episode_0074

It was already well past 8pm when Seojun, who had been busy with back-to-back meetings and organizing data all day, finally found time to have dinner.

Si-eun, the secretary, had already been sent home from work a long time ago, and the employees who had participated in long meetings to work on the project were also sent home.

“Hmm.”

I haven’t worked this hard at work in a while, but I didn’t feel like it was particularly difficult as this was the default until I got to the position of general manager.

In fact, the more I worked, the more I got into it and could forget all my complicated emotions for a while, which made me feel at ease.

“I should reply.”

However, when I got out of work and had dinner, complex emotions came rushing in like a tide again.

Of course, the strongest feelings were towards Arin.

What should I reply to, and is it right to wait so long and reply now?

Various thoughts tormented Seojun.

‘..You shouldn’t get involved if possible.’

Now that I was working with Kang San-ho, I had to concentrate even more, and it became a situation where I had to rule out anything that had even the slightest risk factor.

The feelings that had become slightly complacent after experiencing the first raid and spending time with Arin began to revive keenly upon returning to the company.

“Hehe.. no matter what I send, it all seems cheap.”

I tried to write a reply with as much heart as I could, but the reason it seemed cheesy no matter how I wrote it was because I had to push her feelings away.

[Arin, I’m really sorry. The reply was very late. I was really busy at work. And I’m really sorry, but I think it will be difficult to keep in touch like this for a while… no, for a long time. I’m sorry. ]

It wasn’t my fault that I felt as if I was rejecting her confession.

“Ha.. Life is hard to live.”

But didn’t we decide not to get involved from the beginning anyway?

In the first place, what Seojun wanted to do for Arin and them was not to form a deep relationship with him.

Secretly supporting you from behind so that you can blossom.

The purpose should not be altered.

‘Good. If this happens, Arin will be able to focus more on hunter work.’

After meeting Seojun, after going on a date.

I knew better than anyone else that Arin’s emotions were heightened.

There was no way I didn’t know.

The feelings of liking were quite blatant, and Seojun was a person who was quick to notice such things.

‘under..’

Why is it so difficult to press the send button for a text message?

Anyway, the message was sent to Arin, and Seojun turned off his cell phone without looking at the answer any longer.

Since it was a cell phone I used privately, there was no way I would miss out on important communications.

‘For the time being, cell phones are prohibited.’

I promised myself that I would only carry my phone for work.

‘..Did you check, Arin..? ‘Aren’t you hurt?’

Soon, he could see himself fiddling with the power on his cell phone, thinking about Arin again.

‘As soon as I get home, I put my phone in the safe.’

As time passes, Arin and himself will naturally be able to forget these feelings.

Seojun started thinking such ridiculous thoughts.

‘Ah… isn’t it me?’

Even if he didn’t contact Arin, Seojun would continue to hear reports about them.

Moreover, since he couldn’t let go of Deokjil, it was clear that he would naturally continue to see Arin and the other three people.

If he did that, it was clear that the feeling of being left without results would continue to torment Seojun.

‘are you okay. I’m fine. But the reason I hurt Arin is…’

It was okay for me to get hurt.

But I didn’t want Arin to get hurt.

‘..But what can I do?’

In order to keep the distance, it was inevitable that both of them would end up getting hurt.

‘Would you rather keep it in your arms and protect it?’

Since they were already in a relationship, that might not have been a bad idea, but Seojun didn’t feel like it at all.

‘Only Arin? Or all four? ‘Say something that makes sense, Kang Seo-jun.’

It was impossible to protect Arin alone.

But does that mean he protects all four people in his arms?

That was a story that made moral sense.

“Let’s eat something..”

Later, sometime after some time has passed.

After the four people reached the top, Seojun also finished everything.

I didn’t know when that would happen, but if that day comes, I definitely want to apologize to Arin for what happened today.

It was Seojun who was thinking like that.

***

[Arin, I’m really sorry. The reply was very late. I was really busy at work. And I’m really sorry, but I think it will be difficult to keep in touch like this for a while… no, for a long time. I’m sorry. ]

“Wow, I was criticized..”

I compete with Chae-yoon until night falls.

After spending some quality time getting food from Chae-yoon, who eventually left, I checked my phone and there was a text message from Seo-jun.

However, when I opened the text message with a happy heart, it was full of letters filled with the meaning of rejection.

“…Why..? At that time, we definitely felt good, it was good…”

Arin felt like she was losing her mind.

Of course, it wasn’t a confession, and Seojun didn’t directly send a message saying that he had no intention of dating anyone, but no matter how much I thought about it, the message that he wouldn’t be able to contact me for a while could only be seen as containing the meaning of rejection.

“No, but really, why?”

Chae-yoon, who was listening next to her, would normally have been busy teasing her, but today she knew how hard it was for Arin, so she started talking without teasing her.

“The expression on Seojun’s face when he brought you in at that time, were his eyes completely in love?”

“…After I moved it like that, I thought it wasn’t right..”

Arin claimed that he had been drinking a lot and had been doing a lot of wrongdoing, so when he thought about the truth over and over again, he realized that it couldn’t be done.

“I don’t think so.. Isn’t there something going on?”

Chae-yoon spoke as if he couldn’t understand.

“Ah, no… In the first place, a person’s heart burns over trivial things, then cools down, well.”

However, in response to the bitter rejection text, Arin only responded as if she was brainwashing herself into tears and continued to tell her that it was okay.

“Hmm.. Arin, why don’t you go and ask that street lady?”

Su-ah, who was listening to the conversation between the two, cautiously joined the conversation.

“What do you ask Gilma..? You can’t ask Gilma why Seojun kicked me..?”

The way he smiled and spoke resignedly seemed extremely bleak.

“..Well, if there is a situation, I would know the situation..”

“What’s the use if you don’t listen to yourself? Anyway, Seojun doesn’t want to tell me the reason why he can’t contact me.”

Is this a rejection or something really going on?

Seojun chose not to say anything about the situation.

In such a situation, it could not help but be rude for Arin to delve into the situation through an acquaintance.

“It’s okay, just organize your mind and forget about it. It’s just a temporary feeling anyway. Well, I’ve never liked anyone, so I’m not sure, but actually, I don’t feel that sad.”

But Arin didn’t know.

Emotions are not sorted out that quickly, and emotions that are not properly sorted out will eventually come back as an aftereffect.

“Arin, have you sent a reply? What is the situation?”

“What are you doing by sending a reply? It’s clearly being pushed out.”

When I first received the text message, Arin looked very sad and had been wandering around all day.

I felt like my mind was being put in order with just one text message.

“I’m really fine. So this story ends here.”

Anyway, let’s just quickly forget about the rejection.

Chae-yoon sighed because he could see Arin thinking that way.

“Human emotions are not so easily sorted out. Feelings that are not properly resolved will eventually make you suffer someday.”

Finishing it was more important than anything else.

If you don’t finish something properly, it can be said that it is one of the most annoying human emotions to be bothered by unfinished work.

“Oh, I’m really fine.”

But in the end, such aftereffects and annoyances were one of those things that only those who experienced them could realize.

“I don’t want to listen.”

“That’s right. In my opinion, it would be better to wait some time before speaking.”

“Leave it alone. Anyway, come soon and cry.”

Nahyun, seeing the two people paying attention, sighed and waved her hand.

“Well, I guess Nahyun is right.”

“I admit it.”

Chae-yoon and Su-a also agreed with her opinion.

First of all, I decided to stop worrying about it since tomorrow is the day when classes and gate schedules will resume again.