Linda must have been very tired as she woke up right after her shift started.

Actually, I said I didn’t care about that and had nothing to say even if I went right in and woke him up and attacked him, but I didn’t want to go that far, so I clicked my tongue and walked down the hallway.

Tsk, I should go to my room and think about Veronica and fuck my daughter.

But it’s a bit weird to just use your imagination. If you want to sleep with an erection, you have to wait until it cools down.

I don’t know because I’ve never tried to sleep with an erection.

It’s Veronica’s fault. I always leave room, but when I want to get closer, I push away, and when I get farther away, he approaches me, which makes me more torn.

Originally, it was good to be pushed and pushed, but I didn’t feel bad because it wasn’t a push and pull that seemed to be watching me, but was just trying to keep a certain distance from me.

If I’m having a hard time, I’m having a hard time too. la.

As I muttered that thought, I heard small footsteps behind me.

“Hmm, what did you talk about with the saint that made you so horny? Did you really get horny after seeing the saintess in civilian clothes?”

“… … .”

I turned my head, suppressing the twitching of my eyebrows, at the sight of Flora approaching me while I was in a daze.

It bothered me because he looked like a little devil, smirking at the corners of his mouth as if he knew my secret.

“… Hey, how bad of a bastard must you be to get horny towards a saint? Isn’t that a pervert? Or did the saint tell you a dirty story?”

“… Flora.”

“Wow, that’s gross. What on earth are you hiding in your pants? I’m already standing there shaking so hard to cum?”

It seemed like Flora did it on purpose out of fear that her position might be threatened.

That’s unlikely. The monsters are stronger than before, so even Flora can’t keep up properly right now. I couldn’t use wide-area attacks for fear of burning the grass, but the existence of a torch that doesn’t even burn the grass has been revealed.

“Did the saint at least spank your daughter?”

But even more than that, I got angry at the words that seemed to indicate the relationship between me and Veronica, among the words that were said just to provoke me.

So, I was reminded of that incident in the tent and felt like I was going to get hornier, and at the same time, I was wondering if my relationship with Veronica might have been discovered, so I took out a three-colored stone from my inventory in the hopes of clearing things up.

“Use on Flora.”

Flashing.