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by adminEpisode 67 – The Princess, Alice Tantalota 9 –
The princess showed no particular reaction to my words.
That’s why I continued speaking.
“Princess. Death isn’t that painful. It’s just that the process of leading to death is painful.
Some people think death itself is painful and try to avoid it… Death itself is not painful.”
“Have you experienced it? ?”
“Yes. A long time ago. Even before I was born ‘here’.”
Death itself is not much different from falling asleep.
However, it is rather painful because the body that has died is often completely ruined.
“Quite a long time ago. There lived a man. That child was destined to live an ordinary life and die an ordinary life. At least that’s what the guy thought.”
“What do you want to say…? ”
“But ironically, there are times when life is truly unfortunate.
I don’t think I committed any particular sins, but I got sick. Lung cancer was a very terrible, life-threatening disease.”
So, I quit smoking after my reincarnation.
The reason humans have infinite potential is because we learn lessons from the past.
“That world was different from this one. There was no divine power, no magical power, no aurors or anything else. Although medicine has advanced. There were quite a few diseases that meant death even with treatment.”
Cancer is what kills the most people in Korea.
There are many diseases that cannot be overcome even with modern medicine.
But here’s the irony.
Modern medicine does not know a cure, but maintenance is possible.
Modern medicine also considers it a top priority.
“The humans of that world found a different way. Even if there is no cure, I made it possible to hold on to my life.
Of course, it was painful because the disease was not cured, but at least I was able to survive. But living wasn’t living.”
Humans were afraid of death.
That’s why I tried to avoid it.
The biggest reason humans fear death is that the process of dying is painful.
This may be because no one has ever experienced death.
So did I.
So I tried to live.
Because I was afraid.
“At first, people around me visited me often since I got sick. Friends, family, coworkers… Many people visited. But…
As a human being, you must have hope to be motivated. If there is no hope, you give up.
A body that keeps getting worse. Dying body. Terrible pain. In the end, people around me turned their eyes away from me.”
Some of them may be because they no longer feel the need to maintain human relationships because there is no hope for me to survive.
Some may have done it because they didn’t want to see me dying in pain anymore.
Only they will know the truth.
“A condition that can only be saved but cannot be treated. Being alive was a pain.”
So I was able to endure torture.
I felt more hopeful than when I was living day after day without hope.
Because it was less painful.
And after experiencing such a series of events, I, who was reborn on this earth, had no choice but to have a different way of thinking.
Because the mindset of a soldier on the battlefield and a conscientious objector to military service cannot be the same.
“Princess. Neither fame nor wealth, nor anything else, can be taken with you to the world you go to after you die.
Even if you are honorable, if there is an afterlife, there will be many more honorable people, and even if you have a lot of wealth, in the afterlife, you are nothing but a piece of metal with no value.”
So I don’t really care about fame, the opinions of people around me, or wealth.
What matters is the purpose.
If you need it to achieve your goal, you will get it.
If you don’t need it to achieve your goal, you will throw it away.
“All humans die. So, if something you can’t take becomes your goal… In the end, the ending will be in vain. Even if other people don’t know, I can say it.”
The reason is simple.
The reason why I am qualified even if no one else knows.
Because I…
“I was born in another world, lived for 27 years, died of illness, and was born as the second son of Marquis Mentutihotep.”
Alice just looked at me.
I also looked at Alice.
They were two people who could only feel each other’s feelings in a dark place.
All five senses were transmitting our signals.
“Because it is Abraxas Mentutihotep.”
Who am I? I was worried about it before that.
Am I a human who lived in Korea?
Or is it Abraxas Mentutihotep?
It was all in vain.
Because I was me.
Even the name, which is the most important element that constitutes the human self, is not decided by oneself but by others.
Some people even change their names.
Self is something I define.
There is no need to entrust your self to a name chosen by others.
I am Abraxas Mentutihotep.
At the same time, he is a person who lived in Korea.
I am no other being.
Because people are inherently changing beings.
After listening to my explanation, Alice had an expression on her face that was hard to explain, perhaps because her mind was complicated.
Of course.
Because no one can honestly believe that I have lived in another world for decades.
You might think I made this up.
It doesn’t matter though.
I will do it.
The princess just needs to keep my promise.
Eventually, as her thoughts seemed to have come to a certain extent, the princess opened her mouth again.
“Then… Why are you living? You seemed like you had a purpose.
As you said, fame, wealth, and love. You can’t take anything to the afterlife. then… What were you fighting for? ”
The princess’s question.
And it also pointed out exactly what I was doing.
As I said, if there is no meaning to fame, wealth, life, love, or anything else.
Because I have no reason to live.
It is strange to say that we live because we were born.
Because I’ve been working hard all this time.
And I already defined it.
The reason I live.
[Ayun-ah. Just like mom and dad left you in this world. Is Ayun going to leave something behind in this world later?]
[huh! If so, uncle, be sure to leave something behind in Korea! I will take good care of it!]
The reason I live
To leave something behind in this world.
No, not me, but everyone’s reason for living.
That is to leave something on this earth.
“Princess. What about humans? I live to leave something to the world.
The reason for having children, the reason for leaving behind ideas, and the reasons for leaving behind technology. It’s all about leaving one’s mark on this world.”
Saying not to make fame, wealth, love, etc. your goal means not to make them your only goal.
Not to gain fame, but to leave one’s mark in history.
Not to gain wealth, but to have his business make an impact on the world.
Not to win love, but to have descendants who will remember you even after death.
It doesn’t matter if you’re trying to gain fame, wealth, or love in order to leave a mark on this world.
I will leave my mark on this world.
“Princess. In the world I lived in, there was a person who set fire to a library to be recorded in history.
You can’t take anything with you after death, but you can leave something behind before you die.”
Many people actually live like that.
I am not afraid of death.
Because we have already experienced it.
But I’m afraid of not being able to leave anything behind.
Because I promised.
“Then what is your purpose? What did you try so hard to leave behind?”
The princess asked about my purpose.
I don’t know if she acknowledged me.
You might think it’s a madman’s nonsense.
But since you asked, I guess I should answer.
That’s my purpose.
“This world.”
This world.
“I’m leaving this world behind.”
I am leaving this world behind.
“Reputation? admit? That doesn’t matter. The important thing is actually. The truth that I left something in this world. That is enough.
No matter what you leave behind, it has no meaning if this world doesn’t remain. So I am in this world. It will leave its mark.”
It is not a moral concept of having to save the world.
I’m not that moral.
If I could save thousands of lives by sacrificing my life, I would do it.
What if I can save it if I work hard?
What if even other people could do it?
That’s a bit… That’s all my morals are.
But the reason I live is to leave my legacy in this world.
And can we leave this world itself as a legacy?
Then I will do it.
Because I can leave behind a legacy more valuable than anything else.
“Princess. So, if you survive, please use that notebook I mentioned earlier. Enemies and various disasters ahead. And their weaknesses are written down.
And at the end, when everything is done, please write my name. Abraxas Mentutihotep, the savior of mankind.”
If we save the princess, and thereby save the world.
I will leave this world as a legacy.
I’d better get it myself.
However, if the princess who survives saves the world, it can also be said to be the legacy I left behind.
When I die and meet Ayun, I will have a story to tell.
So, I die here and save the princess.
“Then… Why is it that I can survive on my own? Either live with both… Is there no way for you to live?”
The princess said as if she did not understand.
It’s probably because I don’t know why I have to sacrifice.
“If the princess’s strength had been intact, it would have caused internal strife and the two of them would have fought. But no, right?
And if I could have survived by abandoning the princess, I would have done so. But that’s impossible.”
The power that comes down to the royal family, the aura of domination, is the power to dominate beings of a certain level or lower rank than oneself.
And the princess is a being whose power is particularly strong, to the point where she can control her actions.
However, the reason she cannot use her power is because she cannot control her power and it destroys the object of her control.
It’s not because I’m weak.
“If I somehow weaken my strong enemies… The princess will be able to escape safely with the aura of domination.”
The opposite is impossible.
This is because the aura of domination can only be ruled when the level is lowered, so it will not work until I weaken the strong enemies.
Even though the weak have disappeared, the strong remain the same, so I cannot survive.
But if I turn the strong into the weak, the princess can escape.
It would be nice if both of them could survive.
If only the princess could survive. I will sacrifice my life.
“So survive. I don’t regret it because it was my choice. Because I’ve already been through it.”
Immediately, he takes out the Heavenly Sword from the sky.
The heavenly sword was draped in front of me, shining brightly and softly lighting up the room.
And only then were we able to look at each other.
Me and Alice smiling brightly and Alice covered in tears.
The faces of the two people intersect, reflecting on the Heavenly Sword.
I move the Heavenly Sword and cut the rope that bound my body.
And the princess’s rope was also cut.
With both of us free, I said goodbye to the princess.
“I will attack the strongest characters as possible… If you think I’m dead, come out right away. Everyone here is evil, so you can kill them.
So don’t spare your aura of domination.”
“Don’t go… ”
“I don’t enjoy pain either, I just don’t want to die, right? So just live. Oh, don’t say you’ll help me or fight with me.
A princess who cannot use the aura of domination ends up being nothing more than a burden. Even if you win a fight, you can lose it. So, can I ask you a favor?”
When the princess said those words, she grabbed my hand.
However, no opinion was expressed.
Know.
Even though I want to tell you not to go, I can’t tell you not to go.
The water that flowed from the princess’s eyes touched my hand.
I had no choice but to shake off the princess’s hand and walk forward.
Now it was time for battle.
To decorate my last days.
Before leaving, I said goodbye, which could be my last.
“Alice Tantalota. You are one of the most unique people I have ever met. Although he was one of the highest people, he was not particularly arrogant. That attitude was really great.
So, if you continue to maintain that attitude, you will eventually be able to achieve great success. You can trust my insight as I have gained experience in two dimensions simultaneously.”
Well then, bye.
With those words, I left the princess.
This will probably be the last time I see you.
Does not matter.
Because I already made up my mind.
‘Ayun-ah. See you soon… ah. I guess he’s not dead yet. When you come to see me later, we’ll have a lot to talk about.’
All I had to do was gather myself again and walk.
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“Is there no way to survive? ”
The princess was devastated by that situation.
Why did this happen?
It wasn’t the princess’s fault.
The cause of the problem can be said to be the Holy Hwangcheong Office and the Academy, which failed to notice the evil spirit cult hidden among the professors.
But the princess continued to blame herself.
If only I were a little stronger.
If only I was strong enough to help Abraxas.
No, if only the aura of domination had been utilized and controlled well in the first place.
The fact that it could have been helpful in the battle against him only made the princess suffer.
“There’s nothing I can do… ”
Objectively, there was nothing she could do here.
Because her dominant aura can only destroy, not manipulate.
It was obvious that her intervention would only be a distraction.
If they had been able to rule normally, they could have induced internal strife among themselves.
The princess couldn’t do that.
All she can do is pray to God.
Although she did not believe in miracles.
That was all I could do, so I prayed to God.
Give yourself strength too.
If not for strength, then for help.
At this point, when the evil spirit is sealed, if you are the closest to omnipotence, please help me.
The princess began to pray for the first time.
“I hope… Please take pity on this little lamb and give him the strength to get through the life ahead… ”
A prayer that came out of the princess’s mouth.
“A lamb is suffering. It doesn’t matter if you don’t give me the strength to get out of this world. It’s okay to struggle in pain.”
The princess did not sincerely believe in God.
Because there was nothing more strange than those who would rule this empire clinging to God.
The reason I believe in God is to achieve something.
However, the royal family of the empire had no need to achieve anything unless they harmed each other.
Even the royal family had to overcome each other with their own abilities, so most of them did not believe in God.
“Even if it’s painful, even if you’re tired, even if it’s painful. it’s okay. but… but… ”
However, the reason faith was born is because people need someone to lean on when they cannot do something on their own.
Because life doesn’t work out the way you want it to.
“Deliver us from evil… ”
A royal family member, for something he could never achieve… I humbled myself and prayed to God.
Because it was something I could never achieve.
Ironically, reality is not fiction.
Miracles don’t happen to the majority of people.
But the reason why miracles are called miracles and not impossible.
[So what are you crying about?]
This may be because miracles happen in reality.
An angel rescued by Abraxas from Mt. Mt.
Petroel, a being who lost his angelic status but gained freedom in return.
She appeared before the princess of her own will.
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