episode_0084

After Su-unni touched my chest from 1 to 100 and left, I fell asleep.

As time passed, I found myself sleeping more and more, drifting off frequently. But since I spent a lot of time alone, it didn’t bother me much.

Being alone is lonely.

Su-unni’s handmade bed was always comfortable, and sleep came easily. I let my body sink into the bed and drifted off.

Come to think of it, how are Eia and the other maids doing…?

I feel like I’ve been asleep for quite a while this time. My body feels weak, and even moving is difficult.

But usually, when I wake up, the light flowers gently bloom, illuminating the room. Strangely, the flowers didn’t move this time.

As a result, the windowless room was engulfed in complete darkness.

The room was pitch black, whether my eyes were open or closed.

It was a bit scary being alone in a room where nothing could be seen.

Could it be that there’s a problem with Su-unni if the flowers aren’t emitting light? But Su-unni is a World Tree, can there be a problem with her?

It hasn’t been long since I woke up, so I’ll observe a little longer.

Even if there’s no light, after spending some time, my eyes should adjust to the darkness and I should be able to see at least a little.

Hmm…

It’s been about 30 minutes and the room is still locked in darkness with no light at all.

I should call out.

“Su-unni.”

“Su-unni!”

“Su-unni~?”

Today is meat-eating day.

-Swish.

Huh? That sound is definitely the sound of roots opening when someone enters.

Thank goodness. It seems like it was just a hiccup.

“Su-unni?”

“Yes, it’s me.”

“Oh, Su-unni, is the light of the light flowers dimmed?”

“What?”

“Right now, there’s no light in the room, it’s pitch black.”

“Amelia, you…”

“Su-unni?”

“The light flowers are blooming well right now. The room is bright.”

“… What?”

“The room is bright. Amelia.”

After Su-unni’s words, I couldn’t say anything anymore.

-Step, step.

I feel Su-unni approaching me.

-Swish.

-Gasp.

When something touched my hand, I tried to quickly pull it away, but realizing it was Su-unni’s hand, I didn’t retract my hand.

“Sorry. Did I startle you? Let me check your eyes for a moment.”

As Su-unni’s scent got closer, her hand reached my face.

-Pat, pat, pat, pat.

After hearing some strange noises, Su-unni’s sigh echoed.

“Amelia…”

“My eyes are blind, aren’t they?”

After hearing Su-unni’s words earlier, I realized it.

My eyes are blind.

In fact, I had already anticipated it. My eyes were deteriorating day by day, and without lenses, they were so damaged that I couldn’t see anything.

Sometimes blood would come out of my eyes, and when tired, my eyes would hurt first. So, I thought that the eyes were the first to deteriorate.

But to become blind so quickly…

“Yes. I just confirmed that you can’t even recognize any light.”

“I see.”

“Are you okay?”

Su-unni’s voice was filled with concern for me.

“Yes. If it’s not too much trouble, could you keep it a secret from Lily and Helena and call Eia for me?”

“Eia?”

“Oh, she’s a maid in our family, the youngest maid among them.”

“Got it.”

“Thank you.”

Sending a message to the World Tree, a creature similar to a dragon, seemed like a chore, but now I had reached a point where I couldn’t live alone.

Moreover, Lily and Helena were currently very busy, as the spy activities and various crimes were starting to appear before the war between nations.

Because of that, Lily and Helena are working hard to protect the city that our Estelle family is protecting as much as possible.

I’m sorry that I won’t be able to see you for a while, so I asked Su-unni to take care of me.

As long as I’m by Su-unni’s side, I won’t die, so I trusted her.

I was warned when I first met Su-unni. They said that while they could keep me alive, they couldn’t prevent my body from deteriorating.

They said there would always be side effects when forcibly keeping someone alive.

That’s how I ended up blind now.

I was planning to give Lily and Helena a pleasant surprise by revealing my heart to them, but I didn’t expect this to happen. It’s a bit disappointing.

I intentionally closed and opened my eyes repeatedly, but the room remained pitch black.

Even when I moved my hand in front of my eyes, I couldn’t see anything.

“I’m hungry.”

Oh, today is the day we eat meat. And I didn’t even have breakfast. Maybe I’m feeling hungrier because I only ate grass.

“How long will it take?”

Oh no, this is bad.

Did I wake up like this because I slept, or…?

Normally, Su-unni would read my thoughts and take me to the bathroom, but Su-unni is not here right now.

Of course, she could be reading my thoughts from a distance.

Thinking about the distance between the Elf country and our family, it’s dizzying.

That means I have to go to the bathroom by myself.

Sometimes, even if I called Su-unni, she wouldn’t come, so I had to go alone, with my cane.

Let’s think about going to the bathroom without Su-unni.

First, I would hold the cane that Su-unni made for me and tap on the wooden door to signal her.

Su-unni would open the door upon receiving my signal, and I would enter the bathroom right next to it.

And then, problem solved. Done!

Let’s do this.

First, the cane. The cane is always on the right side of my bed.

I felt around and thankfully found the cane in my hand soon.

Alright, first clear.

Next, I have to go to the root door.

If the cane is on the right side of the bed, that means the door is on the right side of the bed.

Phew…

After signaling, I picked up the cane and slowly got up.

Whoa!

I almost stumbled forward as soon as I stood up.

My body is getting worse, and this lump in my chest is too big, making it hard to balance.

Now all I have to do is walk to the door with the cane.

But.

Even though I got up from the bed, I felt a moment of fear in my sight that nothing was visible.

There’s nothing in front of me, but no, there’s nothing. There’s nothing between the bed and the door.

I know. I’ve been in this room for a week.

But. But still.

I feel like there’s something blocking my sight in front of me, or rather, there’s a danger.

My foot won’t move. I felt like if I took a step, I would fall into hell.

Snap out of it. There’s just a normal floor in front of you.

You’ve been looking at it. There’s nothing there.

Phew… Phew…

-Tok.

My hand trembled as the cane hit the floor, making a sound that startled me.

“Right. The cane.”

Walking without the cane is difficult, but standing slightly without it is completely possible.

With sweat already soaking my body, I reached out my hand holding the cane.

-Tok, tok, tok…

Alright. I confirmed that the floor was fine.

Only then did I let the cane support me on the ground and took a step forward.

-Tak.

Not being able to see is really uncomfortable, dangerous, and scary… Even taking just one step in this condition is this difficult.

“Ugh…!”

B-Bathroom…!

Suddenly, as the tension released, I began to feel a strong urge to urinate.

Quickly, quickly…!

I tapped the cane as far forward as possible and struggled to move forward.

In a hurry, the cane slipped on the floor and pushed me forward.

Since I was leaning on the cane, my hands and body also moved forward along with the cane.

As a result, I fell to the ground.

-Thud!

Ah… this is my limit…

As my bladder continued to empty, my body lost its strength.

It felt as if my soul was also slipping away.

Finally, after my bladder was completely empty, I could regain my senses.

The scariest part is that I can’t fix this situation right now.

In the past, I would have just thought of it as a mistake and dealt with it myself… but now, I am unable to do so.

Apart from going to the bathroom, I always eat, sleep, and chat in this room.

A situation where accidents shouldn’t happen.

But now, I have caused a huge accident.

Lying on the ground, urinating…

I don’t want to remember, but I leaked a lot. It felt like a lot.

Perhaps the floor now looks like a world map I drew.

Even though I want to clean up, the towel is in the bathroom. I want to use the evil boar, but it’s the blanket I have to cover myself with.

I wonder if Su-unnie is watching this situation right now…?

I’m screwed… I’m finished… having urinary incontinence at this age…

And not because Lily and Helena harassed me, but simply because I couldn’t hold it in…

Su-unnie, please come into the room first. Without telling Eaea… please…

-Squeak.

As soon as I sent my plea to Su-unnie, the sound of the door opening on both sides echoed in my ears.

What’s even scarier is that the footsteps aren’t just one.

The sound of tall, strong footsteps. Definitely Su-unnie.

The other one… small, cute footsteps. In other words…

It’s Eaea.

Oh… I’m done for.

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Amelia lifted her skirt at Lily’s request to show her underwear.