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by adminEpisode 77 – The Demonic Scenery of the Tree 4 –
I once had this thought when I was young.
The thought that my face might look different than it actually does.
People can’t actually see people’s faces.
All we see is indirect means, such as through mirrors or photos.
Few people would ever see their own face in person without going through something.
So, when I was young, I recognized my face like this.
There were times when I thought that it might actually look different.
The reason I say this is simple.
Because there is no guarantee that it is my soul.
Like the face, no living thing can see its own soul.
So there is no way to know what my own soul looks like.
This means that you should not believe it literally.
‘Of course, I didn’t realize that because I had those thoughts when I was young.’
There is insufficient basis to doubt based on that fact alone.
But thanks to my special characteristics, I can know that that being is not ‘me’.
An element that ‘I’ must have.
Because it wasn’t there.
“I don’t know about you, but isn’t that too obvious? I read it roughly and it doesn’t look normal.”
Although I am confident that I am a normal person.
Other people define me as crazy.
But I am a normal person.
Just as it is normal for a normal person to avoid a life-threatening experience.
Because if a normal person goes through the same thing as me, they will end up like me.
A person who lived in reality for 27 years is reincarnated in a fantasy world.
If you live there for 17 years under a different identity.
How many people will show a different side of themselves?
“I was denied my honor, my identity was denied, and my self was denied. Of course it’s okay now. But it wasn’t like that before.”
The social atmosphere here is different from reality.
If there is a reason, murder is justified without any reason.
The gap in status is natural.
Everything I maintained in Korean society for 27 years was meaningless in this country.
People sometimes say, “I’m the one who will kill you on the way.”
That’s something I don’t know.
I thought so too.
“When I first killed someone… Even though I found out that people were going to the underworld, it was difficult and I was depressed for a month.
I feel a terrible feeling. I hated it. Guilt enveloped me and oppressed me. But you know what?”
There was a moment of silence.
“No matter how vivid the reality was, the further you go into the past, the more it slowly sinks into the memory. It just becomes an experience and a memory.”
I don’t know what that being is trying to say.
I don’t know why I came here.
One thing is certain. That’s not me.
I am me.
It’s me from the Republic of Korea, it’s me from the Helium Empire.
I am me.
That’s how I defined it.
“So, I am not a special person, but just an ordinary person.
He is not a great soldier who went to war and made a contribution, but is closer to a poor soldier who is caught up in the war and trembles with fear.”
Although the reincarnation I experienced was special.
As a human being, I am not that special.
Of course, even in Korea, it did not belong to the ordinary axis.
But that’s in terms of ability.
In terms of my personality, I was at least normal.
Only my older brother and sister-in-law died young in an accident.
My parents were not in good health, so I took care of my nephew.
Meanwhile, I got cancer.
After making a promise with his nephew, he was even reincarnated.
That kind of experience is just special.
“Sexual assault is not common. It is not unusual for victims of sexual assault to complain of pain. Special experiences give rise to special tendencies.
It changes not because the object is unique, but because it has had a special experience. It’s not something special from birth.”
So, if that being records everything, including my experiences.
If it is my soul that represents the background, experience, and talent that gave rise to my thoughts.
There must be a record of me living a normal life.
“You are not me, so you cannot exist. If you look at my life here, I am a special person from the moment I was born.”
Except for the 27 years of my life I lived in Korea.
Just look at his life as Abraxas Mentutihotep of the Helium Empire.
I really am a special being.
The second son of a marquis.
From a young age, I was smart and alert.
Because he really acted like a genius, such as enlightening himself even though he didn’t learn anything.
And slowly he starts doing crazy things.
Doing strange things without any notice.
His actions, which were completely out of the ordinary, were piling up, including committing unscrupulous acts.
Looking at all of this, I am a very unique and special person.
But when I think about the fact that I’ve been living in another dimension for 27 years, it’s not that unusual or special.
Just like a soldier returning from war suffers from PTSD.
Because it is a natural phenomenon for me too.
I have lung cancer.
For a while, I lived in hope, but later on, I gave up half-heartedly due to the pain and dwindling possibilities.
After giving up on life like that, I knew.
Giving up is something you regret the most until you give up.
After giving up, there are no regrets left.
That’s why I have no regrets about life.
Because I had already made up my mind a long time ago.
This wasn’t the only problem.
Everything I lived for 27 years was denied.
The name my parents gave me.
The premise that humans are equal.
The human right that human life is precious.
The powerlessness of knowing you might die at any time.
A human being who lived for a long time in a place where none of these things existed.
What if I were to be reborn on this earth and go through those things without taking any special action?
What thoughts will you have?
That’s why I lost meaning to everything.
The values I pursue now and the values the people here pursue.
Whether past or future, it would have no meaning in any other dimension.
In the Middle Ages, it was natural to risk one’s life for honor.
Now, it is not strange to say that crying, blowing, and praying for one’s own survival may be ugly.
So, I think the evaluation will change from moment to moment.
We decided to protect the value we had given to just one person.
‘I leave a mark on this world.’
I live for that.
“… ”
The soul didn’t say anything else.
The more I looked at the soul, the more severe the feeling of disconnection became.
Every record was special.
The spirit carried me, not the wounded me, but the cheerful and nonchalant me who got up even when I failed.
But that’s not me.
A being who is simply so accustomed to pain that he can laugh even through it.
That’s me.
“… ”
I don’t know why I told you everything.
I just wanted to say it.
I wanted to be recognized.
Maybe it was because no one was watching.
Because this fact cannot be told to anyone.
‘ah… Now that I think about it… Now there’s one.’
Alice Tantalota. The second princess of the Helium Empire.
She knows that I am reincarnated.
‘It’s so dull… Is there really a need to talk about it? ?’
I only told you all my secrets because I thought I was going to die.
That’s why he became the person who knew all my secrets.
‘If next time we meet… If you’re curious again… ‘
I will tell you what happened.
That’s what I decided.
“Then tell me.”
Has the soul stopped imitating me?
I started using Haerache.
“Who are you?”
Before that, I had something to ask.
What exactly is this being?
Is it something that can exist even in a normal state?
Or did something go wrong and something like this came about?
“This is a world of imagination. It’s not your image. The method taught by Daecheonsal is not to make you fall asleep, but to temporarily call you here.
I just didn’t realize that the world of images is different for everyone.”
“So you’re only telling it to me?”
“It’s not really a secret. No one wanted it.”
The spirit continued talking as if it had something to say.
“This is a lake. And I am the spirit who owns the lake. But don’t think this place is special.
In the world of images, the body cannot come, so the soul can only be reflected.”
“I see. I don’t see myself, so I just don’t recognize it. What I am now must be my soul.”
“Yes.”
“Then why did you come out? As the saying goes, there are still things that cannot be explained.”
“You may not know it, but there is a boundary in your soul. According to what you said, it would be because you live two lives and think about them separately.
However, such boundaries can never be created in general. That’s why I just imitated you.”
“Why?”
“The fact that a boundary has been created means that you may have come here in the flesh. I was just trying to pretend to be you and observe the progress.
The reason for hiding it was to show the scene as natural as possible.”
surely.
If material enters the world of images, problems may arise.
Of course, since little information about the world of imagery is known in WFS, there is nothing much to say.
“There is no way to see yourself. So mortals rely on others, but they don’t help much in finding themselves.”
“That’s true, but why are you suddenly saying that?”
“Because when I looked at your soul, I remembered some advice to give. That it has surpassed a dimension. That’s what the gods allowed.”
What bullshit.
Do you have any advice for me?
Either just teach me how to see my soul, or let me see my soul directly.
That’s why I said it.
“I didn’t even tell you what my purpose was.”
“I am a spirit. And this is a mental image. Did you think you wouldn’t recognize the stigmata that was given to you?”
“Uh… Yes, but… What should I call this? I’m not going to do anything particularly strange, right?”
“It doesn’t matter. It’s probably about your treatment.”
Treatment? What is that again?
“You probably know that you came here because of the Great Cheonsal. And you probably said you were offering him a body.”
“That’s right.”
“Have you thought of a method?”
“The creation of the Yeon Nation, the fruit of the World Tree, and a 1,500 year old dwarf would be enough, right?”
I heard that WFS also made about 3 of them.
“That is correct. But that doesn’t mean it will work.”
“So what does it mean?”
“It means it can’t be made in time.”
is it?
At WFS, it was produced as something that was completed not long after.
“To create a proper body, one more thing is needed other than the fruit of the World Tree.”
“Does it reduce time?”
“Correct answer.”
It may take a long time.
It might take a month or two.
But I decided to listen because I thought there would be no harm in listening.
“First of all, you need to know how to see the soul. In your case, you were lucky enough to know the distinction but not the details. So you have to learn that first.”
What is he saying now.
Because they are spirits, they seem to have a different way of thinking than humans.
Someone once said that the thing that irritates people the most is when they stop talking.
You know how to make people mad.
However, there was still one question that came to my mind.
There is no one who gives one-sided favor. But why is it like this?
“But who are you to be so kind to me?”
“I am a spirit. Another servant of God. It is natural to help you, the son of God.”
Did you have such a setting?
Why didn’t I know?
The spirit continued to say that or not.
“In this world, it is better to take a long time to awaken, but I will teach you directly.”
A spirit that was suspiciously friendly to me suddenly approached me without any consent.
“Accept it.”
Unknown knowledge began to enter my mind.
No, since he is a spirit, he has no manners whatsoever.
No, the spirits I’ve seen and met haven’t been like this.
I accepted the knowledge, thinking that spirits also have different characteristics.
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“Hmm. Looks like you’re doing well. Giggling.”
Ygrasil muttered while looking at Abraxas, who had a relaxed expression.
During his lifetime, he was called Daecheonsal.
A man who was called the Sword Demon in death.
He really liked the guest who came after a long time.
“The guys who have been coming have been saying strange things like what is justice and whatnot. Giggling. Do you know that your ancestors were beasts?”
As he lived in a world where there was a guilt-by-association system.
His thoughts were based on guilt by association.
From his perspective, he is a descendant of prehistoric humans who committed numerous evil deeds (by modern standards).
I was actually annoyed by those who thought they were innocent.
“But this guy doesn’t have anything like that. He’s just a guy who acts the way he likes… Giggling.”
That’s why I liked Abraxas, who didn’t care about doing evil or doing good.
This is because Abraxas commits evil deeds because he values leaving a trace.
“Will you be able to overcome the Sword Saint?”
Igrasil was the strongest, so much so that it was called the Great Heavenly Killer.
And the legendary knight who defeated him. Sword Saint.
Ygrasil was looking forward to seeing Abraxas continue to show promise.
“If my student defeats you… Wouldn’t that be no different from me winning? Giggling.”
It was Igrasil who had expectations for him.
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