episode_0086

Arrived at my house.

I thought he was going to make a fuss about bathing together this time, but surprisingly, Daju calmly left the place.

It looks like some regrets remain.

“If you find it difficult to wash alone, you can talk about it.”

“That’s it.”

You can clearly see what’s inside, both in the way he speaks and in his facial expressions.

After responding to Daju with a finger curse, I took off my clothes and laid them down in front of the bathroom.

A white T-shirt that clung to my body.

I’m finally taking this off.

When I was in the elevator, it felt like I had ice on my body.

The water-soaked white t-shirt is now lukewarm with my body temperature.

coat. pants.

Lastly, the top and bottom underwear.

The clothes I took off were placed on the floor one by one.

“That’s it. Daju, you can go now.”

“Are you really okay with being alone? Your condition has been bad for a while now.”

“I heard it’s okay.”

“Then I’ll just be in front of the door.”

It is also persistent.

“Sure.”

I went into the bathroom and closed the door.

Teuong!

The door closed with a strangely loud sound.

For a moment, my heart sinks.

There must be something else, right?

The door rings loudly.

Of course, it’s quite possible, but it’s scary.

Because I don’t know what might be here.

I held my breath and just rolled my eyes.

From each tile in the corner to the mirror covering the wall.

I looked at all the objects in the bathroom.

there’s nothing.

In the mirror covering the wall.

A very frightened naked girl is looking here.

A miserable, water-soaked mess.

The girl lowers her head and squats on the floor.

“I’m really going crazy… … .”

While muttering quietly.

Why did you do this a while ago?

I get anxious whenever I get the chance. Suddenly, a suffocating feeling comes upon me and I don’t know what to do.

Did something happen in the elevator? The impact still remains to this day?

It’s probably because of my mood.

It will get better if you get some rest. You can relieve stress by washing with warm water.

With that in mind, I turned on the water.

When I turn on the faucet, a stream of warm water pours down from above.

Water falling from overhead.

Shooting sound.

The feeling of each drop of water touching your body.

like.

It’s like being stuck in an elevator.

The moment I realized that, my vision suddenly darkened.

Shootaaa-

It’s as if the head is wrapped in a thick black cloth.

I’m still in the bathroom, but I can’t see anything around me.

My breathing keeps getting harder and my senses become completely strange, so I can’t even tell the temperature of the water that touches my body.

warm water? Or is it cold?

The stream of water coming out of the shower pricks my forearm like a needle.

Still, I couldn’t turn off the faucet.

I can not do anything.

In a panic that felt like my heart was going to explode.

I barely opened my mouth and asked for help from those around me.

“Yoon, Daju?”

It was the first name that came to mind.

The person who was here a while ago.

I closed my eyes tightly and squatted down on the bathroom floor. I called Daju’s name out loud.

“Daju. Are you there? Daju Yoon!”

“Oppa? Why all of a sudden!”

Fortunately, I can hear a voice nearby.

“Wait a minute. Light… … . Please turn on the bathroom light.”

“Yes? The light is on now.”

“Switch. Isn’t it just the switch? Is there a light on in here too?”

“Yes. The light is on just fine.”

The answer comes back as if it were obvious.

I can’t believe the light is on. It’s this dark before my eyes?

Even when I open my eyes wide, I still can’t see anything.

“It’s strange. The light is clearly on… … .”

That gap was so scary.

Could it be that my eyes have suddenly gone blind?

“Really?”

“It won’t work. brother. I will open the door.”

“Yes… … .”

I sat quietly and waited for Daju to come.

I couldn’t even think about turning off the water and could barely breathe.

Shootaaa-

Shower water continues to pour.

The water came in along with my rough breathing, and I was already in excruciating pain from the tip of my nose to my head.

If things continue like this, I really feel like I’m going to drown.

I need to turn off the water. My body doesn’t move.

I feel like I’m about to faint. The moment when my consciousness was shaking violently.

Sigh.

There was the sound of the door opening.

Cool air leaks in from outside.

I still couldn’t see anything in front of me, but I was very close. I heard another person’s voice right next to me.

“It’s okay, right? No matter how I look at it, I don’t think so?”

It’s Yoon Da-ju.

There is another person next to me. As my thoughts reached that point, my vision gradually became clearer.

I suddenly came to my senses and let out a long breath that was still inside me.

“Huhhh… … .”

As if bursting into tears.

Daju, who was also squatting next to me, patted my bare shoulder.

“Oppa, it was a bit strange from earlier.”

Speaking in a worried voice.

“… … Yes.”

Breathing returns quickly.

The thoughts that had turned white for no reason came back too late.

Astonishment.

Embarrassment.

And fear.

In one word, this was it.

What did I do just now?

Obviously, nothing happened around me, but I was alone and shaking.

It happened against my will.

It wasn’t even that I was possessed by anything, but when I came to my senses, at some point, something happened.

As if having a seizure.

What I’m more worried about is what happens later.

This came from a safe place now, but later. What if this happens while exploring a dangerous place?

It can be a danger not only to me but also to others.

Just thinking that something like that could happen caused fear to creep in and gnaw at my heart.

Still naked, I hugged my chest with both arms.

Arms trembling.

The aftermath of that time still remained.

As I was trembling in silence, Daju wrapped his arms around my shoulders.

“Come here. I will stay with you.”

Then he prepares to take off his clothes.

“Hey. for a moment… … .”

I tried to say, ‘It’s okay,’ as usual, but I couldn’t.

Also, I really felt like I would drown in the shower water if I was in this state.

I just quietly turned my head away.

One good thing is that I wasn’t caught crying.

I think tears flowed without me knowing, but there were no traces left.

It was because I kept running the water in the shower.

I think this is probably a mental issue.

They say I’m having a panic attack or something like that.

If you ask Serim Choi later, it will be easily resolved.

Obviously so.

I reassured myself and prepared to wash again.

Phew, as I exhale, Da-ju Yoon turns to look at me while holding the shower head.

“Are you okay now?”

“Yes.”

Daju took a seat in front of the shower, and I stood behind it.

I don’t know why it happened like this.

Perhaps I took a step back without realizing it. My body is still shaking.

“I’ll turn on the water.”

Rattling.

When Daju lifts the faucet, warm water pours out again.

Shoot ah-

A pleasant warmth.

The temperature is completely different from when I am alone.

“Get out of the way for a moment.”

“Yes? Why?”

I pushed Daju away and stretched out my arms.

I raised the water temperature a little, so now it’s a little hot.

“Ah. To raise the water temperature… … . But you’re not going to wash it?”

“Wait. Just a little more.”

After drinking water for a while, my body feels pleasantly warmed up.

The tremors in my body have now completely disappeared.

Is it because I almost froze to death in the elevator?

For some reason, I feel like I don’t want to leave this place.

And now this is the last time. I’ll have to leave the 7th floor soon.

Thinking like that makes me even more sad that this situation is going away.

Again after a while.

“Ah. It’s hot. That’s Okay. Now wash it.”

Daju makes a grumbling sound and the water stream stops.

“Yes. Then.”

I nodded weakly and picked up a shower towel.

It’s better to cut it off like this.

If it weren’t for Daju, I probably wouldn’t have been wasting water like this for hours.

Perhaps because I had been in the water for a long time, it felt like the washing up was over quickly.

Quickly soap your body.

And wash your hair.

Tuk-tuk.

I stood in front of the mirror and dried myself off with a towel.

The long hair clings to the body.

It’s a bit dirty.

In the past, in cartoons, people would cover important parts with hair, but this actually works.

‘hmm.’

I decided to stop thinking about this at this point.

Maybe it’s because I’m tired, but my thoughts keep going in strange directions.

Instead, he glanced towards Da-ju Yoon.

Daju holds a towel and shakes off her short hair.

No matter how you look at it, it is not something a woman should show to a man.

When I think about it like this, it gets confusing again.

I feel like treating women has become natural.

What if I continue to be treated like a woman like this, and eventually I end up accepting this?

Wouldn’t that really be the end of me as a man?

I shook my head to myself.

Not yet though.

Not yet.

evidence?

The proof is that they think their own bodies are sexy.

If I had truly become a woman at heart, it wouldn’t have been a problem.

And next to Daju… … . He also has a nice body. Normally, I don’t think about it at all because it’s such a crazy thing, but I have to admit it.

“Ha… … .”

As I think about it, I automatically sigh.

Feeling of shame.

Hyeonta.

A sigh mixed with everything.

Even though it’s just a thought in your head, it’s such a garbage thought that it makes you feel immoral.

The good news is that Daju Yoon does not have the ability to read other people’s thoughts.

What if Choi Serim was here?

I probably couldn’t even hear the face in front of me properly.

Daju Yoon put down the towel and turned her gaze towards me.

“Oppa has grown a lot of hair so it will take a lot of time. Or should I help you?”

“No. are you okay. This much.”

“Then can I leave first?”

“Yes.”

“If anything goes wrong again, let me know.”

Empty!

Daju closes the door and goes out.

With that sound, I feel like I am left alone again.

In this narrow space.

I decided to finish quickly and leave the bathroom door.

Before that, after one last look in the mirror.

Knock knock, knock knock.

I lifted the foggy surface of the mirror with my palm.

I see my face in a clean circle.

No matter how much I try to frown, I still have a cute, goofy high school girl face.

I used the librarian’s insight.

What I want to find out is information about my current condition.

I felt dizzy for a moment, and then sentences appeared before my eyes.

* Displays the query content.

* Target

* Current mental state of the subject

* Presence of anomalies affecting the subject’s mental state

[Target: Lim Da-bin]

[Status: Normal]

[Afected Anomalous Objects: None]

I already expected it.

My condition seen through the insight eye is completely normal.

This means that it is not a state of mental manipulation, brainwashing, or hypnosis.

This can definitely be believed. There is no one in this story who can fool the librarian’s insight.

So, is there really something like trauma left in me?

I used my Insight Eye towards the mirror again.

This time, I changed the question a little.

* Displays the query content.

* Target

* Subject’s mental health status

[Target: Lim Da-bin]

[Mental health observation: Subject has recently been observed to be experiencing panic attacks. Additionally, stress and anxiety levels are very high. Panic disorder or post-traumatic stress disorder is suspected.]

[Analyzing the human mind takes time, and results may be inaccurate.]

Panic disorder.

and post-traumatic stress disorder.

As expected, the problem was on my side.

The moment when reality and nightmare were reversed.

The fear that crept in for just a moment was casting a dark shadow on my mind.