episode_0085

What the hell did I do yesterday!?

Even though I had woken up a long time ago, I couldn’t get out of bed. Instead, I buried my face in the blanket and hid. I felt like I could die from embarrassment.

The disgrace I showed to Yugram yesterday was truly horrific. I remembered her whining like a little girl and begging me not to leave her side, as if it had just happened.

Crazy, crazy! When I see my lower abdomen rumbling, I know it’s that day, and I think that’s why my emotions were jumping around like waves. But… that’s a separate thing. But that doesn’t mean that embarrassing things don’t become embarrassing.

What on earth was Yu-Gram thinking when he saw me suddenly waking up from my spread-out sleep and crying loudly asking to be by his side? I absolutely did not want to know.

And what a feeling of anxiety I felt back then!

I felt like there was only one Yugram in the world, and that without Yugram by my side, everything was worthless, and that my very existence was fundamentally denied… I couldn’t understand why I had such thoughts when there was no way Yugram would leave my side in the first place.

Although I depend on Yugram for this and that, I feel the sadness and anxiety of losing my only family member.. I already know that he is not old enough to be considered a father, but it is strange. I don’t know about my brother, though.

Wait, bro?

Thinking about that made me feel a little better. I wonder how Yugram will react if I call him oppa. I just giggled inside. It’s embarrassing to say it out loud, so I’ll just do it when I get a chance to tease him.

Ah.. I don’t want to get up..

As I rolled around like that, I didn’t want to get up even more. I wasn’t a shameless person who could look at Yugram’s face calmly after committing such a thing. Should I just stay in bed and sleep all day today? No matter what, Yugram is quite soft on me, so he won’t wake me up and force me to eat or anything.

It’s so sad, thinking about it like that, I remembered yesterday vividly. Yu-Gram, who was shocked to see me suddenly bursting into tears, gently hugged me and carried me to the bed. As if he was handling a delicate piece of glass that would break if he wasn’t careful, Yu-Gram treated me very gently and kindly.

Thump. Thump.

Thinking about that, my heart started beating again without me noticing. The memory of Yugram carefully holding me in his arms, carrying me to the bed, and laying me down kept playing over and over again. I’m embarrassed! I’m so embarrassed, my heart feels like it’s going to burst!

I let out a silent scream. And then came the even more horrible tantrum! Even though Yugram had lowered me to the bed, I held onto Yugram’s sleeve with one hand and didn’t let go. Even though he showed an embarrassed expression, Yugram couldn’t shake my hand off and sat down next to the bed.

That weak side of Yugram that I only see occasionally. Yugram, who would normally scold me with a stern expression and tell me not to do anything weird, was fidgeting with my hand that was tightly holding onto his sleeve and not being able to do anything.. I thought Yugram was cute for no reason. It was funny even when he was crying so hard that he couldn’t even see in front of him.

To be honest, I felt good. The fact that Yugram cared for me and listened to my story seriously… Maybe it was because my sensitivity exploded at that moment, or maybe it was because I had a fleeting thought that Yugram was the only one by my side. I felt a tickling sensation in my heart when I saw such a great person as Yugram struggling with me.

Even if I admit that, the fact that I feel ashamed now doesn’t change.

Thinking back to the shameful behavior and tantrums I had shown to Yugram, I felt like my face was burning up again. I was so embarrassed that I could die! I curled up and tried to think of something else, but I couldn’t stop thinking about Yugram’s face!

Save me!

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“Princess, where does it hurt?”

Ayla said, examining Leah’s complexion. In fact, Leah’s complexion was always pale, so rather than judging her complexion, she judged her by her slumped shoulders and her eyes that were not usually sparkling and shining, but rather dead (only one was visible).

“..No, it’s okay.”

Leah answered weakly, repeatedly tilting her teacup. No matter how you looked at it, it didn’t look okay at all. Ayla and Agnes exchanged glances. Is something wrong? It seems like she’s not in her right mind.

However, no one asked directly what the problem was, just observing. Even Cosette, who was the least observant of the three women, was quietly eating her cake. How long had it been since they had been talking insignificantly, observing Leah’s expression? When Leah sighed and put down her teacup, the three of them flinched.

“..Hey, I have a question for everyone..”

“Huh? What, what is it?”

“That’s not my story, it’s a story about a friend of mine..”

Ayla and Cosette’s eyes lit up at Leah’s hesitant words. No matter where you look, it’s about love and her own story! Usually, the probability that something that is said to be someone else’s story is not her own story is extremely low, and Leah, who only has three friends gathered here and, if she had to add one, Mathias, who on earth is she talking about?

‘Somehow, I had a feeling something wasn’t right, so it turns out there was something going on with the healer!’

Ayla clenched her fists as if she had finally figured out the reason. But she never showed it, instead just coughed and started to play along with Leah’s words.

“Ahem, so? What are you talking about?”

“That’s… That… That friend, committed a pretty big mistake against someone close to him…”

“Are that guy and that person the same sex? Or the opposite sex?”

“This, first of all, is a person of the opposite sex..”

You’re the healer. All three of them who were listening to the story had the same thought. Without noticing it, Leah continued her story slowly.

“Ugh… I did something wrong, but I don’t know how to apologize for it.. And recently, I’ve even done something more embarrassing..”

“Dad, what a shame!?”

Cosette let out a squeaky scream. Startled by the sound, Leah paused for a moment, then spoke with a slightly embarrassed look as if making excuses.

“That, that’s not something to be ashamed of! What should I say, that.. that friend, is actually very lonely? It’s hard for him to meet his family and he has that kind of situation.. That.. When he was a little bit unstable, he leaned on me like family.. I leaned on him like a real older brother.. He cried and whined like that..”

How could you say something so embarrassing? Ayla was about to ask him, but then felt herself becoming more inclined to do so after hearing what he said.

Crying?

who?

That friend… no, the princess!?

Aila, Cosette, and Agnes all stared blankly at Leah with eyes of disbelief. Leah still looked slightly gloomy, but her expression itself had not changed at all. The Leah in front of them was crying?

Hey, even if she cried, she probably only shed a few tears. Ayla thought so. But even that alone was something they had never seen before. If Leah’s expressionless face wasn’t innate but something she had maintained on purpose, then the fact that she cried and complained would be quite embarrassing.

“How did your friend’s acquaintance react? Did he hate it, or was he disgusted by it?”

“Rather than saying I didn’t like it… I guess I was a little fidgety, or maybe embarrassed, but I thought that was a little cute… I don’t know.”

‘Princess, this is your friend’s story, so why are you talking as if it were your own experience?’

Cosette clenched her teeth and pinched her thigh. She felt as if she would say what was on her mind right away if she let her guard down. She knew that even if she was Cosette, she had to hold back from pointing this out.

Agnes, who I caught a glimpse of, also lowered her head and held back her laughter. How cowardly of her to enjoy herself like that without joining in on the conversation. Cosette opened her mouth, trying not to let her voice crack.

“Then, wouldn’t it be okay? If that acquaintance didn’t like something, he would have reacted at that time. We’ve been friends for a long time, right? He’d understand that arrangement.”

“Oh, right?”

There was a sense of relief in Leah’s voice. Leah had clearly only said that they were close friends, and had never mentioned that they had known each other for a long time, but Cosette mentioned it as if it were a given, and Leah didn’t seem to find anything strange about it.

Leah sighed softly and drank her tea again. Cosette thought that Leah originally had a cute doll-like appearance, but seeing her human side like this, which she had not seen before, made her look even cuter today.

In addition, Cosette recalled Leah’s previous words. When Ayla asked if she liked the healer and that she already knew, Leah strongly denied it, asking what on earth she was talking about. But what did Leah say then?

All I could say was, ‘With such a big age difference, there’s no way I’d like you.’ But recently, Leah told me the shocking information that Yugram was much younger than I thought. Well, I didn’t say anything, but isn’t it already the end?

From the beginning, Leah had nothing but praise for Yugram, and never once said that she disliked this aspect of him. Even the conditions that she mentioned as her ideal type were all conditions that Yugram matched. However, when asked if it was right to like the healer, she answered only with the excuse of her age, so perhaps that was the only excuse she had to deceive her own heart.

And now, seeing Leah doing something wrong to Yugram and discussing the issue as if it were someone else’s story, the thought deepened even more. When will she admit it? Cosette smiled so that Leah couldn’t see.