episode_0064
by adminIt’s been a day since my mother and brother disappeared.
Her father still looked uneasy. He couldn’t seem to understand why she made that choice.
‘Actually, I don’t understand it either.’
It was true that I didn’t understand many things. Why on earth did my mother and brother make that choice?
Well, I guess it might be a bit of a stretch that my brother chose it.
It wasn’t my brother’s choice, it was my mother’s choice, and my brother just followed it.
In the first place, didn’t you say that you were taking him because it was an order?
… Of course, it was a little scary for me too. The choice my mother made was still a choice that put her in danger.
That’s why my mom didn’t choose it. If I stay here, my brother will live, I will most likely live, and I will live too. Now, I just feel like it’s not like that.
“So I can’t say anything about that choice… .”
“What did you say?”
“Oh, it’s nothing.”
As for me, I could understand my mother’s choice. No, it would be most correct to say that I had no choice but to understand.
That’s understandable, I saw my brother get hurt right before my eyes.
My brother got hurt because of my poor judgment. But he didn’t blame me.
Of course, if you say that it is because you received that kind of education… there is no way you can answer that for me.
Because I had no idea what my brother was thinking.
“Ah. That’s right. Your Highness, your father asked you to come eat.”
“Morning? Now?”
“Yes.”
Although it was a situation that I didn’t understand, I nodded for now.
Of course, I didn’t hate eating with my dad, but I didn’t understand why he was calling me right now.
First, we had to go to a restaurant.
A place I always go to, passing through the family home. It was a place I always go to, but the atmosphere was completely different. It must be because my mother was gone. After all, my mother was a very popular person within the family. I thought it was understandable.
Actually, if you think about it, if Dad ruled the outside of the territory, Mom was the one who firmly controlled the inside. If that person suddenly disappeared, it would be strange if the atmosphere wasn’t chaotic.
Even on the way to the restaurant, there were more instances than I thought where traffic control wasn’t done properly, and there were still a few places that were messy. That could mean that Mom had a lot of positions and things to do… .
‘When I see things like this, I already miss my mom.’
For now, I had to roll up my sleeves. If things continued this way, my family would end up like a complete ruin. It would be better than my family becoming a complete ruin.
Besides, even if I missed my mom, there was nothing I could do about it. I didn’t know where she went. Besides… .
I knew why my mother took my brother away, so whatever it was, there was nothing I could do. All I could do was run the house well for now.
“Sigh… .”
From the moment I arrived at the door, various thoughts came to my mind. It was understandable, but I wondered why my father had called me in such a hurry in the morning, and not even at lunch. Usually, we eat together at lunch.
I was scared from the moment I opened the door and went in, but after all, we are family. I don’t think anything big will happen.
I opened the door with that thought in mind, but what I saw before my eyes was….
“… . Are you here?”
It was my father with a haggard face.
I couldn’t even guess what was going on. For some reason, my father had a haggard look on his face. Actually, I could guess the reason.
Mom, you are the most important and precious person to Dad. I knew from the literature that most people are like that. I also had hopes that I would have someone like that… ..
“Ah… Uh… What’s going on? You called me in the morning.”
Actually, there was a reason why my dad didn’t call me in the morning. It was because my dad was the type of person who trained and worked from the morning. He was the type of person who would process reports right away in the morning. After that, he would deal with other things that were scheduled.
That was the kind of routine my father had for living. When he called me in the morning, it was only natural that I would feel embarrassed.
“… Do you know where your mother went?”
“Mom?”
I thought, “This is what it was all about.” I had predicted it before I came in. But, I couldn’t have predicted it either.
When my mother asked me about my maternal grandmother during our regular conversations, she never spoke positively about her. So, the story that she went to her parents’ house was nonsense.
“Well, I don’t know either. I’m also confused because my brother suddenly disappeared.”
“… . You don’t even know… .”
My father wiped his face once with a blank expression. That must mean he couldn’t focus on other things.
What was I to my mother that she didn’t take me with her? Did she think I was safe? Various thoughts arose in me as I listened to my father’s words.
“Let’s eat first, Dad.”
The sight of my father just sitting there doing nothing bothered me. In fact, it was the first time in my life that I had ever seen him like that.
It was strange to see my father not even looking at the food in front of him. I could never have imagined that my father, who always lived according to routine and rules, would be so disheveled.
Of course, Dad must have thought a lot too. He also realized that his child was broken, but in the end, he couldn’t do what Mom wanted.
That’s why I understand. My brother must have been a sore thumb to my mom, and I was just a straight-laced kid. That’s why I know she didn’t take him, and I want to understand.
however.
Why do I feel so inspired to go there? It wouldn’t be dangerous.
Contrary to what I thought, I might have wanted to receive a lot of love from my mother. More than my brother, or at least as much as my brother. Despite the fact that I already do.
Food won’t enter my mouth. No, it can’t enter my mouth.
She left me. She eventually left me. That fact weighed on me. I think it was inevitable. I ignored what she wanted.
Yes. At least, if she was Han, she wouldn’t have told him where she was going. I felt like I finally figured out where to find the answer to something I hadn’t been able to come up with even after staying up all night thinking about it.
There was a possibility that the child might not know, but I wanted to cling to the possibility that he knew more than that. That, to me-… more… .
No. I thought about it further and it didn’t make sense. So I called the child. Even though it was morning, I ignored the rules I had set and called the child for the first time.
The child looked flustered. Of course, it was. It was the first time I had broken my own rules. To that extent, this incident was a huge event for me.
The child who had his arm cut off and was becoming contaminated with blood suddenly disappeared like this… They probably had no idea how much, how much sadness that would bring.
I also thought a lot. It was really hard. Whether I should register that child as an illegitimate child or not.
‘However, convention cannot be ignored.’
That’s what I thought, and in the end, all I could conclude was that what I was worried about was reality, and nothing changed.
However, the child I saw with my own eyes was…. really becoming a strange child. A child without emotions, indifferent, and falling apart. Even though I knew that was what was going to happen, I couldn’t change the treatment I had already decided on.
Still, I fell apart.
To the story of a child being hurt, to the story of a child dying.
The thing she, who was the biggest light in my life, wanted the most. I heard her story of collapsing and dying.
All she wanted was to protect her child. I thought she knew that better than anyone else.
Really. I really thought so. That’s why I didn’t stop her from giving the child an escort. Each messenger had a limit on how much they could visit the palace. Unless it was something really important.
however….
Eventually the child returned injured and almost died.
Eventually she broke down and left me.
Only the bitter reality remains.
The thread I had barely caught brought despair back to me. The day when I thought there would be even the slightest hope became even darker.
Now, really, she might die.
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