episode_0070

Today is the opening day of Dandelion Academy.

If it were me from three years ago, I would have pounded the ground, wept mournfully, and trembled at the approaching uncertainty.

But the me of now, the me after meeting him, is different.

Moreover, I recently received shocking information from him.

Of course, it was in a positive direction for myself.

As the time for his academy graduation neared, he was gradually preparing marriage talks with other families.

The reason I found out about that was because I had previously asked my father to collect information related to the Teufel family, especially important information related to Ropel.

Since my father was concerned about the various unpleasant incidents, that is, the numerous accidents and incidents I was entangled in after he forcefully enrolled me in the academy, he granted my request without much complaint.

Soon, a letter was sent in the name of the family, stating the details related to the marriage talks as well as expressing the intention to build a positive relationship in the future.

Because the content was stiffer than expected for a count’s family receiving a letter from a ducal family.

There was courtesy, but it felt more like a very cautious attitude, should I say?

However, without giving up, I later sent a letter directly to Ropel as well, and this was an excellent choice.

When I first read the sentence in his reply saying that he had already found someone he had set his heart on, my heart sank, but it soon contained content implying that the person was none other than myself.

‘If I meet you again at the academy, I will definitely tell you myself.’

Just recalling that sentence still makes the corners of my mouth lift automatically.

All along, I had thought my relationship with Ropel was merely a one-sided unrequited love.

I never imagined that he and I were already feeling emotions for each other that were more than friendship.

Really, if I had known this would happen, I wouldn’t have wasted time holed up in the family manor developing this potion.

Anyway, putting aside unnecessary stories, I need to think about what’s ahead, that is, the moment I will meet him at the academy.

Ever since I received that reply, I thought a lot about what attire and what kind of face I should meet him with again.

From a wardrobe I wouldn’t normally even look at, I spent a long time trying on various clothes without fuss, and selected several types of perfume.

And for the first time in my life, though I received help from the servants, I even tried doing makeup.

So, getting up at dawn and arriving at the academy, I am now wearing a neatly designed dress, not only perfume, but also adorned my face with expensive cosmetics.

Is that why? I felt the gazes of the surrounding students had changed significantly from before.

Unlike when they would ignore me, everyone, male and female, old and young, turned around to look at me again.

Since this kind of gaze was new to me, I felt a little shy, but at the same time, it gave me confidence for when I would meet Ropel later.

I fidgeted with the ceramic item inside the pouch inscribed with storage magic.

This was a ceramic item I had previously made together with Ropel, and inside I put snacks I had made myself to give to him.

Hmm.. and… since I’ll meet him and hear him officially say we’ll be a couple… I mixed a little. Just a very little bit of a potion with good effects into the snacks.

M-maybe I’m jumping a bit ahead in my judgment from the first day we might be… together! But still, he and I have already been together for a long time.

And although he may not remember, we’ve… been physically together several times…

..Until now, I was in the position of unilaterally enjoying his body by using drugs on him, but it will be different from now on.

He will take off his clothes himself and approach me, showing me his well-trained, masculine body.

With that large yet dependable body, he will hold me, and press against me with a dangerous object that doesn’t suit his handsome face.

After that, he will whisper sweet words into my ear, and soon wrap his thick arms around my waist…! Fuh-hee-hee-hee-hee-hee….

As I was having thoughts that might be a little lewd in my mind, I suddenly saw the main gate of the academy.

Ah! Ropel’s figure also started to appear just then!

Heh heh. It wouldn’t be bad to sneak up behind him and surprise him.

Huh?

As I got closer and closer to him, I couldn’t help but feel puzzled.

He was currently walking together with Lilith Tistina in front of the main gate, holding hands tightly.

No, it’s not surprising anymore that there’s another woman beside him.

Considering his usual behavior, he often caused me to misunderstand things.

Furthermore, Lilith Tistina was originally close to him anyway.

But what’s important is his behavior now.

Of course, Ropel oddly treats others closely and kindly, regardless of gender.

Lilith also often rubbed herself against him like a lewd female cat.

However, he had never acted like this before, where Ropel himself actively showed actions hinting at romantic feelings towards others, especially women.

He had petted their heads or held hands before, but I had never seen him pull someone towards him as if hugging them and rub their cheeks like that.

This shouldn’t be happening.

This shouldn’t be happening.

Just a while ago, through his reply letter, I heard words from him that were like a confession.

The one who should be receiving such actions beside him now should be me, shouldn’t it?

At that moment, I thought back over the contents of the reply letter he had sent, one by one.

…Could it be..? No, no. That can’t be… It shouldn’t… Never.

For a moment, just one moment, an anxious doubt flashed through my mind, but I absolutely couldn’t acknowledge it.

And I was afraid of what answer I might hear from him, so I couldn’t rashly approach.

..I decided to observe the situation just a little longer, just a tiny bit longer.

He and she stuck together closely throughout their time at the academy.

Even during Principal Rhium Kitokal’s speech for the entrance ceremony and opening, they sat right next to each other as if they had made a promise, and held each other’s hands tightly until the long and boring speech was over.

When the principal’s speech ended and the students moved in a rush, they alone veered off in a different direction.

Every time he acted towards Lilith as if they were lovers and smiled, my face gradually became more distorted.

Just like when I watched him together with Lilith in the past to help her with her date, my chest aches, my head feels dizzy, and I clench my teeth.

It feels as if that nightmare from back then has come alive again.

And the size of the doubt that had been lodged in my heart was gradually growing, swelling in bulk.

When I came to my senses, I had somehow followed the two of them like a stalker and ended up in this alley.

Thinking about it, it’s strange. Lilith was talking as if explaining something, but then they entered this gloomy alley with no people.

..!

Before I could even harbor such a doubt, Lilith suddenly started an unexpected action towards Ropel.

She put her hand inside the hem of his shirt, and then wasn’t she stroking his groin!

It was a lewd hand movement, containing explicit sexual intent.

And for an instant, our eyes met.

With none other than Lilith herself.

Her eyes were staring directly at mine.

It wasn’t a misunderstanding or a coincidence.

She had noticed my presence from the beginning.

Since when, exactly? No, that’s not important.

What’s important now is… the action Lilith took towards Ropel after turning her eyes away.

She brought her face close to his tempting, colored lips, and then soon overlaid her own lips.

And then, mixing tongues loudly enough for everyone around to hear, she began to savor.

More than anything, Ropel, throughout this series of actions, didn’t resist at all, and instead actively accepted it.

No.

No.

Please…

The one I love is having a physical relationship with another.

And I cannot intervene in that act, I can only watch.

No one would welcome such a situation.

My mind is chaotic from the shock, and I cannot make normal judgments.

My two legs and my hand, which had somehow formed a fist, were even trembling from anger.

From despair and sadness, tears were already falling from my two eyes.

..I hate this.. this kind of thing…

Right now, I sincerely prayed for all of this to be just a nightmare.

I wanted to open my eyes right away and dream of the opposite reality.

Unfortunately, even though I wished for this, the situation did not change.

Then Lilith’s gaze, which had been greedily taking Ropel’s lips, turned towards me once again.

Even I, who was not good at noticing the feelings of others, could tell the emotions contained in that gaze.

Superiority, joy, achievement.. and… mockery…

Soon, in the dark space where there was no one else, the lewd sounds of tongues mixing endlessly resounded, making me realize it even though I hated to.

The doubt I had harbored within myself while following them finally turned into certainty.

I had been mistaken about the contents of the letter I received, that is, the reply Ropel had sent.

I had misunderstood that the person he had set his heart on was myself.

Already long ago, the man I loved had fallen into another’s grasp.

I dropped the ceramic item I had been holding precious in my hand onto the floor.

I left that spot as if fleeing mindlessly.