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by fnovelpiaEpisode 85 I want to be your girlfriend even just for one day.
Creaking movement.
No matter how much desire she had, she was not an animal.
The slowly rising hand heads towards his room.
“First of all… Let’s rest in the room.”
“What clothes?”
“I washed it, it takes an hour to run it in the dryer.”
“Yes…”
Awkward and cold atmosphere.
Was it because they came in fighting just now?
Not even warm water could melt my frozen heart.
Han Sein walks slowly.
Kang Hyun-ah also took a deep breath and followed suit.
“Ah… ”
Lament.
A small sigh came out of Kang Hyun-ah’s mouth.
The room I entered after taking some time.
Although his room was the same as usual.
The only other being.
In other words, it was because Han Sein’s appearance was so provocative.
As for his behavior, he was simply squatting on the bed.
but.
What makes Kang Hyun-ah dizzy is his outfit.
Was it because of the dress shirt they gave me?
Even though she wasn’t wearing any panties, she seemed to think she was covering herself.
So.
With legs clumsily closed.
The space inside was defenselessly exposed.
Skin that looks soft and soft.
A white cloth vaguely covered like a skirt.
Let alone this attitude.
You don’t even think you’ll be able to see the insides.
The blunt expression looked even more naughty.
“… ?”
“Ah… ”
The sigh continued briefly.
Han Sein tilted his head.
I realized where Kang Hyun-ah’s gaze was directed.
It was just a temporary loss of control due to a woman’s instinct.
It’s like not knowing a cheerleader’s uniform number.
“Uh, where are you looking!”
“Ah, ah! sorry… ”
Kang Hyun-ah hastily closed her eyes.
The appearance of Han Sein, faintly reflected between them, was so strange.
Highly red cheeks and a disdainful expression as if embarrassed.
Both hands pulled down his shirt and covered his groin.
“Sorry. I’ll sit next to you.”
“… … .”
It’s your home, and you don’t even have to worry about him.
When it comes to class, Kang Hyun-ah is A and Han Se-in is B.
It was a relationship that seemed objective.
but.
Kang Hyun-ah lowered her gaze and headed to her bed.
Far away but close.
The two were so far apart that they could only touch if they stretched out their arms.
A kind of consideration.
Sitting side by side, your gaze is straight ahead.
Since you have to turn your head to face it, the psychological burden will be less.
It was really funny.
Today was Friday, and the deal meant I could lay him down at any time.
however.
Kang Hyun-ah didn’t do it even though she could.
As A, I was able to act towards B.
However, she didn’t.
We called this love.
“Sorry… ”
“… … .”
Kang Hyun-ah.
Just like it did in the rain.
I suppressed the desire rising from deep within my heart.
and.
Look at him seriously, look at yourself.
I started to bring out the emotions that I had suppressed and denied.
I don’t know what will happen in the future.
I don’t know how they will accept that either.
now.
If you don’t tell everything…
What can I say, I had a feeling that I would miss it for the rest of my life.
so that.
I slowly opened my mouth.
***
I looked ahead.
My room looked the same as usual. When I lowered my head slightly, I saw a wrinkled bed sheet.
Even though there was a guy I liked right next to me, I didn’t rush to him.
Even though I could have violated the man I loved, I didn’t do it.
just.
I put my emotions into words.
however.
It didn’t go as well as I wanted.
Smiles flow out along with hearty laughter.
Expressing your thoughts and emotions is so awkward and difficult.
I masked my anxiety behind an accidental smile.
Still, I didn’t give up.
“Excuse… Probably.”
“… … .”
There was no response.
It was natural.
I am the perpetrator, he is the victim.
The howling I heard in the rain was clear.
so that.
It’s not like I’m making an appeal.
It wasn’t like he was complaining that there were circumstances.
okay.
It was a confession.
“I’ve been with Kim Hyung-min since I was young. childhood friend? It’s similar… He was just like a servant.”
“… … .”
“Puh, he seems to like me… ”
Still silence.
I didn’t explain it like I was introducing myself.
My thoughts were not organized and did not flow properly.
Still, I was able to express the feelings I was harboring.
“I like you.”
“… … .”
Excited, Excited.
Even though I confessed my feelings, I did not tremble.
However, the slowly rising heart rate was showing the state of the body.
In an unrealistic situation.
I expressed my feelings diligently.
“It’s so funny, right? Bullying you and treating you poorly. forcibly… I did.”
A cold silence fell.
A rustling sound was heard.
I wanted a reaction, but I had no right to force it.
“From the first time I saw it. I always liked it.”
“… … .”
What more should I say?
I do not know.
Because it’s my first time expressing my feelings.
I want to wrap it up and speak coherently.
I can’t do that.
The mouth opens and closes.
As I confessed all my emotions, my heart trembled as if digesting food.
The head slowly bows.
Now, the relationship is over.
Now that I’ve confessed my feelings, I can’t be back like I used to be.
Just when I was about to do something called resignation.
“… !”
I felt warmth.
A familiar scent and warmth.
I can feel it in my left shoulder.
The area covered gradually expands.
His head touched his shoulder.
Slowly being crushed, leaning against it.
My empty heart and torment gradually became filled with warmth.
He didn’t look at me.
Just like I did.
Just looking ahead.
I kept the voice flowing slowly out of my mouth.
“It must have hurt.”
“… … .”
It was warm.
Head leaning, thighs touching.
Not just the warmth that slowly burns.
As if his voice was touching something deep inside my heart.
It was so warm.
“A lot… Did it hurt?”
“…uh.”
Memories of the past.
Hitting the person you like and making them sad.
The realities that had to be tormented somehow were painful. It was painful.
The warmth and excitement that gradually spreads.
Love was gradually rising.
“Se-ah.”
“Ah, yes… ”
I slowly grabbed his body.
A feeling of twitching and a body starting to be pulled.
It was a natural movement without resistance.
The posture changed in an instant.
Han Sein and I lying on the bed.
Although it was compulsory.
A gesture without resistance was tantamount to tacit consent.
“I like it.”
“… … .”
“Now… I want to love you.”
His eyes trembled.
My gaze wavered.
The tip of the pupil was pointed in a different direction.
Should I say it’s instinctive?
He is now.
It seemed like he was worried and confused.
so that.
I continued to act like an instinctive attraction.
“Well… I’ll do it. For life.”
“I… ”
His eyes were shaking.
There was water at the end of the shaking.
Soon, the beady water flowed down the corners of my eyes.
A throbbing heart and late regrets.
For a moment, I thought I had made a mistake again.
His crying voice was heard.
“Wow, this is strange… ”
“… … .”
There was power in that sorrowful voice.
A voice that fully conveys confused thoughts and emotions.
It had enough power to stir my heart endlessly.
“Ah, Ayoung likes it… Ugh, I love you… ”
“… … .”
“This is strange… Refuse, should… I do it.”
I felt trembled.
What part is strange?
I felt it in his gaze and in his emotions.
Clear liking and love.
“… … .”
Korea had a system of monogamy.
Thanks to this, an implicit superiority relationship was formed between men and women.
This is also the reason why it has continued to this day in terms of birth rate and social aspects.
so that.
I also knew where Han Sein’s hesitation came from.
“Se-ah.”
I am a bad person.
I bullied someone and didn’t reflect on it.
“Only one day a week.”
Making loved ones cry and tormenting them.
Even though it makes things confusing again.
I hurt myself again because I can’t control my feelings.
“Be my boyfriend.”
“Ayoung, Ayoung… ”
I am a bad person.
He wasn’t a knight from a fairy tale.
He was not the main character in the novel.
“I won’t tell you to break up.”
“… … .”
“I won’t do it even though it’s difficult.”
Han Sein’s eyes were shaking.
The parted lips seem to contain emotions.
It closed and opened repeatedly.
The tickling voice was never completed.
“You can keep it a secret.”
I am a bad person.
Support your loved ones and never give up.
Whispering and teasing with love.
“I’m doing it wrong. There is nothing wrong with you.”
This is the only consideration I can give.
I put all the blame on myself.
no? Should we call this consideration?
somehow.
Make him mine.
Even one day a week is fine.
It was just a way to make it mine.
“Just answer.”
“…What?”
“Do you hate me?”
The answer was quick.
Shaking his head as if that wasn’t the case.
“No.”
“I like you, then what about you?”
Han Sein’s breathing stopped.
The eyes also contained guilt.
The gaze that is not properly met is directed to a distant place.
Irregularly shaking body and breathing.
It was telling me what kind of answer to give.
“…Good.”
We kissed.
That was it.
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