episode_0068

Rael listened carefully to the brief summary of the current situation and nodded.

-So…you can connect with Hangil through Noeul’s dream, but to do that, you need to fill up Noeul’s energy.

“That’s right. But it’s not enough on our own. No, in fact, I guess it’s impossible to use normal methods. That’s why I called you, Rael.”

Noeul stared at Rael.

“The amount of energy you have…is it okay to call it energy even though you are a ghost? Anyway, it is enormous.”

-…is that so?

“Yes. Even if you add up all the vital energy of not only ordinary people but also those gathered here, the amount you possess is dozens of times greater. It is probably related to accumulating mana through food. I would like you to hand it over to me.”

-If I have the energy, I can do that ‘dream connection’ thing again.

“That’s right. It’ll be more than enough. So…”

-great. Let’s do it now! I will do anything to save Hangil!

When Lael ran forward enthusiastically, Noeul held out her hand with a slightly embarrassed and embarrassed expression.

“Would you please calm down and listen? Uhm… hmmm, due to the nature of my species, certain actions are required to quickly and efficiently absorb a larger amount of energy.”

-A specific action…are you talking about? Should I at least have a ritual?

“No, that’s not it…you don’t know what my species is?”

-I know. Succubus…ah.

Only then did Rael realize what Noeul meant, and his face hardened.

“…Can you do it? To save Han Gil.”

-……

After being silent for a moment, she sighed deeply.

-I haven’t even been able to do it with the person I love, but to think I got to do it with that potential lover first…

“Huh? What?”

-no. it’s nothing. More than that… Are you okay, Noeul?

“No problem. I’ve already made up my mind.”

-Then let’s get started quickly. One o’clock is urgent.

“…Are you okay?”

-Anyway, it’s between women, so what’s the point? While this is going on, Han-gil will be enduring a long time alone, so let’s hurry.

“Uhm… if that’s the case… follow me.”

As Noeul nods and heads toward the room, Lael follows with a graceful flight.

“……”

“……”

“……”

For some reason, Saeron, Gyeonggyeong, and Retel were in a very embarrassed mood and just kept their mouths shut or their faces turned red.

***

As soon as Rael closed the door, he grabbed his collar.

-I am very ignorant about these things, so I ask for your guidance. What should I do first? Should I take off my clothes first?

“Well, there’s no need for that! No, you could have just taken off those clothes!?”

Noeul, taken aback by his more proactive attitude than expected, holds out his hand to dissuade him, and Lael tilts his head.

-But, if you don’t take it off, you can’t even start, right?

“Hmm, no need to worry about that. All actions will take place in a dream.”

-Is that so?

“Okay…Ah, I’m asking this because I don’t know much about it, but is Rael sleeping too?”

-You don’t need it, but you can sleep. I tend to avoid it because I always have nightmares.

“That’s good. And one more thing, is it possible to contact you while you sleep?”

-Contact…Sorry, that’s a little difficult.

“Huh? Really?”

-yes. Unfortunately, I don’t have the talent to exercise telekinesis while sleeping.

“Hmm… Then what about possession? Can you sleep while possessing me?”

-I’ve never tried it, but…it’s probably possible.

“Okay. Then come in.”

When Noeul spread her arms wide, Lael immediately nodded.

-yes. Then please excuse me.

Sigh!

“Hmm…!”

When she penetrated into his body without hesitation, Noeul was surprised and tensed her whole body, shivering for a moment from the strange sensation and chill.

-Are you okay?

“Ugh!? W-what!? You could talk even while possessed!?”

-of course. Possession is simply about dwelling. It is different from fusion.

“I see…Well, then, let’s go to bed for now.”

-All right.

As Lael controls the body, Noeul’s body strides forward and lies down on the bed.

“It’s a strange feeling when your body moves on its own…”

-What should I do now?

“Ah, I’ll take care of it from here on out. Huh…”

The pink energy that radiated out in a dreamy way enveloped the surroundings like a cocoon.

“…Sleep well, Rael. I’ll be kind to you in your dreams.”

-…i look forward to.

After exchanging somewhat awkward greetings, the women fell into a deep dream almost simultaneously.

***

“ha…”

The timing was perfect for not being able to call Lael for a while due to a signal from over there.

Because I needed to calm my emotions.

Well, I don’t know how effective it will be due to the terrible time difference…

“…I’m bored.”

It’s already been a few months since I started living alone without Lael.

Stress and helplessness were building up in my mind in real time.

To be honest… I had no idea it would be this hard.

I thought I could do it alone because I had endured it for over 10 years, but there was a difference between being alone and being together.

…Maybe it’s harder because my mental power had already reached its limit.

“…I have to do something.”

Rael was always trying to get me to do something, and it worked quite well.

Whether I was playing a board game, reading a book, or practicing a skill, I was able to focus on the goal and forget about the passage of time while I was working on it.

“Okay then…what should I do?”

I thought about it as I stared at the infinite, pure white space, but the feeling of helplessness quickly engulfed me, and my dazed mind found it tiresome to even think.

Even if you force yourself to do something, how long can you really endure?

No, it is not a space where there is much to do that in the first place.

“……”

It feels like the unfathomable amount of time is weighing heavily on my shoulders.

If things continue like this, I feel like I will be crushed to death.

It’s so frustrating and painful that it’s suffocating.

“…I’m not sleepy, but I guess I should sleep.”

I closed my eyes and went to sleep.

At least if you can dream, there is a possibility of meeting other people.

But, as expected, I couldn’t sleep.

“……”

I realized that I had no means of dreaming unless I passed out like before.

***

I made a new discovery.

I don’t know if it was because of the special nature of this space, or because my body was abnormal, but no matter what I did, I couldn’t pass out.

The same thing happened even when I hit my chin with a fist, a book, or a smart phone and even kneed my own face in order to somehow faint.

It just hurts so bad.

It would be nice if I could at least hit my head on the wall or the floor, but unfortunately there was no such solid structure in this space.

In the end, the fact that all I can do is wait is driving me into a corner.

“…how long are you making me wait?”

Even though several months had passed, there was still no signal from the other side using Jjangdol.

When can I call Rael again?

Are you forgetting that time passes much faster here?

Due to excessive anxiety, my mind turns black and sinks heavily like sticky sediment.

Occasionally, targetless anger surges and puts the whole body into a state of extreme tension.

“Whoa, whoa…”

How much patience have you had?

“Crack, crack!”

“…huh?”

When I looked down at the familiar sound, I saw a strange and disgusting-looking snout slitting through my chest and grinding my messy teeth.

“What? Why did it suddenly pop out…”

“Kgyaaa!!”

“Wow!?”

Just when I was about to vent my frustration for no reason, a sudden scream resounded everywhere.

“ah.”

Only then does my head become clear, as if I was doused in ice water, the lethargy disappears, and my whole body feels refreshed.

“…This is ridiculous. Were you stressed to the point where it was a medical condition?”

Doing nothing could make it get this much worse.

“Whew, it’s still a bit better. Now that I’m motivated enough, I’ll try something.”

I shook my head slightly nervously.

“hmm…”

What I focused on was ability training and exercise.

“Anyway, let’s move our bodies. That way, time will pass a little faster.”

As I started running, I thought about what I could do.

I read all the books two or three times, and I can’t play the games alone.

Since the battery of the smart phone is dead…is the only thing left to do is to train one’s abilities?

“Oh, and there is also a Constellation community.”

When I think of the constellation community, a holographic window immediately appears before my eyes.

“Uhm…”

But unfortunately, not much has changed.

The constellations were still spewing out anger and hatred, and constellations such as 666, 414, and 245 that had gone into hiding were not seen.

“These things have a different sense of time, so they may appear decades later… or even hundreds of years later…”

If so, that is something to be welcomed.

If it weren’t for the Constellation community, my daily life would be generally peaceful.

Under the premise that we can escape from here.

“Whew, wow…! Alright, let’s do our best…!”

Feeling strong hope and burning motivation, I put more strength into my legs and ran.

***

How weak is the human will.

“……”

In just a matter of weeks, not months, I became so helpless that I could not move.

No, this is not simply due to my weak mental power.

“Ugh, again…!”

[Dog Eyes], activated arbitrarily, shows many future selves.

In the end, I go crazy and go crazy, I don’t move as if I’m dead, I walk aimlessly somewhere, I hurt myself, I laugh and cry and despair for no reason.

“haha…!”

I saw many images of myself, but there was nothing hopeful among them.

“Damn it…!”

Although I resented [Dog Eyes], which was triggered arbitrarily because I couldn’t control it, I couldn’t ignore the growing despair and helplessness.

Yes, that is undeniably my future self.

An unavoidable fate and inevitability.

No matter how much we struggle, in the infinite time, weak humans will eventually…

“Keee!”

“Ugh…!”

I was able to escape thanks to my screams, but unlike before, I didn’t feel any hope or motivation.

It feels like I’m just barely maintaining normalcy.

Emotions become uncontrollable and impulsive.

“Why, why…?”

As I continued to think with a heavy head, I suddenly looked down at the eye tattoo engraved on the back of my right hand.

“…Oh, now that I think about it, I haven’t consumed any grudges for a while.”

From the ‘Mirror of Resentment’ filled with a huge amount of resentment, ominous flames were pouring out like a waterfall.

“……”

[A cry of despair, pain, and grief] creates resentment just by using it.

Normally, it would be treated as a disadvantage because it is an element that affects one’s mind and personality, but for me, who can use ‘Mirror of Resentment’, it is like a buff that can amplify the power of damage reflection.

Well, that was nothing more than an annoying by-product in this space of nothingness.

I used to consume it regularly when training skills, but I forgot and couldn’t use it for a while.

Is this also a side effect of helplessness?

“…Manish.”

“Kuweeeek!?”

As the name is chanted low, a huge steel boar appears and roars in a panicked voice.

“Kkueeek!? Kueeek!”

As soon as he saw me, he rushed at me without hesitation, but I felt my soul without even seeing him.

…Well, it doesn’t cost any souls to summon a regular Manish without any imagination.

Wow!

After checking, I then strongly pinched my arm.

Fuwaaa!

“Kuhuheook!?”

The guy, who received damage that was amplified several times, had all of his flesh torn off and died.

“ha…”

Even though I saw a provocative scene of blood and flesh flying, I was not particularly impressed.

“This is a really big deal…”

I sighed and lay down on the spot.

***

“Kkkk!”

“Kggyaaa!!”

“Kwaaa!”

“Aaaah!”

“Ugh…!”

I frowned at the loud scream and tried to control the skill, but the bizarre maws ignored my will and opened wide, continuously screaming.

“Please, stop! I’m telling you to go in! I’m okay!! I’m okay!?”

“Kkkk!!”

“Kwaggg!!”

“Kwaaa!”

“under…”

No matter how much I begged and consoled him, he looked at the snout that continued to scream, and then he just lay there.

“……”

A desperate scream to drive away the feeling of helplessness, and a feeling of helplessness that does not move like a solid rock despite such screams.

The internal struggle was unpleasant, but there was nothing I could do about it, so I just stared blankly at the pure white space.

Damn it! Damn it!

“Ugh…!”

As time passes, the number of snouts protruding from the body increases.

That means my condition is getting worse.

However, having given up on everything, I closed my eyes, surrendering myself to the screams and helplessness.

I didn’t fall asleep because I wasn’t sleepy, but that alone was quite comfortable.

***

“Kkkk!”

“Kyaaa!!”

“Keee!”

“Kaaa!!”

“Kaaa!!”

How much time has passed?

The terrifying screams continued, but the feeling of helplessness was still rooted inside me and I did not move.

A huge amount of resentment had accumulated in the Mirror of Resentment, but it was now a hassle to even consume it.

“ah…”

Amid the echoing screams, I finally realized that my mind had reached its limit.

“haha…”

I felt my consciousness being cut off as if a thread had been cut, and I willingly accepted the dizzying feeling of floating and falling into the darkness.

And finally.

“Oppa Han-gil!”

“Hangil!”

Even though it was in a dream, I was able to meet the people I missed.

“…eww…”

I felt like if I let my guard down, I would burst into tears like a child, so I had to grit my teeth.