episode_0069

The exam was approaching, and it was no exaggeration to say that there was little progress in the relationship after that. I hugged my sister once to lighten the mood, but that was it.

As the exam got closer and closer, it was natural that I would have less time to have a relationship, so I couldn’t hug my sister.

And just like that, the exams were coming to an end one by one, the lectures I had taken one after another began to end, and when the last exam was over, summer vacation was approaching.

As I walked under the maddening sun, with cicadas crying, I wiped the sweat off my forehead and sighed.

Since it’s this hot, of course it’s right to go on vacation. While thinking this, I just returned home without any worries about the end-of-semester party with the others.

We won’t be seeing each other after next semester anyway, so let’s just go back to school and do our best. It may have been a thought that had been building up.

Hot street, cool bus for a moment, hot street again.

I repeated, and before I knew it, the test was over and I realized that I wouldn’t have to go to school from the next day, so I raised the corners of my mouth.

“I went there.”

As soon as I got home, I heard the sound of running, probably because I was doing laundry.

“Ah, are you here?”

It was the moment when I saw the face of my older sister, whom I had not had sex with for the past few days.

I was so busy recently that I just looked at it, but now that I see it, I feel like I understand it. My sister’s complexion brightened a little.

Why did it get brighter? Is there anything good happening?

I couldn’t quite figure it out. I don’t think there was anything particularly pleasant about it.

Since I wasn’t leaving the house anyway, other people wouldn’t make me feel better, and since I had deleted other people’s numbers from my contacts, I wouldn’t be able to contact them on my phone either.

So, in the end, there was a problem in my relationship with my sister, but was it because she didn’t have sex with me?

Thinking like that made me feel a little depressed, but I thought it was good that my sister was next to me in a good mood.

“Your complexion looks good these days?”

“Oh, that? I think it’s because I haven’t taken my medicine recently.”

As soon as I heard the word medicine, my heart sank.

Is there any pain anywhere? I opened my eyes wide at this thought and looked at my sister, who smiled awkwardly and gave me a supplementary explanation.

“No, recently Hansol has been taking medicine by wrapping it inside… It was bad because my menstrual period kept getting delayed, but it seems like it’s coming back.”

Ah, now that I think about it, I remembered that after that I didn’t use any contraception and just wrapped it inside.

So, does that mean my sister gave me permission without asking and took the medicine behind my back?

I felt sorry for that thought, and after that, I also felt a bit of regret.

Is it too much of a wish, is it an irreversible desire, is it pushing my sister to a place of no return, but am I still hoping for that?

I had doubts myself.

What do I really want?

But can I take responsibility just because I want it? A question followed.

So, there was no need to act arbitrarily. Even now, if my sister had not taken her medication and had a child, would I have been able to take proper responsibility?

How could I possibly be responsible for my sister’s future?

Moreover, if I go to the military, my sister will be alone for a year and a half, so why did she act so irresponsibly?

Aside from my greed, I realized that my thoughts were short-lived.

So, I decided not to do anything irresponsible from now on, and decided to take responsibility when I could, and smiled bitterly at my sister.

“… Sorry, I’ll at least wear a condom next time.”

“… Oh, no, whatever. Still, it’s okay, so yeah. Thank you for your consideration.”

“Are you okay? No, but if I knew it was because of me that my sister wasn’t feeling well, I should have stopped.”

I was saying this with my sister in mind. It was also a rebuke to me for selfishly thinking only about my own pleasure and not thinking about the responsibilities that would follow.

After I brought up the story for my older sister, she looked blank and smiled lightly. This may be a story that I really liked.

In fact, I thought that this would be much better than forcing my menstrual cycle to be postponed and putting my body through a hard time. So, my sister will also gladly accept what I say now.

“Now that I think about it, did you say that today is the last day of the semester?”

“Ah, yes. The last exam is over today.”

I put down the bag I was carrying. As the sun was already blazing hot, I could feel the sweat soaking my clothes on my back where I had put my bag on.

I felt like I needed to wash up, so I took off my clothes in front of the bathroom and threw them into the laundry bin.

When I took off the top I was wearing and exposed my upper body, my sister looked at me and said, “Oops.”

“… ah. Wash it right away?”

“Yes, did you eat?”

“No? Not yet, but don’t you have an end-of-semester party or something? After the end of the semester, you usually just want to eat and eat.”

My sister seemed to think that it was because of her that she gave up the end-of-semester party and ran straight home.

It was half correct, but half of the judgment was based on personal thoughts, so there was no need to change it.

“Well, that’s okay. There’s no need to be ostracized if you don’t go.”

“… It’s not like you don’t have friends, right?”

“It doesn’t matter.”

That being said, I unzipped my pants and roughly threw them into the laundry bin.

It was finally time to say goodbye to this scorching sun. My older sister looked at me with narrowed eyebrows, making a firm promise that she would never leave the house anymore.

“Still, the first semester of the first year will only happen once… ”

“Why? Do you miss those days?”

“No! I didn’t mean to say that… ! Anyway, you haven’t eaten, right?”

“Yes, I didn’t eat. Do you want to eat something?”

“Uhm, but since you finished class today, I think it would be better for you to choose… ”

When I glanced and asked coldly, my sister’s reaction was a bit desperate.

I thought it was cute to shake my head and deny it, but I just looked at my sister with a smile.

Thinking that I had finished washing my food anyway, I opened the bathroom door and gently moved out of the way, as if to guide him inside.

“Then, do you want to come in?”

“… Let’s do this after a long time?”

“Ugh, ah, I’ll wear a condom. Don’t you have any leftovers from what you bought before?”

When I said this to my older sister, she moaned for a while and then nodded when I told her to wear a condom.

Apparently, when he wasn’t wearing a condom, he was checking to see if there was any medicine left.

But there was no such thing as being unreasonable like before.

I knew that the time of separation called the military was approaching, and I knew that no matter how much I opened my hands, I would not be able to hug my sister, and I knew that there was nothing I could be responsible for in the meantime, so I was going to keep my words. .

“There should be?”

“Then I’ll bring it.”

“Oh, it’s in my room, I’ll get it, go first.”

After saying that, my sister went into her room to get a condom, and I took off my panties for the last time and went into the bathroom.

When I stepped on the cold tiles and picked up the shower, cold water poured out.

Even though it was summer, I didn’t like the temperature being so different from my body temperature, so I set the water temperature to lukewarm.

I washed my feet and hands, and only then did my sister sneak into the bathroom.

Outside the door, I saw my older sister wearing only panties, as if she had taken off her clothes.

“Black?”

“… No, I did the laundry a little late and all that was left was black.”

My sister said that as if she was making an excuse.

In the first place, it was not possible to know what color underwear my sister was wearing today, so I just assumed that it was because she was so early, so I just laughed as if I was snorting.

My sister must have thought that my laughter was ridicule, so she blushed and lowered her head.

“It’s real… ”

There was an older sister holding out a condom in her hand. In his hands were two unwrapped condoms.

Why are there two, why do they want to do it twice? As I tilted my head and looked at my sister in silence, she groaned and moaned.

“I was prepared to do it as a no-con if I wanted to do it again.”

My older sister was thoroughly prepared.

Anyway, I was planning on not having sex without a condom from now on, but considering that I prepared two to block the escape route because I wanted to do it without a condom, it was a preparation that couldn’t be ignored.

“Not because I want to do it twice?”

“That’s not true… Tsk.”

My sister took a deep breath after that. Perhaps it was because he realized that the fact that he had brought two meant something like that.

My sister’s trembling body approached me.

Anyway, I know full well that if I drag on, the time to wash and eat will only get further away.