episode_0070

#70

“…….”

It was 40 minutes after that when Park Dong-chul left Harin’s room.

Perhaps feeling post-nut clarity after doing whatever he wanted, Park Dong-chul excused himself, saying he had urgent business, and left first.

I bowed deeply until the very end as he stepped out of the dorm.

“……….”

Now, only Harin and I remained in the dorm.

This was the situation I had been anticipating since yesterday… but now, I felt no excitement at all.

“……Harin.”

I approached Harin’s room and called her name carefully.

No answer.

I called again.

“Harin?”

“………Yes.”

“Can I come in?”

Park Dong-chul had entered without permission, but I asked for hers.

“…Just a moment. Let me… put on some clothes.”

“……Alright.”

Did she not want to show herself naked in front of me now?

My stomach twisted.

“I’m done. You can come in.”

Only after Harin’s permission did I open the door.

The nameplate, flipped over to hide the name, swayed slightly.

Harin was…….

“Eugh.”

Wearing a different white T-shirt than before.

She must have dressed in a hurry—her lower half was still in underwear.

Her hair was slightly damp, and her face was still flushed, all of it obvious at a glance.

Harin was tidying up the bed just like that.

The bed… was damp in the center, the darkened spot telling the story of what had happened here.

“Ah.”

Noticing my gaze, Harin quickly covered the wet spot with the blanket.

Then she sat on top of it.

“Here… sit.”

She patted the space beside her on the blanket-covered bed.

The very spot where Harin had been having sex just moments ago.

Without a word, I went over and sat down.

“……….” “……….”

Silence.

She stared at the floor like a punished child.

Sitting beside her, the first thing I noticed was the smell.

Not Harin’s scent, but the cigarette stench from Park Dong-chul’s body.

And the pungent odor of semen.

The mix of it all assaulted my nose.

I took a deep breath while looking at Harin’s face.

She carried the scent of evidence—proof she had been rolling around with that man.

The faint beads of sweat told me just how intense it must have been.

I should have been disgusted.

But instead… I found myself growing aroused by Harin like this.

“……Manager.”

“Yeah.”

Swish.

Harin cautiously reached out and took my hand.

“PD-nim… left, right?”

“…Yeah. Said he had something to do.”

“Really…?”

Harin’s grip on my hand tightened.

“Manager.”

“Yeah.”

“You… worked hard today too.”

…Ah.

She was repeating the same words I’d heard countless times.

The words Harin always said at the end of each workday.

“It must’ve been tough… Thank you for enduring it.”

“……….”

Why was she acting like this?

I couldn’t understand Harin’s words.

“Enduring…?”

“PD-nim… You were really angry at that bastard, weren’t you?”

“……What?”

“Because of his disgusting tastes, you had to force yourself to watch things you didn’t want to see… He made you do all those weird things…”

“…….”

“I could tell you were holding back, and it scared me. What if you couldn’t take it anymore…? What if you hit him…?”

“You think I… couldn’t take it?”

“That’s how it usually is, right? When someone sees their girlfriend like that.”

Right.

Usually, that’s how it is.

“It’s… kind of embarrassing to call myself your girlfriend, but… Hehe.”

She fidgeted with her fingers.

Her face broke into a shy smile.

Only then did I realize.

Harin genuinely believed I had been forcing myself to endure everything that happened.

Without a single doubt.

“Because you held back… we got through it safely. ……So thank you.”

She didn’t even consider the possibility that I had been excited.

That I had enjoyed watching.

Because that was unthinkable.

Because that’s what normal… lovers would do.

“……Harin. You…….”

“Yes?”

“You…….”

Are you really okay with this?

Does being with Park Dong-chul not bother you at all?

The questions rose to my throat but never left my lips.

But Harin read my expression.

“……Ah. I’m fine. Yeah… Thank you for worrying.”

“No, I mean…….”

“I-It was embarrassing… showing you that side of me for the first time. But… what else could I do? It was his demand. And if it’s you, I don’t mind you seeing my body…….”

“That’s not what I—”

“Besides, we’ve done it a few times now… so I’m kind of used to it. I’m starting to get what he wants, so… It’s…….”

“———Jin Harin!!”

I shot up and shouted.

Harin flinched.

Her trembling eyes cautiously looked up at me.

For the first time, I thought I saw a hint of resentment in them.

How… How could she act so calm?

“Harin, you… don’t care at all?”

“……Huh?”

“Being with that bastard… like that… like that……!”

Talking so vulgarly.

Spreading your legs without hesitation.

Does it really mean nothing to you……?

“……Ah.”

“Harin……!”

I didn’t understand.

What Harin truly felt.

The side of her I’d seen until now.

The side she showed when I wasn’t around.

It was unmistakably… his.

“…Manager.”

Harin still hadn’t let go of my hand.

Her grip tightened again.

“……How could I not care…?”

Her hand… began to tremble.

“Being held by someone like that… Kissing those filthy lips… Letting him touch me… Showing him my most private places… Acting cute, fawning over him… Empty praises… Letting him touch me, suck me, lick me… Spreading my legs and giving him my body……!”

Harin’s head hung low.

Tears splashed onto her thighs.

“Hic…! How could…! How could any of that… be okay……!?”

“……Harin.”

“Who would ever…! Hic…! With such a disgusting bastard……!”

Her hands shook violently.

Tears kept falling onto her thighs.

“But I have to…! Hic…! If I don’t, will…! We will……!”

———I.

I had been certain Harin had betrayed me.

The way she acted.

The things she said and did.

It all made it seem like she already belonged to Park Dong-chul.

But———

“…Sob…! Manager… I acted my best. I said things I didn’t mean. Did things I didn’t want to do. Hic…! Because that bastard… because he wanted it……!”

“……Harin.”

“I’m sorry. I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry……. I said things I shouldn’t have to you. I even insulted you. But. But it was what he wanted……! If I didn’t, we… would be over……. What… hic…! else…! Hic…! Hic…!!”

Harin kept crying.

“It’s hard… It’s so hard. I didn’t want to make you suffer… I hate being with that bastard……! But I didn’t want to show you this side of me either… I can’t show weakness……! Hic…!”

She held my hand tightly, tears streaming endlessly.

The droplets rolled down her legs and soaked into the blanket.

As if trying to wash away the traces left behind.

———I’m trash.

A piece of trash who couldn’t trust Harin.

Harin had trusted me so completely, so naturally.

But I—had doubted her all this time.

I had been fooled by the act Harin put on.

I had assumed she must have enjoyed it.

But the 23-year-old idol girl in front of me—

“…I have to endure it! For to survive……!”

Had been bearing it all.

For the sake of her responsibility as leader.

For the sake of the words I had told her to follow.

I had piled an unbearable burden on this small body.

And yet, I had doubted her.

……I’m scum.

“……Harin…!”

I pulled Harin into my arms.

Her small body collapsed onto the bed.

“…Manager…”

“Harin.”

Our eyes met.

Harin… cautiously closed hers.

I brought my face closer.

She really was beautiful.

Those small, pink lips.

Without a word, I pressed mine against them.

Chuut……. Chuuup…….

Our first kiss.

The first taste of Harin’s tongue.

The fact that Park Dong-chul had tasted these lips before me filled me with frustration, and I explored her mouth more roughly.

Chuurut……! Chuuup……! Chuuuut……!

I kissed her like a madman, swirling my tongue inside until we were both breathless.

This is mine.

Mine alone—I’ll let no one else have it.

“Puh… Hah…….”

Only when we were gasping for air did I finally pull away.

“Hah…… Hah…….”

Harin panted heavily.

She looked at me with slightly hazy eyes.

“Man…ager…….”

“Harin.”

I’m sorry, Harin.

I’m sorry for doubting you.

“…Cover it. Cover me, Manager.”

Harin’s hand slid down my chest.

Lower, until it gripped my pants.

“Make me yours again… Okay?”

I could feel her pulse through her hand.

The sound of her racing heart reached me.

We didn’t need words anymore.

Swoosh.

I pulled down my pants and underwear in one motion.

Harin stared at me, her face full of tension.

I moved closer, never breaking eye contact.

Now, Harin and I would become one for the first time.

“……….”

Harin carefully removed her underwear.

Then she pulled me close, pressing our bodies together.

I could feel her chest against mine.

Harin’s wet pussy.

Now, if I just…

“……….”

“……….”

If I just…

“………?”

If I just put it in…

“…Manager…?”

Why?

Harin was waiting.

……Why won’t it get hard?