episode_0079

Rustling, the sleeping bag moves.

At the same time, his arms hugged my body closer.

His heart pounding loudly sounded in my ears and his breathing came closer.

It was so frustrating because two people fit in one sleeping bag.

My body and his body overlapped. The two legs are tangled, and the chest is pressed against the other person’s body.

As the temperature got hotter, my heart beat faster and I felt dizzy.

“… Kylon, I can’t sleep because my heart is so loud.”

“You can’t turn off the heart.”

“Are you always running this rough?”

“… Veronica, your heart seems to be beating really fast too?”

“It’s because it’s hot. Don’t be weird. It’s because it’s too narrow… ”

It seems that our pounding, pounding hearts were preventing both of us from sleeping.

It seemed like his heartbeat was being transmitted through his chest, which was pressed against Kailon’s body.

So it becomes increasingly difficult to sleep. The moment we became aware of each other’s pulses, it felt like we were falling asleep and becoming more subtle.

“I need to sleep.”

“… Well, I need to sleep well because I don’t know when monsters will appear again.”

“Shall I go back? The kids won’t wake up now anyway.”

“No, sleep here today.”

“But I can’t seem to sleep.”

“If we get a little tired, wouldn’t we be able to sleep quickly?”

“… Are you tired?”

“Can’t we just do it a little bit?”

What are you saying that you want to take a step back?

After becoming conscious of those words, I felt a touch touching my lower abdomen.

The feel of it, which I couldn’t really feel because it was in close contact with a body made of hard muscles, terrified me.

I suddenly asked why he couldn’t do it, and I quickly realized that he was in heat because he was in close contact with my body.

Okay, I groaned and looked at him who had finally developed an erection.

Because we were so close, when I lifted my head, all I could see was his chin from far below, but even so, I could see that he was trying to avoid my gaze, as if he knew he was embarrassed.

“… I want to go out for a moment.”

“Uh, yes.”

Kailon hesitated at my words, then released his arms that were sealing my body, grabbed the straps of the sleeping bag, and opened it.

I felt a sense of freedom as the space suddenly opened up, and I shivered from the cool air coming behind me.

It was warm enough to use a sleeping bag alone, but when two people were sharing the same sleeping bag, my whole body was sweating little by little, and I felt like I was crying because my body was cold due to the cool wind.

“Phew.”

I let out a sigh, grabbed my collar, and shook it back and forth, and the cold wind began to seep into my body and relieve my frustrated feelings.

To calm my pounding heart, I got out of my sleeping bag and took a deep breath. Kailon also got out of his sleeping bag and sat down next to me.

“Veronica.”

“Huh?”

“Today, what I said was… It’s all sincere, so I hope you take it seriously.”

“… Thank you, but I’m not sure because I don’t think I’m as prosperous as you think. It’s nice that you like it, but I wish you could see a little more. It’s my first time receiving attention, and I don’t think I’ll be able to get back up if I disappoint someone. So, if you feel like you can’t handle it, I think it would be better for you and me if you just didn’t accept it.”

“… Will it change my mind? I’ve already seen you for a few days, and you’re not a different person. You are not a person who deserves to be hated that much. therefore… ”

All of Kylon’s words felt like they were stabbing my heart.

They say I can’t leave my room because I’m bad, so I locked myself in my room, so what’s so great about that?

Still, I was grateful to Kailon for talking about me like that, and it made me feel so miserable that it made me cry.

Do I really deserve that?

Is it okay for someone to love me?

No, I’m not sure. Because I’m not a proper person enough to repay that love.

If I had lived well enough to do that, I wouldn’t have locked myself in that room.

I felt like it would be too hard for me to listen any further, so I stopped talking to Kylon.

“Kylon.”

I thought it would be good for my mental health to just release the kylon buildup and sleep.

“Let’s just quickly solve it and sleep?”

“… Why.”

“Because… Kylon… ”

“Why do you keep blaming yourself… It’s not your fault at all… ”

“… … .”

I had no idea what Kylon was talking about.

Who knows what I know about my nature, and who knows if my nature is uglier than anyone else’s.

Aside from why I locked myself in my room, being locked in itself proves that I am a bad person.

He’s an antisocial person.

I’m just an idiot who can’t adapt to reality.

How could I deserve to be loved like that?

I’d rather look at Veronica and lust after her. I, I’m so scared of that love.

My love for myself couldn’t be this scary, so I had no choice but to crouch down as hard as I could to protect myself.

“I… ”

As I hugged my body and lowered my upper body, muttering, Kylon’s body wrapped around me from behind.

“It’s okay.”

That kind of voice tickled my ears.

When I heard that voice, I felt like everything was going to be okay and it made me feel at ease.

“I’ll just sleep here alone today.”

“… What about Kylon?”

Startled by Kailon’s sudden words, I opened my eyes wide and looked at him.

Then he smiled bitterly and patted my shoulder.

“Because I’m fine.”

“… Still, how can it be that the main player of this party can’t sleep at all? That’s not possible.”

“I hope you feel at least a little comfortable.”

“Thank you for that… I really appreciate it, but I think that only if the hero is most comfortable in this party, other people can also be comfortable, right? If that’s the case, I can just go back there.”

“… But.”

Kylon was frustrated.

I couldn’t be this frustrated because he never opened his mouth to know what he was thinking.

It was so frustrating and stuffy that I felt like my heart was going to explode. I immediately wanted to make a fist and punch my chest.

They won’t let me go back to the tent where my sleeping bag is.

I thought it was a day when something was bothering me or I was just feeling down and needed to hug someone and go to sleep, so I tried to understand.

But in the meantime, you want me to be comfortable, and you want me to sleep alone? And not in my sleeping bag, but in Kylon’s sleeping bag?

So where will Kailon sleep?

In the end, we keep going back to the beginning.

It felt like I had left the easy path and kept taking long turns and returning to the starting point.

So I just zoned out and then moved on to what he thought would make the most sense.

“Okay, let’s just sleep with one foot out.”

“… You don’t have to overdo it.”

“Isn’t that what you’re going to do anyway?”

“Yes, but… ”

“I heard you need to lose some stamina to be able to sleep? Anyway, when I get back into the sleeping bag with an erection, will it come off?”

“… Yes.”

Come to think of it, doesn’t that mean that even if Kylon can sleep, I can’t sleep?

The eyebrows suddenly narrowed. But still, I sighed, thinking that it would be nice if I could put Kylon to sleep that way.

“Is there still a talisman that makes you sensitive?”

“Uh, yes. Why?”

“Give me that.”

“here.”

After quietly looking at the amulet that Kylon had taken out of his inventory, I placed it on Kylon’s lower abdomen.

Then he carefully stretched out his hand in front of him.

“… Veronica?”

“Don’t say anything. Because I’m embarrassed.”

Aside from anything else, holding a man’s penis in one’s hand was actually a requirement. But when I looked at my body and remembered the image of her jerking off in front of me, I laughed and laughed. I can’t let her do that again, right?

I didn’t mean to ignore Kylon’s feelings for me. I just wonder if I deserve it.

I moved my hand because I thought it wouldn’t be that funny if I just took it off and he masturbated himself.

Perhaps because he wriggled again and again, or because he continued to rub against my body, his penis, which had swelled to its limit, wriggled and spewed out Cooper fluid.

I moved my hand using it as lubricant, hoping that the transparent yet sticky liquid would wet my genitals.

It may seem funny that I’m lying down in front of Kailon, who is sitting cross-legged, and moving my hands hard, but I’ve spent all my emotions because of me, and I can’t sleep comfortably next to Kailon, who has an erection because of me, so I can’t wait. I unwrapped it and moved my hands hastily.

There’s even a talisman that makes you sensitive, so it should go quickly.

I moved my hands busily, thinking that if I did this, I would be able to sleep quickly.

“Ugh, Veronica.”

“… Do you think you’ll go?”

“Ugh.”

As expected, the effect of the amulet was outstanding, so I moved my hand faster.

And at the end, he ejaculated, and Kylon’s body flinched.

In the hot breath, Kailon saw me frowning at the semen splattering on my face, and instead of trying to reach out for me, he clenched his fist.

It took a lot of time for that fist to be brought down to his thigh again.

“… Can you sleep now?”

“Yes.”

“Okay, let’s sleep.”

A feeling of regret passes through my mind.

Since I didn’t have a good answer to give back to Kylon, there was nothing I could say to him other than urging him to sleep.

What it would be like to be his wife, what it would be like to be his wife, all those things were just stories in this world and would all be illusions when he returned, so I didn’t understand why he was obsessed with these things.

But that feeling remained strong and made me suffer.