episode_0074

1.

We’re on our way to lunch with the extra class that happened to be added to our group.

They are walking down the street, chatting away.

“Huh? Taina. Isn’t this the wrong way?”

“…That’s right.”

But on the contrary, my head was a mess.

“That great Taina even takes the wrong path?”

Srenya smiled and joked.

Still with his arms crossed, his pretty face close to hers.

If it were normal, it would be a happy sight that would make me laugh without realizing it.

‘…Kai oppa’s smell.’

A smell mixed with Srenya tickled my nose.

I can’t understand.

No, actually, I understand about half of it in my head.

There’s some kind of relationship between Srenya and Kai.

But I thought of it as my personal life, and since I was busy with my academy work, I put it aside.

Even when I looked at it directly, the picture was strange.

‘But… this is a bit too much…!’

The body odor is strong.

And then, because of Srenya’s appearance, her unkempt hair comes into view.

For some reason I’m late today.

I came to the conclusion that it was too late even though I hadn’t washed up.

That conclusion led to the thought that I had fallen asleep with Kai Oppa.

“…Srenia.”

“Huh?”

“I didn’t see you at the dorm yesterday. Where did you go?”

“Ah… Aha… I walked around at night for a bit. I guess I barely got home before curfew so I didn’t see you.”

Half of my blood is fox.

His nose and ears are several times better than other people’s.

That’s why, even if you don’t want it, your trembling pupils, cold sweat, and rapid pulse are all compiled into one piece of information.

‘That’s a lie.’

One clear conclusion emerges.

Yesterday, Srenya slept with Kai oppa.

‘….why?????’

I barely managed to hold back the urge to scream.

There is some kind of relationship between Srenya and Kai oppa.

And I can’t believe that their relationship is such that they sleep in the same bed.

At this moment, Kai oppa’s words come to mind.

A short answer when asked what his relationship with Srenya was.

‘friend.’

There are two meanings to the word friend that I know.

‘Eww!!!’

… Naturally, the thought comes to mind that the three princesses of the Epissia Kingdom had a crush on the academy’s janitor.

I just said it literally and it’s already making me dizzy.

“Hey, Taina. Is something wrong?”

Even though my stomach was in turmoil, Srenya spoke calmly.

That innocent expression that says you don’t know English.

Unlike in the past when I felt that it had a pure appearance like a lamb, now all that remains is the feeling that it is a fox wearing sheep’s skin.

In a word, it’s like a fox’s behavior.

“It looks a little uncomfortable… The kids have already gone into the restaurant.”

I am sinking into a feeling that is almost like a swamp.

The vague fact that Srenya did something with Kai oppa last night.

I want to find out the story that is so tantalizing that it’s almost within reach.

“Srenia.”

A cold voice comes out.

Such seeds of doubt must be quickly eliminated.

If the seed blooms and eats away at my heart, it will eventually lead to conflict.

after.

Let’s calm down a bit and talk things out.

There is nothing more ugly than getting carried away and selling out Srenya.

Let’s just think of it as a possessive feeling that Kai feels when he thinks about being involved with someone.

Let’s admit that I was like a child who was poisoned because he didn’t want what was his to be taken away.

“…You smell like a man.”

“What…?”

I am a child.

“It’s really bad. That, masculine, odor-like smell. I wanted to let you know because I think it comes from your body and hair a lot. ”

“What, what does that mean…”

“Why are you lying when you didn’t come into the dorm yesterday? If you stay out all night and smell like a man, other people will misunderstand.”

“…”

Words are pouring out.

I don’t know either.

Srenya is a precious friend and she will be hurt by such ridiculous gossip.

Just because of a story that has nothing to do with me, about me just rolling around with Kai oppa.

I rushed in on myself and ended up hurting myself.

…there’s no way I could say that.

What came out of my mouth was not the venom of a fox, but the voice of a shrunken puppy.

“Uh, what happened yesterday…? Be honest… Who did you meet…? I know you didn’t come into the dorm yesterday…”

“That, that…. Uh…”

I felt a sticky feeling of jealousy towards Srenya.

Wouldn’t it be very strange if my friend’s body smelled like a man’s scent that I thought was only mine?

I was overcome by emotions that were never positive, and for a moment I had evil thoughts.

I’d be lying if I said I hadn’t heard of it at all.

But Srenya is my friend.

I don’t want to pursue it to the point of hurting you.

But that doesn’t mean I want to just gloss over what happened with Kai.

If we move on now, the relationship between Srenya and her brother will eventually cross the line.

‘I don’t want to hurt others, so I don’t want to embrace all of their wounds.’

I decided to be a little selfish, thinking back to the old days.

He continued speaking in a voice that sounded like he was about to cry at any moment.

“Huh? What kind of person is he? A good person…?”

“That, uh…”

“Be honest. I don’t want to be the only one thinking and talking about weird and bad things…”

“…!”

I hope that the specialness between me and Kai oppa remains the same.

This is my little greed.

“That……”

“Even if it’s simple, it’s fine…”

But you may not be able to continue that greed.

If you just listen to what Srenya is trying to say now.

If you just listen to it as a love story that Srenya experiences.

“……I have a friend I’m close with.”

Because my specialness might have to disappear.

Because I might have to take a step back myself.

Because the very act of being with someone might lose its specialness.

Suddenly, I felt uneasy that I might not be able to continue this relationship.

“Yeah. I’m listening.”

“He’s a kind person who often talks about various things and listens to stories of hardships.”

As the story progresses, tears well up in my eyes.

It feels like I’m taking a step forward even though I know it’s a cliff.

If you don’t listen to Srenya’s story last night, you’ll end up thinking badly about Srenya.

But if you listen to Srenya’s story from last night, you will know Srenya’s true feelings.

No matter what choice you make, it’s the worst.

There is no better or worse, only worse and worse.

‘I don’t have to shoulder all of other people’s pain just because I don’t want to hurt them.’

It was a single sentence that kept me from suffering any loss throughout my life.

But surprisingly, that theory is being completely shattered.

I’m holding on to one of the two relationships that I would have given up on in the past and am unable to let go.

Srenya is avoiding eye contact as if embarrassed.

“Yesterday… I had a lot of hard times.”

“Was it?”

“But I consulted with that person and had a meal, so it got late. So I stayed overnight.”

“…Yeah.”

“Huh? That’s it for one night. Oh! You live with someone in the first place!!! You slept only with me, no, you slept with me, no, I just borrowed the bed! ”

right.

Even though it was Kai Oppa’s cabin, Yuli Unnie was there.

But now I realize that wasn’t the answer I wanted.

A person who is close enough to spend a night together and has feelings for that person.

And if you want to become close enough to smell each other’s body odor.

“Do you like that guy?”

Do you like it?

The answer to what I’m wondering about will most likely end up strangling me.

But from the moment I hear these words, my specialness may disappear.

You have to listen to the answer and organize it.

Rather than letting the seeds of doubt take root in me and become ineradicable.

It would be better to finish sorting out our fate now.

“……Uh uh…..”

I waited for Srenya’s answer.

And after a moment of hesitation, Srenya opened her mouth.

“Mom, I don’t know! Let’s eat first!”

It’s just not a definitive answer.

You may like it, you may not.

It is impossible to know the true feelings of a chrysanthemum, just like picking off a flower’s petals and looking at its dots.

“…sigh.”

But even though the answer was simply withheld, Taina shed tears as relief surged through her.

Like a coward who couldn’t make a decision in the end.

“Why, why are you crying…!?”

“Huh, huh? Sorry!”

“Suddenly? Did something go wrong for you too?”

“Oh, it’s not that hard…”

It was tough.

I think it was quite difficult after I brought that up.

But I can’t tell you my true feelings yet.

“Uh, I’m worried that our Srenya might be taken away by someone.”

“No!”

“Like this, like this…”

‘I suddenly thought, ‘What if Kai oppa is taken away from me?’

“Why are you taking it so seriously… Just think of it as going to your uncle’s house, having fun, and sleeping.”

“Right? Huh?”

“In the first place, is there anyone else you live with besides me?”

If I were asked the same question as you, I would say, ‘I don’t know.’

I was selfish because I couldn’t make up my mind about you.

“Heeelp… Sorry…”

“Oh my, what are you sorry for…”

Srenya hugged me and patted my back.

It’s a little embarrassing to have such dark intentions.

It was a great comfort to have someone taller than me put his arm around my shoulder and head and pat me on the head.

Even the faint scent of Kai Oppa wafting through the air has now become a comfort.

2.

Somehow I managed to get into the restaurant.

I can’t adapt at all.

I originally believed in the main character’s buff and joined the girls’ gathering.

I think it would be right to think of the girls’ gathering and the main character buff as separate things.

Because I can’t keep up with the tone and pace of the chattering conversation.

“Where’s the bouillabaisse…”

“Oh, me.”

A seafood stew-like dish came out.

And at the same time, Srenya and Taina entered the restaurant together.

It took a while, as if there was something to talk about.

“Taina, what’s wrong?”

I was curious about what happened so I asked some questions.

“…You shouldn’t be interested in conversations between girls.”

He just smiled and answered.

I can’t figure out what’s going on in these girls’ hearts.