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Number 25 returned to the room, locked the door, and threw away his clothes.

The pleasure that Raw gives is nothing but an illusion built up layer by layer, mixed with loneliness and longing.

I am not a low-class male who accepts the touch of any woman other than his lover, as long as it satisfies his boiling sexual desire.

I couldn’t get caught up in the whirlpool of carnal desires and betray my loved ones.

As if to prove that fact, No. 25 stood in place and started masturbating like a person possessed by something.

The repetition of meaningless, cold movements did not last long. A fact that can be clearly seen even after only a few movements.

Masturbation, which involves only mild stimulation, has long since lost its original meaning.

The pleasure she had just given herself was beyond her ability to achieve.

That was the truth and the correct answer, a path that could not be escaped.

Nevertheless, No. 25 kept repeating it in his head.

I can’t admit it, I can’t admit this. These results are unacceptable.

It was only two women who could give freedom to his body, a body that was slowly decaying in the small world he had embraced, and to freely release the pleasure it contained.

There was no room for Rowe to take his place.

While repeating this, No. 25 took his place in the corner of the dark room, fiddling endlessly with the two rings that were the last gifts he received from them, and fell into deep, endless thoughts.

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No. 25, who had trouble sleeping, left the tower with his eyes darker than usual and for some reason, Law followed behind him.

It was rare for Law, who usually leisurely showed up only after the hunt was over, to follow from the beginning.

Before No. 25 could speak with a surprised expression, Law first looked at his complexion and asked in a worried tone.

“Why is your face like that… ? You look more tired than usual… .”

Her cold fingers rose in a slow motion and touched No. 25’s face.

When I touched her touch, the memories of yesterday that I had barely forgotten at the cost of fatigue came back to me in an instant.

No. 25 tightened his lower abdomen and somehow calmed down his lower body, which was bleeding.

Are you asking because you really don’t know?

When I saw Law’s innocent expression without any hint of sexual desire, I felt even more discouraged.

I didn’t even think about slapping away her hand that was caressing my cheek as I normally would.

“It’s because I can’t sleep.”

Number 25 relaxed his body and answered honestly.

Although an important part is missing, can’t you say in front of the person in question, ‘It’s because I can’t get out of my mind the caress that Rowe gave me with his hands?’

After confirming that there was no particular reason, the worry on Law’s face disappeared like melting snow.

Even though spring has fully arrived, like a snowflake with a lingering attachment to the world, the worries about No. 25 did not completely disappear from Rowe’s mind.

Rowe was still stroking No. 25’s cheek and opened his mouth again.

“If you’re tired, go to bed early today. It’s not too late to hunt later, and if it’s urgent, I can handle it… .”

The moment Law spoke that far, No. 25 urgently waved his hand and declined.

“It’s okay!”

Not long after coming to Area 2, I saw a monster that Law had personally disposed of just once.

A gruesome corpse with fragmented bones sticking out of the flesh that had been crushed so flat that its original shape was unrecognizable, and organs splattered in all directions in the aftermath.

The tree was covered in blood stains, and the feast of pink, mushy internal organs was still vivid in my mind.

Number 25, who saw that, vomited out everything in his stomach on the spot, and as if that wasn’t enough, he couldn’t even touch the meat he loved so much for a while.

Law studied No. 25’s still dark expression, then made a suggestion in a quiet voice.

“If you don’t want to hunt… Why don’t we go for a walk together today… ?”

“Walk? No, is that okay?”

She never once asked to go for a walk.

Not only was the forest infested with monsters a problem, but it was also because Law himself had little personal time in the first place.

Without listening to No. 25’s answer, Law walked ahead and spoke.

“Now, let’s go.”

I walked closely behind Law, following the sweet scent flowing from the gombangdae.

Her body, which normally felt no emotions, was it because I faced her naked for a moment yesterday?

The eye is inadvertently drawn to the voluptuous buttocks that extend below the narrow waist, and to the breasts that are more than 70% exposed thanks to the clothing that barely covers the nipples.

It was not easy to erase from my mind someone I recognized as a woman.

Number 25 lowered his gaze and started walking, looking only at Law’s shoes being buried in the mud.

Let’s get rid of it, let’s get this vulgar thought out of our heads.

Number 25 pinched his thighs tightly and could barely suppress a painful moan that escaped between his teeth.

However, Rowe seemed to have an eye on the back, and No. 25’s efforts were in vain.

“Why are you pinching my delicate thighs? ?”

Number 25, who quickly removed his hand from his thigh, blurted out an excuse, citing bugs that did not exist.

“There are bugs.”

“Really?”

After a short conversation, the two started walking again.

Even the common birdsong could not be heard in the dense forest from the beginning of District 2.

The only things that were seen more often than common flowers were the bones of different races, the half-torn corpses of animals, and the occasional death signal that signaled the end of life.

In many ways, the atmosphere was different from the mountain behind Aser’s castle.

It wasn’t a good forest for a walk, but how long has it been since I walked this peacefully and looked around?

I looked around carefully, feeling quite different from when I was hunting.

While walking along the mountain path through the bushes, there was something that caught No. 25’s attention.

A dark brown mushroom about the size of an adult male’s thumb.

It was a mushroom that often appeared in meals prepared by Rowe himself.

I remember it as a mushroom with a good aroma, and it had a good chewy texture, so it was one of No. 25’s favorite food ingredients.

The moment I reached out to pick mushrooms, wondering if I could use them for today’s meal, Law immediately stopped me.

“That is a mushroom that will kill you if you eat it.”

Number 25 withdrew his hand to pick up the mushroom, immediately straightened his bent knees and stood up.

Law came to the side, pointed to the mushrooms, and added an explanation.

“You might be mistaken because they look similar, but if you look at the end here, it’s a little different… ?”

“That’s right.”

Law said while gently stroking No. 25’s hair.

“If you eat something like this incorrectly and something goes wrong with you, it will be troublesome.”

Of course it would be difficult, because No. 25 definitely had an owner.

If you used something, it was polite to return it as is.

After giving a brief warning, Law started walking again.

I walked and walked, but there was no end in sight.

The deeper you go, the more the sunlight gradually disappears, and only thick darkness follows closely behind.

Even though I looked around, the scenery did not change. The only leaves that greeted No. 25 were dark, rough branches, as if they had never been there from the beginning.

How much longer do I have to walk before it ends?

When he was starting to get tired, Law finally opened his mouth.

“Hmm… Let’s take a break here.”

“Here?”

Number 25 asked back in a curious voice and looked around.

The huge tree, which had stretched high into the sky, lay down in a roughly shattered state, as if it had hit something, blocking the surrounding view, and there was no clear stump to sit on and rest on.

If you tell me to rest, I can rest, but why in a place like this?

As if No. 25’s doubts were blown away by Law, he gestured, and the rough cross section of the tree was immediately cut off to reveal the smooth flesh, and the cumbersome giant tree blocking the view was compressed into a small size with a crackling sound and disappeared.

“This is enough… ?”

After finishing speaking, Law sat down on the stump, crossed his legs, and put a stick in his mouth.

Number 25 sat across from Law, but couldn’t think of what to say.

The girl sitting in front was not particularly good at talking, and No. 25 had nothing to say to her.

The silence was very close, but No. 25 was the only one who felt awkward. Rowe looked down, biting his head with a relaxed expression on his face.

Looking at that expression, as if I had escaped the world and was alone in another world, I felt like I would be drawn into her eyes without realizing it.

Number 25 shook his head left and right to come to his senses and looked around with a bored expression.

Rowe was the first to break the silence that seemed to last until the end of the walk.

She said to No. 25, shaking off the stick with a loud thud on the stump.

“Why don’t you take a quick look around the area? If a monster attacks… Because my long-awaited walk turned out to be a mess… .”

“Yes, that’s about it.”

I was getting tired of just sitting still. Number 25 got up from his seat and headed to the opposite side of the road he came from.

Although it was a forest that didn’t receive much sunlight, it didn’t interfere with the view.

However, the darkness aroused the fear that it contained something within itself. Number 25 scanned the surroundings with a completely different expression from before, an expression full of tension.

Fortunately, there was nothing special.

There was no trace of the monster, and the occasional animal cries were peaceful.

When I think about it, I haven’t been able to rest properly lately due to my life-threatening battle with monsters.

Thinking of enjoying the long-awaited rest, No. 25 stretched out and returned to where Law was.

As if he had been waiting for No. 25 to return, Law called him, hiding something behind his back.

“Come here.”

As No. 25 approached, Law proudly showed off the item he had hidden behind his back.

No. 25, a small wreath made up of red, yellow, and white flowers, was something I had never seen before.

“What is this?”

“It’s called a corolla.”

Rowe made a move to place the wreath on the head of No. 25, who was right in front of him.

Is it because he can’t sleep because he thinks about her acting as she wants regardless of his feelings?

Her nerves were more sensitive than usual, and her every action seemed like a bad thing.

The sexual desire I felt when I started walking was just a false emotion piled on top of loneliness.

“That’s it.”

Number 25 had a cold attitude and pushed away the flower crown she held out with the back of his hand.

But is it because emotions take precedence? His hands became stronger than usual, and as a result, the flower crown that Law held out fell to the floor.

This may sound natural since it was made by weaving flowers and grass, but the durability of the wreath was not very good.

The corollas that fell to the ground were scattered in all directions, and the fragile stems that connected the flowers were broken.

“Ah… .”

When she saw the flowers falling to the ground and scattering, a small sigh escaped her lips a beat later. The voice was so small that if you didn’t listen carefully, you could easily overlook it.

I felt like I had done something very wrong.

As a result of letting emotions take precedence over reason, No. 25 knelt on the floor with an embarrassed expression and apologized to Rowe, holding the flowers scattered on the floor in his hands one by one.

“Sorry, sorry.”

Because I was so embarrassed, I couldn’t even catch the flower properly.

Law placed his hand on the shoulder of No. 25, who kept missing the flowers, shook his head and spoke in a bitter tone.

“It’s okay, it’s okay… . Because it was purely my greed… .”

Sometimes I resented her for not blaming others even in times like these.

Why isn’t there room for pure hatred?

Why do you keep giving me opportunities to think about her?

Number 25 looked up at her blankly.

Because of the shadows, I couldn’t see his face properly, but it was obvious that he had a sad expression.

Looking at the facial expressions No. 25 sometimes made when he said harsh words to her, it felt as if even No. 25 himself was being submerged in a sea filled with the name of depression.

“Okay… My greed… .”

As she muttered meaningful words, all the flowers she had woven turned black and crumbled to ash.

Number 25 looked at the flowers scattering like sand from his hands and reflected on his hasty actions.

“Let’s go back.”

Unlike when she started the walk, her shoulders even felt slightly drooped.

It was an atmosphere where it was difficult to even talk.

They returned to the tower without a word of conversation, and No. 25 seemed to be paying attention and heading to his room downstairs.

But as always, Law called him over.

“Where are you going… ? I have to do my job today too.”

“Yes?”

I never thought I would say something like that even in this situation.

Well, the drawing of blood never stopped even for a day.

Number 25 hesitantly entered her room, but what she wanted was not a blood draw.

“Today we will do the same as yesterday, so take off your clothes.”

The first time was difficult, the second time was not difficult.

However, I just didn’t understand what she said about collecting semen even in this situation.

Does she know what this action means?

Obviously you don’t know. Because we don’t know, we could do something like this even when our feelings for each other have cooled.

No. 25 responded to Law’s request with the idea that it was a simple experiment, without any affection whatsoever.

Unlike yesterday, Law held his cock with an expressionless face and shook it quickly.

Despite her expressionless expression, her hands have clearly become more skillful than yesterday.

Controlling the pace, subtle movements of the palm to sweep a pleasant spot, slightly closing the hand when stimulating the sensitive glans area, stimulating and watching the reaction.

The series of actions were all efficient movements to squeeze semen out of the cock.

Law turned his back and said to No. 25, who ejaculated earlier than yesterday.

“You can go now.”

Number 25 got dressed on the spot, then bowed his head and headed to his room.

He lay down in bed for the first time in a while.

Law’s bitter smile could not be easily erased from his head even as night fell.

The sadness of others became a sharp dagger that stabbed my own guilt, repeatedly cutting into my heart. I couldn’t sleep at all.

That wasn’t all.

The cock that had just finished ejaculating with her hand was still erect, as if it was not yet satisfied.

The cock, which had been trained through multiple sexual intercourse, was not easily calmed down by one or two ejaculations.

I realized long ago that thirst cannot be quenched with hands.

In fact, I had a vague feeling that there was the easiest way to quench this thirst.

Okay, just ask Row upstairs and that’s it.

If you go to Rowe and tell her to use her breasts, genitals, and whole body, not her hands, to extract semen from her body, she will do it without a word. Maybe even worse.

But I didn’t want to do that. It will definitely be good at first. By lowering your head for a moment, you can relieve the sexual desire that has been bothering you for two years.

But what about the pride, shame and humiliation that will follow? If those emotions take over your body, will you be able to endure it?

I knew better than anyone else that it was impossible, that if I got caught up in a whirlpool of negative emotions with nothing to support, the end would be destruction.

That wasn’t the end.

Every time I thought of myself telling the person I hated so much, the person who had hurt me today, to deal with his sexual desires, I was so disgusted that I couldn’t stand it.

Doesn’t the fact that you are worrying about this mean that you have already allowed Law’s presence in a corner of your mind?

It was no different from a betrayal of them.

Number 25 rolled over his blanket and went to bed, swearing briefly and uncharacteristically.

May tomorrow be a better day than today.

I hope I can escape this terrible feeling.

I hope I can be myself.

I hope I don’t forget myself.

Please don’t forget them.

It was the only prayer a powerless person could say before going to bed, and an answer to his own existence.