episode_0069

This was my first time doing something like this. So I left it to the old man. He was obviously older than me.

And to be honest, it was also because I didn’t have the confidence to take the lead and I didn’t really have a clue what to do.

This also meant that my best effort was to follow along with him, responding with excited breath as he painted not only my lips but also the inside of my mouth with his color.

Rough, persistent, but affectionate.

It might seem out of place to simply list expressions, but aren’t human emotions difficult to express in words, let alone in writing?

I didn’t even have time to feel that anything was strange. The old man was that skilled and made me happy.

My first kiss was with an old man.

But how did the old man become so skilled? In a corner of my heart, the thought suddenly crossed my mind that my first was the old man, but he might not be the old man.

I felt a sense of resentment and disgust. Along with my disappointment, I thought again about the old man’s integrity.

If it’s a woman, he’s a needlessly kind and devoted uncle. He said he’d improve, but what’s the point? I’m not the first uncle.

Perhaps the thought made my tongue stiffen for a moment. The old man moved more actively and acted as if he was going to eat me up completely.

The negative thoughts and emotions that had briefly occurred to me quickly subsided and were replaced by foolish, vague thoughts and emotions.

Kissing seemed like a way to become a fool. A fool who gave up all sensation in his entire body and could only feel the other person with his mouth and tongue.

However, rather than feeling uncomfortable, I felt that the remaining senses might not be necessary, so it seemed clear that my thoughts were right.

Okay, sweet, warm, soft.

Since I had lost all feeling in my entire body and only the part that was in contact with the old man was alive, I had no idea what my body was like, what posture I was in, or what I looked like, nor did I want to know.

Because I felt that if I focused on such things and missed this happiness now, if I wasn’t able to fully experience it, it would be a huge loss.

“Haa, haa! Haa…!!”

As if to let me know that it was true, whether it was to catch my breath or for something else, I couldn’t help but feel a sense of loss as the old man pulled away from me, making me feel sad.

As evidence that the old man and I were connected, a long silver thread stretched out and then snapped.

No, just a little more.

My unconsciousness awakened my bodily senses, and made me realize that I was not just a fool who could only move my tongue and lips, but a human being who had the conditions to induce something in the other person with whom I shared my feelings.

The arms move. The legs might move too.

I pulled the old man back to me. There was no way the old man would follow along just because I pulled him, so it was clear that the old man wanted me too.

We need each other. We want each other.

Well, because we’re partners. Because we’ve known each other for a long time. Because we cherish each other.

“Mister…”

“Sorry.”

The old man blurts out an apology like an idiot.

What did he apologize for? For teasing me just now? He was such an idiot. He apologized for something that didn’t even need apologizing.

There was no special reason why it wasn’t necessary. Since he had already kissed her deeply again with an apology, there was no need to apologize.

Because we are living beings. Because we are alive and breathing, no matter how much we want each other, we cannot be free from physiological problems.

I wasn’t so petty that I would get angry to the point where I couldn’t help it. It’s not exactly true, but I was able to fully embrace that kind of guy.

Suddenly, a thought occurred to me. When you kiss, you get to taste the other person’s taste… While I was being silly and in a daze, I tried to delve into that thought and taste the old man’s taste.

The man is tough, warm, rough, yet sweet and loving…

For a moment, I thought I was becoming more and more of an idiot, but I couldn’t help it.

Now, the presence of the uncle that I feel is so big and sweet that it is too difficult to give room to such thoughts.

Their tongues tangled. The process of pressing, pushing, pulling, and wrapping each other as if massaging each other continued leisurely yet intensely.

Their fierce, oxygen-hungry breaths slowly vibrated each other’s bodies like the throbbing of an engine that had created such movement.

I was dazed. I was just happy. A sense of fulfillment I had never felt before came over me. And then I felt with my whole body that the old man had left me again.

Considering that the process was slow compared to before, I vaguely guessed that it might be a process of catching one’s breath before moving on to the next step.

What happens now? Everything was new to me, so I couldn’t tell which way was the right way to go.

I go back to my original judgment: Let’s leave everything to the old man.

My body was filled with heat. This terrible heat, like me, seemed to have no idea where to go, and only made me feel hotter and hotter.

I waited for the old man, lying quietly underneath him.

Hurry up and do something, sir… I’m going crazy.

My legs and hands were twitching for no reason, and my stomach was spinning.

I wondered what the old man would think of me like that. Wouldn’t it be a good look?

One, two, three…

When are you coming, now? Or right now?

The number in my mind has entered double digits.

I opened my eyes that had been closed in frustration. The old man was still looking down at me. His face was filled with hesitation.

What are you hesitating for? I’ve been waiting for you like this. I looked at the old man with a sullen heart as if I was reprimanding him.

“Isn’t it too early…?”

I had to rack my brain to figure out what the words were saying.

So, that means it’s over? And now that you’ve come to your senses, you have no intention of moving on to the next step?

I felt like the happiness that had been floating around me was suddenly crashing down to the floor. The excitement that had been building up seemed like it would turn into disappointment and irritation instead of anticipation.

The evaluation of the old man in my heart began to decline steeply and hit the lower limit.

Took the first kiss.

That wasn’t all. In order to create that kind of atmosphere, I had to put down many things and even signal to the old man that he could do whatever he wanted.

But are all those efforts so futile…?

I think it’s just the beginning.

How could you be so irresponsible after taking my first kiss and making me put so many things down…

I was a little angry. No, actually, I was really angry. Even people like me have pride.

It is said that many things are forgiven and taken into account when it comes to emotions such as love, affection, and bonding, but this kind of thing was not at all one of those exceptions.

Rather, it was a situation that was entangled with such emotions, so it was something that needed to be punished more severely. How can you…

“Can I kiss you one more time?”

The old man spoke in a quiet voice. I was very, very surprised by the old man’s behavior of stopping here.

I looked at the old man’s condition calmly. Although his voice was calm, I could feel that, like me, he was breathing heavily and had a rapid pulse.

I felt something lightly touch my leg.

It was determined that the leg stretched out between the old man’s legs was touching the old man’s thigh, and that the sensation did not seem to come from the place where it was touching the old man’s leg.

I realized that the old man’s words were completely different from his heart.

The old man was already as excited as I was. He was ready to cross the line and even cause an accident.

However, due to the old man’s chronic problem, such preparations are in danger of going down the drain.

I knew the old man better than anyone. The old man now was in the same situation as someone who hesitates in fear on the skydiving ramp.

A person like the old man couldn’t jump in on his own in this area, so someone needed to push him. This stuffy old man was so clumsy.

The emotions that seemed like they would turn into irritation began to return to their original course. The corners of my mouth went up without me realizing it.

“Coward, you’re the worst.”

I put my arms around the old man’s neck and kissed him without thinking. Even though he was flustered, the old man faithfully opened his mouth to welcome me.

Look, why can’t you be honest with yourself?

I went with the flow. I put my weight slightly on the old man’s body.

Now I was on top of the old man. While on top, I played with my tongue until my body got too hot, so I pulled away for a moment and took off my clothes.

It felt like a hot heat was radiating from my body. I wondered if I was glowing red.

I don’t know. If the old man doesn’t move, I have no choice but to take the initiative and move, even if it’s embarrassing.

I felt regretful. Originally, this was something that my father should do, but I sighed as I wondered how much I had to take care of him.

Instead of sighing, I let out a warning. The old man will have to pay a high price for embarrassing me.

“Be prepared, I won’t leave you alone… Hic? Sleep…!? ”

Before I could even take off my top and enjoy the brief sense of freedom, I was crushed again. Solid muscles and a considerable amount of weight bound me.

“You seduced me.”

The shorts and bra were torn like a piece of paper. Of course, the tights and panties underneath weren’t unharmed.

They had lost their original form and were reduced to black pieces of cloth holding my body together.

Because my embarrassing part, which I rarely see except when I’m showering or going to the bathroom, was clearly exposed, my body started shivering without me knowing it because of the cool air that was hitting it.