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[Episode 78] – When women get together, they always talk about love. (2)

love?

love…

love…?

Titania kept tilting her head when asked what love was. Many words came and went in my head to explain the ambiguous word called love, but it was difficult to get it out of my mouth.

I didn’t know ‘exactly’ what love was, but I didn’t know it at all. It’s just that it’s a little difficult to say, and Titania doesn’t know how to define the word love.

First of all, I was able to know about love through the book I just read, ‘The Witch Wants to Be the Marquis’ Wife.’ In this romance novel, love came in ‘two’ forms.

The love of a true marquis and a witch and the love of a crooked familiar.

Titania knew in her head that the love between the marquis and the witch was the right love, but she also knew that the sorrowful feelings that the familiar held as he clung to the witch were also ‘love’.

Because I knew that everything was love, I didn’t know how to answer the question of what love was. In the first place, is love a word that can be defined in just one word?

It was clear that even if I asked the adults the same question, I would not get a proper answer. Even in books, love is explained in various ways. Isn’t love different for each person who feels it?

As I was groaning and thinking, Viola, who was lying next to me, looked at the ceiling and sighed heavily. With a sigh that felt like the earth was falling, Titania turned her head and looked at Viola.

“Is it because of the confrontation?”

“huh…”

Viola frowned as if she was confused about the confrontation.

In fact, it was just an event to meet each other rather than a match, but since most people get engaged to the first person they meet, Viola couldn’t hide her distraught feelings.

Viola, lying on the bed, stamping her feet, puffed out her cheeks and grumbled.

“I don’t want to see a confrontation… Mom says I have to see it… It’s not something I can choose in the first place, right? “Even if I say I don’t like that person, he won’t even listen to me…”

In fact, Viola’s confrontation was later than that of her peers.

Since it was common for children to meet each other at the age of ten or so, the only people in children’s social circles who had not yet met were Viola and Titania. Titania said there was nothing she could do due to her position as a princess… but Viola was in a very unusual situation.

So Viola really didn’t like the confrontation. Through romance novels, I have already learned about ‘love’, something nobles cannot do, and I have even longed for it. Viola’s habit was that she wanted to have a love that was as sweet and heartbreaking as a novel, and that could set her on fire.

Viola turned her head to look at Titania and asked again.

“so? “What do you think love is?”

“Uh, um… well… to be honest, I’m not sure. Why not ask the kids who are already engaged? “There was a girl who said she liked her fiancé, right?”

“You know she’s in a special situation, right? Rather than dating, it’s like marrying your childhood friend. I heard you grew up with a child from the next family since you were born? Besides, I even saw him face off against that kid.”

Titania and Viola both thought of that girl at the same time.

A new friend I met in social circles the year before last, a slightly more mature girl. A girl who got married and got engaged, and now gets married as soon as she gets older and holds a coming-of-age ceremony. Moreover, the other person is a childhood friend that I have been close with since I was young. She was a girl who was envied by other young ladies.

“Ha… why don’t I have a boy childhood friend like him? If you were that childhood friend, you would have been quite excited about this meeting. “The only childhood friend I’ve had since I was young is you.”

“Me too? I also don’t have a single male Youngsik around me. We’ve never met each other outside of social circles. That’s why I have no one to call my friend except you.”

“Is that so?”

Titania and Viola made eye contact and looked at each other, smiling bashfully as if they were embarrassed. Then they started playing around, poking each other’s sides with their fingers. To hide the shame that was starting to heat up my face.

As they continued their prank by poking their sides, the room was filled with the girls’ laughter. After playing so hard, the two girls laughed so hard that it was difficult to even breathe anymore. They stretched out on the bed, exhausted from laughter and out of breath.

After taking a moment to catch her breath, Viola lifted up the book and answered with a grin.

“I think love means ‘wanting to have the other person’s body and mind.’ “Like the ‘familiar’ in the book who wants to have the witch and doesn’t know what to do.”

“What? “I said earlier that I didn’t like familiars.”

“The reason the familiar said he didn’t like it was because the witch kept interfering with her love affair with the Marquis. They say they don’t like witches, but don’t they hate it when they see them around and harassing them? “What I sympathized with the familiar was the ‘love’ the familiar had for the witch.”

“Yes?”

When Titania tilted her head as if she didn’t understand, Viola continued to explain step by step. Your definition of love.

“Think carefully, Titania. Imagine if you loved someone. But that person smiles at people other than you and tries to become close to them. “What do you think?”

“Even if you say that, I still don’t get it…? “Wouldn’t they just do that?”

“It doesn’t have to be someone you love. Is there anyone you’re really close with? Or someone as close as me? What about pets? Imagine your pet wagging its tail at someone other than you. But that person is someone you really hate. how is it? “Can you feel it?”

“close person…? Pets…?”

A moment in Titania’s mind as she closes her eyes and is deep in thought –

I really don’t know why, but Titania thought of ‘mother’. Because the only person closer to me than Viola was my mother.

I know it’s a really rude idea, but Titania started thinking by projecting her mother onto the ‘pet’ that Viola had mentioned. I imagine my mother smiling brightly at others and wagging her tail.

Thinking about that, Titania’s eyebrows twitched. It felt like something unpleasant was rumbling inside me and my body was heating up. I wanted to run to my mother right now and yell at her not to do that.

Titania answered with furrowed eyebrows.

“…? “For some reason, I really think I won’t like it.”

“right? right? Don’t you want that person’s gaze to always be by your side, and don’t you want that person’s heart to always be directed towards you? “Isn’t this the love the familiar feels for the witch in the book?”

Clearly, I couldn’t deny Viola’s words.

I wondered what on earth they were talking about when they said it was the love of a familiar, but the thought of my mother smiling and loving on someone other than me made me feel so upset that I felt like I was going to burst into tears at any moment.

As Titania pouted her lips out of an unknown unpleasant feeling welling up inside her, Viola, who looked at her, giggled and continued speaking.

“Well, the book says this is obsession or jealousy, but I don’t think love exists without obsession and jealousy. Aren’t you jealous and obsessed because you love each other? “The witch isn’t jealous, but it’s no different from being obsessed with the Marquis, right?”

“I see…”

Certainly, Titania did not have the same ideas as Viola.

Titania simply thought that the familiar in the book was a bad person who interfered with the love between the witch and the marquis, and that what the familiar had for the witch was only verbal love. I have never thought of love and obsession as one like Viola.

Listening to Viola’s words, I seemed to understand the familiar’s feelings a little. It was unforgivable for a familiar to become obsessed with a witch and do bad things, but I thought that he wasn’t just obsessed with the witch out of really bad thoughts.

‘If I read that book again now, wouldn’t I have a different impression?’

As Titania was staring blankly at the cover of the book with that thought in mind, Viola, who was lying next to her, poked Titania’s side with her elbow and smiled sinisterly. Titania frowned and looked at Viola with a truly sinister and evil smile.

“so? so? “Who were you thinking about earlier that made you look so scared?”

“What? I?”

“It’s the first time I’ve seen you make that expression. You’ve never looked so scared when someone in your social circle made a mistake with you. Who were you thinking of making such a grim expression? huh? huh? “Can’t you just tell me?”

Titania’s face turned red at the teasing tone. How can I say that it reminded me of my mother?

Titania came up right next to her and pushed Viola’s shoulder, who was grinning, and then screamed.

“Pets! “I imagined a pet!”

“Really~? Did you make such a scary expression just because of a pet? “Besides that, you don’t have pets.”

“profit! “Stop teasing me!”

Wow!

Titania, unable to bear her shame any longer, got up and attacked Viola. He tickled and poked her side and didn’t stop until Viola begged for help.

When Viola, who burst into tears and cried, collapsed on the bed with a smile, Titania let out a sigh of relief and took her hand away from Viola’s side. Looking down at Viola, who was lying helplessly and flaccid, Titania sat down in her place again. I started to worry.

He just said that the reason he thought of his mother this time was because he had no other partner, and the reason he didn’t think of Ainsel was because he was a fairy. After thinking that, he sighed again.

‘In the first place, there is no way my mother would smile at other people the way she treats me. ‘My mother always looks at me.’

Titania, lying down on the bed, opened the book she had read earlier and began to read it carefully. Thinking about what my mother would be doing right now.

And at exactly that moment, Vivian-

“I’m drinking to death today!”

“Your Majesty the Queen is so gorgeous!!!!”

-……I’m going to the princess. Can I go?

I was so drunk that I was out of my mind.