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by adminEpisode 68 – The Princess, Alice Tantalota 10 –
I don’t want to send it.
Why?
I hated seeing him die so much.
‘Why… Why do they say they will save me… Obviously, that’s the only way… why… You don’t want to send it…? ‘
The princess clearly felt a strange emotion.
For a while, I thought it was fear because he was so far away.
She could make a direct comparison.
Earlier, when I was afraid because I thought I was left alone.
And when he said he was by his side.
Because the emotions I felt were clearly different.
‘Why is it different…? ‘
The princess continued to worry.
But it wasn’t long before I was able to find the answer.
‘That’s what it was… ‘
[but… Tens of millions of people are dying, but you want me to live? Why? Is my life worth more than a thousand?]
‘The heartbeat I felt at that time. That trembling. ‘It wasn’t fear.’
An obviously strange feeling she had felt in the past.
I remembered a time when I experienced that feeling.
[promise… I kept it… ]
‘From then on, I slowly fell in love with him.’
In her heart, Abraxas was already there.
‘What made me feel bad was… Simply because he was captured. and… What made me feel more and more upset was… Because I didn’t see him.
And what I was afraid of was… Was it because I thought he might really be trying to kill me? ‘
The person you have in mind is trying to kill you.
If it happened in reality, anyone would be scared.
Not wanting to be abandoned by someone you love is a feeling that everyone has.
‘Until then, it was just something to worry about… Now that everything is revealed, I know for sure.’
It was only after going through this situation that she was able to define her feelings.
‘I am. That man. love.’
She was captivated by Abraxas.
At first, it was just something unusual.
He’s just talented, but because of that, he shows unusual behavior.
But as time passed, I thought something was strange.
The reason is that, unlike other members, he acted as if he knew how his actions would be viewed.
Because of that, the princess showed even more interest in him.
As she said, she had a great ability to perceive emotions.
When the Evil God Cult attacked her during a festival.
She could feel it then.
He tried to kill her.
It wasn’t sincere.
Rather, he was hesitant to kill her.
She could feel that fact.
‘It was my first time feeling it, so my judgment was clouded. What I felt then… ‘
He tried to kill her.
But I tried to save it that much.
Even if it means risking your own life.
‘I tried to kill him. ‘I didn’t want to kill him.’
He wanted to kill me, but he also wanted to save me.
Just as contradictory emotions and love and hate exist.
Humans can have contradictory emotions at the same time.
‘If they had been a little more persistent… He probably did more harm than he did when he slit my throat. ‘
It is meaningless to assume that it was just one chance, but if it was the Abraxas she knew, it would definitely have been like that.
And if they had given up, they would have stopped Shanghai only then.
‘If that happens in the end… Even if I lived, Abraxas would have received a greater sentence… It worked out well in the end… ‘It was right that you risked your life because of me.’
It didn’t matter because the Evil God Church retreated quickly.
If the situation got worse, he would definitely have suffered great damage, even if the princess did not know.
It would have been a huge blow politically.
However, the princess did not really care that he really tried to kill her.
Because I liked that side of him.
‘A man who risks his life for me.’
She didn’t know it, but that kind of man was her ideal type.
However, Alice Tantalotta was soon overcome by a feeling of helplessness.
The love I found for the first time.
I didn’t want to miss it.
But it was impossible.
Her love ironically made him sacrifice himself for her.
‘how… Should I do it? Is there really no way?
Even if you are born anew. It doesn’t matter even if it’s someone else. I’m in love with you, so I want to protect you.’
The fact that Abraxas was reborn was of little importance to her.
Rather, I naturally understood it because it clearly explained what had happened so far.
But as she slowly becomes more aware of her heart.
An even more miserable reality awaited her.
Because in the end, she has no choice but to watch the end of the man she loves.
So she decided to do the best she could.
The only being on this earth who can save him.
Celestial God.
That god came to mind.
“I hope… Please take pity on this little lamb and give him the strength to get through the life ahead… ”
The princess prayed.
“I am the child of the great heavenly god and the evil god. This lamb is suffering.”
It was a god I didn’t really believe in.
Reality was too harsh to have faith.
I was too rich to have faith.
But why does God exist?
At least the reason she thinks is to give hope to humans.
“It didn’t matter if you didn’t give me the strength to get out of this world. It’s okay to struggle in pain.”
So she had hope.
“But… but… Save me from evil… ”
May God take care of our young people.
And so the prayer ended.
I couldn’t pray well.
That’s because she hadn’t prayed much in the meantime.
But Alice Tantalota at least hoped so.
I hope that my sincerity is conveyed.
The silent screams continued for a while.
The mere moment felt like a very long time.
‘please. Give me hope… I don’t want to lose my first love this miserably… ! please… ! please… !’
A period of time that lasted almost eternity continued.
At the end, when I was exhausted and thought it was all over.
[Hmm?]
An unknown sound engulfed the princess.
When the princess raised her head, wondering about that.
[So what are you crying about?]
The princess saw a miracle.
“Ah-ah-ah… !”
The sight that caught the princess’s eyes was truly a holy scene.
Pure white clothes, and skin comparable to that.
Six pairs of wings on the back.
Blonde hair comparable to that of the princess herself.
A mandorla floating above his head, boasting the same golden color as his hair.
Everything was telling.
angel.
The angel was before her eyes.
Even though she came because Abraxas predicted her death and told her to go far away.
‘Hmm. It was uncomfortable to watch because they all praised evil spirits… Are there any believers in heaven here? ‘Is this the princess that Mr. Abraxas was talking about?’
The angel doesn’t know how great the princess is.
Abraxas could only guess that she was in a high position by using an extremely honorific title.
[Is there anything I can help you with?]
The angel asked her.
As he was the first believer I met on this earth.
This is because I was willing to listen unless it was something special.
Deep inside my heart, I thought that Alice Tantalota might be fake.
Anyway, I thought that if it was fake, I wouldn’t be able to fulfill Abraxas’ request to get out alive.
Alice Tantalota regained her composure. spoke to the angel
“Can you help me… Are you… ?”
[How can I help you?]
“Me… no. Abraxas’s spiritual food… Please save me… ”
[Unfortunately, that is difficult. I find it difficult to interfere with the material world beyond a certain level.
If you want to achieve what you want on your own, it will be difficult unless there is internal strife between you.]
The princess experienced hope in the story told by the angel, but then experienced greater despair.
Because it meant that it couldn’t be saved.
But I couldn’t give up.
Because he’s not dead yet.
The fact that he wasn’t dead meant that he could be saved if he found a way.
She didn’t give up.
Because it was okay to regret it after he died.
‘If infighting does not occur… Can’t get it. Infighting. All that needs to happen is internal strife.’
Unless there is an internal conflict.
In other words, it means that there is a possibility if infighting occurs.
‘Think of it. ‘Is there a way to cause infighting?’
Alice Tantalota recalled the many stories she had been thinking about.
I applied all the cases I learned.
It was all in vain.
‘The method… There is a way… !’
Going through so many thoughts.
The princess was able to think of one thing.
Abraxas’s remark crossed her mind.
[If the princess’s strength had been intact, it would have caused internal strife and the two would have fought. But it’s not right?]
The internal strife that Abraxas also mentioned.
It didn’t take long to come up with an answer.
“Perhaps… Can you help me use this power better?”
She brought out the strength she had been hiding for so long.
A power she never wanted to use.
However, she decided to use her strength to save her loved one.
‘mother… I think the moment has come to use it… ‘
She used this power on her mother, the First Empress, in the past and left her terminally ill.
According to the principle, it would be right for Alice Tantalota to be executed.
Ironically, in her dying moments, the First Empress asked her husband, the country’s emperor, not to punish her.
As a result, Alice Tantalota was still able to survive.
And she still deeply remembered the story her terminally ill mother told her in the hospital room.
[Alice… This power is so dangerous… Please don’t use this power as much as possible… Don’t make people like this again… ]
[yes… All right… mother… ]
[Hehehe. There’s nothing to be so gloomy about. Because it’s the power I told you to use.
The only reason this mother tells you not to use this power is because she is afraid that if you use this power on the person you love, you will hurt the person you love again.]
[Loving… A person?]
[okay. That could be your family. He could be my husband. Or maybe it could be your pet. Or maybe it could be your boyfriend?
So, you can either master this power tremendously or… Don’t use it at all. That would be good.]
[yes… All right… mother… ]
[Looking at his expression, it looks like he’s not using it. But Alice… by the way. Is the world really so treacherous that it doesn’t go the way you want it to? There will come a time when I have to use it.]
[no. That won’t happen.]
[flaw. You’re still young. Alice. I wanted to watch you grow up.
Alice… I guess they didn’t use it because of this ending… In fact, Alice, you will find someone more precious to you. Someone more important than your family.]
[who… Do you mean… ?]
[lover. Someday you will see what I mean. There must be something you want to gain by using that power.]
Alice Tantalota shouted in such a situation.
[That doesn’t happen… There won’t be.]
She had made a promise.
I decided to never again use the power that made my mother terminally ill.
In the end, she and Efferento’s mother, the First Empress, did not last that year, which only made her resolve even stronger.
That’s why she had such a fit at that time.
If you use that power… Because people will get hurt again.
Looking at it now, I thought that Abraxas was even more upset because he could get hurt.
‘Your mother was right.’
Alice Tantalota after a brief reminiscence.
And she felt it.
She decided to unleash the power she thought she would never use.
Although this power killed the person he loved.
Now, to save the person you love.
She abandons her principles.
I decided to move forward anew.
Wow~
Golden power escapes Alice Tantalotta’s body and begins to spread around her.
A huge force eroding this land.
The power of the royal family, the aura of domination.
And the angel who witnessed that power was extremely interested in it.
Because that power was very similar to a power she had known.
‘This power… ? Oh my? Are you using a strange power? It’s almost like the bondage of angels.
It ties your thoughts together and makes them move as you want. Can you even control your body? ‘How can humans have this power?’
Humans cannot experience anything like God.
That is why it cannot be controlled like a heavenly god.
So, so far, the royal family has not been able to create a bridle that moves voluntarily like the gods and angels.
I just gave a little hint to stop the hostility or stop it from feeling charismatic.
But Alice Tantalota was gifted.
A power that only the Heavenly Gods were capable of.
He had the power to forcibly control the bodies of others.
Of course, she wasn’t a god either, so proper control was impossible.
‘To put it the other way… If you could help me… I guess I can get the hang of it.’
And here was an angel who had escaped that bondage.
A being who has experienced bondage and is aware of that experience.
‘I don’t really want Mr. Abraxas, who helped me, to die. ‘I need to help you.’
The angel was also curious about the source of this power.
Abraxas also decided to help her.
[Then I will help you. It may take quite some time, but you will have complete control.]
“It takes a long time… ”
[ah. The exercises will take place in the mental world, so the flow of the real world will not have much to do with it. Probably about 30 seconds have passed.]
At those words, Alice’s face began to brighten.
The angel explained to her how long it would take, how hard it would be, and how tiring it would be.
Above all else, there was only one thought on Alice’s mind.
‘It can be saved.’
Just like he risked his life to save her.
This time, she risks her life to save him.
Of course, the princess knew it well.
The reason he saved her life was not because he was in love with her, but because he wanted to leave a trace.
But she fell in love with him like that.
The look of someone willing to sacrifice everything for a purpose.
And I already knew the answer to his attitude.
‘A man who gives up his life for his own purpose. If I become that goal, isn’t he the man who will sacrifice everything for me?’
A man who gives up his life for a purpose.
In other words, it meant that if it became his goal, he would give up everything for himself.
Alice Tantalota was confident.
Because his goal was to be a man without any shortcomings by her standards.
‘It was definitely said that the child was also a trace. I’ll definitely make it like that… ‘
The princess calmed herself down and spoke to the angel.
“Please let me in.”
[You didn’t listen properly, right? No, aren’t all humans the same? Isn’t it the same when you don’t get an explanation?]
The angel grunted but carried out the strategy steadily.
The angel’s index finger pointed at the princess.
An unknown light flowed from the end and covered the princess’s eyes.
I felt an inexplicable drowsiness slowly coming on me.
The princess thought about the next thing.
‘If I survive here, it would be nice to hear about your past…
Tell me later. I really wonder what kind of person you were in another world.’
She drifted into the image like that.
Although no one knew when she would return.
She was more hopeful than ever.
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