episode_0086

I started going to a psychiatrist.

[Dad, are you okay? I’m worried because my dad seems weak these days.]

After learning of Arin’s death, I was completely devastated.

My daughter was worried seeing me like that.

I hid the fact that I was attending a psychiatric clinic from my daughter.

My daughter would be even more worried if I told her I was going to a psychiatrist.

I would rather think that we just broke up.

I never thought that my search to catch her would turn out to be so toxic.

I thought it would be forgotten over time, but I was wrong.

I kept thinking about it again and again.

I thought about cleaning up the treatment room that Arin used.

The moment she picked up the chart she was writing on her desk, tears fell.

My hands didn’t move.

Yes.

That was the first time I knew I would never get rid of this.

I couldn’t eat well.

I didn’t want to eat it because I couldn’t taste it.

I lost weight because I didn’t eat.

It was natural for my daughter to be worried as she watched me get thinner day by day.

It was a happiness that had finally arrived.

It was a love that I only discovered when I was in my 40s.

love.

happiness.

Their sweetness did not last forever.

It was just a moment.

Because it was a moment, it remained in my memory for a long time.

That’s why I longed for it.

But I was devastated that I would never feel it again.

I even thought about dying.

But I had a daughter.

My daughter was my pride.

It was my happiness.

I’m showing my daughter something I don’t want to see.

It couldn’t be like this.

I couldn’t make even the one remaining happiness unhappy.

I was trying to recover.

I tried not to look like this.

But losing a loved one was very painful.

The human mind was weaker than expected.

It was impossible to overcome it alone.

So I started going to a psychiatrist.

Fortunately, a female classmate opened a psychiatry clinic near her alma mater.

Since it’s close to school, I thought about doing it together when my daughter gets off from school.

But I couldn’t tell my daughter that I was going to a psychiatrist.

“Ugh, Burns…what on earth have you gotten so upset about as you get older?”

While prescribing medicine, my classmate clicked his tongue when he saw that I was belatedly suffering from lovesickness.

I just smile helplessly.

“Sure.”

“Ugh…that’s it…that’s it. The fox next to you… It was strange, but I wasn’t very good at keeping my mouth shut either.”

“I guess…I’m having no luck this way.”

A sigh bordering on resignation.

“…There is no good man like you…Why are you so unlucky…”

She was trying her best to comfort me.

But to me, who can’t accept it, it’s just an empty echo.

“Hey. Don’t think it’s strange. know? Then I will curse you for the rest of my life.”

“I understand. Don’t worry too much.”

I smiled at her worried face.

But that smile was so faint that it couldn’t be reassuring.

“Ugh… take the medicine… be sure to take it! Got it?”

The motivation to personally pick up the prescription and hand it over.

I was grateful that she showed genuine concern.

“Thank you……”

“I really should have snatched you away.”

“If you keep saying things like that, your husband will listen.”

“Hmph! Listen! A burn that really scratches my insides! Just cross the line a little more! sudden! Because I’m going to divorce you!”

Listening to her daily life, it was only then that I started to truly laugh.

“Don’t laugh. You too are a burn that scratches my insides.”

“Haha…I’m sorry…Hahaha……”

Only then did my friend’s face relax, as if his worries were relieved a little.

okay.

thank god.

There is no need to worry or be anxious about me.

I was worried that they were causing concern because of me for no reason, but I’m glad it was resolved.

“I have prescribed a new drug. They say it works well…try it for a week and let me know if you have any problems.”

“Yes, thank you.”

“I’m not going out. It’s time for a reserved patient to arrive soon.”

“Thank you even if only from the bottom of my heart. Going.”

“Don’t overdo it.”

So I left the treatment room.

Talking to her has a strange effect.

He listens to my sincerity, sympathizes with me, and naturally opens his heart.

I looked at the prescription.

It is filled with a lot of love from the same class.

Medicines that minimize side effects and help me overcome my feelings of helplessness.

thud.

“Aya!”

I felt someone crash into my body and at the same time heard the sound of my butt hitting the floor.

It was a young woman wearing jeans.

About the same age as my daughter?

As I was walking while looking at my prescription, I forgot to see the woman coming in the entrance and ended up colliding with her.

“Are you okay?? sorry. I’m a little out of my mind…”

I held out my hand.

She held my hand.

The moment I grabbed it, I felt a flinch, but I didn’t reject it.

I think it was this woman who was the reserved patient.

‘You’re young and you’re in psychiatry…what’s going on?’

There was a strange feeling about her.

But it was difficult to express it in one word.

My own illness was too much for me…so I decided to let go of that strange feeling.

I slowly pulled her hand and helped her stand up.

“…Thank you.”

He got up but didn’t let go of my hand and looked at me.

As if possessed by something.

blankly.

I know what the strange feeling was earlier.

That’s why I also looked at her.

Somehow I felt a sense of kinship.

I think that’s probably why she was looking at me like that.

Why?

The answer to that question was simpler than expected.

She and I both came to the psychiatrist.

People with broken hearts come.

She, like me, must have lost something.

Such a sense of kinship.

A sense of comradeship.

It may be because of that.

Her hand was holding on to me even harder, not wanting to let go.

I’m in my 40s.

She is in her 20s.

It doesn’t look that good.

“Would you please let go of my hand?”

“Uh…oh my! Sorry…!”

The woman’s face instantly turned red, she withdrew her hand and lowered her head.

It seemed like it happened because I was lost in my thoughts about something.

“I’m sorry again…then that’s enough.”

I bowed my head to the embarrassed woman and left.

There was no need to spend a long time.

But why?

her face.

It feels familiar somewhere.

‘…I must have seen it somewhere.’

But I’m not going to see it again, so there’s no need to remember it.

I quickly walked to the pharmacy to get some medicine.

****

“Yeah…I’m a little late today because my dad has some work to do. I’m eating first. I’m sorry daughter.”

I called my daughter to eat first.

I heard that the new drug was quite effective, so I had a quick dinner at a nearby hamburger restaurant and poured the drug into my mouth.

As my colleague said, the new drug was quite effective.

My dazed head became clear, and my body, which had been weak, gained some strength.

So I wanted to walk a little.

I wanted to get some air.

It’s a little far, but if you walk along this road, you will come across a bridge where you can cross the Han River.

‘Because if you cross that bridge, there’s a metropolitan bus that goes straight to your house.’

A distance you can walk for about 2 to 3 hours.

I don’t know if it’s because of the medicine…

I feel like I’ll feel a little better if I get some air.

****

I walked.

Endlessly.

A lot of the dazed feeling has disappeared.

I started to hear a lot of noise around me that I normally couldn’t hear.

‘good night.’

The end of spring.

The beginning of summer.

Although the day was getting hotter, there was still a cool breeze blowing at night.

This was especially true because it did not retain moisture.

‘The medicine works well.’

The effect of the new drug was good.

Will.

feeling.

These things came alive in my senses.

There don’t seem to be any particular side effects so far.

Now it is the Han River.

Once you cross it, you can immediately take a bus to go home.

The Han River is big.

It’s only 1km across.

As I stood on the bridge, I felt the cool breeze slightly moisten my skin.

This is the wind I wanted.

I walked all the way here to get some fresh air and it was a successful choice.

‘I feel good.’

All the bad feelings I had until now are flying away with the wind.

okay.

I hoped that it would fly away like that and never come back.

Buuung!

A sports car rushed past me on my left side.

‘If you rush like that, you’ll get into an accident.’

As I thought, the rear bumper of the car was cracked here and there.

The level of the owner was only that high.

Squeak!

It stung.

Did you know that I was harmed?

The mangled sports car stopped.

And the driver’s side door opened.

A fat man roughly came out and opened the passenger side door.

“What…what is it?”

There…a naked woman even seen from afar got off.

I realized that the atmosphere was unusual.

A tall, slender woman wearing a leash.

Even without the man’s coercion, she climbed onto the railing of the Han River without hesitation.

And the man too

‘So…suicide?’

Yes.

They were trying to commit suicide together.

My body jumped out in an instant.

I thought that suicide should be prevented.

Fortunately, my body started working properly after taking the medicine.

I ran with all my might.

‘Can we save both of them?’

There was no sound.

Because if they know I’m coming, they’ll run faster.

The woman’s long black hair blows in the sky in the wind.

As if the angel of death had spread its wings.

no!

I don’t want to see someone die right in front of me!

fault.

The man throws himself first into the river.

The woman who saw this also began to lean towards the river.

Oh, no…!

I increased my speed even further.

Just a little… just a little more…!

gradually.

Little by little, her feet move towards the river.

But that wasn’t the death I wanted.

I could tell.

I could feel it.

I don’t want to die.

I could see something screaming from her body.

I don’t know why she does that.

But the important thing was that at least that woman had to be saved.

I stretched out my hand.

Tuk.

She jumped from the railing.

I saw her eyes fall for a moment.

she was crying

I have to catch it…

Gotta catch it!!

I desperately threw up my hands.

I had to grab something.

chin.

and.

I held her hand.

“Are you crazy?! What are you doing?!!”

A swear word came out.

She looked light, but because of the acceleration of gravity as she fell, she felt pain as if her arm would be torn off.

If it hangs like this, drop it.

We have to get it out quickly!

“….profit!!”

I pulled her up with all my strength.

I had no strength in my arms, so I used both hands to pull it up.

Fortunately, it was possible because she was light.

“Haa…haa…haa……”

“Cough…! Crumble!”

She coughed repeatedly.

This woman… I’ve seen this face before…

Anyway, there was someone who threw himself first.

“Pa…report quickly…!”

I tried to pick up my cell phone and report it, but the woman’s hand stopped me.

“Ha…don’t…do it…”

“But people…!!”

“Please…keep me…away…from that man…please…keep me away…”

Her voice was earnest.

“The police…no…please…get me…out of here…”

A woman I see for the first time.

A woman attempted to commit suicide with a naked man.

As usual, they should report it to the police and hand over her identity.

but…..

I saw her.

Her cheeks were swollen.

My whole body was covered in blood and bruises.

Around his neck was a leather leash like something a dog would wear.

A woman who had no choice but to commit suicide after being assaulted.

‘What should I do…’

Actually, all I can do is done.

All you have to do is save him, call the police, and tell him what happened.

However, the woman he saved asks him to help her escape from the police.

‘Wait a minute… now that I think about it…’

This woman… I didn’t know because her face was swollen… She’s the woman I bumped into at the psychiatrist, right?

Less evil.

“Please…Uncle…Please…”

Why?

Why did you decide to take on such a troublesome task?

Knowing full well that taking her somewhere else would cause trouble…

Knowing clearly that if I do something wrong, I could be pointed out as a suspect in the case…..

Wow.

“Huhhh!”

I carried her on my back as she struggled in pain.