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Time flows colorlessly and meaninglessly.

Because it was a divided country, it was sad to end up becoming a soldier even though I didn’t want to.

How many people would be happy to dedicate the two years of their 20s, which are the prime years of their lives and can be said to be their precious youth?

However, I couldn’t refuse just because I didn’t like it, so I decided that if I was going to go, it would be best to go quickly, so I went to the training center.

It felt like last night when I got on the bus, shaving my head and shaking off my troubled thoughts.

After completing training at the training center and being assigned to my unit, it felt like a recent event.

The bag contained military supplies, not books.

He went forward with a gun in his hand, not a pen.

One pole became two, and two became three.

The day was slow, but looking back, a lot of time had passed.

But if you ask me if I think it will be soon if I go back, I feel like I want to punch the person who asked the question on the chin.

1 year. Of course, it wasn’t that I couldn’t go on vacation, stay out, or go out during that time.

I was holding on to that and holding on, but fortunately, the unfortunate thing I thought didn’t happen and my sister came to the area where I could leave several times and met me and left.

When I was going out, I couldn’t call my sister because I had to go home right away, but when I was staying out, I called my sister.

It would have been difficult to return once I had gone far, so if I asked her to bear with me just once and come back, she came without saying a word.

In the first place, there was no one to meet and no place to go, so of course it was right for them to come my way.

You should meet someone and only be with me.

And when I was on vacation, I held on to my older sister and kissed her several times.

I wanted to belong to the country and do things I could never do when I was a soldier, so I coveted my older sister’s body again and again.

But as the number of incidents decreased and the period approached, I became more anxious.

“… … .”

I looked at the calendar.

Tomorrow was another vacation day.

A year had already passed, and in the blink of an eye, I was going to go back from being a sergeant to being a civilian.

It was something I had thought about and made up my mind to do before becoming a soldier, but as the time to actually do it approached, I was worried about whether it was okay to do this.

No matter how much I wanted to make my sister mine, even if she was tied up and couldn’t go anywhere, I was confident that I would do it calmly.

But what is this actually?

Even though my sister’s life has fallen into the abyss, I am the only one who looks after her. Everyone sees my sister as trash, but I think she is lovely. I felt a little reluctant to say that.

Yes, even so, I felt a little guilty about pushing a person’s life into the abyss.

I shook my head.

no. If I don’t do that, my sister will go far away when I go back to my daily life.

So, if you become weak-hearted, you will end up losing what you have in your hands.

I made up my mind.

And then I waited for my last vacation to come tomorrow.

*

“… It’s hard.”

Taking a taxi, taking the infrequent bus, and taking the subway back home were always difficult.

Still, the good news was that I was able to return home just in time for a slightly late lunch.

“Uh, are you here? I received a call, but I didn’t expect it to arrive so soon?”

As soon as I got home, the first thing I saw was my sister.

Sure enough, my sister was welcoming me without going anywhere.

I laughed bitterly at that sight, then grabbed my sister and dragged her away.

At the entrance, without even taking off his shoes, he grabbed his older sister around her waist and crashed his lips into hers as if he were headbutting her.

“Ugh?!”

My sister’s eyes widened in confusion, but her struggling movements soon quieted down, as if she was gradually coming to terms with it.

In the end, I just left my body to my own devices with almost no strength.

My older sister, who had been dazed and then sagging while kissing her lips, gradually regained her strength, holding onto my forearm and allowing me to mix her tongue with mine.

My mouth opened and my tongue felt sticky.

I felt happy and excited by that feeling I had longed for again and again.

I trembled with the satisfaction of being able to wash away the shitty days in this one moment.

“Hmm, ugh… ”

I wanted to enjoy it again and again.

But perhaps because I couldn’t do that, I felt thirsty and wanted more for no reason.

With a burning, burning thirst, I hugged my sister and did not want to let her go.

And this vacation, this meeting, was going to be the moment I made my sister mine.

Because I was planning on making it that way.

“Huh… Well, did you have a good time? I need to change my clothes first.”

My sister opened her mouth and patted my body while saying that.

The reason it seems a little more comfortable is because I’m not here?

In fact, have you discovered that it’s easier if you don’t worry about anything?

That shouldn’t happen.

After worrying, caring, caring about those around me, I get so tired that I have to go away alone.

I have to throw away everything and isolate myself, saying I can’t eat on my own, but why does that not seem like it?

Even though I thought that my sister would become distant, I naturally took off my military cap as she said.

After taking off my tight military uniform, I was finally able to enjoy the fact that I was on vacation.

After letting out a relieved breath, I went straight into the bathroom, took a shower, and shook my hair.

“Did you wash it?”

“Yes. What have you been doing?”

“I just… I read various books and did that.”

“Then I guess he didn’t really go out.”

“Where do you want me to go?”

My sister said that with a smile.

I didn’t think he was lying, so I just ignored it.

It was a good thing that my sister had no place to go, so it was a good feeling.

Every time we met for a year, I told her that I couldn’t live without her, and when she heard that, she was embarrassed, but after realizing that there was nothing she could do, she accommodated me.

The result made my sister who she is today.

Still, I knew very well that it was still not enough.

“… Wow, I’m really tired.”

I flopped down on the sofa, wrapping the towel around my neck.

Then my sister came closer to me and opened her mouth as if she was looking at me.

“Is it very difficult?”

“… Well, that’s right. But the military will end soon… ”

While washing my face, I expressed how difficult it was.

Then, at the end, he leaned his back completely against the backrest and let out a sigh.

My sister laughed bitterly when she saw me like that.

“Good job. There are still some left though.”

“… That’s right.”

I mumbled and answered.

I stayed still and hugged my sister.

My older sister, who was hugging me, made a slightly subtle expression.

“Didn’t you say you were tired? I need to get some rest.”

“Just, I feel less tired if I stay like this.”

“… I see.”

My sister nodded, relaxed, and hugged me quietly.

It felt good to me that something like this could happen.

After a hectic day at work in the military, I always thought of my sister before going to sleep, and it felt good to be able to go on vacation again and see my sister.

I was tired from traveling for a long time.

But it felt good to hug my older sister and feel her warmth.

“… ah. Did you eat, sister?”

“No, I didn’t eat it because you said you were coming.”

“Then, shall we eat something…? ”

“Would you like to? What would you like to order?”

“I just want to eat chicken today.”

I chose the food that reminded me most of my time in the military.

I really missed the taste of those greasy fries. The taste is incomparable to anything you eat reheated at a place like PX or something you get at school lunches.

My older sister heard that and laughed.

As soon as I came out, I thought I was going to eat something expensive, but it seemed like it was because the chicken I chose was chicken.

“Why? Do you hate chicken?”

“No, I like chicken too. I didn’t eat much because I always had too much to eat alone. It went well.”

“Really?”

After hearing that, I put my sister down for a moment.

I left my sister sitting next to me, took out my smartphone, and opened the delivery app.

“What should I eat? seasoning? Fried food? Anything else?”

“… Hmm, I want to eat fried food today.”

At my sister’s words, I chose a menu item and had it delivered.

Then, I quietly put down my phone and stared blankly at the TV screen, which was not turned on.

It takes at least 30 minutes for delivery to arrive anyway.

With that thought in mind, I reached out my hand and extended it to my sister who was sitting next to me.

The posture of the arm was like shoulder to shoulder, but the hand kept moving as if it was craving something.

“… huh? Didn’t you just order chicken?”

While ordering chicken, I suddenly ran my hands over my sister’s body, and she was looking at me in confusion.

At least not at this time. It seemed like he decided.

“Wouldn’t it be okay to do it just once in the meantime? It would take more than 30 minutes anyway.”

I said that and massaged my sister’s breasts.

Then my sister groaned and sighed, as if she couldn’t find anything to say.

“… okay. Do I have to do it quickly?”

Every time I get leave from the military, I have a hard time, so please be pampered a little. I thought it was rewarding to be able to receive results after appealing to my sister several times with that feeling.

Then I took off my sister’s clothes.