episode_0083

Boom—!

Squeak—!

On top of a cliff with a clear view of the blue stars.

I was driving a blue Porter borrowed from Surt,

I parked my car here alone for a while.

Tong–!

After closing the door and getting out of the car, I felt the cool breeze blowing on my skin.

It was a late fall night that was so cold that even the depths of the oven were frozen.

The night sky was painted pitch black without a single cloud.

Above it, pure white stars were scattered chaotically on the black drawing paper.

“…is this enough?”

I sat down on a nearby rock and took out my bag.

Cold hardened hot dogs and grape-flavored Welch’s that may have passed their expiration date.

In a desperate situation where combat rations are running out,

I don’t know where I got them, but they were gifts that Lapis had prepared for me.

Munching…

The taste of sausage made by grinding unidentified meat such as rat meat or pigeon,

Moreover, it is a food that cannot be cooked warm and can be barely chewed and swallowed.

I, who had already quenched my thirst with a soda that seemed to have tasted bad,

I was looking at the night sky for a moment, looking at the last scenery here.

I wanted to die.

There was no hope of living any longer.

So many children were left behind,

I have lived my life based on the sacrifices of those people.

If the operation went as planned, there was always a trap lurking there.

If the operation did not go as planned,

On that day, the denomination launched an all-out offensive, causing irreparable damage.

If those days repeat like everyday life,

Even my heart, which seemed to be strong forever, felt like it would break.

I vividly remember the promise I made to Lee Yu-ri before I died,

Unfortunately for her, she no longer has the courage to live.

With the bitter wind blowing across my face, I was embarrassed and couldn’t even raise my head properly.

Chiik…

I put the remaining cigarette in my mouth and lit it.

Take a precious sip and then spit it out of your mouth.

White clouds of smoke were billowing out.

“Is this my last cigarette?”

Starting from the battle that took place a few days ago, I sent away all of my colleagues and subordinates who had been with me until the end.

An encounter with Xiao, and an emergency rescue request from the advance team led by Alice.

By the time we got there, everything was already late.

One of Alice’s arms was cut off, and the other subordinates were lying on the floor with their hearts ripped out.

They were in worse condition than livestock in a slaughterhouse, so I carefully dug graves for them and buried them one by one.

That was all I could do.

I was unable to awaken and had no ability.

Because he gathered people together and waged war against the cult that was carrying out crazy acts,

It seemed as if they had deliberately created such a miserable scene and shown it to me, perhaps to crush my resistance.

Or maybe he was just a really crazy person and did such a thing for no reason.

“Whew…”

I just wanted to finish it now.

I feel sorry for Surtur, Lapis, Alice, and Lauren.

I couldn’t bear it anymore.

This morning, the child who was as bright and bright as the sun until the very end.

The figure with one of its arms cut off looked up at me in astonishment.

Please do something, I trusted you and followed you, so please help me.

The sight of a silent scream echoing through the intensive care unit.

Alice’s eyes that looked at her like that.

I couldn’t look straight at him.

Cheap profit…

I put the burned out cigarette butt into the Welch’s can,

I immediately stood up and wiped the tears from my eyes.

There was no other way.

All resources were depleted, and most of my colleagues either died or said they would quit.

I didn’t have the courage to catch them as they were walking through hell with me.

Because there was nothing I could do other than pray that they would live peacefully, even if it was only for the rest of their lives.

They couldn’t even give them the compensation they deserved for their hard work, and everyone had to be sent away.

In order to end this journey full of tragedy,

He came here alone, leaving a will to the children.

Rattling–!

I took a seat inside the porter and carefully checked the window.

Strong duct tape was placed in the gaps between the windows.

There were several lightning bolts prepared for me in the passenger seat.

Cheap profit…

I ignited the lightning bolt and tilted my seat back.

The night sky was exceptionally beautiful, and the stars were clearly visible.

If I die like this, where will I go?

If I really die, I’ll probably go to hell.

Being judged for the sins I have committed and the iniquity of them.

If I go back to the original world I came from.

It was just another version of hell, and it wasn’t much different.

I remember the first and last love I received in my life, shared by Yuri and the other children here.

I couldn’t help but laugh, wondering if I would live such a miserable life.

Crack…Crack….

Gray smoke rises thickly.

When your mind gradually becomes blank and your hands and feet start to feel numb.

As I slowly fall asleep, I feel the acrid gas seeping into my lungs.

If I fall asleep like this, it will all be over.

May I sleep like this forever and suffer no more.

If possible, never wake up again,

If allowed,

I hope I can atone for the children who left before me.

Boom… Coo Goong… Coo Goo Goong…

Clink—-!

At that moment, someone hit the car window with all their might.

Fragments from the broken windshield were scattered across the driver’s seat.

The gunman opened the car door and forcibly dragged me out.

Cradangtang—!

“Whoops…!”

As my vision grew distant, I began to gasp for breath.

If it had been even a few seconds later, he might have suffocated to death.

“Seojin. “What are you doing now?”

“Xiao…”

I lay down on the ground and raised my head to look at the gunman.

A red cape blowing in the wind and long, straight brown hair.

And a strong black energy was on her fist.

“…Are you giving up like this in the end? “A bastard like you…would die like this?”

Xiao looked down at me with cold eyes.

I was panting and drooling,

Soon he picked up a stone that was rolling on the ground and swung it vigorously at her.

Boom…

puck—!

“It’s no use.”

“Ugh…!”

She twisted my wrist without any effort,

Soon he grabbed me by the collar and beat me to the ground.

“No, you shouldn’t die like this. How many times have I told you this? “A person like you…with me…”

“Don’t give a fuck, you crazy bitch!!!!!”

I grabbed her collar with both hands and pulled her.

“You killed them all…Beatrice…and everyone else…even Alice’s arm…and so well…!”

“We are at war, Seojin. It’s up to each person to survive on the battlefield. “They risked their lives to fight, and so did I.”

「Xiao…! Holy shit…every time you save my life like this…you think I’m with you bitch…fuck it…your bitch…and the cult…and kill them all. Because all I can think about is throwing it away…!”

match—-!

After she slapped me hard on the cheek,

For a moment, he looked embarrassed and started touching my tingling cheek.

While I was distracted, I immediately put my hands in my pockets.

He secretly hid an amulet burning red in his sleeve.

“I’m… sorry, Seojin. “I…I…made a mistake…”

“Okay…this is what you look like. Xiao. “You pseudo-bastards like you… and you… are all of the same species.”

Pak—!

I grabbed her shoulders and twisted my body vigorously.

I got on top of Xiao and immediately raised my fist and tried to hit him right away.

Her eyes were staring at me.

An expression full of sadness and regret.

And that damn face that says you can’t save me.

Like if I swing my fist at her,

That vague expression that seemed to say that he would welcome you as much as he wanted and wanted you to be with him.

Complex emotions, including love and hate, were tangled and confused, and I always ended up wandering when I saw her.

Wow…

“Why on earth are you doing this to me? If I just let you die… what good is there!!!!!”

bang—-!

Xiao closed his eyes and offered no resistance.

I only hit the ground hard, but

I, who had no power of any kind, was nothing more than child’s play to her.

“Get away from me…and don’t come here again…”

“…Every time you talk to me like that…I feel like my heart is breaking.”

I stood up and walked slowly toward the forest.

Then Xiao cried out my name and grabbed my wrist.

“Seo Jin-gun… the church needs someone like you. You are a unique being. Even with these tragic resources and circumstances…no one has ever stood up to us like that.”

「…」

“If you come to me, I can give you anything. “I promise not to hurt you anymore, not even your colleagues…”

I glared into her eyes without saying anything.

Xiao tried to say something, but then hesitated and swallowed his voice.

I gathered courage again and continued speaking.

“Please…please stop this fight. Seojin-gun. Why do you have to suffer like this? You didn’t do anything wrong. As for the things done against the church… I will be able to cover them up somehow.”

“So please…please. It’s okay if you don’t become a follower of the Great Mother…just stay by my side. I have to leave for China soon…I can’t save you like this forever. Maybe this could be the last time…! So…you’d rather come with me…”

“Xiao.”

After I shook off her hand.

He pulled out the knife hanging from Xiao’s waist and held it to my neck.

“If you really want the paradise you’ve been building with corpses… why don’t you cut off my head and place it on top of it?”

「Seojin…! My words…”

“Maybe I should be grateful, because you deliberately saved my life so that I would suffer more in this hell. Congratulations, after all, the script always goes astray. is not it? Or are all the favors you have shown me so far just like the shallow sympathy written into the script?”

“It’s not like that…I…I…Wait a minute…Where are you going…”

widely—!

After I slapped her outstretched hand.

I ran slowly and quickly towards the forest.

In the pitch black bushes, a familiar red cigarette light was seen,

Behind the huge tree stood a girl holding a cane.

“Surt! receive!”

“nice. Good job, commander.”

Surtur immediately put Xiao’s sword into the empty scabbard,

Lapis nodded to me and began to memorize the spell.

“Please go in first. Commander…!」

“I’m begging you…for both of you. You must come back alive. got it…?”

“…I’ll try my best.”

I felt as if my body was floating in the air, and my vision became blurred.

The last time I saw Xiao, he looked quite sad.

The sadness of being betrayed by someone I trusted.

At the same time, I felt anger towards my two children who were always with me.

Along with those two emotions, a black energy of light erupts.

She gave me her saddest last smile.

——

“Was it all a trap? Wow, it ended up being a bad thing.”

“Well, I guess it was a trap from the beginning.”

“…Commander, you may have really intended to die here.”

Trash…Trudge…

Chiik…

Surtur stepped on a cigarette with his military boot and took out a scarlet spear from behind his back.

We’ve heard each other’s names many times, but this was our first time meeting in person.

No matter how many times Xiao and Surt have traveled the battlefield,

There was a strange tension between the two.

“So…you are that bitch. “The crazy bitch who cut off our Alice’s arm.”

“I thought Seo Jin-gun would be sad, so I originally tried to send him back, but the resistance was so strong that I had no choice.”

“Then all you had to do was leave… Why cut off a healthy kid’s arm?”

“If I did that… I thought he would be by my side. “You said you would give up this war and escape, just the two of us.”

“Well, our commander’s willpower is amazing. If it were me, I think I would have gone crazy. “When I see you steadfastly pretending to be okay, it’s really cool.”

Kugugugugugung….

When Xiao clenched his fist, a strong black energy began to radiate.

She immediately tried to pull the sword out of the scabbard, but the commander had already taken her sword.

She smiled helplessly and began to loosen her wrists.

“If I defeat you two here… Seo Jin-gun will naturally come to my side. “Isn’t that right?”

“…Commander…you would never do that even if it meant death.”

“If he were that idiot… he would have taken a sword and attacked the church headquarters himself?”

Boom—!

Kang—!

As the scarlet spear was struck by the fist.

In an instant, black flames erupted and a strong explosion occurred.

Clap la la rock—-!

Swish—!

Xiao smiled and easily dodged the magical arrows that came his way,

He widened his distance and nodded.

“No, I think you guys are his last resort. And once I get rid of you… in the end, he will have nowhere to go and will have no choice but to entrust himself to me.”

“You’re a bigger idiot than I heard… Sigh… Stop flouting and attacking me. “After I get rid of him quickly, I have to go and scold Seojin.”

“I want you to fight with all your might, right. “The rumors I heard about you…are not enough…!”

From the moment I checked the amulet attached to Xiao’s shoulder.

Lapis nodded to Surtur and grabbed her staff.

A sign that the operation is going as planned.

And the scarlet spear shines brightly and swings around.

That day, a life-threatening struggle was taking place on top of the cliff.