episode_0074

One.

Hyunwoo looked down at Hyeji, who was sobbing bitterly with her head down.

What on earth is love, and what is loneliness?

The fear of being abandoned by someone she loved consumed her life.

The deficiency that followed her throughout her life, and the mental illness that this deficiency gave rise to, ultimately led her life to the abyss.

It seemed like she no longer had any dignity left as a human being, or even the bare minimum of sense as an intelligent being.

It was truly the optimal condition to raise the level of brainwashing.

“Hehe… Just put your head down and reflect. I’ll go out for a while and get something.”

“Ugh… Yes… please… Uhm… please…”

Hyunwoo left the bathroom, leaving behind Hyeji, who kept muttering the word “please.”

There was a smile on his face as he walked around the room and collected the necessary items.

Box tape, oil-based magic, and various other miscellaneous things placed on a small tray.

This is today’s training tool that will be used to train her.

Hyunwoo took his cell phone for the last time and opened the bathroom door.

The sound of her crying, still with her head down and sobbing, greeted him.

Hyunwoo puts the tray down on the sink shelf and turns on the recording function on his phone. The intention was to record all of today’s conversations because I had a place to write them down. The plan was to film a video later after blindfolding her.

Before getting her up, I checked the phone was on silent mode one more time and put it in a corner where she couldn’t see it.

“Raise your head.”

“Sigh… Sigh…”

Just looking at her face, messed up with tears and saliva, was enough to evoke sympathy, but there was no change in Hyunwoo’s expression.

He just calmly tells her what to do.

“Do you see the paper and pen in front of you? I brought it with you because you don’t seem to be able to remember just by saying it. Write down what mistakes you made, how sorry you are now, and what to do next. I will decide what to do after seeing how sincere you are.”

Hyeji looked at the A4 paper in front of her and stretched out her trembling hand.

This is an opportunity to be forgiven for your mistakes. Now that the opportunity I had longed for had come, I had to give it all I could.

“Did you ever write something like a reflection when you were in school? It doesn’t matter how long it takes, think about it carefully and write it down. Do you understand?”

“Well, yes. I understand.”

“Then turn back. Lie down and write while looking at the bathroom wall. Start!”

Hyeji staggered and turned around. A white wall and even whiter paper fill the front of my eyes. In the quiet bathroom where no sound could be heard, only the sound of the crunching pen was heard.

Tiny letters fill the empty paper.

The single song, written with all his might, reflecting on each letter, contained a heartrending loyalty to his master.

How ugly and inadequate a person she is, and how precious her brother’s love is to her.

So, his earnest plea for forgiveness was followed by repentance for the terrible mistake he had committed and a promise for the future.

Although her writing was sloppy and rushed due to her lack of writing skills, her sincerity was clearly expressed.

“Master… I wrote it all down.”

“Are you confident? Are you sure that what you just wrote is the best you can present? If you think so, give it to me, or write it down again. Because there is plenty of paper.”

Hyunwoo started by asking a question without even thinking about looking at what she wrote.

A question that can only make an indecisive and spineless woman anxious.

At the very least, you may be doubting yourself as to whether this is the best option. Doubts will soon increase anxiety, and anxiety will soon become an indescribable fear.

As soon as he heard the words, all his actions stopped and he couldn’t move, so I thought he might need a new paper.

Since it was an answer sheet that you only had one chance to submit, it was clear that you would never be able to submit it unless you were confident that you had written the best correct answer.

“… I’m sorry. I’ll write it again…”

“So you’re saying that what you just wrote was roughly written?”

“No! I wrote it well… No, I tried to write it well…”

“I wrote it down, but looking at it again, it means I can do it better, right?”

“Yes!”

Hyeji nodded vigorously as if that was it. He nodded so vigorously that his pelvis, which was facing Hyunwoo, also bobbed up and down along with his shaking head.

“Then take the paper again. Did I tell you? I will decide after reading what you wrote. doing the best. So that you can feel the sincerity.”

Hyunwoo threw her a new piece of paper and tore up the previous piece of paper right before her eyes.

Squeak – Sway –

“I’ll pretend I didn’t see this, so write it down quickly. There’s no time limit, right?”

“… Yes, master.”

Hyeji puts her head down again on the new piece of paper she received. The crunching sound of the pen, which was interrupted for a moment, continued.

I wondered how many sheets of paper she, who doubted and doubted her own best, would change.

It didn’t matter anyway. Because there was still so much paper left.

2.

How many times have I already received new paper? As she refilled the blank paper, she felt a stiffness in her wrist.

Still, I felt like my writing speed was getting faster, so I was proud of myself for making progress.

Every time Hyeji wrote down a sentence, she chewed it over and over again, desperately trying to think of the next sentence.

I felt sorry for receiving more paper or making my brother wait any longer, so I worked hard, determined that this was really the last time.

Hyeji brainwashes herself by writing down the sentences she came up with with all her might and repeating them over and over again.

Every sentence she wrote down echoed dozens or hundreds of times in her head.

Before you know it, it’s a white piece of paper filled with self-deprecation and vows of subjugation.

In order to receive forgiveness, she had to show as much ‘sincerity’ as possible, so she only thought about how she could make her brother happier and did not consider how much of what she was writing went against common sense.

In fact, I even feel fortunate. Compared to what I wrote now, my first writing was sorely lacking.

Hyeji smiles with relief and reads the shocking words that put her down again.

Although I wrote it down and read it over and over again, I focused on it with the mindset of doing a final review.

The phrase that started with the short words ‘I’m sorry’ went beyond capturing her eyes and gradually became a spell that bound her soul.

Because the typefaces, which were not heavy at all, no, not even as heavy as the tip of a hair, had suddenly become a huge mountain and were crushing her personality.

Hyeji read the last period carefully and handed the paper to Hyunwoo.

“Do you really think it’s the best this time? Are you confident you won’t disappoint?”

“… Yes!”

After hesitating for a moment, she says yes. I was confident because I was thinking about how to make my brother like it more and wrote it solely according to his taste.

“Okay, then take it and read it yourself in your own voice. I’ll listen to it.”

“Ah… Yes! Let’s take a look at the wall again?”

“No, come to my feet, turn your head towards me and lie down.”

Hyunwoo closed the toilet lid and called out to her while sitting on it.

As she lies down, holding the paper in her hand, he places his right foot on the back of her head.

“If I step on your head, you will repeat the sentence you just read clearly. If you say your pronunciation is weird or are hesitant, I will step on you.”

“Yes, master!”

Now that you have completed the instructions for recording with smooth sound quality, it is time to enjoy it.

“Then let’s begin. Speak loudly.”

Hyeji cleared her throat and read her proud answer sheet out loud.

“Sorry. The bitch, who was no bigger than a dog, behaved stupidly and made her master angry. It was never intentional, it was just so stupid. Because I am a trash bitch who is useless for anything other than receiving and eating my master’s semen. So, whenever I make a mistake, please feel free to hit me and scold me. Cheeks, tits, and pussy are all yours, and if you spank me, I will be grateful.”

Hyeji swallowed her saliva after reading the first paragraph.

It was written with great care, but my heart pounded at the thought of reading it in front of my brother.

Even if I were to read a pre-written speech in front of hundreds of people, I wouldn’t be more nervous than this.

Even if there are thousands or tens of thousands of spectators, not hundreds, they are people who have nothing to do with your life.

But my brother was different. Although he was the only audience who listened to his speech, that audience was everything to him.

Her voice trembled at the knowledge that the piece of paper she was reading now would determine her future fate.

“Are you okay? You came up with words that I might like. Is it beyond your expectations? Don’t be nervous and keep trying, because it’s good.”

And Hyunwoo doesn’t know her agitation.

I listened to her voice starting to get nervous and encouraged her at the right time.

People are naturally moved by those who recognize their efforts.

Aren’t there many generals in history who sacrificed their lives for a lord who recognized them?

So now is the time to praise her. Make her feel proud by praising what she wrote after much effort.

It was something I had managed to complete after several attempts, and I was probably bringing it out only because I was confident, so it was much easier to internalize the content if they smiled and applauded me for a job well done.

Hyeji opened her mouth again, thrilled with the pride that her efforts were being recognized.

“I’m sorry for forgetting that I couldn’t lick up the urine well and barked like a dog. The reason I did something wrong even after being scolded by my master was not because I wanted to make him feel bad, but because I was stupid. So please forgive me. I said that I would have already committed suicide without my master, and it is true. I cannot live without my master. I belong to you for the rest of my life, and I really, really love you.”

Even in her reflections on her mistakes, Hyeji subtly inserts a confession of love.

In Hyunwoo’s opinion, this also didn’t seem intentional.

It’s probably because this woman’s naive and simple thinking is a crude way of running on only love.

Why, doesn’t he have that kind of personality? Love, a goofy personality who lives in fantasy while singing love songs.

I must have ended up like this now because I lived with that childish mindset, but I was still immersed in fantasy.

In the end, everything is her own gain.

“Hehe… Okay, keep going.”

After briefly explaining how ugly I was and what mistakes I had made, all that was left was a promise for the future.

Hyunwoo was curious about the extent of her promise to do everything.

“So, from now on, I will do whatever my master asks me to do. It can be a cum bucket or a toilet bowl. It can also be a pet kept by the owner. No matter how hard or difficult it is, I will do my best. It’s true. If you don’t do it the first time, feel free to scold me and make me do it again. I will definitely do it.”

“Is it over?”

“… Yes.”

“It was going well, but there was no point in the end. I don’t think there’s anything specific to do, but it seems like you’ve just said that you’ll do your best?”

“Ah… I originally wrote it all down, but I was afraid it would be uncomfortable to read, so it got too long… so I condensed it on purpose… I wrote it all down at first… but it’s true…”

“Okay, it’s okay, so say it now. Let’s give an example of what the scope of anything you can think of is and what it can do for you.”

Hyeji swallowed her regrets and quickly opened her mouth. I needed the substance and specificity my brother mentioned.

“I can receive all the urine through my vagina and anus… Oh, I took my last contraceptive pill today, so starting tomorrow I can receive all the semen through my vagina. Also, dogpl? I also saw that on the community… I will wear the leash I ordered today and be the owner’s bitch. If you want me to bark, I will bark, and if you want me to suck, I will suck!”

After listening to it, it seemed like nothing more than a long stretch of what I had just said.

Hyunwoo crossed his arms and lifted her chin with the tip of his toes.

“Have you done almost everything except cum? There has to be something different. Tell me clearly what you think is acceptable or unacceptable. I don’t like to go sloppy.”

“Ah… standard… um…”

Hyeji tried to shake her stiff head. This was a great achievement for her, who had never written anything in her life, but her brother was asking for something more specific.

It was a standard… I just vaguely thought I could do anything, but there was no clear standard.

Hyeji, who was continuing to worry, heard Hyunwoo’s urging.

“What are you worrying about? He said if it weren’t for me, he would have died. He said he couldn’t live without me. Are you saying everything you wrote? You weren’t serious?”

“Gura no! Really… really. It’s true.”

Hyeji hastily denied Hyunwoo’s reprimand.

It was never a lie to say that my brother was more important than life.

I love my brother so much that I can’t breathe just thinking about him not being there.

“Then isn’t it simple? You can do everything except death. Even if you were prepared to die, I am not the person who would do something to your death. Is it because you don’t trust me?”

“Ah… I believe it.”

“I believe it, but why are you hesitating?”

Hyunwoo couldn’t find a suitable answer and just watched Hyeji fidgeting with her hands.

It’s a terrible dilemma. If you say you believe, it means you can do anything except death, and if you say you don’t believe, all the reflections you just made become lies.

Hyeji can’t keep her mouth shut, perhaps because it’s not an easy choice.

Still, the fact that he was somehow contemplating an answer despite the unreasonable choice between the two was encouraging.

If she was in this state, she could be led as she wanted with just a little push.

“Ha… I wasn’t going to say something like this because it seemed like I was showing off with a few pennies… When have you ever seen me shy away? I definitely called. You said you liked the most expensive necklace, so I told you to do that, and I always ordered the best food for you. Did you ever hesitate even for a moment when you gave the landlord two hundred of my money? hey. Wouldn’t it be a waste of money for me? no. It’s a waste too. But it’s not a waste because it’s you. Because it was money for you. But what about you? Why do you keep taking stock?”

Hyunwoo put pressure on her by putting the idea of giving away crumbs that would go unnoticed on the same level as giving away her entire life.

Anyone capable of normal thinking would have pointed out the logical error in what I just said, but to her who was accustomed to obedience, it was nothing more than fuel to fuel her rationalization.

It is a rationalization that allows you to believe that this is your own decision and that it is natural to do so, even if you choose to give everything away.

“Sorry… I’m sorry for hesitating. I trust you, master. I believe it all.”

“Do you really believe it? What should I do if I really believe it? Add it to the reflection you read earlier and say it clearly. What is your standard for doing anything? Pick up the paper again.”

Hyeji unfolded the paper on the floor again.

I believe in my brother. Yes, who else in this world would you trust if not your brother? The only person in the world who will be by my side is my brother.

So… this is correct. What I am about to say is definitely not wrong.

“… I will do my best no matter how hard and difficult it is. It’s true. If you don’t do it the first time, feel free to scold me and make me do it again. I will definitely do it. So… please do everything except for things like dying. As long as it doesn’t make me feel like I’m going to die… I’ll do anything.”

Hyeji closed her eyes, making up her mind.

Did a person imprisoned in the Auschwitz concentration camp really want wealth and fame?

no. For now, I just hoped to be liberated from the concentration camp where the threat to my survival lurked.

And the same goes for Hyeji.

For her now, there was no greater threat to her survival than separation.

I didn’t want to be rich and famous with my brother for the rest of my life right now.

First of all, she knows that it is too greedy, so there is only one thing she wants.

Getting out of an imminent situation that could lead to catastrophe and getting a chance to make up for your mistakes.

Instead of telling her that tonight was over, her brother grabbed his belt again and whipped her.

Hyeji continued to rationalize and prayed earnestly that she would now be able to pay for her crime and thus relieve her brother of his anger.

Hyunwoo stood up from the toilet he had been sitting on for a long time as he watched her close her eyes.

Hyunwoo picks up the belt he threw down on the floor again.

Her longed-for wish finally came true.