episode_0076

[Your application has passed the document screening.]

I think I understand why people go out of their way to join study groups and waste their money, time, and nerves.

It worked well.

It was really great, especially when a capable group leader like Jeong Eum-ju took the lead.

“Honestly, I didn’t just go to college for 4 years. But I didn’t think I worked hard enough to get into a big company without any problems.”

nevertheless.

I am a top corporation that every office worker wants to visit at least once.

I passed the four-year exam.

Share information with people in your study group.

Share your tips.

Furthermore, we shared advice and wrote autobiographical essays instead of autobiographies.

I also wrote down some good specs.

‘There’s still an aptitude test left, but considering what I’ve done in the study group, I don’t think that’ll be particularly difficult… … .’

okay.

If things were to continue this way, it would be safe to say that if you just did well in the interview, you would be accepted.

The starting salary starts at 7,000.

The welfare is also good.

It was the best conglomerate that provided generous support for marriage and childbirth.

[Well, I guess it must be that hard work.]

That’s a given.

I’m not a conscientious person who would think that he would accept that much money without any qualms.

However, if you enter a large company, you will probably have to reduce the scope of cross-dressing.

[I don’t think there will be any particular problem with going to work dressed as a woman. Furthermore, wouldn’t that alone attract a lot of attention within the company?]

That may be so, but

It might be a little different.

Because in the end, work will be the main thing.

Cross-dressing will always be a matter of hobby.

[Hmm. It’s not easy. It’s not easy.]

okay.

The difficult one was always me.

A decision had to be made.

[But Master, if many people see you… …you’ll hear groundless criticism. You really hate that, don’t you?]

yes.

About that, I guess it’s probably the same feeling as actress Jo Mi-hwa?

When I was younger, I probably wouldn’t have cared if I was criticized for cross-dressing.

But as I grew up.

Furthermore, after I gained some confidence in my skills by repeatedly cross-dressing, I felt like I was becoming more of a coward.

“Still. Still, I feel like I can’t give up on something.”

I was still scared of being blamed.

However, I was not confident that I could live within the company with my work as my main occupation and cross-dressing as my hobby, or even be satisfied with it like a frog in a well.

In some ways, signing a preliminary contract with Pia Management may have contributed to my worries.

“No. Well. Just because you passed the document screening doesn’t mean you’ll definitely get in. But I guess it’s time to make a decision.”

This wasn’t a decision that someone else could make for me.

Because it’s my life.

The path forward was one I had to choose.

“It feels like you’re actually choosing whether to live a little less ordinary life or to live like a complete lunatic.”

Don’t they say that liking something and being good at it are two different things?

That’s why I tell you to do what you’re good at and do what you like.

Many adults used to say that.

In fact, most people lived like that.

But I also like cross-dressing.

Even the ones who were good at it were cross-dressers.

[Nevertheless, I passed the exam for a large company.]

I absolutely do not intend to offend anyone.

If that’s the case, then wouldn’t it be right for me to just live my life by putting women’s clothing first, even if it’s based on the logic I mentioned above?

but…….

“Shall we go have some samgyeopsal and a glass of soju?”

“Okay. Let’s go.”

… … That was definitely not ‘normal’.

I sat blankly on the swing set at the playground in my apartment complex and watched people pass by.

They say that if you look around the world, you’ll find plenty of unique people.

At least among the people I see now, there was no one living a life that was contrary to their identity.

Fathers play the role of a dependable father.

Mom’s role as a warm mother.

The same goes for those kids.

“Take this, you little shit!”

“Eww! This is fatal.”

Even children were living lives that suited their own identities.

That was normal.

But is it really right for me, a man, to pretend to be a ‘woman’?

“Actually… …I might have already made a decision.”

[Well, what is that… … .]

nevertheless.

I still haven’t gained ‘confidence’.

It’s something you have to decide for yourself.

He also needed some help from those around him to make his own decisions.

The time has come to see the end of leisure.

Now it was time to decide.

[Park Mu-shin]

I messaged the guy right away.

[Kim Hyun-woo: Let’s get some life advice]

[Park Mu-shin: Today’s bar, GG]

I headed straight to the bar where I had promised to meet the guy.

*

[Today’s Bar]

“… … .”

Park Mu-shin, who had arrived first and was pouring a glass of beer, shut his mouth and wiped his face.

“Hyunwoo over there? No. Hyuna?”

“Yeah… … .”

That would be true.

Because the outfit I came in was none other than the skirt suit I had prepared to wear when I went for a job interview.

To conclude, I came here dressed as a woman.

“… … There was no particular reason to cross-dress, was there? Han Chae-yeon wasn’t watching. It wasn’t like I was going to treat anyone either… … Anyway. There was no reason.”

“Just. I want to get some proper advice.”

“in…?”

I want to get some proper advice.

Park Mu-shin tilted his head, wondering why on earth there would be a reason to cross-dress.

When I told him about the worries I was having right now, he nodded slightly.

“Ha… … I guess that’s something I’ve thought about before. Well, that’s not easy. Oh. By the way, you passed the document screening for the 4th grade? Congratulations. They say that there are college students who want to pass the exam who travel around the world. You passed it.”

“I wrote a novel based on the tips you shared, and it worked.”

“Hey. Who doesn’t write a novel in their resume? If you can get a job just by writing a novel, everyone, be it a dog or a cow, will go to a big company.”

That’s right.

Jjaeng-.

I continued talking to the guy, clinking my beer glasses with him.

“Hey. What the hell.”

“Huh… …What is it. Miss! When you ask me that question with that face and that voice, my heart starts pounding without me knowing it.”

“If you want to continue to be my friend, don’t fall in love with me.”

“Ao!”

“What would you have done if you were me?”

“What are you doing? I’m already showing it with my actions.”

ah…….

I remembered later that Park Mu-shin had given up on studying and was making a living by broadcasting games that he liked.

“Weren’t you scared?”

By the way, Park Mu-shin’s grades weren’t bad either.

I was managing my grades well until my second year at a prestigious university.

Then, as if a lightning bolt had suddenly struck my head, I started going all-in on games in earnest starting in my third year of high school.

“What? You’re suddenly going to throw away all the studies you’ve done your whole life and become a game broadcaster? Fuck. Of course I was scared, kid. Hey! If you fail there, it’s the worst of the worst. It’s not like I took a leave of absence to try. I wasted all the credits I’d worked hard for for two years just to try. What can I do?”

Park Mu-shin told me exactly what I felt.

“If I failed there, I could have been left behind by more than a year, let alone a year, by others. If I wasn’t scared, that would be stranger. But you know. What can I do if I really like it?”

“… … .”

“I just thought I was wasting a few years of my life and tried to challenge myself. But when you do something you like, you can work harder and more desperately than others without realizing it. And then luck followed and I was able to live just enough to make a living.”

“Can I… … live off of this?”

“That! Cough. Cough!”

Park Mu-shin, who was about to shout something, coughed several times after being stopped by a sound.

He said with a blush on his face.

“Hey! I’m not looking down on those people at all, but transgender people can all eat and live. But to be honest, you’re much more feminine and pretty than those people, and you have a great physique, so what could you not eat and live for? ”

“… … .”

I pretended not to notice, but I felt a little better.

After all, it’s nice to hear compliments from others.

“No. Rather, ask yourself one more time. If you were to get a job at that big company, would you really be able to live a satisfied life? Would you really not have any regrets?”

“… … .”

“Considering your cross-dressing skills, it may actually be useful in the company. But will it be as useful in other fields?”

“… … .”

“If you crossdress and go to work, there’s just an incredibly pretty transvestite going to work. Are you really satisfied with that?”

As expected… … I think meeting this guy was an excellent choice.

“No. I don’t think I’ll be satisfied.”

Shudder-.

“So, don’t smile like that… … Really.”

I let out a small laugh as I looked at the embarrassed Park Mu-shin.

That’s what Park Mu-shin just said to me seriously.

Of course, it was a question I asked myself over and over again. But I couldn’t come up with an answer.

They say that decisions are yours to make.

Still, it felt much more comfortable to have someone there to support me.

“I think you’re right. Even if it means wasting a little bit of my time while I’m still young… …I think it’s right to try something I like first.”

“… … No. I like what I like, but you’re good at cross-dressing, you punk. I told you before. You’re no different from someone drawing a female character and calling it a guy. ”

“Really? If that’s the case, then our Musin would be happy. Wouldn’t you be so happy drinking with me like this today? As for girls, you only see them in games about minors.”

Shudder-.

He is the guy who can’t deny what I say and blushes even more.

“Oh my. No way… … .”

“That. That’s right! This kid! I don’t really love you. But whatever, it feels so good to drink with such a pretty girl!”

“Ugh. That’s a bit.”

“Hey! Don’t show that kind of reaction with that face. You’ll be shocked… … .”

I guess he was sincere.

I actually wasn’t that offended when I saw that.

Unless it’s a man’s sincere love.

Because I was confident that I could receive any man’s favor.

“Am I that pretty?”

“… … Oh. Pretty. Ah. Shit. Boss! Give me some more beer!”

I smiled pleasantly as I watched Park Mu-shin trying to change the subject.

Thank you.

As expected, friends are a good thing.

and.

Now that you’ve made your decision… …there’s no need to hesitate.

‘But Yoon-ha will come first.’

After Choi Yoon-ha’s revenge is over.

I also had a thought that I wanted to try something a little bit…