episode_0070
by adminNow I had to take the child. Now I had bought all the groceries. But, the problem was.
‘Where are the kids?’
You didn’t tell me where to come. … Am I an idiot?
Since it’s a family of masters, I would understand if it was an inn – but the problem is. We never said where to meet.
‘Since we met on the market floor anyway, we’ll have to meet again if we go around the market floor.’
I really didn’t think much of it. I couldn’t believe that I was so relaxed just because my child liked someone. First, I walked calmly. After all, I was the main ruler of this territory. People couldn’t just sit still, so I just had to find a place where there were a lot of people or a place with a little less people.
Look over there. There are quite a few people there right now.
I ran over there in one go and looked around, but… it seemed like this was where the market ended. I decided to turn around and look for a place where there were a lot of people.
Then, a strange sound came to my ears.
“Wow, you did a good job, Kitty! Miss, can I touch you too?”
“Well? If the child allows it?”
“Baby, once- Whew! Isn’t it a bit too much to scratch that punk right after he’s just trying to pet it?! Tsk.”
“Haha, sorry. The kid is a bit shy.”
The voice of the trickster who took the child away from her and the voices of people getting excited. Perhaps, it seemed like the child had turned into a cat and was playing with her.
“Just a minute, just a minute.”
I push through the crowd and come across a child. He keeps chasing something made of fire and playing around. It’s the first time I’ve seen a child play like that.
… I’ve seen Han-i do that when she was little, but Yeon-i didn’t have many opportunities to do that.
And, there probably weren’t many people who let him play like that. Thinking about it, it was largely my fault for not letting him play like that. Thinking about how it ended up like this… . Because my head hurt.
However, apart from that, the sight of the child rolling around and playing like that made me feel cute and happy.
“Baby.”
When I called Yeon-i, Yeon-i quickly turned her head and looked at me. However, contrary to the cuteness she showed toward Gong and the other characters, she did not even say “Greung” to me, but instead made the opposite sound.
“Krrrr… .”
Crying as if she hated me. As I listened to her crying quietly, I realized. This child originally hated me. In fact, it couldn’t have been otherwise. Doesn’t it matter? Doesn’t she not know that she’s a mother? Didn’t she ever fulfill the role of a mother in the first place?
What was an excuse to me was no excuse to him. It might have been nothing to this child, just a facade, something like trash. That might be why the child reacted that way. I might be the one who only causes pain to this child, so the child reacted that way.
Why did I bring the child out?
For the first time, I asked myself, why on earth did I bring this child here, other than to save him? That question filled my head.
“… .”
As I was quietly watching the child growl at me, Jujak, who couldn’t stand to watch, spoke to me. The child, who didn’t even know what I was feeling, spoke to me first.
“Are you here?”
It was just that one word. Just that one simple word. The words that I wanted to hear from Yeon-i, not that child, flowed out from her.
Where did it start to go wrong? Where did it start to go wrong? What should I do? My head was getting dizzy, but there was only one thing I had to do.
“Yes, there were a lot of good items. I bought them right away.”
As I always did. As I wore the mask I wore in social circles. As I dealt with the people above. I adjusted my mask, put it back on, and continued acting.
Let’s lay the iron plate. Just for a moment, let’s lay the iron plate and hold on. Then… the war or whatever, it would be over, and I wouldn’t have to look for my child. I would be able to live a normal life without getting involved in that damn thing.
“Yeon-ah, let’s go now.”
When the fool reached out his hand, the child jumped up and down and dove into his arms, as if he thought that person was his parent, his master.
… . A part of my heart was greatly aching. I was an unnecessary person to this child. That child was showing me this desperately. It made me, who called her Yeon, pale in comparison. It made the fact that I was the one who called her by the same name pale in comparison.
The only thing that hurt me was the fact that this month-long trip had not been able to melt the wall in this child’s heart.
What’s been going on?
Even though there were many things that happened while traveling with the child, the child did not open up to me. Yeah. That must be it. That must be why he only shows such aegyo to Jujak. What was it that I failed to do?
Of course, I also prepared food well and talked to the child about playing with him. However, the child refused most of the time. What am I to the child? What am I to Yeon-i? I thought that I had to answer those questions first before I could understand why the child was avoiding me.
“Aren’t you going?”
“Ah… . I have to go. I have to go.”
I wanted to hold on to my broken heart somehow. If I didn’t, I felt like I would abandon this child and live alone.
*
We tried to ignore that feeling and walked along the road. Before we knew it, we had arrived in front of the main character’s house.
“Ah.”
I never thought I’d come this far. How long did it take?
“I was thinking about staying here today. I think Yeon-i would like it too.”
Yeon-i would probably like it too. Those words touched my heart. Yeon-i was sleeping in my arms, oblivious to the world, and I didn’t know what else to do. I knew better than anyone that I shouldn’t stay too long. … If it’s just for a day, I wondered if I could stay for the sake of the child.
“… Is it okay?”
I asked politely. No matter how minor the family feud was, I couldn’t just make that decision on my own.
“Of course! I think your mother will like it too.”
“… . I see.”
Yeah. What’s the big deal? After all, I came here to give the child a rest. Look at that. A cat without one arm. If I could heal that pain even a little here, I would be satisfied with that.
“Then, I will take care of you for just one day.”
*
My daughter, who had suddenly gone out to play, came back with two bumps. Well, I guess you could call them bumps. They were the ones who decided to help us escape.
“Daughter, what is this?”
“Hmm~ I was wondering if you could let me stay for just one day. Mom said that too, so live your life doing what you want.”
I never thought my words would be returned like that. First of all, it was my words, and I was raising my daughter and my son and letting them do whatever they wanted.
“Hmm-”
It wouldn’t have mattered if I let him sleep for a day or so. In the first place, I didn’t even know if it was necessary to let that kid, with one arm tattered, rest here like this.
“But honey. Why are you holding the baby white tiger?”
“Uh- That’s right, Yeon-i hugged me and wouldn’t let go.”
“… Then what about the wings?”
“I tore it while flying~ Hehe… .”
“… .”
Those words made my head hurt a little. Of course, it was true that children loved them more than their parents, no, as much as their parents did. It was reality. I felt sorry for the parents who were making such sad expressions and worried expressions, but my daughter was already taking the place of the parents to the child.
It was not she who came to visit me in the middle of the night and gave me a gift out of the blue, but the one who treated me, hugged me, and cared for me.
Because she was my daughter.
“… Haa… Okay. Got it.”
“Really?! Yay! Can you show me to my room?”
“Before that! Change your clothes first!”
When his daughter jumped up and down excitedly, Baekho jumped down in surprise and looked around. It seemed like he was exploring where he was. And then.
-Ss …
The body gradually changed into a human form. And then.
“Meet the owner of the main text.”
He greeted me. It was a very polite greeting. … It was quite detailed for a child. It was a greeting that sounded like something a seasoned adult would say.
I didn’t like it. I’m sure you realized last time that it was this bad.
“Okay, that’s it. Balsam!”
“Yep!”
“Change your clothes and show me around. Madam, please talk to me for a moment.”
“… Ah. Yes… .”
… . I felt like I had to bring up a story that I thought everyone would probably guess.
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