episode_0071

Evil god.

My own evil god.

You don’t know how long I have been patient, patient, and desired for you.

“It’s nice to meet you, child. You… will be joining me as an arrangement for the future, which is unfortunate but much needed.”

When we first met, he was distrustful of the world and was given the strange title of high elf, abandoned by elven society.

I traveled the world with you for a year.

You disappeared right after that, but I knew you were always looking at me.

“Evil God, is this what you wanted so much?”

I wanted to do whatever you wanted.

I wanted you to only look at me.

That’s why you killed so many people who wanted to see you.

So that you don’t even have time to look at others, and only look at me.

Abnormal, non-ideal obsession and desire for exclusiveness. However, it became the driving force that made me move.

I didn’t stop to own you.

“…Mari, I hope it stops here. The evil spirit does not like any further massacre than this.”

“Is that so? But, what should I do with this? If I were the only one left in the world, people would eventually look at me, wouldn’t that be better? We can certainly eliminate any variables that we might not know about, right?”

The most ecstatic moment in my life was the one-year trip I took with you.

It was only after the illusion that you were staying by my side was denied, and I instinctively realized that you were watching me from the divine world.

What follows is that I either drag you down, or make you look only at me for the rest of your life, so that the two of us become everything in the world.

“Marie, I will put a ban on you. I will put a ban on everything you know, everything.”

“Perhaps the evil spirit knows how I feel, right? But am I still too immature to accept that feeling?”

“…I’m sorry. Someday, you too will be able to know about me and about yourself.”

And one day, when I felt your gaze break every now and then.

When the ancient times, when I wandered the world with you, are over and the next generation comes.

When your gaze, which always seemed to be watching me, gradually began to look towards others.

On a day that was no different from any other day, I realized the truth you had told me about myself and you.

“Evil God, have you been holding these things to yourself?”

Only then did I realize it.

What is the truth of the world, that the world is connected by one story, and that I am the main character and spokesperson of the world.

Only when I felt the eyes of so many people looking at me from across all things in the world did I feel that I was alive.

And in every moment, big or small, where I felt alive, I knew where you were, what you were doing, and what you were doing.

“For the evil god, I can sacrifice my world.”

I did things that would stick in your mind so that every time you saw me, you would remember the things about me the most.

He corrupted the World Tree, which all elves call their mother.

[Mary… you do those things in the end.]

“I hope your mother can rest in peace now.”

I smiled brightly at you.

Even though the World Tree already knew what its fate was and what I would do, it could not fight back or move.

Because you loved your child so much, and because you, who love favoritism, loved me the most.

Because you are a mother who loves her child, even if I exploited you to my heart’s content for my own gain, you were a passive and pitiful being who could not properly fight back.

However, there was nothing I could not do for the evil spirit who was watching me from above.

Maybe it would have been nice to say that it was something I did to make it my own, packaged in the name of “for the sake of it.”

Things would be good if only you knew me.

“I may not be able to completely bind you with the power of the story, but this is possible now that you do not possess full power or complete memory, right?”

I have scattered hints so that those around you will remember me, and I have given special abilities to the essence of the World Tree.

It has the ability to play an important role as a medium to summon you and at the same time prevent you from easily ascending to the divine realm.

After all, isn’t your divine world just a small space that you so desperately want to leave?

Forget that place and want and long for my side.

Just as you made arrangements for me for your own future and for the world, I also thought carefully about the future in advance and made arrangements here and there for myself.

“…all the children who receive my love are gathered here…”

When you first set foot on this earth.

I felt a thrill.

When you realized that you couldn’t ascend to the divine realm and showed a slightly embarrassed expression that only I could tell.

That exclusive desire wanted to possess that pure and vulnerable form of you for the rest of his life.

It’s ugly, but it’s still a feeling I have because I want you so strongly.

“Evil God, please allow me to desire your body.”

Because your stern expression is so cute.

Because that reaction is so cute.

In fact, this was serious, but he passed it off as if it was a joke.

I know how much I enjoy that kind of peace with you, I know what your ideals are, and I also know that there is a high possibility that that ultimate goal will ultimately lead to my extinction.

The true way to escape from the story and the world is my death, the disappearance of the main character, and the fall of the representative of the story.

“Evil God.”

So I couldn’t miss you.

It was a short time, so my lifespan was no different from what was set.

I think it would be nice to see you despairing because you couldn’t achieve your goal, but more than that, I want you to be the happiest.

Knowing my extinction, I wanted to burn this short time with fire.

“Do you not know because your memory is not perfect, or are you still pretending not to know even though you know?”

Even when I followed the world tree, you always remained by my side without abandoning me in silence.

Even though it was obvious that you knew everything that happened and the cause and effect of how it happened, you remained by my side.

Because I loved you so innocently and loving me so much.

Because I love you so much.

“…Evil God, welcome back.”

Even though I will hide things from you, I will not carelessly tell lies.

Because you showed me very well that what is made up of lies is so meaningless.

What is true ownership?

I will love you even when you are unhappy and despairing, but if you are suffering, won’t I also be suffering?

In the end, because I love you, I want to own you and treat you however I want, so I cannot treat you carelessly.

Caught up in such unfortunate contradictions, I have been behaving in an awkward manner.

Because true ownership is a happy ending for everyone.

“In the end, it is the evil spirit who ends this life, right?”

If it were you who would end my life.

More than anyone else, more than anything, you can say goodbye to the world happily and happily.

If I don’t use this power, the world will be a world of stories.

Because it is impossible to achieve the true freedom you speak of, free from all restraints and restraints.

So, I was the villain of this story, and at the same time, I was a mortal being who had to exit.

‘…But if you still think of me until the end.’

That was my feeling.

I know that the power of stories will not necessarily apply to you, so as a high elf, I tried to slightly control your emotions with my natural power.

no.

In fact, it was a bit different to call it adjustment.

Just so you can think of me a little more.

So that you can feel more like me.

I just prayed like that.

I don’t know if it really worked or not, but it was certain that something had changed in you, just as the spring that eventually came and beautifully illuminated the world.

If it were now… would you be able to tolerate what I wanted so much?

“I want to be with the evil spirit.”

The moment my will comes out of my mouth.

It was actually a threat, you said with a grin.

I don’t know if you were conscious of it, but since you had a crush on me, I guess that feeling was able to spread.

I was so excited about that fact.

Being able to be with you like that is a miraculous day that I could never have dared to hope for.

It would have been nice to throw away these abilities.

It would be good if this life disappeared.

Because I have achieved what I dare not wish for, even if after this life is over, I am thrown into the depths of hell and immersed in eternal pain.

This moment of being with you was such a beautiful happiness for me.

“Sleep well, evil spirit.”

Now, I muttered that while hugging you who was lying next to me.

You have not killed anyone because you wanted to, nor have you committed any iniquity.

So, wouldn’t it be okay to hope for this small compensation?

He muttered that to himself and hugged you tightly.

“Hmm…Marie…you woke up early…”

“What do you want to eat today?”

I will never miss this daily life.

Even if you end up hating me, I will always be by your side.

Together until death.

“Mari, I wonder why you look at me like that…”

“No, it’s just… the evil spirit is more handsome today.”

I covered you with a blanket.

Daily life like this.

And because I love you so much for giving me this daily life.

“…Still, it’s a bit awkward to do it again in the morning…”

“Do you not like it?”

“That’s not true, but…huh, I’m not sure anymore…”

I love you always.

Evil god.