episode_0076

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“Ah…Fuck…”

I left Park Seo-yoon’s house and got into the car, but I couldn’t bring myself to start it.

[14 missed calls]

[15 unread messages]

[When are you coming?]

[I see you’re driving. Call me when you get there.]

[Are you coming?]

[It’s taking a while…]

[Why aren’t you answering the phone?]

[You said you were coming quickly…]

[What should I eat for dinner? I’ll order in advance.]

[It’s already 9 o’clock. I’m hungry.]

[All the restaurants are closed so there’s nothing to order now… Should I make it for you?]

[I went out to buy groceries, but the market was closed… Sorry. What should I eat when you come? Ramen?]

[I’m sleepy…]

[I miss you]

[I fell asleep for a moment. It’s already 2 o’clock…]

[It’s a bit cold tonight. Where are you going to sleep? A hotel? Or… are they coming?]

[pup]

“Haaah…”

He sighed as if the ground was falling apart, and buried his head in the steering wheel.

I can clearly see the sight of the guy lying there helpless, like a puppy left alone.

If you go in, you’ll probably get in trouble.

“…”

Should I not go in?

“…What kind of nonsense are you talking about.”

I straightened my back and started the engine.

Now is not the time to do this, you need to get in as soon as possible.

Not only did you get scolded, but you must have waited a long time.

I stepped on the accelerator as hard as I could.

It wasn’t rush hour, and when I took this car out on the road, all the other cars got out of the way, so I was able to get there quickly.

Ting ting ting ting ting. Tiring-

I entered the password and opened the door.

“I’m out.”

It’s dark in the house.

Jo Min-ji is not visible on the mat.

Is it in the bathroom?

Just as I was about to take off my shoes and go in.

Fresh… Fresh…

‘huh?’

A small breathing sound was heard from below.

“…sigh…”

When I looked down, I saw Jo Min-ji sleeping curled up with her knees hugged.

Right in front of the front door.

“…hey.”

“Huh…?”

I woke him up by tapping his shoulder.

“Why are you doing this in a place like this…”

“Oh, oh… I’m here…”

Jo Min-ji, her eyes wide open, wriggles and comes into my arms.

My eyes are swollen… Did I eat some ramen before I went to bed? I hope so. If it’s because I cried…

“Warm…”

He hugged my small body.

My body feels cold when I wake up.

“You should have covered yourself with a blanket.”

“I thought you’d come soon… but I fell asleep without realizing it… sniff sniff.”

The guy sniffs my chest.

I flinched, afraid that I might smell Park Seo-yoon.

Jo Min-ji’s fidgeting stopped.

The guy is grabbing my clothes tightly.

What the…? Did I get caught?

“…Did you eat soybean paste stew? It must be delicious…”

Fortunately, after a wild night and a shower, I don’t seem to smell like Park Seo-yoon.

“…What didn’t you eat yesterday?”

“I was going to eat it when you came…”

My heart… hurts a little.

A child who sleeps in front of the front door and says he will sleep when I come in, and a child who is so hungry that he says he will eat with me when I come in.

You were afraid that you would smell like a woman.

“…Do you want to eat soybean paste soup? Shall we go out together now? Let’s go eat soybean paste soup.”

“Okay… I’m sleepy. But more than that… Can you hold me while I sleep? Let’s sleep together…”

“Okay, let’s sleep together. Close your eyes.”

He lifted Jo Min-ji into his arms and headed to the mat.

I carefully placed the small animal-like body inside the blanket and went inside too.

He hugged Jo Min-ji while facing her.

I pulled the blanket up over the guy’s head.

“Ugh…”

Jo Min-ji squirms and squirms as if she feels good.

But soon, the guy’s brow furrowed.

Somewhere… there’s a sad looking expression.

“Sniff sniff…”

Jo Min-ji’s small hands, which had been feeling my chest, grabbed my clothes tightly.

‘…Do you hate the smell of soybean paste stew that much?’

The strength to hold the clothes is getting stronger.

In the past, the blood flow to my small hands was so poor that they turned white.

The guy’s hands are shaking.

“…Take off your clothes.”

“Huh?”

“Quickly… Take this off.”

It feels a little… strange.

I squirmed under the blanket, quickly took off my clothes and threw them outside.

“…Should I take it off for you too?”

“…”

I asked the guy if he liked being rubbed naked, but I got no answer.

He has his head down, and I can’t see his expression.

He carefully lowered his hands and took off Jo Min-ji’s clothes.

As their skins rubbed against each other, the guy wriggled and came into my arms.

A fetal position, with my body slightly curled up and my hands clasped neatly in front of my chest.

The round texture makes my penis hard.

“Good…”

“…”

“…”

I didn’t really mean to ask for an answer.

Strangely, the silence is uncomfortable.

Suddenly, I became concerned about the swollen eyes I had seen earlier.

Should I ask…?

“……Did you cry before I came?”

“…”

This time too.

There is no answer.

The guy moves his crouching body and presses himself against me.

He hugs me with his arms and presses his stomach against mine.

“…Your clothes. Smell weird.”

“…!”

Hey, if it smells weird…

‘…Yeah, it’s strange that I don’t get it.’

My clothes were left in Park Seo-yoon’s room for nearly 24 hours.

In a room that was so suffocated by the smell of semen and sweat.

It’s different from the smell of sheep.

They say that body odor is washed away with a shower.

I didn’t wash the clothes or anything…

“…”

It was foolish to be relieved that the conversation had moved on to soybean paste stew.

The guy called me.

“Hey…”

“…Yeah.”

“I…”

Jo Min-ji’s voice became moist.

The boy hesitated for a moment, then opened his mouth with difficulty again.

“I… can’t…?”

“…”

“Why… do you keep going to other women…”

The strength to embrace my body grows stronger.

It’s getting… hard to breathe.

“You’ve always been by my side… Why…”

It’s not like it’s squeezing or anything. How tight would it be if I tried to tighten it with these thin arms?

However, from this arm, from the skin that touches it, I feel a weight.

“I… can’t do without you…”

The weight of Jo Min-ji’s longing for me.

“Stay with me…”

“…”

“Stay with me for the rest of your life, just like before… Please…”

A very meaningful language.

Even aside from the unusualness caused by the editing app, the atmosphere between us has already surpassed that between friends.

‘Now…’

Confirmation is sufficient. No, I have been sure of it for a long time.

I just… needed some time to gather my thoughts.

My first love, a woman who I thought didn’t see me as a man.

The woman I’ve been looking at for over 10 years.

To love me is.

‘…’

Much more unrealistic and unbelievable than something like a crystal app with miraculous powers.

It was truly a miracle.

[Do you want to start editing mode?]

[Target: Jo Min-ji]

‘yes.’

[Modify the inner self of the target ‘Jo Min-ji’.]

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A pitch-black space.

Jo Min-ji’s inner self.

I didn’t come here to try to fix the guy’s inner self.

“Keyword search. Kim Jun-young.”

My body flowed automatically and I arrived at my destination.

[Kim Jun-young]

It was a place I thought was on the palm of my hand.

But [Kim Jun-young] the scope of the sphere’s derivatives was much wider than I had thought.

He reached out and placed his palm in the air.

‘Idea generation.’

When creating a sphere in edit mode, what happens if you try to create an idea that already exists inside the object?

I’ve already tried it.

[I want to get pregnant with Kim Jun-young’s child.]

Didn’t show up.

‘…’

If you try to create a duplicate sphere, the sphere will not appear.

Just like now.

I raised my head and looked at the huge sphere before my eyes.

[Kim Jun-young]

A sphere larger than any sphere inside Jo Min-ji.

I’ve looked into the minds of many people before, but I’ve never seen such a huge sphere.

To Min Chae-seul, who fell in love with me through editing.

To Seong Yu-a who lives her life for work.

Also to Park Seo-yoon, who was suffering from mental illness.

There has never been a sphere this huge.

Countless lines emerge from this giant [Kim Jun-young] sphere and are connected to countless other spheres.

The realm of ideas derived from this sphere is so vast that it cannot be fully detected.

Despite this, I was confident that I knew everything about this area.

“…”

I opened a search box.

“Keyword search.”

For a moment… I hesitated.

It’s not easy to open your mouth.

[Please enter a keyword.]

As the waiting time grew longer, the system began to urge me.

“…love.”

The search function is running, and my body flows somewhere.

[Kim Jun-young] From the front where the three letters were clearly visible, little by little, to the side of the sphere.

The letter ‘Kim’ is starting to disappear little by little.

Little by little, the area behind you that had been hidden comes into view.

‘The location of the spheres signifies the similarity between ideas.’

The area in front of the sphere where I stayed was full of content related to friendship, centered around the keyword ‘friend’.

But as I turned sideways and headed towards the back of the sphere, the mood of the sentences changed little by little.

[It feels good to be caressed by Kim Jun-young’s hand.]

[Kim Jun-young is very manly and dignified.]

[Kim Jun-young’s embrace is warm.]

[Kim Jun-young’s voice is sweet.]

[My heart races when I’m with Kim Jun-young.]

[Kim Jun-young] The letter ‘Kim’ in the sphere is now completely invisible.

Gradually, the letter ‘Jun’ also begins to disappear.

And after a while, we arrived at our destination.

The area behind the giant [Kim Jun-young] sphere that was hidden and unseen.

There.

“…”

[I love Kim Jun-young.]

[Kim Jun-young] There was a sphere as huge as a sphere.