episode_0082

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– One: Oppa, do you have time?

– Me: No, no. What did you contact me for?

– Hana: …You’re very angry, aren’t you?

Don’t act faint, bitch.

– Hana: It’s been a while since we talked to each other. Right?

– One: I think there was a misunderstanding. How about talking about it while eating at the restaurant you went to with your brother last time?

– Hana: I’ll buy it this time.

How are you?

Just as I was thinking about what to reply to the ridiculous text message, Hana called me, as if she was still frustrated with this.

Should I take it or not?

I think I contacted you because I needed something. If you leave it alone, it will continue to stick.

Slide your finger across the screen to answer a call.

I put the phone to my ear and tried to stay silent.

[hello.]

It was my first time hearing Hana’s voice.

Honestly, if you put aside your personal feelings, it’s not a bad voice.

It may be a made-up voice, though.

“…Why did you call me?”

[Oppa, are you very angry?]

“No, why did you call? I have no intention of eating with you.”

[It’s not like we’re going to end like this. I think it would be better to meet and talk to resolve any misunderstandings.]

Today’s workout went well, so I was going to go home in a good mood… but this woman keeps getting angry.

“Misunderstanding? What misunderstanding?”

[that is…]

“I have no intention of marrying you anymore. I won’t bother you any more. So let’s just end it here.”

[Oppa, listen carefully.]

“What are you listening to? I lifted the barbell more than 50 times today, what else can I lift?”

[What does that mean?]

“Okay, I know you don’t want to get involved with an old me, and I won’t mess with you anymore. Let’s just stop worrying and live.”

[brother! Is this all we can do?]

“Of course, this is all there is to it. Anyway, you became friends with me to get coins and sponsorships. Let’s not do this to our players.”

[Have you found another woman?]

“What about women? I’m just quitting because it’s all bullshit. Hang up? Don’t contact me.”

[brother? brother!]

I took the phone away from my ear and was about to press the end call button when I heard a voice desperately calling me from the other end.

Either way. I pressed the red square button and put my phone in my pocket.

– Ping

“Ah…”

My head started pounding, and my vision turned black.

I feel dizzy.

Feeling my head spinning, I slowly lowered myself.

dizziness. It didn’t seem like he was talking too hard, but his blood pressure seemed to have risen due to excitement.

It’s not surprising. Since possessing this body, this happens about once every three days.

If I hadn’t started exercising sooner, I would have really died. Well, because I was in this state, I ended up being possessed.

I’ve been working out a lot recently, so it’s been a bit quiet, but seeing it flare up again, I need to be careful.

“If possible, I shouldn’t get involved with one.”

When I think about what happened to me before, I feel like my fever is rising without me even realizing it.

“Hey, I’m in a bad mood.”

When I returned home in a bad mood, the house felt bigger today.

Some people may like the spaciousness of the space, but when I see this barren living room, I feel a sense of emptiness.

Little things that I normally just ignore are bothering me.

This is all because of that bitch.

“Ah… I can’t keep feeling like this.”

I know myself well.

When I feel this bad, I look for something to eat.

To be precise, you are looking for something ‘delicious’.

In this case, there is a high probability that you will open the delivery app.

Eating delivery food may lift your depressed mood a little, but the problem lies in the next day.

Mr. Garam, who figured out like a ghost what I ate, is going to have fun with me again.

To put it bluntly, I am inferior to Mr. Garam.

– Mr. Garam, what if I just got home and want to eat something?

– Just eat that much and exercise as much as you can, right?

– …I don’t think that’s a good idea.

– Then, try doing something like a walk. Maybe you’re not looking for food because you’re hungry, but for psychological reasons. If you take a slow walk and calm your mind, you will most likely be able to overcome it.

“Okay, let’s go out. I just went back and forth between the center and home every time. Let’s go with the feeling of looking back.”

It’s supposed to rain, so take an umbrella and let’s go a little farther today.

It wouldn’t be a bad idea to walk along the Han River.

Great, let’s take the car and go to the Han River.

***

The sky is lazy today.

Obviously, I thought it was the best day until yesterday, but it became the worst day in one day.

The past two weeks have been very happy.

Boss Inho was a kinder person than I thought, and he worked out hard.

It’s different from other members who only come out for 2-3 days and then don’t come out.

So, I got a little excited and made him exercise more.

It must have been difficult to digest at the age of 40, but CEO In-ho is coming along well.

A center that sweeps and mops alone. An empty center where almost no one comes except me.

The loneliness that comes from that. Concern about dwindling membership.

The worries that run through my head every time don’t come to mind when I’m with CEO Inho.

So I guess I’ve forgotten about it these days.

That my life was originally a gutter.

When we returned to the center, it seemed that CEO In-ho had returned home.

I exercise alone in an empty center.

The more weight you put on the barbell, the clearer your mind becomes. I don’t have any random thoughts.

The weight, which started at 40 kg, soon rose to 200 kg.

“ugh.”

Place a barbell on your shoulders. Maintain abdominal pressure by applying force to your stomach.

Go down slowly.

The weight of a 200 kg disc is not as heavy as you might think.

It’s not as heavy as my worries.

Appropriate tension is maintained in the muscles.

Without kicking back, slowly stand up while applying strength to your thighs and buttocks.

So do 10 round trips.

– Rumble!

“……”

I guess I’ll just have to stop here for today.

No one will come anyway, so we should just close it.

I don’t want to go home like this.

I feel like I can’t breathe when I enter that narrow house.

Okay, since we finished early, let’s go a little further today.

***

[Loan deadline information]

One text message today dragged my mood to the bottom of hell.

Even while walking along the promenade along the Han River, I just stare at my phone.

fool. Nothing will change if you look at it.

money. Money… His money was the problem.

From the time I was young until now, I have never been out of money in my life.

A debt left behind by an unfaithful mother.

My father had to work all day to pay off the debt.

My father, who ran a small local gym, saw the interest growing, so he left the gym to me and went on to do other things.

Stupid father.

My pitifully sincere father.

I paid it back again and again, but in the end, my body got damaged and I left my side early.

So all I have left is debt and the gym.

What would it have been like if you hadn’t inherited it?

I couldn’t abandon the gym that my father left behind, so was my decision in the past to take on that debt really the right one?

I have that thought often these days.

– Tuk Tuk

Drop by drop of water, wetting my head.

Oh, did I say it was going to rain today?

Umbrella… I didn’t bring it.

haha.

It’s really… the worst today.

The rain in early fall was so cold, the rain that had been falling in droplets suddenly turned into a torrential downpour and hit my body.

I just walked, feeling the stinging rain on my whole body.

Because there is nowhere else to run.

It seems that other people saw the forecast saying it would rain. I am the only one at Han River Park.

Ha, I was the only one who didn’t know.

I just want to melt into the raindrops and disappear like this.

How long did it take to walk? The rainwater flowing down from my soaked hair is almost obscuring my vision.

How do I get back home? Is it possible to ride a bus in this wet condition?

– Twang Tung

The rain that was bothering my ears made a sound like it was hitting something.

And the rain doesn’t hit me anymore.

“Uh…?”

A shadow falls over your head.

Is this… an umbrella?

“Huh?”

Before I knew it, a huge man was blocking my path.

The man looks down at me and says.

“Mr. Garam. What are you doing here?”

This is President Inho.

“Uh… that’s me…”

The boss comes closer to me.

I don’t want to show that I was crying before I know it, so I turn my head away.

Because I thought I would be so miserable if the boss said, ‘Did you cry?’

But the boss just looks at me blankly.

I couldn’t stand this awkward silence.

“I… just go see…”

“It’s okay to cry. Cry under the umbrella. Just because it rains doesn’t mean tears flow any better.”

Pat pat.

The boss tapped my shoulder and spoke calmly.